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whew

saturday

Luckily the race, today’s Shamrock Run, was at noon, allowing me to sleep in a little, and the temps were at 32 F, balmy relative to recent days. It all got me to go out and give it a try with congestion and some weariness from the cold/flu that I’d been battling earlier this week, feeling ‘chipper’ relative to how I was feeling a couple days ago.  Was able to do the 8k in 29:14, 24th overall, 1st master - not my best time but happy under the circumstances.  Pretty spent at the finish.  The legs felt weak from the illness most of the way, never got my footing, it even felt like I was running in altitude with my breathing so labored from the congestion.  Seeing several friends there made it all fun.  Feeling dry and warm now back at home, and looking forward to some rest.

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Just noticed how many likes and comments I got on my shoutout from Sobermovement! I feel so blessed for all the support I’ve received both on Tumblr and Instagram so thank you guys ❤️

P.s. The app I use that’s shown in the pic is called “I’m Done Drinking”

https://instagram.com/p/BWd8-guhU2u/
Instagram: recovery_sobriety 🤳🏻 lg_dutch (personal acct)

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When I was eleven I stole my mom’s xanax Prescribed for anxiety Covered up as a solution for a pinched nerve No one told me the depth at which illness runs through my veins Too sensitive, too weak, too negative Anxious, depressed, paranoid– Terms never mentioned above a hushed whisper Sixth grade I swallowed pills that weren’t mine Surfed the internet on my iPod touch for different ways to deliver the chemicals When I was twelve I started snorting modafinal Lifted from my fathers medicine cabinet Too tired to handle with care Crushed between two spoons That year brought notebooks filled with masterpieces Written in languages I could not understand in the morning Thirteen brought study drugs My brothers adderall carrying me through an accelerated math program far beyond my capabilities The learning disabilities I was unaware of could not hold me down after a few blue lines At fourteen years old OxyContin was a lifeline to which I clung Surgery after surgery my mom was too busy recovering to manage her pills At school the vocab word of the week was insufflate Fifteen brought trauma as I led a pure life into my line of recreation She stole her mom’s pills too We took everything we could find Chasing a feeling she didn’t know and I couldn’t describe Sixteen brought weed and alcohol and Selling adderall in Spanish class To fund the steady stream of opioids and benzodiazepines I needed to keep my hands from shaking Heartbreak and new love came with seventeen A new love to share my passion with She blew lines of oxy off my ass on our first date And Rubbed the leftover powder on my gums Taught me to do blow off of CD’s in my driveway She carried a rolled-up dollar bill in her wallet Always ready for the next hit I loved her And she shattered me Eighteen ended the cycle and A new lover kept me high on marijuana High enough to let down my walls But not enough to stop the shaking Sharing bowls in the backseat of his car Blunt walks on the beach He hates when I tasted like cigarettes Antidepressants stimulants and downers With my name on them Rot on my nightstand As I try to make peace with an addiction recommended by a Psychiatrist

I don’t care if I’m damaged, honestly I think I’m just bored (via c0smicinsignificance)

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53 days sober!

Today marks 53 days free of IV heroin use! I cannot believe this. During my addiction, I was living everyday just waiting to die. Now, I cannot wait to see the next day! Today has been a very good day for me. I had zero cravings, it never crossed my mind once. It also feels so good to have people see what I post on my Facebook and send me messages telling me their stories or even saying that I have encouraged them in some way. In 7 days I will receive my 60 day chip. Wow.

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_ 산토리니 에서 온 와인 🍷. . posted on Instagram - https://ift.tt/2VuzO1B

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Friday Nights with GDJ Bridge 🌉 😊🙏🏼♥️ posted on Instagram - https://ift.tt/2EpBdj9

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Drug free since 2 weeks

Didn’t do drugs since 2 weeks. My weekend was good but now I’m just feeling shitty. I wanna stay drugfree some weeks.

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92 days is when all that is has been and the and , the and more the , the more it will be. ⭐️ posted on Instagram - https://ift.tt/2XyiE55

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5 years ago this handsome boy came into my life and not a day goes by that I don't count my blessings to have a horse like him ❤️ posted on Instagram - https://ift.tt/2SF3KGJ

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