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Something that I wished we talked more about is that some people who recover from eating disorders will become fat. Some people’s bodies will just naturally be a bit bigger, especially after the stress of a lifetime of disordered eating. Weight gain is value neutral and often a part of recovery, and you cannot be fatphobic without directly advocating against people recovering.

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daily reminder, food is not your enemy, the number on scale doesn't define you as a person, the size of your clothing has nothing to do with your personality, and if you struggle with ed, recovery, body image issues or body dysmorphia, i hope it will pass and one day it will become a distant memory for us.

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we MUST start the eating disorders are cringe propaganda lest more of our siblings fall to thinspo

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I need people to realize that binge eating disorders aren’t just ‘overeating’. this is a disability, this is a mental illness, it is a disorder, not a moral failing and people, esp fat people, with it are not pathetic or weak willed or gluttonous or disgusting. We’re people, and deserve to be treated as such.

Support your friends who binge. Don’t make assumptions. Do research and watch out for fatphobia and diet culture centered rhetoric. Respect us, regardless on how or why or when we do or do not recover. Show us love, because god knows very few people do

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I'm so fucking mad about how pervasive diet culture is. Like this shit is literally killing people in so many different ways but I can't open up a recipe book or grocery store magazine without reading words like 'bad' and 'sinful' and 'guilty/guilt free'. Like what the honest fuck is that?

And trying to recover from an eating disorder in that environment is like, I don't know, trying to recover from ingesting poison when the whole world wants to sell you repacked poison pills as pseudo scientific health supplements. And the poison pill industry is worth billions. And everyone around you is talking about how they wished they had the willpower to ingest poison, and sharing tips on how to make the poison go down smoother.

If you're currently recovering despite it all you are brave and powerful and strong as fuck. Don't let anyone diminish that.

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best way to normalize bodies after having had your brain rotted by thinspo and photoshop and looksmaxxers and whatever else is going to a swimming pool. so many people there with so many types of bodies, just existing and being content. very healing if you'll allow it to be

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if youre struggling to accept your stomach fat, whether you're in ed recovery or not, i want to remind you that your body is smart. it's storing fat there because that's where it's most beneficial to you. it's protecting your organs like bubble wrap and it's keeping them warm, which is essential not only for basic functioning but also supporting your many microbiomes. that fat is meant to be there. it's helping you.

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i feel like a lot of people dont acknowledge enough that bodies naturally hold varying amounts of fat *in varying ways*. like there seems to be an expectation of equally distributed fat stores across everyone's bodies when that simply isnt true. it also can change throughout someone's life. and its always ok no matter where it is

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every time i start missing how my body looked when i had an ed i remember i was scared to eat TOAST 💀💀 like i deadass had NIGHTMARES about eating toast w butter and jam. are u hearing this i was LOSING MY SHIT over TOAST bro 😭😭😭 im not going back to that are you kidding

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Some Things That Have Happened After 18 Months Of Recovery

~10kg heavier (much of which is muscle)

eyes focus better

more stomach fat, but not much anywhere else since thats just where my body stores it

lil back rolls when i twist to the side

no longer freezing cold all the time

nails are thicker and grow faster

hair no longer falls out

not exhausted doing anything more intense than sitting down

interests unrelated to food are back

able to discern food opinions i actually have from what my ed was telling me/what my body was desparate for

Some Things That Have Not Happened As A Result

people show less interest in me

people value me less

people think im greedy

i lose control around food

i stop exercising

i gain weight exponentially

i become ugly/people think im ugly

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wanna know the number one thing that helped me get out of my ed? getting rid of the numbers. deleting my calorie tracking app. stopping weighing myself. stopping counting out nuts or weighing food or whatever. i cannot reccomend this enough.

dont just stop doing it - make it impossible. have someone hide your kitchen and bathroom scales, or get rid of them. scratch nutrition information off packaging. get rid of those numbers.