randomnessfrome · 19 days ago
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Sorry to hear that. Wish I could do more to help.
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TW // mental issues, mental absue, harassment, surgery/blood
I'm sorry this one is so long, but please carry on reading. It's a chance for me to not only speak about the situation but let out some steam too. It is unfortunate this announcement comes at the same time the flood occurs on the south of my home country (Poland) and I'm in the endangered zone, luckily so far safe, as I feel my head can't handle more stress.
It's been so long since I've been this personal online. I realized how I didn't feel the urge to vent for 3-4 years by now which is a sign of improving mental health. But my healing is still a process, and I'm afraid it's too hard to carry this rock alone at this point. I fought my thoughts if I should do this and I think just as deeply as I write right now. Yet, I know it's better late than never and I thank deeply my friends for helping me out recently as well as in the past in my lowest. I wholeheartedly owe my life to you.
I couldn't ask for better friends. As years verified, even long lasting relationships might be nothing but a mask and I had to learn the hard way. I ended a friendship of 13 years at the time over a misunderstanding. Other person I put my trust on was nothing but a groomer with morally corrupted sexual tendencies who would take advange of a group of minors while being the only adult among them, yet acting like a person much younger than all of them and pressuring all their mental issues on children instead of seeking help. The latter, I might speak of more in detail when I'm ready.
Long time ago I tried calling out for help but back then, the intrusive thoughts won; "Others have it worse, just work harder.", "No one will give you anything for free, no one will care.", "What people will think of you?". and I would only speak about these things in a closed circle of my friends.
I tried my best in silence by not giving up on my creative passion, working restlessly for years, improving. Hoping I could reach the point I can sustain myself purely on what I make.
But the problem is not being self-sufficient. And it's not about my art...
All of my life it has been me, my momma and my granny. The other two important figures weren't there for us, by choice. (which is hard to say if losing someone you loved is worse than not being cared for in the first place) My rather young self at the time didn't put much thought about it as I didn't understand it but something always felt wrong; my only issues at the time was being "that weird, quiet kid with little to no friends". But despite the hardships, my momma has always been my hero, working without a time for a break or rest so we could live happily, to afford something special from time to time.
However in 2014 my momma has been hospitalised and almost lost her life to wrongly treated ovarian cyst (cyst rapture), with enough blood loss to require emergency surgery...
From that point on things went downhill and the result of that we feel to this very day. To stay afloat we fell into a severe dept. (We didn't have any savings, could only rely on borrowing money or loans) And since I was a child as all of this happened, I've only learned about it all throughfully as I entered adulthood, so I wouldn't need to worry about anything and "just be a kid". Which I really understand, but it doesn't make it easier to handle.
And by now, for several years I keep on trying to earn money, so I could free my momma from this chain and let her live, not survive. I always wanted to get through this quietly, because I never, ever wanted to burden anyone with my home problems. But it grew to a point I might need to grab anything to climb towards the light
The goal is $10 000... which is scarily large number.
I list all the options but Kofi is preferred to keep track of the funds!
My commissions are HERE! (the sheet will receive a slight update in upcoming days) My Kofi is HERE! (Level 4 Tea is free headshot drawing every month!) HERE's other services I do (adopts, brushes, etc) I plan to do paid requests for my friday streams on occasion! Anything else I come up with I hope to include in here! Every person who donates will be part of "Thank you" list where I hope to shoutout everybody, cause every penny matters. I want this situation to end...
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randomnessfrome · 25 days ago
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as if this guy wasn't enough of a joke to begin with... then he does this.
I'M CRYING WHY DID TRUMP TAG PAPYRUS
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randomnessfrome · 26 days ago
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If you want a certain pose then please provide a reference 
I'm going to ask you pay up front, I have paypal.  (It it is a large order I'm okay with 75% upfront)
I don't do 'cest anything, NSFW, or overly gory  Please provide a reference for whatever you want me to draw, or a very detailed description  I'm going to have to say no MLP(Horses) anthro or transformers/detailed robots If you have any questions ask me Depending on how detailed it should take me a week or two, but probably less. Can't commission? That's okay, share this 
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randomnessfrome · 26 days ago
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If you want a certain pose then please provide a reference 
I'm going to ask you pay up front, I have paypal.  (It it is a large order I'm okay with 75% upfront)
I don't do 'cest anything, NSFW, or overly gory  Please provide a reference for whatever you want me to draw, or a very detailed description  I'm going to have to say no MLP(Horses) anthro or transformers/detailed robots If you have any questions ask me Depending on how detailed it should take me a week or two, but probably less. Can't commission? That's okay, share this 
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randomnessfrome · 1 month ago
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randomnessfrome · 6 months ago
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The person I reblogged this from deserves to be happy
I tried to scroll past this. I really did
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randomnessfrome · 8 months ago
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Here's one possible set up!
More pictures besides these will be available to Patreons!
Thanks again @Arerona for this and the special additions! <3
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randomnessfrome · 8 months ago
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Here's the "human" side. Sort of... heh.
Made by @arerona
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randomnessfrome · 8 months ago
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The chessboard by itself. It reads: This Board Fills You With Determination
Made by @arerona
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randomnessfrome · 8 months ago
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This arrived from @arerona just before my birthday (last month). I'm finally able to get pictures of this wonderful gift! Thanks so much! I love it! I will have other pictures to follow this one!
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randomnessfrome · 9 months ago
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Wiki is never wro- oh. Um... huh... yeah... about that...
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randomnessfrome · 9 months ago
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Pokémon (c) Nintendo & Game Freak
Art (c) Me
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randomnessfrome · 9 months ago
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To a Fallen Friend
I never really knew your name.
I've never seen your face.
But that doesn't stop the sadness.
Angels in heaven know this grace.
They sing a happy chorus as you soar into the sky.
But those of us on Earth, we miss you.
Though with Angels now you lie.
I hope that you are happy, that you find eternal peace.
That heaven's gates be open to you wide.
Giving you the softest of fleece.
That you be a treasure there as you were down here.
We miss you dearly, our friend.
We hope that you indeed are happy far up where skies are clear.
You will be missed. R.I.P. HiddenMystic.
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randomnessfrome · 10 months ago
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yeah... i didn't make it to work today...
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randomnessfrome · 1 year ago
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Be on the look out for the speedpaint! It will drop at midnight.
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randomnessfrome · 1 year ago
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Color: Green
Food: Sundae
Time of Day: Afternoon
Type of Weather: Sunny
Outfit: Sundress
I Tag: @jack-fr0st @arerona @corrupted-nightshade no idea who else to tag since I only have a small list of friends here anyway.
Let's play a game! you have to pick
A color
A food
A time of day
A type of weather
And finnaly
An outfit!
For the person who tagged you! you can tag up to three people (you don't have to reply and you can't join unless you're tagged)
@f1inl3ey the best boy:> @sunricgod my go to person to send art to! @thorniest-rose my fav freaky writer<3
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randomnessfrome · 1 year ago
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you never cease to surprise me in little ways and this one is easily one of my favorites that you have done!
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Honestly, I love the way this turned out XD Undertale Community Project 2023
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