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Sometimes I look at cis guys and get so sad.

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Me: “so one of the things that make me feel better about being trans is being like ‘getting a sex change is hot. Hormones are hot!’, y’know?”

My gf: “yeah, of course hrt is hot! It’s literally called whore-moans!”

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I’ve been done with my bullshit for years and I thought that nothing can surprise me anymore. But I’m actually having a mental breakdown over having a girlfriend that I love and that there is a single good thing in my life. Why am I like this.

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Tried to do an art study, guess who’s never using quickposes again!

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No because she said she likes me and I said I think I kind of like her back and now I’m freaking out and losing my shit because I’m just going to hurt her and I’m scared I don’t actually like her like that

Fanfiction made fear of intimacy and trust issues sound way more romantic than it actually is

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Wake up dudes! Frank Iero binder merch just dropped!

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Fanfiction made fear of intimacy and trust issues sound way more romantic than it actually is

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What will it take to make people around me understand that transphobia is fucking lethal.

I was in my art finale gallery and this racist homophobic bastard who studied in my school 2 years ago came for some reason. He’s extremely transphobic and very open about being a rotten disgusting man with hyenas opinions. Last I checked he was a huge Ben Shapiro and Jordan Peterson fanboy, but that was more than a year ago and he’s probably far worse as a person now. My one moral friend cut him off completely after he told her transgenders are a sickness in society. So naturally, I was very hurt when “friends” of mine fucking talked to him and laughed with him as if he’s deserving of anything but being spit at. And when I told one of them that, he tried to fucking laugh it off. As if my (and many others’, obviously) humanity is just. Sometimes you can laugh off. The motherfucker read my fucking comics. Genuinely makes me feel sick.

It really fucking hurt me. I told my parents about it and they said I’m “overreacting” and that I “can’t expect others to fight my wars for me”. How the fuck do I make them people understand that human rights and societal acceptance are not something I can take for granted. How the fuck do I make them feel the years of pain and suffering and rejection and shame that they and society put me through.

Also, this is why I’ll never be friends with a racist. I don’t want to make anyone feel the betrayal and isolation my “friends” made me feel.

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I really relate. Every time I see a news article about anything trans or even lgbt I get this sinking feeling knowing that for many people it’s a reminder to be transphobic and homophobic.

rly worried that once self id becomes a thing in germany and people inevitably start talking about it, we'll see a massive increase in public transphobia.... terfs+regular assholes are already bad as is but once self id starts being discussed among the general public, they'll inevitably try and use the chance to spread their fearmongerint among more people than ever before. idk it worries me and it sucks that we can't even be excited about positive change without having to worry about increased amounts of bigotry at the same time

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I’m working on a comic for my art finale (I’m in high school but in my country you study certain majors and then get tested in them. Idk how it is elsewhere.)

It’s about 40 pages, cyberpunk mystery kind of sometimes film noir (yes I listened to tpp juno steel). It’s about a Mark, trans guy (who’s not explicitly trans in this comic but he is in my heart) who lives in his 1 bedroom apartment in an almost-dystopian futuristic city. It’s also about Gem, an Android AI who escaped from the company that created her and tries to free the rest of the AI androids there. She’s trans also because this is my comic. Mark is tasked with finding who stole the AI.

I’m not sure I explained it very well. I’ve been working on it non stop for 2 days. It’s due on next Sunday. Im stressed as fuck. I love this story and I want it to turn out great, and I don’t think I have enough time for that to happen.

I also don’t have a name for the story which is. A problem. Might just call it “future in grey” because im drawing this with greyscale markers.

Fuck that’s actually a pretty cool name??

Okay so that’s one problem solved. I’ll probably post some of the panels on here because I need attention and constant validation.

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Me looking down there

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"no bitches" meme but you're in a political debate compilation

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"he is not my president" bumper sticker with a picture of some random guy that has never been president

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i’m not even a gigantic mitski fan but ppl treat her so terribly literally just saw a video of her performing and she’s in the ground during a quiet part of the song like doing performance art and the dumb ass crowd (or atleast a good chunk of the people there) are saying shit like “not mitski dying🤪” “mitski GET up this ISNT YOU!” “mommy wake up 🥺” over and over and it’s just so. disgusting and weird like i hate that she got turned into a “meme” celebrity especially bc of her newest album being about how she hates feeling burnt out by the media / her fans / being turned into some kind of character rather than a regular person im not even touching the cell phone incident thing bc that’s a whole convo of its own but i feel like a lot of you just don’t know how to interact with others and also have trouble with immediately getting parasocial with every public figure u see

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Spring is here and my friend started hrt. Depression got nothing on this son of a bitch 😎