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The adhd urge to use parenthesis in every sentence (because every thought comes with additional bonus content)

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Finding people-driven study support #1

I want to make series of posts documenting particular types of study related endeavors. This is so it is easier to see, think about, and document. but I will be talking about the topics in general and related posts too of course. And sorry for the vague-ness I'm trying to be as detailed as possible without totally doxxing myself.

I was having a hard time choosing a word for this kind of support, and settled on people-driven study support, but there is probably a better term. What in I'm specifically referring to is support surrounding access to actual people to touch base with and provide support services, directly, person to person. weather it be through email, phone, or meeting. An example of this would be a tutor, or and disability support worker, social worker, etc.

I find that this kind of support often is both the most helpful and the hardest to access. This is because it is expensive, and much more expensive to fund than other less effective forms of support. Such as meeting with a person sparsely to plan how to manage things on your own. despite that you need support in the first place because you have a disability making managing it own your own nearly impossible.

I suspect this is hard for admin and people who don't require support to understand because university in particular regards itself as, personally managed in its nature. Thus, its hard for people to internalize that just because some students have trouble with the specific management skills associated it doesn't mean that they don't posses the skills of responsibility or appreciate the importance of those skills. We are not trying to get out of putting in work, we are incapable of producing the effect that work usually results in despite any amount of effort. For example, I highly understand the importance of time management, and I put a whole lot of my energy into it, but none of my practice will make my time blindness go away. it may help a bit. but I'm still disadvantaged. its not that we need someone hold our hands throughout every aspects of our experience and life, despite disability, we posses the capacity for agency as much as anyone else. What we require is tailored support to even the playing field, not gain advantage.

I have been exploring resources, the first 2 that I have made any progress with is the writing mentors program at my uni and a study support program through the government for under-25's that is new, hard to find, and through a service that has garnered a high amount of distrust from young people in my country. (they have their positives, it just contributed an added barrier for people to access this service if they have negative experiences with the organizations other services).

The Writing mentor program through my uni was a difficult one for me to access because there goals and offered support seems to shift a lot, and the website, as uni websites usually do, made something simple seem highly complected and confusing to access. because of this I had not made an appointment with them until this week. But unfortunate my Sleep disorder strikes again! and missed the zoom call. I'm going to try again and will update.

The government service appointment was later today and thus I was awake just in time. I'm surprised I made it in at all though. The emails and website were far more confusing than even my uni one. the call was through a service on their website and we had multiple tech issues, one including that it required chrome, which is unaccommodating as hell. The emails were unclear about how to start the call, said they would send the link on the day, the link was in a separate email, not on the day, that contained other information as the focus. Despite these issues the appointment went well for me, the lady seems nice enough. Primarily admin for this one, which was expected. Apparently the service can be accessed for up to 3 months, per quarter. She wasn't sure how many times you could re-access after the first quarter. She was also pretty insistent on my camera being on, I was fine with that, but I can imagine others with anxiety issues in particular not liking that.

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First Post!

hello, I've thought about starting a topic focused blog for a while but the stars never aligned until now.

I was desperately searching the internet for resources and tools to help me complete my uni work as and adhd person and I found myself feeling restlessly alone (as I usually do). I found myself longing and searching for some kind of detailed first hand account of what I was going through, some kind of path to follow in the darkness. and Sure I did find some first hand accounts (and I am probably missing some) but in tiktoks and You-tube videos the thing that I craved most, my reason for seeking them out, was missing. It felt like a snap shot before shutting the blinds. Therefore, those didn't help much, not to mention most of that content is from those out the other side of things (weather they pursued uni more or not).

It was when I was desperate and searching for such a resource that I realized perhaps I could en-devour to pursue it myself. it could be a win on both ends. I can try my best to convey my uni experience and how I'm surviving it (hopefully) for others to see, and this could also act as an extra extrinsic motivation (the motivation adhd likes) factor for me.

Context for me:

I'm in my third (not last) year of a BA. I'm an Anthropology major with a minor is Visual Arts.

I struggle with ADHD, Autism, C-PTSD, PMDD, a severe anxiety disorder, depression and chronic migraines. My home-life and financial situation is also poor.

I have had my educational carrier severely disrupted due to varying obstacles, those took a nose dive from year 6 onward, therefore have multiple high-school years missing and many other disruptions and issues to say the least.

I'm also a non-Binary lesbian, who cares a-lot about finding ways to make life easier under systematically oppressive landscapes. I'm passionate about collective aid and finding nuanced resolutions to problems, so if your "not political" I'm sorry this blog is probably not for you.

P.S I'm pretty new to posting on the internet in any large capacity, so if a fumble some things, especially social things, please let me know. I would love to also invite others and seek out people of similar experiences so we can help, listen, and pool our resources and knowledge.

oh and I will be integrating my special interest into things, because if I don't ill explode, so if u don't want to interact with Hannibal, ITWTV, TMA, good omens (curses that man), fantasy books, doctor who, Platypuses and BTS (those are the primary ones i think) sorry. but I will attempt to remember spoiler warnings as much as possible.