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Site B level.13 Lda237

Lain: Do you know where I'm going?... I don't know either. That's because I'm going to be born soon. Will I become a more evolved human being? If I think so I might as well think so. A human without a body isn't human? There are people who have bodies that aren't human. Is that me? I'm not human? Lain is Lain. What is it to be human? You're human if you have a body? I'm me. Am I just conglomerated with my body? I need a body if I'm going to live in the real world. Suicide would be stupid. It would be better to just die naturally. I don't need it. I might need it someday. That might be true. I won't need a body to live in the Wired. I'll need the recollections of the body. How about the recollections of a body that grows older? My point of view may change? Is there a need for it to change? There's no guarantee that that will be you. Lain, what do I need to be on the Wired? Existence and will. The rest is just data.

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Site B level.13 Lda236

Lain: Even when I’m not dying, my body feels fear. Mysterious. Is the reason that I have the potential to feel fear no matter what I do because of what’s recorded in my genes? I don’t need those kind of genes. This is a small world that seems large only to parasites.

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Site B level.013 Dc1058 - close the world, open the next.

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Site B level.013 Dc1057 - make me sad. make me mad. make me feel alright?

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Site B level.13 Lda235

Lain: Do I have a sad existence? I guess people think so. I don’t mind that much. I don’t need a backup. That would be useless. The me on the Net also had a sad existence. That’s why I killed her. Hey, did that hurt?

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Site B level.13 Lda234

Lain: You people who want to know me, why do you want to know me? Will you benefit from knowing me? Am I for your research? For a stupid TV show?

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Site B level.13 Lda233

Lain: From the standpoint of many religions, won’t I go to hell? Who will pass judgment on the me on the Net? How about me? Will God pass judgment on me? At any rate, I don’t need my body anymore.

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Site B level.13 Lda232

Lain: I took my last walk. As I walked around town all day, I noticed Mom. She didn’t notice me at all. She looked at me like a total stranger. I can’t forgive her for that. I don’t have to worry about her anymore.

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Site B level.13 Lda231

Lain: Lain, what do you want? Pleasure? Excitement? Friends? Me? What I need right now is someone who wants to know me. Touko-san promised me. She said that she would understand me. She said that she would choose me.

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Site B level.13 Lda230

Lain: It’s been a year, Lain. Lain, it feels good to get back to a diary after a long time, doesn’t it? This is my count down.

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Site B level.013 Dc1056 -

Lain: It's over.

Lain: For me it's the beginning. From now on we will always be together.

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Site B level.12 Eda005

Detective: First of all, regarding the suicides of two researchers at our center, there have been rumors that their deaths had to do with them exploring some strange area of research, like something out of a science fiction novel. I reassure you that that is completely untrue. This center specializes in the study of communication and mental illness. Fundamentally, this is not a facility for clinical medicine. Our staff sometimes visits hospitals at their invitation, but basically, all we do here is research. I don't know how to apologize to her parents of those researchers. I am quite overcome.

Interviewer: I've heard that the female researcher who took her life had some patients.

Detective: She was unique. She treated people clinically at this research center. But this was her own decision.

Interviewer: I've heard rumors that one of the researchers who died was mentally ill. Is that true?

Detective: We can't really comment on that right now.

Interviewer: But seeing that she took her own life, she may have had some type of mental illness.

Detective: There are many things a person may call it, but there's no doubt that she was suffering deeply. Suicide is very extreme, but she must have been under a lot of stress. A psychiatrist is still just a human being.

Interviewer: Did she catch her mental illness from her patients?

Detective: Mental illness isn't a contagious disease, So no, she didn't 'catch' anything from her patients. We wouldn't use that expression. She may have been influenced by the patients to a degree. You may call that a sort of contagion if you'd like. It's a matter of semantics. But don't let anyone trick you about this sort of thing. All of this doctor's patients were healthy. I can't get into specifics because of privacy issues.

Interviewer: Are there other things that might explain her behavior? Did the researcher who took her life may have had devious intentions?

Detective: We're in the middle of an investigation, and I can't comment too much on that out of respect for her friends and family. However, I've been informed that that has absolutely nothing to do with it. I would rather...

Interviewer: You would rather?

Detective: Anyway, I've heard that that has nothing to do with it. I'll say this for our researchers that they are very fine human beings that are very seriously committed about what they do. What was the likelihood of this kind of thing happening? Well, it may have been less likely if we had caught it earlier. On the other hand, we may have not paid enough attention because our researchers really have it together and are professional and hardworking. We would like to help avoid this is the future by making psychological assessments of our staff.

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Site B level.12 Dia048

Touko(?): The client has discovered the connection between herself and reality, and has completely recovered from her ego disturbance. The results from the BPRS and HAM-D tests showed no problems whatsoever. I completed my first treatment successfully.

Lain: Thank you, my valuable client.

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Site B level.12 Cou053

Lain: You don’t want to do anything? How about your research?

Touko: No one will want to read my paper anyway.

Lain: What’s wrong? It’s not like you to play a victim.

Touko: Not like me! What am I?

Lain: You’re just Touko-san, Touko-san.

Touko: I’ve been severed from society. I’m no longer connected.

Lain: That’s not true. I’m connected to you. I’m connected to society. That’s why you’re connected, too.

Touko: Something’s wrong with me, isn’t there? The times when I talk to you and the time I spend with everything else are separate. From your point of view, my life must be a contradiction.

Lain: My point of view?

Touko: From your point of view, this world doesn’t exist.

Lain: No. That’s not true. I’m connected to this world.

Touko: I can’t take it anymore. I can’t even stand this moment. That’s not all. My memories of tomorrow...the memories I’ll have in the future are in disarray. Is this a delusion caused by worrying? Am I experiencing something I shouldn’t be experiencing?

Lain: That’s you, isn’t it?

Touko: It is me! Because it is me!

Lain: Wouldn’t you be better off if you were just being yourself?

Touko: I can’t understand my sense of self from moment to moment!

Lain: The judgment you have exactly at that moment is you, Touko-san. The rest is...

Touko: The rest is...

Lain: Ordinary data.

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Site B level.12 Tda092

Touko: The me that has a body will disappear, won’t it? My hands, my face, my hair. It’s sad that no one will touch my body again. Lain will be by my side, won’t she? I’ll be sad at first, so be by my side. Together. Continue to be with me forever, Lain. If I’m asleep, wake me. Let’s do a lot of playing together. Let’s keep an eye on everything. We’ll eliminate all trivial thoughts. Let’s find others to live with. We’ll find more friends. This is much too large a place for just two people. Don’t you want a boyfriend, Lain? I won’t have one for a while. Let’s eliminate everything trivial in the world. The only people in this world are Lain and me.

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Site B level.12 Tda091

Touko: I accessed your data, Lain. You cracked it yourself, didn’t you You’ve quickly gained access to data that I didn’t obtain myself. You’re the only person who could do that. What is this? What are you? Are you listening? You can hear me, can’t you? Why won’t you answer me? Is it that you no longer have use for me? That’s not true, is it? You’re teasing me, aren’t you? Or are you...