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[riegan]

FGTBO Pt. 18 (END)

AN: I’m so sad to say that this is the last part to this story. Don’t fret though, I will be posting more stories as they come but they are not exclusive to ATL so if you have anyone specific you would like me to write about just send in a request with their name and what you want the story about.  

Warning- Talk of death/suicide, swearing

Word Count- 783

Part 1  Part 2  Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  Part 6  Part 7  Part 8  Part 9  Part 10  Part 11  Part 12  Part 13  Part 14  Part 15  Part 16  Part 17 

I looked around Alex as he opened the door to find all the guys from Pierce The Veil, Sleeping With Sirens, Of Mice & Men, and the rest of All Time Low standing in the hall outside our door. “We’re all going to go get some food, do you two want to come?” Jack asks with a small smile. Alex turned to look at me, silently asking if I wanted to go. “I think I’m just going to stay here, but if you want to go then go, just don’t forget your room key again.” I say walking back to the bed, chuckling to myself at the memory of Alex locking himself out of his room a few weeks ago. Alex nods and turns back to the guys, “I’m going to stay with her just in case.” Alex said and Jack nods, “I agree, she shouldn’t be alone.” That’s the last thing I could hear before they got really quiet and I was too lazy to walk back over and find out what they were saying. After a couple of minutes I heard the door close and Alex walked back into view, and Jack walked over to tell the rest of the group what he and Alex had just discussed. Alex crawled back into bed and I pressed play on our show as he pulled me into his side once again. An hour or so went by before there was another knock on the door, this time I decided to stay in bed while Alex got up to answer it. As soon as the door opened all of the guys that were previously in the hallway were now flooding into the hotel room carrying a bunch of food and saying different versions of ‘Hello’ as they entered the room and I smile. I was hugging Kellin, when Austin walked over with a huge cake box in his hand and I send him a confused look, causing him to smile and open the lid to reveal a large cake with the words, “We’re sorry your best friend died” written across the top in purple frosting and I can’t help the tears that build in my eyes as I chuckle. “You guys are amazing! Thank you all!” I call out to the large group of people now stuffed in my hotel room. I really was lucky enough to be able to call these amazing weirdos, not only my friends, but my family. I giggle as I get trapped in the middle of a giant group hug, and I not only hear, but feel all of them laugh. Soon both of the queen size hotel beds are pushed together and everyone is piled onto them with all sorts of food and cake and we’re all watching ‘The Nightmare Before Christmas’. I smile up at Alex as he slips his arm over my shoulders and I instinctively lean into his side. “Can I kiss you?” He whispers, still holding eye contact with me and I nod. He looks shocked at first but quickly leans in, pressing his lips softly against mine and I smile when I hear the guys around us start to wolf whistle and I hear a few, “Finally!”’s around the room and I pull away, smiling as my cheeks burn. I feel my phone vibrate in my back pocket so I pull it out to find notifications from Kellin, Vic, Jaime, Austin, Alan, Tino, Zack, and Rian all tagging Alex and I in photos of us kissing. I was nervous at first, afraid that people would start sending hate but that quickly changed when I saw someone comment, “The Pop-Punk Power Couple is finally official!” and suddenly that was the main thing people were commenting and hash tagging. #PopPunkPowerCouple was coming up in almost every notification I received until it finally became a trending hashtag. I smiled, opening my camera and taking a picture of the room full of giant man-children, posting it with the caption, “Family isn’t always blood, and life isn’t always easy, but if you have an amazing ‘family’ it makes it much more bearable.” Tagging everyone in it and locking my phone again ready to enjoy the rest of my night with people I love and who love me. I finally felt at peace knowing Logan was watching over me and he was finally somewhere he could be happy. We were both finally going to be okay.

 The End.     

[riegan]

Finally Going To Be Okay Series

Pairing- Alex + Reader

Summary: Something drastic happens while you’re on tour, causing you and the boys of All Time Low to go back to your hometown, helping you gain something you never thought possible.

Part One

Part Two 

Part Three

Part Four

Part Five

Part Six

Part Seven

Part Eight 

Part Nine

Part Ten

Part Eleven

Part Twelve  

Part Thirteen 

Part Fourteen

Part Fifteen 

Part Sixteen

Part Seventeen 

[riegan]

FGTBO Pt. 17

AN: The next part is the last part to this story and I’m kind of sad for it to be over but don’t worry, I have more writing coming your way and it’s not exclusively ATL so if you have anyone specific you want me to write about, just send in a request and I will get to it ASAP! Thank you guys for sticking through this with me and reading my awful writing even if you just started reading today, I greatly appreciate your and your support! 

Warning- Talk of death/suicide, swearing

Word Count- 844

Part 1  Part 2  Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  Part 6  Part 7  Part 8  Part 9  Part 10  Part 11  Part 12  Part 13  Part 14  Part 15  Part 16  

Staring back at me from inside my bag is the letter that Logan wrote to me before he died. I grab the envelope and sit on the edge of the bed, staring at my name scrawled across the front in messy black ink, debating whether I should open it or not. I only half hear Alex open the bathroom door as my head and my heart continue their battle, my heart says yes but my head says no and I’m not sure what to do. I’m finally pulled out of my trance when Alex sits down next to me and I look up at him, he looks at me with sad eyes, “You don’t have to read it right now if you don’t want to…” He says softly, “but if you do, I’m right here with you.” Alex continues as he intertwines his fingers with mine. I nod, my eyes begin to fill with tears as Alex lets got of my hand and I slowly open the letter, pulling out the neatly folded paper and gently unfolding it.

