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you said you couldnt live without me

and yet there you are

miles away still breathing and laughing

and i cannot go a day without the thought of you

it makes me wonder if what we had was real

since there is no way in hell your love would have

disappeared that quickly

you said i was your forever love

but how can your soulmate just let go

like it meant nothing all this time

time that we cannot get back

- nick <3

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it might take me a lifetime

to love anyone as profound as i loved you

that is, of course

if i ever dare to love anyone at all

- nick <3

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i'll be yours

and you'll be mine

forever and always

we shall combine

our tangled hands

to the depths of our souls

breathe in the love

that escapes from our lungs

that is the path

we must take on

to salvage each other

from dusk till dawn

so hold on tight

while we take flight

on this journey together

becoming one, forever

- nick <3

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"If they love you they'll find a way, and if not they'll let you go. Either way, you win."

— unknown

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your poems are so beautiful. i can reflect myself through them. i really enjoy reading your thoughts <3

thank you <3 hope it makes you feel less alone to know there's people out there going through the same thing ❤️‍🩹

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to my daughter

it is impossible for you to not experience

heartbreak

but i sure hope that whenever you do

you never question your worth

or what you could have done differently

i hope you come to me to cry it out

i would hate for you to go into the void

by yourself

but also keep in mind, my sweet litte girl

it took me 9 months to form your heart perfectly

do not let someone else break it in a day

mom will be here every step of the way

and if something were to happen to me

you got dad to run to, and be free

- nick <3

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She stood there waiting

Scanning

Anticipating

Her hands shaking

And like so many times before

There was nothing

No friendly faces

No one at all

Except this time, something inside of her broke

Something that felt beyond repair

A path with only dead air

You asked me once, how someone becomes haunted

This is how

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i really wonder why is it that i can't let go of someone who already let go of me...

- nick <3

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you are, by far

the greatest loss of my life

- nick <3

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it is nights like these

that my mind won't shut off

every corner of it filled

with memories of us

i say under my breath

"God please, let it end"

holding tight onto my pillow

so a scream won't escape

i start to hate myself

for letting it go this far

"you shouldn't have believed him"

say the voices inside

but how could i know

he'd take everything in sight

his hands were paid actors

always covering my eyes

tears blur my vision

and the ceiling starts to spin

i cannot control my breathing

"silly girl, why so naive"

shut my eyes so tight

letting tears run by

feel my body less tense

"you didn't do this, get some rest"

i give in to that thought

and never open them again

- nick <3 (crying myself to sleep)

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i think, and i hope i'm wrong

but i think that i'll miss you

until my last dying breath

- nick <3 (until death do us part)

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roughly 2% of the world have your hair color

and around 7% of it have your blood type

you are a walking rarity

your music taste, love for movies

and the unknown world

make sense now

i have loved a rare creature all this time

and it did not hit me until after you left

so i guess what they say it's true...

you do not know what you have

until it's gone

- nick <3

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sunday mornings always taunt me

they remind me of the life i wanted

and how i am still not an inch close to it

they scream in horror with how i've lived

so far, nothing has gone to plan at all

i am still stuck at mom's

and every day it gets darker

i see myself in the mirror

and the girl i used to know is nonexistent

at this point i am not expecting much

other than just to breathe and hope it wasn't all

for nothing

all this hurt sunday mornings bring has to mean

something

maybe i am not there yet for a reason

maybe i am supposed to stay still for a season

that girl in the mirror

will soon love sunday mornings

but for now

she will sit this one out

and hope for the next one

to be better, somehow

- nick <3

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the amethyst is supposedly a spiritual protector. it is supposed to promote inner peace, growth and healing. funny enough that is the stone you saw and gave to me when you came home. and now it sits on my bedside table and sometimes i look at it, even hold it close to my chest, gripping it so tight in hopes for peace. peace from this torment i encounter every single day in results of your absence. i look for peace oddly enough in the same place i lost it. in my room. all alone. you gave me a stone that cannot radiate what it is supposed to by the mere fact that you cursed it with your goodbye. but i will keep trying. to heal, to grow, to continue without you. the pain is so bad i feel the knife coming through. but i refuse to give myself to the demons in my head, so i will hold on to this amethyst stone for as long as i have to. because i know someday, somehow, i will find peace in knowing you are no longer mine.

- nick <3 (holding on)

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can we talk about the withdrawals that come with no longer speaking to a person u spoke to every single day?

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and i hate to think that there came a time where despair was our new normal and i couldn't be your peace. i hate to think i was supposed to be your home, your safe space, and instead i was the one who started the war.

- dee (accountability)

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i miss you

i miss you every second of every day ever since you left

i miss your touch, your taste

and i can't think clearly without you here

i am stuck

stuck in memories i cannot go back to

stuck in the thought of you being mine

i am sinking

so deep down i cannot see the light above me

i am sinking so fast nobody else notices

and i stop fighting the need to breathe at all

because i cannot breathe when you are not near

i miss your presence in the room

i miss the way you used to call my name

i simply miss the only thing i thought i had left

and now i am lonely

solitude is all i see around me

my thoughts are no longer mine

for they are invaded with all of you

but i let them be, roam, set free

since that is the only way you will ever be near me

- nick <3 (alone)