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what do i do if the rest i need is making me feel worse, but overexertion makes me feel worse too. i don't want to exist rn🫠

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makeup is art ,, not gender ,, let me be a breathtaking boi 🤗

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adventure time lore is insane. it starts off just being a goofy kids show that has magic for no reason, but then you learn that all magic users are manic and/or depressed (what betty calls sadness and madness). because it turns out magic is actually a cosmic force beyond mortal comprehension, that itself was learned from cosmic entities that predated the existence of time itself inside a sea of monsters. and "magic" really is just understanding more about the nature of the universe than most people. that, in a way, reality isnt "real" and understanding that allows you to mold it. and thats magic. but that drives you to insanity and/or apathy. and there are beings who hold significant cosmic importance who are more prone to magic. and the reason magic became prevalent on earth is because of a nuclear war a thousand years ago, which released the entity that represents the destruction of all life onto the world. and after a nuclear apocalypse this gave way to a new earth, where magic could thrive. but a lot of the beings we see arent even magical, theyre just mutants from what happened 1000 years ago. and humanity as we know it has been all but wiped out. but everything stays the same because cycles of war and violence continue. and it doesnt matter if its nukes or magic. everything stays the same, but still changes.

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FUUUUUCCCCCKKKKKKK i got tomorrow tomorrow

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If you are reading thing just remember how fucking loved you are :))

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Do you ever just lie down to sleep and you suddenly feel all your bones sink to the bottom of your body like a fucken whale carcass

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im not entirely sure what's going on lately, kinda mental 😇💁🏼‍♂️

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having fun removing uneven textures on your skin will lead to more fun textures on your skin to remove :) but watch out (vicious cycle)

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Not knowing whats happening to your body but knowing something is Really Wrong is really scary. Im sorry if anyone else is going through that. 🫂

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I think that it's really important for people to realize that being disabled is traumatic. genuinely. your body and brain feel like they are breaking down and wrong. you are in constant heavy stress from stuff like chronic pain. most disabled people i know have a somewhat regular emotional break down from the trauma of it all. and we are expected to just smile through it by society, to not be in the way, to not be an issue.

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not fine 😗😀

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the incredible harsh quiet revelation that you have when you are diagnosed with chronic illness(es) is that you will never be healthy again. I don't think able bodied people are able to understand what it means to just resign to the fact that your life is not just yours anymore. you share it with a weight that will be with you until you are gone from this world.

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RAAAHHHH

《haii guys :3》