  (Y/N), I’m sorry I broke our promise but I just couldn’t keep going. Please don’t be mad at me and please do not blame yourself, there was nothing you could have said or done to stop me this time, I needed to go. I’ll always be by your side when you need me and even sometimes when you don’t. Don’t let this ruin your time on tour, have fun and keep doing what you love. Maybe even try singing with Alex, you two always sounded so good together. I remember how when I couldn’t sleep, I would call you and you would sing me some random song you had stuck in your head, damn that was a long time ago. I’m really going to miss you, more than anyone. Don’t let what I did change you okay? Stay the amazing optimist you are and keep your head up, got it? Don’t shut the guys out just because you’re sad, don’t close yourself off just because I decided I wanted out, they just want to help you, so for once in your life let them help you. Tell them I said Hi and to keep an eye on you for me, tell them I miss them too. It’s been a long time since we’ve seen each other but I guess that’s what happens when you get famous huh? Please don’t hate me for not calling you, I knew you would try and talk me out of it but I have to go, I’m not supposed to be here anymore, this is the end of my fight. Thank you for being such a huge part of my life and showing me how to be a better person. If it wasn’t for you, I would have done this a long time ago, but you are what kept me alive. If you haven’t already figured it out for yourself (I wouldn’t be surprised), you love Alex and Alex loves you, more than just friends so don’t lock him out because all he wants is what’s best for you and he wants to help you. Learn to let your walls down or at least to let him in. I love you (Y/N), I always will even when I’m gone. You are the best friend anyone could ever ask for. I’ll see you 50 years, no sooner than that, got it? I love you (Y/N), be happy and know I’ll always watch over you. - Love Logan

Tears were rolling down my cheeks as I folded the letter back up and slid it back into the envelope. I look over to see Alex wiping away the tears under his eyes and I just wrapped my arms around his waist as I nuzzled my face into the crook of his neck and cried as he held me. After a while I got up to put the letter back in my bag before crawling back into bed and under the covers with Alex, sliding my fingers into his as I let my head rest on his shoulder. We sat like that in silence for quite a while, simply enjoying each other’s support as we let what happened and what we just read sink in. “Are you okay?” Alex asks, just above a whisper, resting his head against the headboard. “Yea, I guess, it’s a lot to take in. At least now he doesn’t feel the constant grief and pain that he did while he was alive.” I say with a small nod. “Do you want to watch some more Supernatural? Would that help?” Alex asks, hoping to get your mind off of Logan. I simply nod, grabbing the remote off the nightstand and handing it to Alex. After the second episode, there was a knock at the door and I shove Alex with a giggle, practically pushing him off the bed to go answer it, but curiosity got the best of me and I trailed behind him to see who it was.

[riegan]

FGTBO Pt. 17

AN: The next part is the last part to this story and I’m kind of sad for it to be over but don’t worry, I have more writing coming your way and it’s not exclusively ATL so if you have anyone specific you want me to write about, just send in a request and I will get to it ASAP! Thank you guys for sticking through this with me and reading my awful writing even if you just started reading today, I greatly appreciate your and your support! 

Warning- Talk of death/suicide, swearing

Word Count- 844

Part 1  Part 2  Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  Part 6  Part 7  Part 8  Part 9  Part 10  Part 11  Part 12  Part 13  Part 14  Part 15  Part 16  

Staring back at me from inside my bag is the letter that Logan wrote to me before he died. I grab the envelope and sit on the edge of the bed, staring at my name scrawled across the front in messy black ink, debating whether I should open it or not. I only half hear Alex open the bathroom door as my head and my heart continue their battle, my heart says yes but my head says no and I’m not sure what to do. I’m finally pulled out of my trance when Alex sits down next to me and I look up at him, he looks at me with sad eyes, “You don’t have to read it right now if you don’t want to…” He says softly, “but if you do, I’m right here with you.” Alex continues as he intertwines his fingers with mine. I nod, my eyes begin to fill with tears as Alex lets got of my hand and I slowly open the letter, pulling out the neatly folded paper and gently unfolding it.

  (Y/N), I’m sorry I broke our promise but I just couldn’t keep going. Please don’t be mad at me and please do not blame yourself, there was nothing you could have said or done to stop me this time, I needed to go. I’ll always be by your side when you need me and even sometimes when you don’t. Don’t let this ruin your time on tour, have fun and keep doing what you love. Maybe even try singing with Alex, you two always sounded so good together. I remember how when I couldn't sleep, I would call you and you would sing me some random song you had stuck in your head, damn that was a long time ago. I’m really going to miss you, more than anyone. Don’t let what I did change you okay? Stay the amazing optimist you are and keep your head up, got it? Don’t shut the guys out just because you’re sad, don’t close yourself off just because I decided I wanted out, they just want to help you, so for once in your life let them help you. Tell them I said Hi and to keep an eye on you for me, tell them I miss them too. It’s been a long time since we’ve seen each other but I guess that’s what happens when you get famous huh? Please don’t hate me for not calling you, I knew you would try and talk me out of it but I have to go, I’m not supposed to be here anymore, this is the end of my fight. Thank you for being such a huge part of my life and showing me how to be a better person. If it wasn’t for you, I would have done this a long time ago, but you are what kept me alive. If you haven’t already figured it out for yourself (I wouldn’t be surprised), you love Alex and Alex loves you, more than just friends so don’t lock him out because all he wants is what’s best for you and he wants to help you. Learn to let your walls down or at least to let him in. I love you (Y/N), I always will even when I’m gone. You are the best friend anyone could ever ask for. I’ll see you 50 years, no sooner than that, got it? I love you (Y/N), be happy and know I’ll always watch over you. - Love Logan

 Tears were rolling down my cheeks as I folded the letter back up and slid it back into the envelope. I look over to see Alex wiping away the tears under his eyes and I just wrapped my arms around his waist as I nuzzled my face into the crook of his neck and cried as he held me. After a while I got up to put the letter back in my bag before crawling back into bed and under the covers with Alex, sliding my fingers into his as I let my head rest on his shoulder. We sat like that in silence for quite a while, simply enjoying each other's support as we let what happened and what we just read sink in. “Are you okay?” Alex asks, just above a whisper, resting his head against the headboard. “Yea, I guess, it’s a lot to take in. At least now he doesn’t feel the constant grief and pain that he did while he was alive.” I say with a small nod. “Do you want to watch some more Supernatural? Would that help?” Alex asks, hoping to get your mind off of Logan. I simply nod, grabbing the remote off the nightstand and handing it to Alex. After the second episode, there was a knock at the door and I shove Alex with a giggle, practically pushing him off the bed to go answer it, but curiosity got the best of me and I trailed behind him to see who it was.

