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Asking for help

Hello firstly I want to say thank you for taking the time to read this. I am a survivor of sexual, physical, mental, and emotional abuse since childhood. I started being raped at 12 years of age. It lasted for 10 years. I was severely physically abused as a child. This led to many suicide attempts. I suffered from severe depression, anxiety, and a almost fatal eating disorder. I started myself for 2 months when I was 16 because of being raped. It was the only control I had in my life. I tried leaving my home at 17 by being emancipated with CYS involved but they told me to just wait it out till I was 18. It was heart breaking I just wanted to be free from the hurt... All the abuse I have endured I always took out on myself, self injury, suicide attempts, severe starvation, binge eating... I used to feel so worthless I tried killing myself so many times but I never died I didn't get why I couldn't escape the pain. I am a survivor now I am in therapy and have came a long way... My last suicide attempt was in 2013 and when I was in the hospital after that attempt I made a promise to myself to NEVER do this again. I have come such a long way. Because of the extreme weight loss and eating disorder I struggled with I have gained and lost massive amounts of weight throughout my life. I struggle with severe loose skin. Since taking my emotional/mental/physical health serious since 2017 I have lost over 130 pounds I feel amazing but my stomach is so bothersome. I am trying to accept that it's a part of my weight loss but I just feel low about my body still. I am asking for donations to help assist with surgery to remove this excess skin to help boost my self image towards myself. I hope people out there understand there's a sense of shame when asking for help, but pain is subjective. This pains me deeply and I am just reaching my hand out. I deserve to feel good. I am a survivor, I am diagnosed with PTSD but my heart outshines my diagnosis. Thank you for your time in reading my story and asking for help. Donations can be sent via PayPal to kcrankshaw1@yahoo.com.

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Cleansing your Aura

There are many things that can affect your energy body, but I will keep this post specifically on the topic of energy essence transferred to the aura from objects. Many psychics are sensitive to feeling the essence of energy that is attached to jewelry etc.  We all have this ability, it is a matter of how we are able to sense and perceive the energy.  Many people aren’t aware of these energies or even know that they have an energy body “aura”.  The average person not realizing that we all have this ability are only able to sometimes detect such energy when it is extreme - like the awesome tingly feeling or a dark weird yucky feeling when being in a room or touching an object where a strong energy exists.  When that energy lies more in the middle of the scale- most people just don’t notice.  That doesn’t mean it isn’t there.  Practice feeling energy when you pick up objects, it helps you learn to tune in to what it feels like.  Understanding this energy transfer can help you notice when it is you need to cleanse your aura- and or recognize when someone you know needs a cleansing.  Negative energies can cause all sorts of issues from physical problems to  behavior differences and personality changes.  This does NOT mean you are possessed.  It’s a kin to hanging out or talking to a friend that is always negative and you find yourself spiraling down to their level and feeling like crap- or the opposite having the best time with someone you love and feeling that blissful feeling in your soul that makes you forget what day/time it is.  Those are easier to recognize and perfect examples of the attachment of the energy too your energetic body because there was an actual interaction with a person and have a reference as to why you feel a certain way rather than an energy that attaches itself to you by entering your energy body without your knowing.  Children are susceptible because we are all MORE psychic and open at a younger age and as we get older our beliefs and perceptions change based on what we are taught to believe is even possible. The first thing to learn is how to protect your aura/energy body.  When you know you are going to be around a negative person or situation the simple intention of protection works best.  You close your eyes and imagine a golden light surrounding you.  You may call on your higher power (Source/God/Universe/Jesus/Creator) whichever resonates with you to protect you and to not allow any harmful or negative energy to enter your energy space. Ground yourself by imagining an attachment by a cord or roots from your feet or whatever you think will help you to make you feel more attached to Earth.   That’s it.   Try it, notice the difference.  You don’t have to be OCD about it and do it all the time.  As you practice you will learn when you need to protect yourself (such as if you are planning to meditate/astral project (another topic).  To proceed onto cleansing, take several deep breaths ojai breathing (in and out of the nose with throat friction for control 10 seconds in 10 seconds out) On the inhale imagine cosmic energy and light entering your crown chakra showering your entire body and every cell with pure loving light energy and on every exhale think of any negative energy/issue/situation that is not serving you and exhale it out of your body and into the Earth. Take as much time as you need until you feel your body lighten from the removal of the unwanted energy.  If you need guided meditations there are several on youtube, you can just search aura cleanse meditation and find whichever fits you best.  We were told back in the day to take 10 DEEP BREATHS!  But no one ever said what to do with your breath.  It works!  In any situation when you feel stressed, close your eyes and take your ten deep breaths and you’ll notice such a difference you won’t have to remember to incorporate this easy exercise no matter how busy you are.   I digressed! Sorry- back to the negative energy on objects issue.  Don’t accept any personal items from people you don’t really know or purchased used items that may have residual energies from past owners (such as jewelry, toys that are hugged, blankets, etc)  If you find that you really want an item such as this,  cleanse the item and cleanse yourself from any negative energy that may be attached-  before holding closely onto it, bringing it into your home or giving it as a gift.  Don’t be afraid- negative energy and positive energy exists in all of consciousness.  We can’t have one without the other.  Learn how to balance the two and realize that any negative or unwanted energy is also a projection from your own consciousness.  Recognize that you are helping to fuel the negative energy through your own fear of the negative energy.  There is nothing to fear.  If you like, black tourmaline is a stone for protection you may find jewelry or stones if you like to have something physical to help with your protection.

