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Either this man was not Mr Cardoza, or my imagining of him had served me wrong. This gentleman was young, no older than Caleb, and strikingly pleasant to look at. He was clean-shaven, his hair a glossy chestnut brown, swept back with a lemon-scented pomatum I could smell from across the room. His clothes were exquisitely tailored, all jet but for the splash of blue silk at his throat. His shoes were either brand new or diligently shined each day, and a silver watch chain ran from the button of his waistcoat to his pocket, just as brightly polished. "Gideon," Ernest said. "Good of you to join us." "I am on time," Gideon replied, apparently sensing a note of displeasure in Ernest's voice. He whipped his watch from his pocket, casting a discerning eye upon it. "Precisely two minutes early, in fact."

The first speaking line this man gets is This. The first time he is spoken about before this is accompanied by an "Ah. Him." He's perfect

Thank g-d I can talk about him publicly now because I have been waiting on this for A Hot Minute

Gideon Cardoza from “The Extraordinary Untrue Life of Mirah de Rothschild” is a bitch and I like him so much 💕

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Thank g-d I can talk about him publicly now because I have been waiting on this for A Hot Minute

Gideon Cardoza from “The Extraordinary Untrue Life of Mirah de Rothschild” is a bitch and I like him so much 💕

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47. 69. :-P

47 is Better in the Morning by Birdtalker! This one is on the vampire AU playlist and makes my heart ache every time I listen

Twisting up smokes, I'm in control Til the fire burns out my miniature vacation But I'm always left with the taste in my mouth I will do better in the morning

Aaand 69 (nice) is Polaroid by Imagine Dragons, which is Absolutely here because of Kole

I'm a hold my cards close I'm a wreck what I love most I'm a first class let down I'm a "shut up, sit down"

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song 36 on wrapped :)

36 for me this year was Le Trublion from Mozart Opera Rock! Thank you to Felix's playlist for that one lmao

Dans le flot de vos censures Ma vie reste une aventure Où je n'en fais qu'à ma guise Si ma folie n'est permise Elle n'en est que plus exquise

(In the wake of your censorship My life remains an adventure Where I do just what I like If my madness isn't allowed That just makes it more exquisite)

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spotify wrapped is HERE! send me a number 1-100 and i'll tell you the song it corresponds with on my top 100 playlist!

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[ID: an MS Paint drawing of a cat looking at the viewer, screaming with its mouth wide open so the mouth takes up most of its face. Under the cat and its front paws is text that reads "aaaaaaa" in all-caps. The artist's signature, catcrumb, is written in one of the cat's ears. /end ID]

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[Image description: A poem titled "רַבִּי / رَبِّي" written Friday, November 17, 2023: Rabbī, I cannot praise your deeds. / Rabbī, no weeping moves you. / Rabbī, your justice is wedded to perversion. / Rabbī, your love looks much like your hatred. / Rabbī, the patriarchs have been gilt as idols. / Rabbī, the Temple has been built into a prison. / Rabbī, mixed multitudes have been spat on. / Rabbī, all oneness has been sported with. / Rabbī, ministering angels are consigned to wailing. / Rabbī, nameless infants are fed the world’s silence. / Rabbī, your nations have smeared the sea red. / Rabbī, your holy city has been split in two. / But by whom? / Rabbī, shall I say “them” or “us”? / Rabbī, which people is solely yours? / Rabbī, what image is divine alone? / Rabbī, when comes the Hour of Closing? / Rabbī, where hides the Place of Its Glory? / Rabbī, why? Answer now. Answer. End image description.]

note 1: as the title implies, "rabbī" may be read as the hebrew word for "a jewish cleric" or the arabic word for "my l_rd" (i.e., g_d).

note 2: this poem is written from an anti-zionist jewish perspective. therefore the question "by whom? / shall i say 'them' or 'us'?" is not meant to dispute palestine as the oppressed party. rather, it is meant to be taken extremely literally, because it is situated in my individual experience: should i—a muslim in the process of converting to judaism, who has been estranged from jewish community and had my conversion delayed because of zionism; who has no personal ties to israel but is nevertheless complicit in its genocidal actions by nature of living in the warmongering USA which uses my household's tax dollars to fund it; who believes that "all israel are responsible for one another" (shevuot 39a)—refer to the oppressors as "them" or "us"?