[riegan]

FGTBO Pt. 16

AN: I am SO sorry it’s been so long since I’ve posted! I’m awful at remembering to post but i promise I’ll be better about it in the future!!! 

Warning- Talk of death/suicide, swearing

Word Count- 912

Part 1  Part 2  Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  Part 6  Part 7  Part 8  Part 9  Part 10  Part 11  Part 12  Part 13  Part 14  Part 15  

We spend the next two hours going through all of the photos, laughing at all the crazy but fun memories we made through the years. “Alright, who’s hungry?” I ask after placing all of the photos back in the box, getting a chorus of approval from around the room and I smile. “Well, everyone wash their hands cause I have a job for everyone to help with making dinner.” My mother said with a smirk as everyone made their way to the sink to wash their hands and and I smile as I walk with her to the kitchen and washing my hands. Dinner was finished quickly, having help from everyone and now we were all sat around the table, telling stories and and plans for the future and once that was over, everyone did their part in cleaning up dinner. Before I knew it, it was time for everyone to grab their bags and get in the car to head to the airport to finish the last few weeks of Warped. The ride to the airport was filled with songs from when we were in high school, all of us rocking out and laughing the whole way there. Soon we pulled up outside the airport and everyone got out of the car to grab our bags and hug my mother. I was the last to hug her, holding her as tight as I could, “Be safe.” She said as she held me close. “Call me every chance you get, okay?” “I know mom, I will. I love you!” I say with tears in my eyes. “I love you too!” She said, and with that, I let go and turned around before I would cry. My mother pulled Alex to the side before she left, “Keep her safe for me, okay?” She asked with a sad smile. “I always do.” Alex said with a reassuring smile before they both went their separate ways. It wasn’t long before we were boarding the plane and on our way back to the city we had left just a few days ago. We didn’t get to the hotel until around three in the morning and by the time everyone got their room keys and we were in the elevator on our way to the fourth floor, I was starting to fall asleep. Once Alex and I got to our room, I immediately flopped face-first into the pillows, hearing Alex laugh from behind me and I flip him off, which only caused him to laugh harder. “I call shower first!” I yell as I sit up and Alex looks startled but his expression quickly changes to one of amusement and I ‘run’ to the bathroom and turn on the shower. I quickly undress and get in, instantly loving the slight burn I get from the hot water, relaxing my muscles and cleansing my skin. Once I’m finished in the shower I walk out of the bathroom in nothing but a towel and I hear Alex sigh dramatically, “Finally!” I can’t stop the giggle that escapes my lips, “Go get in the damn shower you fucking weirdo.” Alex just chuckles as he walks into the bathroom and closes the door. When Alex is finished with his shower and is dressed, he climbs into bed next to me, grabbing his phone and turning on some music, knowing it helps me fall asleep. He shuts off the lamp next to the bed, causing complete darkness and pulls me into his side and it’s not long before I fall asleep as Alex softly tickles my arm.

I’m woken up by the sound of Alex singing ‘Baby Got Back’ while brushing his teeth wearing only his boxers and I can’t help but laugh as I slide out of bed and find my way into the bathroom with him, grabbing my toothbrush and starting my morning routine. Alex starts the song over and we both start sing it with our mouths full of toothpaste, laughing the entire time. “What do you want to do today?” Alex asked once he rinsed his mouth out. I spit out the mouthwash I had just been wishing, “I kind of just want to stay in bed today.” I say with a small shrug, “But if you want to go out with friends or something that’s fine, I’m good here so don’t feel like you have to stay.” I say with a genuine smile as I look at him in the mirror. “No it’s okay, I’ll stay here with you, there’s nothing to really do here anyways.” Alex said with a shrug as he wrapped his arms around my waist, standing behind me and looking at me through the mirror. “Are you sure? Because I really am okay here if you want to go out Alex, I promise.” I say, not wanting him to miss out on anything because of me. “I’m sure (Y/N), we can just stay in bed and cuddle today.” He said, turning me in his arms so he can kiss my nose before moving down to kiss my lips. We make our way back into the bedroom and hook my laptop up to the T.V. so that we can watch Netflix while we spend the day in bed. After a while Alex gets up to go to the bathroom and I get up to grab my phone charger from my bag but my heart sinks as soon as I open it.

[riegan]

FGTBO Pt. 16

AN: I am SO sorry it’s been so long since I’ve posted! I’m awful at remembering to post but i promise I’ll be better about it in the future!!! 

Warning- Talk of death/suicide, swearing

Word Count- 912

Part 1  Part 2  Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  Part 6  Part 7  Part 8  Part 9  Part 10  Part 11  Part 12  Part 13  Part 14  Part 15  

