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The classic;

"Silence means yes"

And with that, you have to stop cause the line is being drawn and your boundary is being crossed,and walking away isn't that bad, it's better this way than makes it later to the point that you won't be able to recover.

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It is supposed to be full of positive page yet the pain that gradually eats me is excruciating. The enduring time is exhausting, this love is not making me happy anymore nor comforts me, it's making me suffer and insecure. It's making me ask for the most terrible wish. It's just tiring, so very tiring.

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And I love it when you smile

That visible sparkle in your eyes

The wrinkles under it and the light that everyone can see

You're an amazing person and you prove that everyday

You are calm in every situation

You get mad at some

You're grandchildren is your comfort zone

And their laughter is the cure to your entire day that was so tiresome

The best man I ever know

The first man I ever love

The best dad I ever have

The king that's forever you are

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And you settled for less,

To someone who hide you to the rest

Someone who's like ashame to be with you in an ocean of people.

And you're always thinking,if you really deserve such thing,

But you choose it that way

You became the secret that he keep

A plant in an indoor that never sees the sun shining everyday

Although he showered you with attention your brain won't stop overthinking about the way he is when you're with him in public

You're so conscious

You're too scared

You're like walking in an eggshells

And afraid to make mistakes

You are tied in that way and you continue it anyway

So you deserve it since you tolerated it

But I want you to remember that when you wake up in that trance you called love, get up and confront him and bid him goodbye

You deserve a partner who is proud to be with you

You deserve someone who can accept all your flaws

You deserve someone who's patience don't break at petty and silly mistakes

You deserve a love that won't keep you in the dark and hid you there all alone.......

And remind yourself that you are enough and you deserve all the wonderful things in the world 💕

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Dear YOU,

I hope the next time you'll fall in love will be to the person who already pass the phase of their traumatic past. Do not rush. Nor thinking of making your pace fast. Enjoy where you are, love yourself the way you wanted to be loved.

I wish you happiness and genuine love💙

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Last night I look at my reflection on the mirror, and what I saw saddens me, the woman I'm seeing no longer radiating, as if the sun that once she posses lost it's rays. She no longer looks happy, all I can see was her eyes that are empty. She lost her liveliness and was replaced by a jolt of consciousness. Staring back at me was a stranger to me. I don't recognize her at all, she no longer laugh at some silly jokes, she no longer see the beauty in the world that once she admired, she lost the life in her vibe and her aura died.

Seeing my reflection in the mirror made me ask; "What happened to the positivity that you chanted?" And without further Ado I replied: "It expired"

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So how much does it cost you to be loved? To feel loved? and be in love?

Does it cost you a broken heart in an iron ribs? Or a pale of tears from your soulful eyes?

How much?

But let me ask you this first,

When was the last time you make your self be on top of your priority list?

You don't remember right?

For you are afraid to be called selfish

You are afraid to be called inappropriate names from people you valued but can't do the same to you.

It's not selfishness when at times you think of yourself first,

It's not selfishness when you felt suffocated being in a crowd of people who only see you as an object to be use,

Prioritizing your mental health isn't an act of selfishness, it is SELF LOVE but not everybody will understand what it is.

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Don't be afraid to be alone, It signify strength

Sometimes, we need to be on our own to heal all the wound.

Sometimes, we need to figure it out by ourselves in able to balance our decision without any interruptions,

And

We have to do what is right even if it feels so wrong.

You think you can't overcome it, you think wrong.

You won't overcome if you stay in that spot for so long, if you won't move your feet to move forward then you will remain in the place where you hurt yourself.

You think it will last long, no it won't.

Traumatic Memories are often unstoppable especially if something trigger it to play in your head, but it doesn't mean that you will forever hold that bad memories with you, I suggest you create new, but first thing you should do is to savour all the pain in that past memories that hurt you until it hurt no more and you learn MORE!

You control the steering wheel in your journey, don't let others drive it for you.

Don't even pass the speed and go too fast, just enjoy the scenery,

Fast or slow , whatever Pace you go....

You will still reach your destination with a lot of lesson that you'll carry.

Jucy 💙

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So I start to gaze into the starless sky

The moon is alone and everything seems gloom

And just like how it's solidarity give me peace

I started to realize a lot of things,

That even without anyone we can be the best version of ourselves.

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I often lay down on bed and just stare at nothingness,

Inside my head is bulk of burden I never knew will exist,

I blink slower than normal and everytime I close my eyes, realizations hit home.

I feel no regrets, for it won't change anything,

Not even wishing time to go back and fix my mistake even if there's a big reward at stake.

I got addicted to loneliness,

I found peace in solitude,

I found my self when I lost those people I thought who genuinely care about me.

I pick up the broken pieces of myself and build it more firmly than before,

I accepted and embrace my flaws,

I converted my weakness into strength where no one can use it against me.

Because above all the things that I realized,

At the end of the day,

"IT'S ME WHO GOT A SAY"

It's me who will draw my path in this journey, nobody but ME💙

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When it's too much to handle, breathe

When it's too hard to move, breathe

When it's too heavy inside, breathe

When it's too extreme, breathe

You need to pause sometimes, it doesn't mean that you are stopping,

You just need to let you mind and body to rest ,

After that, you can continue taking your journey🍀