ways to help palestine:

decolonize palestine (patreon)

samidoun (calendar of worldwide protests)

palestine action

palestine legal

bds movement

more resources

ways to help congo:

list of donations

boycott & donate

ways to help sudan:

list of donations

fundraiser for a refugee family

action against hunger

ways to help armenia:

all for armenia

armenian food bank

artsakh housing fund

armenian assembly of america action center

ways to help other indigenous peoples around you:

learn about whose land you may be living on

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we just had the final session of the d&d campaign we started on december 26, 2016

nearly seven years ago

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I'm fucking. Crying. Eversong 1 is officially... finished. Over. Done with. Complete

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it’s that time of year again! the last five days of the month are gonna be a giveaway for an oc-tober portrait--from the 25th to the 30th!

a few rules

1. followers only. new followers are welcome 2. both likes and reblogs count 3. I HAVE to have visual references for your character. things like picrews, doll makers, sims screenshots, etc–those all count. additional info on scars, piercings, beauty marks, etc are all fine written. these are portraits that are done in one sitting without revisions, so keep that in mind. 4. I reserve the right to refuse to a draw a character without a reason. I do not draw furries or mechs. 5. If you’ve gotten a portrait from me this year already, I will pass over your entry. I want this to be fair and so the most amount of people get the chance for a portrait. I realize i still have several days left, so it’ll be on my discretion to pass up your entry.

this will end on the 25th and i will be drawing winners then. I will be in contact and if there is no reply within 24 hours i will picking someone else/drawing at my own discretion

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qr commissions!

Hey y’all! I could use a bit of money, so I’m opening three potential ways for y’all to support me!

1) Image Description (ID) commissions!

If you have a drawing, photo, or video that you want to make accessible, I can help! Show me what you’d like me to describe, and I can send you a rough draft

My rate is 3 cents per word, at a minimum of $1.00 (note that a piece with a lot of detail will likely be more expensive), and I will not charge until the final ID is completed.

2) Tarot card reading commissions!

I do tarot readings as a hobby, am experienced with a variety of spreads, and have 5 decks with distinct preferences for different readings

My rate is $3.00 for a single card reading, $6.00 for a spread of 3 cards, and $10.00 for 5 cards

I have a few spreads in the tarot tag of my main blog if you want inspiration for a reading, or you can bring a spread of your own. Alternatively, we can discuss a question you may have and then work together to find a spread you want!

You can also DM me to ask about my decks and request a specific one; otherwise, I will choose a deck for the reading

3) ko-fi donations!

I’ve recently started my own ko-fi account, and if you’d prefer to send money to me that way, that’s an option!

I will accept payment for any of the above commissions through ko-fi or PayPal (DM me for the PayPal link). All prices are in USD. Thank y’all so much!

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[ID: screenshot of Thane Krios from Mass Effect 2, praying with his hands held together. /end ID]

Preliminary Poll

Thane Krios

Submission reason:

In Mass Effect 2, Thane as introduced as a master assassin, trained since he was a child to be skilled at killing, and he took to the training earnestly. One of the first things he says to you out loud is that he is terminally ill with something similar to cystic fibrosis, and he isn't afraid of death because he doesn't have much time left anyway. You can help him reunite with his estranged son, and you can also romance him; if you do both, he can tell you he's starting to fear dying again because now he has relationships that will be affected by his death. It's also worth noting that Thane was all over the marketing for Mass Effect 2. In the sequel, Mass Effect 3, Thane is in the hospital due to his illness progressing and cannot be interacted with outside of it, even if he's you're love interest. He then reappears later to sacrifice his life to save an NPC being threatened by an assassin. Despite being a sniper, Thane primarily fights this guy in close quarters, and is subsequently stabbed through the stomach. There is no way to prevent this from happening if Thane survived the second game, and there is no way to save him. He later dies of his injuries in the hospital, and the game says a couple of lines about him dying a hero, but then he's barely spoken about again. If he's your love interest, you need to download a DLC in order to have any form of closure to his romance.

Propaganda:

I genuinely feel like most people who romance Thane in ME2 had no issue with romancing a love interest who would die. That's not my issue. My issue is that his death is completely meaningless and there's no way in-game to make it better. No one even really acknowledges it in the rest of the game unless you have the Citadel DLC. I also recently learned that the person who wrote Thane in Mass Effect 2 left BioWare after its release, which makes sense because it feels like the rest of the writer's room forgot Thane existed until the last minute.