We spend the next two hours going through all of the photos, laughing at all the crazy but fun memories we made through the years. “Alright, who’s hungry?” I ask after placing all of the photos back in the box, getting a chorus of approval from around the room and I smile. “Well, everyone wash their hands cause I have a job for everyone to help with making dinner.” My mother said with a smirk as everyone made their way to the sink to wash their hands and and I smile as I walk with her to the kitchen and washing my hands. Dinner was finished quickly, having help from everyone and now we were all sat around the table, telling stories and and plans for the future and once that was over, everyone did their part in cleaning up dinner. Before I knew it, it was time for everyone to grab their bags and get in the car to head to the airport to finish the last few weeks of Warped. The ride to the airport was filled with songs from when we were in high school, all of us rocking out and laughing the whole way there. Soon we pulled up outside the airport and everyone got out of the car to grab our bags and hug my mother. I was the last to hug her, holding her as tight as I could, “Be safe.” She said as she held me close. “Call me every chance you get, okay?” “I know mom, I will. I love you!” I say with tears in my eyes. “I love you too!” She said, and with that, I let go and turned around before I would cry. My mother pulled Alex to the side before she left, “Keep her safe for me, okay?” She asked with a sad smile. “I always do.” Alex said with a reassuring smile before they both went their separate ways. It wasn’t long before we were boarding the plane and on our way back to the city we had left just a few days ago. We didn’t get to the hotel until around three in the morning and by the time everyone got their room keys and we were in the elevator on our way to the fourth floor, I was starting to fall asleep. Once Alex and I got to our room, I immediately flopped face-first into the pillows, hearing Alex laugh from behind me and I flip him off, which only caused him to laugh harder. “I call shower first!” I yell as I sit up and Alex looks startled but his expression quickly changes to one of amusement and I ‘run’ to the bathroom and turn on the shower. I quickly undress and get in, instantly loving the slight burn I get from the hot water, relaxing my muscles and cleansing my skin. Once I’m finished in the shower I walk out of the bathroom in nothing but a towel and I hear Alex sigh dramatically, “Finally!” I can’t stop the giggle that escapes my lips, “Go get in the damn shower you fucking weirdo.” Alex just chuckles as he walks into the bathroom and closes the door. When Alex is finished with his shower and is dressed, he climbs into bed next to me, grabbing his phone and turning on some music, knowing it helps me fall asleep. He shuts off the lamp next to the bed, causing complete darkness and pulls me into his side and it’s not long before I fall asleep as Alex softly tickles my arm.

I’m woken up by the sound of Alex singing ‘Baby Got Back’ while brushing his teeth wearing only his boxers and I can’t help but laugh as I slide out of bed and find my way into the bathroom with him, grabbing my toothbrush and starting my morning routine. Alex starts the song over and we both start sing it with our mouths full of toothpaste, laughing the entire time. “What do you want to do today?” Alex asked once he rinsed his mouth out. I spit out the mouthwash I had just been wishing, “I kind of just want to stay in bed today.” I say with a small shrug, “But if you want to go out with friends or something that’s fine, I’m good here so don’t feel like you have to stay.” I say with a genuine smile as I look at him in the mirror. “No it’s okay, I’ll stay here with you, there’s nothing to really do here anyways.” Alex said with a shrug as he wrapped his arms around my waist, standing behind me and looking at me through the mirror. “Are you sure? Because I really am okay here if you want to go out Alex, I promise.” I say, not wanting him to miss out on anything because of me. “I’m sure (Y/N), we can just stay in bed and cuddle today.” He said, turning me in his arms so he can kiss my nose before moving down to kiss my lips. We make our way back into the bedroom and hook my laptop up to the T.V. so that we can watch Netflix while we spend the day in bed. After a while Alex gets up to go to the bathroom and I get up to grab my phone charger from my bag but my heart sinks as soon as I open it.

[riegan]

Synonyms For Very

This is a masterlist of words that you may use alongside the word very, very being one of the most common words that are used when writing. I hope this helps you as much as it helps me in our writing seem more sophisticated and unique.��

A:

Very accurate - exact Very afraid - fearful Very angry - furious - livid Very annoying - exasperating

B:

Very bad- atrocious Very beautiful- exquisite Very big- immense Very boring- dull Very bright- luminous Very busy- swamped

C:

Very calm- serene Very careful- cautious Very cheap- stingy Very clean- spotless Very clear- obvious Very clever- intelligent Very cold- freezing Very colourful/colorful- vibrant Very competitive- cutthroat Very complete- comprehensive Very confused- perplexed Very conventional- conservative Very creative- innovative Very crowded- bustling Very cute- adorable

D:

Very dangerous- perilous Very dear- cherished Very deep- profound Very depressed- despondent Very detailed- meticulous Very different- disparate Very difficult- arduous Very dirty- filthy Very dry- arid Very dull- tedious

E:

Very eager - keen Very easy - effortless Very empty - desolate Very excited - thrilled Very exciting - exhilarating Very expensive - costly

F:

Very fancy- lavish Very fast- swift Very fat- obese Very friendly- amiable Very frightened- alarmed Very frightening- terrifying Very funny- hilarious

G:

Very glad- overjoyed Very good- excellent Very great- terrific

H:

Very happy- ecstatic Very hard- difficult Very hard-to-find- rare Very heavy- leaden Very high- soaring Very hot- sweltering Very huge- colossal Very hungry- ravenous Very hurt- battered

I:

Very important - crucial Very intelligent - brilliant Very interesting - captivating

J:

Very judgemental - prejudice

K:

L:

Very large- huge Very lazy- indolent Very little- tiny Very lively- vivacious Very long- extensive Very long-term- enduring Very loose- slack Very loud- thunderous Very loved- adored

M:

Very mean- cruel / ruthless Very messy- slovenly

N:

Very neat- immaculate Very necessary- essential Very nervous- apprehensive Very nice- kind Very noisy- deafening

O:

Very often- frequently Very old- ancient Very old-fashioned- archaic Very open- transparent

P:

Very painful- excruciating Very pale- ashen Very perfect- flawless Very poor- destitute Very powerful- compelling Very pretty- beautiful

Q:

Very quick- rapid Very quiet- hushed

R:

Very rainy- pouring Very rich- wealthy

S:

Very sad- sorrowful Very scary- chilling Very serious- grave Very sharp- keen Very shiny- gleaming Very short- brief Very shy- timid Very simple- basic Very skinny- skeletal Very slow- sluggish Very small- petite Very smart- intelligent Very smelly- pungent Very smooth- sleek Very soft- downy Very sorry- apologetic Very special- exceptional Very strong- forceful Very stupid- idiotic Very sure- certain Very sweet- thoughtful

T:

Very talented- gifted Very tall- towering Very tasty- delicious Very thirsty- parched Very tight- constricting Very tiny-minuscule Very tired- exhausted

U:

Very ugly- hideous Very unhappy- miserable Very unusual- incongruous Very upset- distraught

V:

W:

Very warm- hot Very weak- frail Very well-to-do- wealthy Very wet- soaked Very wide- expansive Very willing- eager Very windy- blustery Very wise- sage Very worried- distressed

X:

Y:

Z:

A/N: If you know of any more words I can add please message me.