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The 10 Best Damn Drugstore Makeup Products (for everybody)

Sephora, I love you, but you’re bringing me down. I don’t have the hard cash to be throwing at you and your 36 dollar bronzers, eyelash primers, lip plumpers, and whatever the fuck else your beautiful playground has to offer. I can splurge on you, sure, but when it comes to everyday makeup, I need things to be a little more my budget. My budget is 99 cent Hot Cheetos and individual bottles of Bud Light Platinum at the bodega, just so you know. That’s why I love drugstores. The quality is still 10/10 if you know where to look. And I can put my money where it matters, in my bra and out to bars. Here’s my list of the 10 best drugstore products that you can find at any drugstore, Target, Kmart, etc. No speciality stores, here:

1. Maybelline Volum’ Express The Rocket Mascara (7.99) I used to swear by Great Lash, but not after I found this little baby girl. This stuff separates your lashes without giving them that horrifying Spider Snooki Clump Parade. The brush is workable around your lower lashes without sending you smearing it all over your face like Lady Gaga’s Appluase vid. It’s a pretty solid dupe for Benefit Great Lash, and here’s the thing: I like it BETTER. Plus the bottle is so bright you can actually find it in my hell pit of a room.

2. Maybelline Color Tattoo Metal In Barely Branded (5.99) Do you use eyelid primer? I did, when I got a tiny little sample of it once, until I realized it was 28 bucks and I’m not Leo DiCaprio in Wolf Of Wall Street. Then, this angel came along. It works exactly like Urban Decay’s Eyelid Primer in Sin, which every makeup Youtube on Guru sacrifices goats for. It’s shimmery and pretty and works well underneath other eyeshadows but still looks great alone. It’s a nice neutral white-ish beige, very Nature Fairy Queen. And no creases! No fuckin’ creases! I got no time for creases cuz once I’m out, I don’t look at mirrors.

3. Rimmel Scandal Eyes Kohl Eyeliner (3.99) I swear by this stuff, specifically the nude eyeliner. Put that shit on your waterline and you won’t look like you’ve been on a bender of white wine and House of Cards on Netflix till 4am the night before. It’s creamier than fucking Phish Food, applies like soft butter, and smudges really easily for a smoky eye look. Does tend to get in the crease of my eye if I do a cat eye with it, but schlep a little powder on that area and you’re good to go.

4. For Dark and Yellow-Toned Skin: The Maybelline FIT Me Shine Free Line (7-8.99) If you’re yellow-based like I am, olive-toned, or darker, this is the line for you. Every fuckin’ drugstore line tends to be more pink/pale based, and I always look sickly and Beth-like from Little Women. Not this stuff! This stuff is made of social justice warriors on Tumblr, cuz it doesn’t forget us minority types. I looorrvee the foundation stick when my skin is breaking out or oily, it has light coverage for daytime and mattifies very well. The cream foundation is great for heavier coverage and drier skin, as it doesn’t highlight the rough patches. Go at it, you Pocahontas Tiana Mulan Princesses!

5. For Pale and Pink-Toned Skin: CoverGirl Outlast Stay Fabulous 3-in-1 Foundation (8.99) Of course I wouldn’t forget you sweet little peach-faces! This line has better options for lighter skin, isn’t too heavy, blends very well, AND! It also has more coverage, ie why it calls itself a “3-1” deal. That means you covers your pimples and red marks and it doesn’t wear out halfway through the day. Don’t fear the mirror at 12am on a Saturday on Ladies Night. Look, you’ll look effin’ flawless and drunk girls will tell you you look like a baby doll on the bathroom line.

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You wouldn’t want to wear the same clothes for 20 years without washing it, would you? Psychic hygiene and protection is very important, especially in regards to the auric field. Even the most spiritual people pick up energy floating around in their environments,  energy from other people and even astral parasites. Aura imbalances can leave you feeling drained, blocked and weighed down. It’s vital for any spiritual seeker to ensure that their energy is flowing properly in not only their chakras and meridians but also the auric field itself. This is especially bad for the empath who hasn’t learned how to quiet their energetic and emotional intake.

While maintenance is important, even more important is building a foundation for healthy auric health. This includes having spiritual integrity – walking your talk, shielding yourself when you’re in heavily dramatic situations, owning and being responsible for your own emotions and life situations and not blaming others or falling into a mentality of victimhood. These are some of the main causes for auric holes and weakness which will then accumulate a lot of debris that is not beneficial for you spiritually or in your mundane life. Like any spiritual exercises make sure that you center, ground and shield yourself first. Below are some basic methods for making that aura of yours sparkly-clean, I often use these in combinations instead of by themselves. However, you may have a busy schedule where the quickest methods are the best for you at this time, as long as you can put some aura hygiene into your routine, you’ll see the benefits.