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[ID: four screenshots of different birds with names that fit the above list. In order, these screenshots depict: the handsome fruiteater, the white-breasted nuthatch, the red-winged blackbird, and Clark's nutcracker. /end ID]

The three kinds of bird species name

1. God’s Specialist Little Boy

2. Hot Breasted Milf

3. Grey Bird With Brown Head

4. Walter’s Fingernail

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nor whole and unbroken

Back during the Gretsin arc Taber rolled a nat 1 to get out of the blast zone of a factory we'd rigged to explode, and she lost an eye as a result! Calling this fic a spiritual successor to this one. Featuring canon dialogue that I've had written down for two years now because I feel as insane about these two in 2023 as I had in 2021

175 words, exactly 1,000 characters (cw: eye gore (alluded to))

Even flying high above the explosion site, Felix already knows something's wrong. Nymerinae in her eagle form flies them closer to the ground. Headcount: Belasco, Rachel, Ophelia, Aracelli, Bonnie…

Then he sees her, and his heart explodes, too.

"Taber!" he screams. He runs before his feet touch the ground, and crouches next to where she's lying prone. "I'm here. I'm right here." In clear agony, she can't whimper quietly. He takes her hand in both of his. "It'll be okay, vehera."

She turns her head to him. A huge piece of shrapnel makes blood pour down her face. "I'm s-sorry."

…What the fuck?

"Y-You shouldn't… have to see me like this…" She sobs.

"No. Don't apologize." He chokes, then brings her hand close to his chest and squeezes. "Don't you dare apologize. I swear to the gods, Taber, don't apologize to me ever again." Neither can stop crying now.

Nymerinae, an elf again, kneels down and puts Taber's head in her lap. Grateful, he lets her work. His heart can mend once Taber is okay.

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i wanna know, will i see you again?

owl city - "when can i see you again?" // ilenia tesoro - unnamed // lee martens // florian i. - "same place, different time" // lord huron - "the night we met" // mika - "stardust" // olivia de recat - "closeness lines" // käthe butcher - "a hug in the garden" // iain thomas, ella frances sanders // wiz khalifa - "see you again ft. charlie puth"

[ID: 10 images of photos, art, poetry, and song lyrics, all relating to missing someone and waiting to be reunited. In order, the images feature:

lyrics by Owl City: "Tell me when / When can I see you again? / When can I see you again? / Tell me when / When can I see you again?"

photo by ilenia tesoro: a hand in front of a grey wall, reaching down, and the shadow of another hand against the wall, reaching up. the hands could hold each other if they were both corporeal.

quote by lee martens: "I knew from the moment I met you I would spend a lifetime missing you."

photo by florian I: a long-exposure black-and-white photo of a wrought iron fence. a man stands with both hands on the fence, looking away from the viewer; a woman does the same. they aren't in the same shot, but because of the long exposure, their poses are laid over one another.

lyrics by lord huron: "I had all and then most of you / Some and now none of you / Take me back to the night we met."

lyrics by mika: "I said 'I love you,' you said 'goodbye' / Everything changes in the blink of an eye / It's been a while, I still carry the flame / I wanna know, will I see you again? / See you again, see you again"

art by olivia de recat: two lines drawn initially in parallel, almost touching at one point, then retreating from each other before circling back to continue on close together. these lines represent to closeness of the relationship that text written above the lines describes as: "Someone you Meet at the Wrong Time, Then Re-Meet at the Right One"

art by käthe butcher: an illustration of two people hugging tightly against a light brown background with dandelion seeds floating around them. the person whose back is to the viewer has long black hair and a top covered in red poppy flowers and their leaves. the other person has long light-coloured hair and a top covered in yellow and white dandelions and their leaves. both are hugging so tightly that no one's face is visible.

calligraphy by ella frances sanders: a quote by iain thomas that reads, in red block all-caps letters: "And when I asked you how you'd been, I meant I missed you more than I've ever missed anything before."

lyrics by wiz khalifa: "We've come a long way from where we began / Oh, I'll tell you all about it when I see you again / When I see you again." /end ID]

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[ID: a photo of a black cat, sitting on a soft surface and meowing so loud its mouth is wide open and its head is blurry. On the wall behind the cat is a sign featuring what appears to be the same black cat, mouth wide open, with a white arrow pointing at the cat and text that reads, in all caps: “this guy won’t shut the fuck up!!!” /end ID]

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i still think the funniest thing abt my hick warlock is that their high charisma stat is based entirely off of the fact they worked a front-desk job for like 9 years. good at lying? good at calming the cranky? good at pleasing?

customer. service.