[riegan]

Even if others abandon you, you must never abandon yourself.

Terry Helwig (via quotemadness)

[riegan]

FGTBO Pt. 15

AN: This part is a little long but here you go! Only 3 more parts until the end of the story!!!

Word Count- 1265

Warning- Talk of death/suicide, swearing

Part 1  Part 2  Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  Part 6  Part 7  Part 8  Part 9  Part 10  Part 11  Part 12  Part 13  Part 14    

I wake up to Alex rubbing my back and whispering in a soft voice, “(Y/N), it’s time to get up. Come on, you’ve got to get up.” He says in a happy voice and I can practically hear the smile on his face. “No.” I groan, nuzzling my face deeper into the pillow. “Come on (Y/N) you have to get up now.” He somehow sounds even happier now, “I’m not leaving you alone until you get up.” I crack one eye open, looking over at Alex laying next to me with a sweet smile on his face. “Good morning Sleeping Beauty.” He said amused. “Fuck off.” I groan, rolling onto my back and rubbing my eyes. “Rude!” Alex says sarcastically and I glare at him but I can’t help the smile that pulls at my lips and he chuckles. “UGH!” I groan, pulling myself out of bed and into the bathroom to get “ready-ish” for the day, pretty much just brushing my teeth and hair before deciding to crawl back into bed with Alex. i curl into his side and close my eyes, ready to fall back asleep. “What are you doing?” Alex asks in an amused tone. “Going back to sleep now shut up.” I yawned, nuzzling deeper into his side as he chuckles, wrapping his arms around my waist and I quickly fall back asleep.

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[riegan]

FGTBO Pt. 15

AN: This part is a little long but here you go! Only 3 more parts until the end of the story!!!

Word Count- 1265

Warning- Talk of death/suicide, swearing

Part 1  Part 2  Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  Part 6  Part 7  Part 8  Part 9  Part 10  Part 11  Part 12  Part 13  Part 14    

I wake up to Alex rubbing my back and whispering in a soft voice, “(Y/N), it’s time to get up. Come on, you’ve got to get up.” He says in a happy voice and I can practically hear the smile on his face. “No.” I groan, nuzzling my face deeper into the pillow. “Come on (Y/N) you have to get up now.” He somehow sounds even happier now, “I’m not leaving you alone until you get up.” I crack one eye open, looking over at Alex laying next to me with a sweet smile on his face. “Good morning Sleeping Beauty.” He said amused. “Fuck off.” I groan, rolling onto my back and rubbing my eyes. “Rude!” Alex says sarcastically and I glare at him but I can’t help the smile that pulls at my lips and he chuckles. “UGH!” I groan, pulling myself out of bed and into the bathroom to get “ready-ish” for the day, pretty much just brushing my teeth and hair before deciding to crawl back into bed with Alex. i curl into his side and close my eyes, ready to fall back asleep. “What are you doing?” Alex asks in an amused tone. “Going back to sleep now shut up.” I yawned, nuzzling deeper into his side as he chuckles, wrapping his arms around my waist and I quickly fall back asleep.

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[riegan]

FGTBO Pt. 15

AN: This part is a little long but here you go! Only 3 more parts until the end of the story!!!

Word Count- 1265

Warning- Talk of death/suicide, swearing

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I wake up to Alex rubbing my back and whispering in a soft voice, “(Y/N), it’s time to get up. Come on, you’ve got to get up.” He says in a happy voice and I can practically hear the smile on his face. “No.” I groan, nuzzling my face deeper into the pillow. “Come on (Y/N) you have to get up now.” He somehow sounds even happier now, “I’m not leaving you alone until you get up.” I crack one eye open, looking over at Alex laying next to me with a sweet smile on his face. “Good morning Sleeping Beauty.” He said amused. “Fuck off.” I groan, rolling onto my back and rubbing my eyes. “Rude!” Alex says sarcastically and I glare at him but I can’t help the smile that pulls at my lips and he chuckles. “UGH!” I groan, pulling myself out of bed and into the bathroom to get “ready-ish” for the day, pretty much just brushing my teeth and hair before deciding to crawl back into bed with Alex. i curl into his side and close my eyes, ready to fall back asleep. “What are you doing?” Alex asks in an amused tone. “Going back to sleep now shut up.” I yawned, nuzzling deeper into his side as he chuckles, wrapping his arms around my waist and I quickly fall back asleep.

