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don't usually post photos of myself, but I look cool on these two

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перерисовала сцену из Бесит 🙂‍↕️

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went for a trip to a couple of towns recently

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happy pride my guys

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I won't pass my final chem exam. I will be unemployed and homeless

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sketched myself

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this might be a little controversial, but I think if you're writing a character who's speaking a language that you yourself don't know, don't use Google Translate for their lines. it's just always wrong, trust me. especially if it's a widely spoken language, like Spanish, Russian, etc. (or English, in case of fics in other languages) it's just really possible that a native speaker will come across that wrong line, and it will ruin the vibe. just use italics for the lines that should be in that foreign language—speakers will imagine the right translation to their language, and non-speakers won't need to search for the English translation

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“Can't wait for the next one"

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everything but studying, I guess

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— I'll be seeing you again, MacTavish. I promise.

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tw cringe vent

my English knowledge is one of my biggest insecurities; I can be in a totally normal mood but burst into tears thinking about it.

my parents never knew English but always encouraged me to learn when I was a child. I hated English classes in school and never understood why I needed them. we used to fight over it so often.

but then, like three years ago, I started actually learning by myself because of my genuine interest and passion for the language. I thought my parents would be proud of me for trying, for realizing why I needed to know a second language in the first place, but at first, all they did is laugh it off, saying that the interest won't last long and I'll quit it quickly.

I didn't. I thought I could prove them wrong when my skills would be better, but, spoiler, it never happened.

they ended up just taking for a fact over these years that like yeah our daughter knows English now. my dad said I did a good job only once or twice, but it was him who was convincing me to learn the language the most during my childhood. I'm literally sobbing typing this because I genuinely feel so hurt.

now I can almost say I'm bilingual, although with a big lack of speaking practice. and they still manage to point out my flaws, mostly with pronunciation, and take my success for granted.

on the one hand, I get it. it's really hard to objectively rate someone else's level in a language you don't speak. but still. all I wanted is them saying and actually showing that they are proud of me, instead of making some jokes and excuses, assuming that I don't need this validation. I told them many times that I did, yet nothing changed.

I compare myself to others when it comes to English so often. I really lack some typical school knowledge just because I'm self-taught, and when someone who I know for a fact speaks English worse than me passes a test with a higher score, I feel so worthless.

today, a friend of mine who is generally an all A student got one more point on a test than me, and I actually needed to suppress the urge to cry on the spot.

dude what is wrong with me genuinely. I wanna be normal

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I woke up and mistook a notification from the weather app for an email letter about an ao3 update. the circle in the right seemed familiar 💔

I mean, at least I'll be sunny

AND they really posted an update later this morning 🙂‍↕️

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it's been some time since I last posted my photos. these are some from this March

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wanna show this one

"lock your youth in a ziplock"

reference btw

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idk if this book even has a teenage girl fandom, but I wrote a missing scene fluff and angst platonic fic with Theo and Yuri

let me know if some of you are interested, I might translate it to English and post on ao3 🙏🙏

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some more random sketches

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Happy St. Patrick’s day to them 🇮🇪 🍀