Salt Baths

Salt is an energetic purifier – it resets all energy and neutralizes it, creating a blank slate. This is the main idea of why salt is protective and purifying. This is true for your personal energy as well. Draw a warm bath during a time when you won’t be disturbed. Make this experience very ambient. Turn down the lights and light some candles. Burn a little incense. Put on some soothing music. Pour in a bit of sea salt and if you’d like to boost the effects add some lavender oil to the bath. Soak in the bath for 20 minutes and meditate on the salt scrubbing all your energy clean. Draw the bath water but do not get out.Visualize all your negative energy going down the drain. Air dry as much as possible. Make sure to drink water afterwards as the salt can dehydrate your body.

Cold Spectrum Showers

Cold showers can also clear away negativity within your auric field. They also improve circulation, ease tension and remove toxins within your body. Taoists believe that hot showers drain you of your natural chi and that cold water helps promote it. A person with a healthy flow of chi energy is able to take cold showers and not shiver, but feel peacefully rejuvenated. While doing thisground and center yourself and visualize a fluffy white cumulus cloud above your head. Visualize it pouring a gentle but steady red colored rain on you. The red strengthens the red in your auric field and washes away impurities. Then repeat this with orange, yellow, green, blue and violet – moving through the colors of the rainbow and the chakras. When done envision the negative energy going down drain just like the salt bath.

Aura Crystals

There are many crystals that can work with to help with aura healing and strengthening. Labradorite is one of the best as it aligns, strengthens and protects the aura – especially from psychic vampirism. Green Tourmaline, Carnelian, Quartz and Amethyst are used to heal and repair auric tears. Apache Tear, Smokey Quartz, Jet, Obsidian and Magnetite help strengthen and protect the aura by grounding negative and denser energies.

Smudging Your Aura

Just as you would use smudging to clear and create sacred space, you can also smudge your energy field to remove impurities. Before lighting your smudge, say a prayer to Great Spirit, your angels, your spirit guides or whatever divinity you connect with and ask that the smudge cleanse your aura and protect your energy field. Make sure to wave the smoke around your whole body – front and back – top to bottom – above head and under feet and arms.

Aura Combing

Visualize the most vibrant bright cleansing white light emitting from your hands. Use your receptive hand (usually the left hand) – as you want to be removing energy – and run your hands through the aura as if you were combing it outwards. Feel for any stagnant, dense or unwanted energy and brush it out as if you were brushing sand out of your hair. Take your projective hand (usually your right hand) and smooth out your aura with the white light from it. Visualize it healing all fissures, cracks and holes.

Violet Flame

The violet flame can transmute the heaviest and darkest of energies, whether you have a connection with Saint Germain or not. Simply call upon the violet flame and imagine yourself inside of a violet fire. The violet flame will burn away any dense energy that is not meant to be there. The reasoning is that the violet flame is of such a pure concentrated spiritual density, that other densities automatically begin resonating with it’s energy – transmuting it. This is why the master alchemist, Saint Germain is the keeper of the violet flame of transmutation.

Flexing Your Aura

This will help strengthen your aura and protect it further. Just as lifting weights will help you gain muscle, working your aura will help strengthen it so that it won’t be as easily harmed. Simply lay down and begin breathing steadily. Visualize your auric field. Inhale and imagine it compacting to an inch around your body, super tight and protective. Breathe out and imagine it going out about a foot around you. Keep doing this and visualize it going a bit further out each time, while continuously bringing it an inch to your body on inhalation. When done allow your auric field to remain wherever it feels natural to be.

Prayer

Sometimes we need a helping hand. Petitioning to your personal concept ofdivinity, angels, guides, etc. will always help. Ask that your aura be clean and protected. All that’s needed for this is sincerity.

Wind

Standing in a heavily windy area and deeply relaxing – or running will assist in cleansing your aura. Boost this by visualizing all your debris being blown off and the wind soothing and smoothing your auric field.

Mantras & Sound

Meditating with mantras or using sound can help clear and clean your aura as well as strengthen it. I like to work with Tibetan medicine bowls for this. If you don’t own one you can find people playing with them on Youtube.

Source: Matt Walker

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"You didn’t love her. You just didn’t want to be alone. or maybe, maybe she was just good for your ego. or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn’t love her. Because you don’t destroy people you love."

Grey’s Anatomy (via letmaudiaroar)

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Just to voice my opinion, I'm a recovering anorexic going from 115 to 140. I looked disgusting at 115, now I look so much better and am a runner and weight lifter. Some women pull off thin, some don't. It's all opinion. Supporting only thin women, or curvy women, or average women, or overweight women means a person is shallow and narrow minded. Every size is attacked. So in voicing my opinion I say: Thank God for fucking women of every size because we make the world go round <3.

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Jiji (Kiki’s Delivery Service) pt. 1

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My Neighbor Totoro & Grave of the Fireflies

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An Original Quick Watercolor Work. #114

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