I wake up a little while later to the sound of people talking but i don’t open my eyes, determined to go to sleep once again but I hear Jack say, “Awe, look at those two lovebirds, all cuddled up together.” just above a whisper. “They really should just start dating already.” Zack said with a ‘matter-of-fact’ tone. “More like get married and move in together.” Rian said in an amused tone. “True.” Zack agreed. Suddenly there is the sound of a camera shutter and I assume one of them took a picture. I shift in Alex’s arms and he tightens his hold, keeping me close and I slowly open my eyes to find Zack, Jack, and Rian standing at the foot of my bed with amused looks on their faces. “What? Stop looking at me like that, it’s weird.” I frown as they all exchange odd glances before walking out without another word from any of them and leaving me extremely confused. After a few minutes my phone lit up with a text notification from Rian so I open it, seeing a picture of Alex and I cuddling with my back against his chest and his arm wrapped around my waist and I couldn’t help but smile as I looked at the picture. I feel Alex softly press his lips against my cheek, “I like that picture, but they're going to find out sooner or later.” Alex said softly and I sigh. “I know but for now they don’t need to know.” I say just above a whisper. After a few more minutes of us cuddles and kisses, Alex and I  finally wander into the kitchen where my mother is making breakfast and the rest of the guys are sitting around the table chatting. “Well look who finally crawled out of bed before 11 O’clock, I’m so proud! That’s a new record for you two.” My mother says in a teasing tone and I smile at her over my shoulder as I reach to grab a mug from the cupboard and fill it with orange juice. “So what time are you going to see Angela?” My mother asks in a soft tone. “Around noon-ish I think. I don’t plan on staying, just grabbing what I need and leaving .” I said as I bit into a piece of bacon as my mother pretends to glare at me from her place in front of the stove. “Alright, who’s hungry?” She announced, getting a chorus of cheers from the boys, the sound filling the kitchen and she chuckles as everyone grabs their plates and being to fill them with food. After breakfast I hop in the shower and get dressed in some black skinny jeans and an old Green Day shit my black high-top vans and a gray beanie to top it off. I leave my room to find Alex playing on his phone, sitting at the kitchen island, “Hey.” I say, offering him a warm smile. “Hey.” He says, returning my smile. “Do you want to come with me? You don’t have to if you don’t want to.” I say with a shrug. “Yea, if you want me to, I’ll go with you, it’s not a problem.” He says with a reassuring smile and I relax slightly. “Okay, are you ready to go?” I ask, grabbing the keys to the car off of the hook by the door and looking at Alex over my shoulder. “Yea, let’s go.” He said, quickly following me to the car and getting in. It’s only a short drive to Logan’s so before I know it, we’re pulling up outside of the familiar house that I used to spend most of my time and I feel the tears burning at the back of my eyes. I half expect Logan to be waiting for me on the front porch like he used to always do when we were in high school, but of course, he’s nowhere to be found. I wipe at my eyes as I step out of the car and walk hand-in-hand with Alex, all the way to the front door before quickly knocking, wanting nothing more than to get this over with so I can go home and hide. Alex squeezes my hand as the door opens and Angela steps into view, pulling me into a hug before I have a chance to say anything and I stand frozen for a moment before hugging her back. After a few moments we pull apart and she sighs, leaning over inside the house to grab a small box full of photos and the letter that Logan left for me the day he died. When I saw the writing, it felt like a ton of bricks had landed on my chest and I couldn’t breath. Angela gave me a sad look and I quickly hugged her before turning, Alex and I making our way back to the car. Once we get to the car, I hand Alex the keys and crawl into the passenger seat, finally letting the tears fall freely from my eyes all the way back to my home. When we pull into the driveway, I finally compose myself and slide out of the car, grabbing the small box Angela had given me and I walk into the house with Alex right behind me. We make our way to the living room where everyone was gathered, watching T.V., my mother looked up from her phone, “How did it go?” She asked and Rian paused whatever they were watching and everyone looked at Alex and I standing in the doorway. “It went better than I thought actually. She gave me this box of old pictures and a note that Logan left for me before he died.” I say with a slight shrug. “Well let’s see the pictures, maybe it’ll cheer you up.” Jack suggests with an unsure look and I smile at him, “Okay, let’s do it.” I say, walking over and and sitting on the floor in front of the coffee table, Alex making his place on the couch right behind me and I lean back against his legs as I slowly slide the lid off the box of photos.

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Finally Going To Be Okay Pt. 14

AN: I am SO sorry I took SO long to update! I am so awful about remembering to update, but here is part 14 lovelies! 

Part 1  Part 2  Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  Part 6  Part 7  Part 8 Part 9  Part 10  Part 11  Part 12  Part 13  

Word Count- 852

Warning- Talk of death/suicide, swearing

My eyes begin to flutter but never quite open, as someone shuffles their arms around me and picks me up bridal style. I instinctively wrap my arms around their neck, inhaling Alex’ s familiar scent and relaxing in his arms as he carries me into the house and gently sets me on my bed. He slips his arms out from beneath me and I grab his wrist, “Please don’t leave.” I whisper as tears begin to well in my eyes, a heavy sadness settling in my chest at the thought of being left alone. “I wasn’t planning on it, I was just going to get you some more comfortable clothes to sleep in.” Alex said, squeezing my hand before walking over to my bag, grabbing my sweats and one of his shirts and helping me get changed then tucking me into the blankets before crawling in next to me and pulling me into his side. We sit in silence for a little while until I ask, “Alex, are you sleeping?” “No, why? What’s wrong?” He asks in a quiet but concerned tone, sliding his hand up and down against my arm. Suddenly the words were coming out of my mouth before my mind had a chance to comprehend them, “I love you Alex and not just as a friend. I understand if this makes you uncomfortable and you want to leave, it’s just that, with everything that’s been going on I needed to get some of the weight off my chest… And I felt like you deserved to know…” I trailed off, by this point we were both sitting up and I can’t help but run my hands through my hair and play with the ends of it, a nervous habit I picked up a long time ago. “WOW…” Alex huffed, looking like he just got slapped in the face. “I know, I’m sorry. Please just forget I said anything. Just pretend it never happened.” I rush quickly, hoping to fix the mess I just made of our relationship. “No, no (Y/N) it’s okay, it’s just… It’s a lot to process but I’m glad you told me because I haven’t really told you everything about why Lisa left me. She told me when she left, ‘Alex, you’re in love with (Y/N). You might not realize it now but you do. The way you look at her, talk to her, the way you would do absolutely anything for her at anytime, it’s completely obvious. I’m clearly just holding you back from figuring it out so please,  go be happy with her okay? Just don’t forget to send me an invite to the wedding.’ And at the time I thought it was a cruel joke but once I finally got over the shock of her leaving me I realized she was right. I am in love with you.” He said softly, sliding his fingers through mine to stop the fidgeting. I slowly look at him, afraid it was just a joke and that when my eyes met his, he would laugh in my face but he didn’t. He had the most sincere look in his eyes that made my heart melt, and he smiled, “I love you (Y/N) (Y/L/N).” As soon as those words left his mouth, the dam broke and the tears in my eyes spilled over in joy and relief, knowing the one I loved for so long, loved me too. Alex slowly moves closer and closer until our faces are only inches apart, “Can I kiss you?” He whispers softly, I don’t even think about it, I just nod my head before he closes the small space between us. His lips press gently against mine, not rushed or lustful but an ‘I love you’ without words and I react instantly with just as much love. After a moment, we reluctantly pull apart, “So… Does this mean you’ll be my girlfriend?” Alex asks timidly looking at anything but me and I can’t help but giggle at how innocent he looks. “I guess Gaskarth.” I say with a dramatic eye roll before a smirk pulls its way at my lips as he turns his head to look at me with a giant grin on his face. “So are we going to tell people?” I ask once we lay back down, my head resting against Alex’s chest as he plays with my fingers. “I don’t know, do you want to tell people?” He asks in a soft tone, “I don’t know, I think we should wait. At least until we’re back on tour, just so I have a chance to process this whole Logan situation.” I say hesitantly, afraid he would be upset about not telling people but my thoughts are cut short, “I understand and completely agree, it’s best for everyone if we wait.” Alex said in a strong tone, threading his fingers through mine. “Now get some sleep, we’ll talk more about it in the morning.” He says as he presses a kiss to the top of my head and I nod softly, already starting to fall asleep.

