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Music is so influential on the brain, that the type you listen to actually has the ability to change the way you think and look at the world

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Oh Well....

I got sum new blades and a bag of dope...

I'll be fine....

Or

Maybe I won't be....

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Ugh every thing constantly makes me think of you...

Everyday....multiple times during...random intrusive thoughts 💭...a singular common subject!!!

YOU! there always all about YOU!

Obsession...admiration...fascination... curiosity...

maybe I might have fallen in love with you unintentionally..

I don't know how or when it occurred...

All I know is that I can't change these feelings I am feeling...

THIS FUCKING SUCKS!!!

why does this happen to me often...why can't I fall for somebody that wants me to? Why do I put myself through these things that torture my already damaged sole just to keep myself in this place of sadness and dispare...a cruel punishment I inflict upon myself and for what logical reason do I have to do this to myself?

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I'm worthless. I'm unlovable. I'm a burden. I'm a problem. I doubt I'll ever recover. I just don't want to be alive and in pain anymore.

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Sending you a hug your way

I hope your night fills you with peace and rest

You are cared about even if you think you aren't

I promise this is someone you used to know from here, and I was thinking of you, I hope you are well

Not okay.

Never will be.

Wake up wishing I was dead everyday.

Hopefully will be soon.

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This isn't anyone you know beyond tumblr, and it's not someone you currently interact, our paths are long since been crossed

I feel led tonight to send you a large hug.

I am thinking about you, and hope you feel peace and warmth

You are cared about even if you think no one does

Whatever,

No one gives a fuck....

Words don't mean shit...

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I'm not fucking doing this anymore.

I am giving up my son my whole world...

Because it doesn't matter anymore you turned him against me anyway...

I'm just fucking a stupid crazy cunt bitch!

Enjoy your life douchebag.

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Fuck all this stupid fucking bullshit....

It's all been just a fucking joke to you fucks...

Hopefully you all still are laughing at my funeral.

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I don't want to live anymore...

Please God

Just let it end already

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I hate this!

Even my fucking dreams.

like it's not enough that I'm not gonna ever have you in real life but now I have to dream about being with you and being so happy....

then wake and remember that I was asleep and it's just a dream...

a dream that isn't ever going to come true no matter how bad I want it to!

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Why do they call it a CRUSH?

Because that's how you feel when they don't feel the same way in return.