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Changing Insurances

Since I live in America, I have to have to go through my insurance for everything. I've talked to my partner and we've decided to switch insurance companies, which we have to do at the end of the year.

The reason this is important is because our current insurance also owns the hospitals that you are allowed to go to. I think that that causes the doctors to be a bit more overworked and less willing to give people tests for issues. This could also be increased by the fact that I am a cis woman, and typically we just have trouble getting access to medical tests in general.

Anyways please root for me that when we change insurance companies that I will be able to get a test!

Lets go 2025!

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Thinking about symptoms

Maybe I should have told this to my previous psychiatrists I tried to get a test from. But alcohol slows my brain enough to where I can think more regularly. Instead of thinking so fast it's hard for me to speak properly or explain how I jumped conversation topics so quickily.

My family has a history of alcoholism. Sometimes I wonder if that was self-soothing/self-medicating? I try to not drink more than once a month because of it. Two of my older relatives (a married couple) died in a drunk car accident.

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My feelings after being rejected twice for a literal test by people who spent 15-20 minutes with me. Duck you.

Sorry if it's spooky! I can get a lot crazier with my art, at least it's cartoonish so it's okay right?

People who have been denied the right to a test may understand this frustration. The denial of your basic intelligence and understanding of yourself.

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Being Rejected for a Test Referral Again

So this is kind of crazy. I am always kicking myself for not getting a test while I was in the Midwest, because for some reason they have better medical care than the East Coast of America???? I was offered a test as I was moving, and I naively thought I should wait until after I moved so my doctor would be local. I didn't realize how hard it would be for anyone to take me seriously over here.

During my session, where this person sees me exactly once, I asked for a test for ADHD. I just wanted a referral for a test, I'm not trying to get medication. ALL I want is a test! God help me just a test.

I have been refused a test twice. They talked to me for maybe fifteen minutes to twenty minutes. They think "She graduated college and got into her industry." They don't think "She graduated in her special interest, which is a very odd thing to graduate in, failed two classes outside of her special interest and then talked her way into work at a convention."

The Drs will take the facts without context and use their assumptions to put you into boxes. The boxes are already against you because you don't look like the typical person with this neurological issue.

Why. What harm does it do to you to give me a referral for one test? What does it cost you? Why did you wait for three full weeks to talk to your staff as I'm calling them at least once per week (It would be more often if I could). Why does Kaiser suck so bad???

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What makes this really frustrating is that this Dr met with me over the phone, told me that she would have her office give my main hospital a call for a test. She waited three weeks to write in that I was going to be a self-referral, which basically means that she won't refer me. They won't accept a self-referal.

Why?

What does it cost you to refer me? Does it cost you the air in your lungs? Does it cost you the bones in your ribs? Five extra minutes typing? What. Does. It cost you?

It costs me. I'm so frustrated. Vent post done.

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Just recording things about myself in comic form in my "Just getting an ADHD test" journey.

I was told that I probably had it at 25 years old. This really surprised me! I had always been described as a "Space cadet" but I didn't realize that the possibility of me having ADHD existed. I had always thought that you had to be very hyperactive and that caffeine had to make you tired in order to have it.

Currently I am trying to get a test for Inattentive ADHD at age 28. I tried last year, but I was denied a test because I had graduated from college and had a job at the time. Which felt weird, but I guess that was how the person I was asking for a test felt.

Now I have a test lined up, I'm just having a lot of trouble getting the person I saw recently to have their person who talks to my insurance call the hospital that my insurance covers to set up a test. It's especially difficult because I keep forgetting to call their office to push them to do the thing! I did manage to call yesterday so hopefully that will help something get done.

Making someone who has no sense of time and has a lot of trouble (despite much effort) keeping track of appointments be in charge of forcing people to get things done within their time period feels a bit diabolical. Ahh!

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Early Signs of Being Different

When I was young I had 1 friend in Elementary school from 1st grade to 4th grade. He was a boy who was a year older than me. We would play pretend on the playground and go on epic adventurers with our own versions of 'OC's as kids. Playing together was always a lot of fun, but unfortunately he was a year older than me. So when he went to middle school we were both suddenly alone. For a while I didn't remember 5th grade. It must have been stressful for little me.

Not only had I had a 'boy' as a friend (a social faux pas in Elementary School) I was also "The Weird Kid" in my grade. My class sizes were all fairly small so all of that combined meant that I had a lot of trouble making friends. I had a lot of courage, but I could also be annoying and weird with my interests (dragons, fantasy, weird cartoons, ext). Fortunately, I was still brave enough to be me at a young age and I did eventually find some friends in 5th grade. They were the other kids in my grade who were considered "weird", they had just been in different classrooms!

We were friends all through middle school and befriended two more girls in our grade. One was the quite girl and the other was the new girl.

Eventually in High School my friends and I started the anime club. We proceeded to collect all the "weird kids" in the grades under us and added them to our club. There was some drama, as always happens in anime clubs, but I'd like to think it gave some of the kids there a nice community for when we graduated.