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Finally Going To Be Okay Pt. 14

AN: I am SO sorry I took SO long to update! I am so awful about remembering to update, but here is part 14 lovelies! 

Part 1  Part 2  Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  Part 6  Part 7  Part 8 Part 9  Part 10  Part 11  Part 12  Part 13  

Word Count- 852

Warning- Talk of death/suicide, swearing

My eyes begin to flutter but never quite open, as someone shuffles their arms around me and picks me up bridal style. I instinctively wrap my arms around their neck, inhaling Alex’ s familiar scent and relaxing in his arms as he carries me into the house and gently sets me on my bed. He slips his arms out from beneath me and I grab his wrist, “Please don’t leave.” I whisper as tears begin to well in my eyes, a heavy sadness settling in my chest at the thought of being left alone. “I wasn’t planning on it, I was just going to get you some more comfortable clothes to sleep in.” Alex said, squeezing my hand before walking over to my bag, grabbing my sweats and one of his shirts and helping me get changed then tucking me into the blankets before crawling in next to me and pulling me into his side. We sit in silence for a little while until I ask, “Alex, are you sleeping?” “No, why? What’s wrong?” He asks in a quiet but concerned tone, sliding his hand up and down against my arm. Suddenly the words were coming out of my mouth before my mind had a chance to comprehend them, “I love you Alex and not just as a friend. I understand if this makes you uncomfortable and you want to leave, it’s just that, with everything that’s been going on I needed to get some of the weight off my chest… And I felt like you deserved to know…” I trailed off, by this point we were both sitting up and I can’t help but run my hands through my hair and play with the ends of it, a nervous habit I picked up a long time ago. “WOW…” Alex huffed, looking like he just got slapped in the face. “I know, I’m sorry. Please just forget I said anything. Just pretend it never happened.” I rush quickly, hoping to fix the mess I just made of our relationship. “No, no (Y/N) it’s okay, it’s just… It’s a lot to process but I’m glad you told me because I haven’t really told you everything about why Lisa left me. She told me when she left, ‘Alex, you’re in love with (Y/N). You might not realize it now but you do. The way you look at her, talk to her, the way you would do absolutely anything for her at anytime, it’s completely obvious. I’m clearly just holding you back from figuring it out so please,  go be happy with her okay? Just don’t forget to send me an invite to the wedding.’ And at the time I thought it was a cruel joke but once I finally got over the shock of her leaving me I realized she was right. I am in love with you.” He said softly, sliding his fingers through mine to stop the fidgeting. I slowly look at him, afraid it was just a joke and that when my eyes met his, he would laugh in my face but he didn’t. He had the most sincere look in his eyes that made my heart melt, and he smiled, “I love you (Y/N) (Y/L/N).” As soon as those words left his mouth, the dam broke and the tears in my eyes spilled over in joy and relief, knowing the one I loved for so long, loved me too. Alex slowly moves closer and closer until our faces are only inches apart, “Can I kiss you?” He whispers softly, I don’t even think about it, I just nod my head before he closes the small space between us. His lips press gently against mine, not rushed or lustful but an ‘I love you’ without words and I react instantly with just as much love. After a moment, we reluctantly pull apart, “So… Does this mean you’ll be my girlfriend?” Alex asks timidly looking at anything but me and I can’t help but giggle at how innocent he looks. “I guess Gaskarth.” I say with a dramatic eye roll before a smirk pulls its way at my lips as he turns his head to look at me with a giant grin on his face. “So are we going to tell people?” I ask once we lay back down, my head resting against Alex’s chest as he plays with my fingers. “I don’t know, do you want to tell people?” He asks in a soft tone, “I don’t know, I think we should wait. At least until we’re back on tour, just so I have a chance to process this whole Logan situation.” I say hesitantly, afraid he would be upset about not telling people but my thoughts are cut short, “I understand and completely agree, it’s best for everyone if we wait.” Alex said in a strong tone, threading his fingers through mine. “Now get some sleep, we��ll talk more about it in the morning.” He says as he presses a kiss to the top of my head and I nod softly, already starting to fall asleep.

[riegan]

Ricky Olson - Wait Out The Days (original by Rocky Votolato)

i dont think enough people have heard this

[riegan]

Finally Going To Be Okay Pt. 13

AN: I am SO sorry I haven’t been posting lately! I made this part a little long to try and make up for failing. I’ve had a lot going on and life has been a little hectic but don’t worry, I plan on staying on top of posting but you are close to the end of the series so send in some requests for when it’s over! Thank you so much for being patient and reading my work! 

