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[poetic-ofelia]

Power over Addiction.

wow i gotta say free write because i need to share the light in my life. 

Taking a breath, because i have found my light and i am never letting go of it. I swear, i remember like it was yesterday being addicted to all things that drained me. I have came a long way and i am just so thankful for being where i am today. I remember being an addict and how draining it was but even then i didnt know there was a way out. Looking back to being vulnerable could bring me to tears but i am so way past that. I am finally able to celebrate getting past the dark stage of being content with being lost. I was so sad, depressed and lost that i turned to Alcohol and drugs and the only way out was calling back my power. My power is in my hands and although i feel it... I am not overwhelmed by it because this power brings me peace. Sanity i praise for what i have solely worked hard for. I am no longer trying to justify myself as a person and actually taking charge of my happiness and growth. I no longer seek to be acknowledge because i know my honest truth and that has always been inside of me. I am no longer sick, i finally feel alive. I finally feel like i belong in my body. It sometimes scares me that one day i will get old and not be able to do the things i am able to do today but before i never was scared. i was never scared of anything, i guess that is why now i love the idea that somethings can slip out of my hands or out of my life because i cherish them much more now... I have been waiting for this peace since 19 and i am finally where i can breathe and think before i please..

I am no longer addicted to hating myself...

I did not know how much power i had until i found myself.

everything was such a blur to me even when i knew i had it right in front of me i had to go through some hard tribulations to actually love what i have today. I don’t know where i am suppose to be but i trust that this new light that has shined on me will bring me to my rightful path. I am  worthy of what is rightfully mine. i know what is coming and it may be a lot for some to grasp but i know that i have called upon it more than 20 times in my life. I pray i pray that it comes my way and when it does i am in my right mind to accept it. I am both Artist and Healer it was my destiny to find my missing peace. I am where i need to be today and i could not be more grateful. 

[poetic-ofelia]

Black Lives STILL Matter.

[poetic-ofelia]

Never Good Enough...

I am so tired of people wanting me to be their ideal... Like whats the big deal of wanting me to be who they want me to be. I get the helping part but the I think i know what your future looks like throws me way off. I feel like i have it better than you or my son will not stand for you is what turns me into an even stronger warrior. I am not on Earth to find love in you, but your son has found love in me and that is not good enough for you.  We fuss and we fight but look at this energy that is curated behind our backs... 

I am not your Ideal... But I have an Idea. I know I am POWER and I am also WOMAN. I Possess the angelic spirit of an Angel and a WITCH, A Healer and a Taker. I don’t just give I want something in return... But all I ask is that my love be reciprocated. I am not your Ideal, Except every time I pull back, He runs forward. I am not for you to get because he understands how to SAVE me. There is a lot of Hopeless Romantic that takes place in this misery business but you still don’t think I’ve grown LOVE out of all this mess. I am not your daughter nor do I want to be, So don’t WORK on me because you feel sorry but have better judgement and better intentions when you approach me because although you see me as a Peasant, I was and I am still a QUEEN in this presence of life.

I say things I don’t mean,

And I mean things I don’t say,

But you could never tarnish the LOVE

that I water every single day. Keep your ILL Intentions away from Me. Because my kids... You could never work on.

Protected and Bonded by all Energy Forces I’ve had from all Past Lives...

I AM NOT AFRAID. Protected by all My Ancestors 

I do not need your permission to MY future,

Because I truly BELIEVE the MAN that LOVES me BACK

through all shades of Color will regardless be willing to go through the DARK just to get to the LIGHT.