Part 1  Part 2  Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  Part 6  Part 7  Part 8  Part 9  Part 10  Part 11  Part 12

Word Count- 1387

Warning- Talk of death/suicide, swearing

My heart sinks deep in my chest as we reach the large, open gates, quickly finding a place to park. I sit there staring out the window at the mourning people in front of me, not making any move to get out of the car. My mother looks at me with a sad expression, not sure how to comfort me or even if I wanted to be comforted. “I’ll talk to her, you guys go ahead, we’ll be there in a few.” Alex said, giving a reassuring nod to my mother when she hesitates before nodding back and walking with the other boys in the direction of where chairs are being set up in front Logan’s casket. Alex opens the passenger door, and looks at me before reaching over and unbuckling my seat belt and letting it hit against the wall of the car as it wraps itself up. I don’t look at Alex, I just stare at my hands in my lap, wishing I could disappear into thin air. “A penny for your thoughts?” Alex asked softly, sliding his hand over both of mine and squeezing them softly. My eyes slowly meet his, “I don’t feel anything Alex… Why don’t I feel anything? I’m not sad or upset, I’m not even mad, I’m just… empty… numb I guess. How fucked up is that? I’m at my best friend’s funeral and I don’t even feel sad.” I scoff at myself with a small, empty and heartless smile. It’s not fucked up (Y/N), it’s simply how your mind is dealing with the situation, it’s completely normal. I felt numb and empty for a while when Lisa broke up with me, it doesn’t last long, it’s just your brain trying to process the whole thing.” Alex said in a soft, caring voice. “It doesn’t make you a bad person (Y/N), it makes you human.” He added with a reassuring squeeze to my hands and an understanding smile on his lips. I sigh, nodding my head, slowly turning and sliding out of the car before closing the door. Out of the corner of my eye I see Alex standing beside me and I reach for his hand, slipping my fingers through his and holding tightly as I look at the gathering of people only a few yards away and my heart aches a little. “You ready?” Alex asks softly and I nod, “I think so just… Please don’t leave me?” I ask in a small whisper, feeling the lump build quickly in my throat. “I wouldn’t dream of it.” Alex said reassuringly as we began to walk towards the group of people.  The closer we get, the heavier my heart feels as the situation sinks in deeper and deeper and finally becomes real when I see Logan’s pale, hollow face. I instantly turn into Alex’s side, away from what was left of my best friend, the face that once brought so much joy and light, now sunken and dim. I bury my face in Alex’s shoulder, now unable to stop the quiet sobs from escaping my trembling lips. Alex wraps his arms around me, holding me tightly to his chest, burying his face in my neck as tears began to flow past his lashes at the sight of his dead friend. After a couple of moments of Alex and I holding each other I hear a familiar voice behind me, “(Y/N)?” He sounded a little shocked as I turn around, finding Max, the only person willing to break the news to me on tour rather than wait until I got home. “Max.” I say as a wave of new tears make their way to my eyes as I wrap my arms around his neck, feeling his body shake with silent cries as he hugs me. “Are you okay?” I ask, knowing that Max and Logan were really close and that it would have a big impact on him. “I’m as okay as I can be I guess.” He says with a sigh. “How about you? How are you holding up? I’m sorry I didn’t call to check up on you after you hung up, I just didn’t know what to do and I didn’t want to make it worse. I was afraid you hated me for telling you.” Max said apologetically  as he shoved his hands in his pockets and looking anywhere that wasn’t me. “It’s okay Max, I understand. It’s hard on all of us and we all cope differently and I could never hate you. Hell I’m pretty sure that if you didn’t tell me, everyone would have waited until I got home from tour to tell me and I wouldn’t have gotten to say goodbye, so thank you Max.” I say with a small, reassuring smile and after a few more minute we say our goodbye’s and I turn back to Alex, wrapping my arms around his waist and resting my head against his chest. For a few sweet moments, I let myself forget about the horrible situation at hand and let Alex’s heartbeat sooth my own heavy, broken heart. I’m suddenly pulled back to reality when Alex taps my shoulder and gestures to something or rather someone behind me and I reluctantly let go of him and slowly turn around, my eyes meeting Angela’s tear-filled blue ones and my chest grows heavy once again. We swiftly close the space between us, wrapping our arms around each other in a cry-filled mess of a hug. After a moment, the heavy cries stop but neither of us make a move to let go of the other when suddenly Angela whispers, “Thank you for keeping my baby boy safe for as long as you could.” Only loud enough for me to hear and a strangled sob wrenched itself from my throat as I shook my head. “But I couldn’t save him… He’s gone and I couldn’t save him.” I whimper. “No. You saved when he needed you to. You kept him safe as long as you could… Thank you.” She cried softly and I nod, not knowing what to say. “He left you a note.” She said softly, “Come by the house tomorrow before you leave town, I also have some photos I thought you would want.” And with that she walked away. I turned back to Alex’s chest, wanting nothing more than to run and hid instead of dealing with things like and adult. Before I know it I’m standing in front of a bunch of people, most of whom I knew either as friends or as part of Logan’s family. After talking about how amazing Logan was and telling stories of when we were children and having everyone in tears by the end, I stepped away from the podium and back to my seat between Alex and my mother, who instantly pulled me into a hug when I sat down. After a few minutes I found myself resting head on Alex’s leg as he tickled my back and zoned out most of the service, thinking about all the fun times Logan and I used to have, wishing I could go back to first grade when we first met and decided we would be best friends for the rest of our lives. I smile to myself at the fond memory and how smart and true that decision had been between the two of us. When the service ended, I sit up off of Alex only for him to offer me his hand and help me up. We walk over to where the, now closed, casket sits, ready to be lowered into the ground. Alex held tightly to my hand, as if I would disappear if he let go and I found it oddly comforting. I couldn’t help the tears rolling down my face as I watched them lower the casket and as they began shoveling dirt onto it, it was like I was turned to cement and couldn’t move, couldn’t look away. Alex finally had to pick me up and carry me back to the car. He and I sat in the very back and he just held me the entire time. I’m not exactly sure when but at some point I fell asleep with my head in his lap while he played with my hair.

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Finally Going To Be Okay Series

Pairing- Alex + Reader

Summary: Something drastic happens while you’re on tour, causing you and the boys of All Time Low to go back to your hometown, helping you gain something you never thought possible.

Part One

Part Two 

Part Three

Part Four

Part Five

Part Six

Part Seven

Part Eight 

Part Nine

Part Ten

Part Eleven

Part Twelve