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back to regularly scheduled critters

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Wonderful 😊😊😊

WHAF IS HOING ON

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WHAF IS HOING ON

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Bungus

The bungus

(Me)

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Know your insect antennae!

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do you watch predator? have you watched predator? will you watch predator? when will you watch predator

Probably eventually actually...I must watch more movie and show

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Please repost this everyone. This is the man that groomed me for 3 years. I don't have a big audience but please, anything helps

Signal boost

please share if you're able 🙏 I don't want this person to get away with it and hurt more people...

alternative link for the non Twitter users (you don't need an account to view)

https://xcancel.com/togamiphobic/status/1922676594469965842#m

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I made rgyk dinner Giuliani profile picture fnarpy

What ❤️❤️❤️

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TW: grooming, SH

LONG POST!!!

I don't quite think anyone talks about what finally breaking away from the person who groomed you and what the aftermath is like.

From 13-16 I was groomed online by one man. A man who took advantage of a 13 year old girl who was mentally unstable and vulnerable to manipulation by almost anyone.

In the times this happened, I was subjected to so much agonizing mental and verbal abuse. In which intermittent reinforcement would take place whenever I'd been hurt a multitude of times by his words and actions.

There was repeated "breaking up", where often times I would be blocked for saying the wrong things, or for having episodes due to his treatment. The blocking was a way of getting me to beg, and if I didn't beg he would come back and manipulate me into feeling better.

It was a constant cycle, a cycle that ruined my years as a teenager who could've been out doing better things.

But I was isolated. Isolated with someone who never cared for me. Who's only interest was how vulnerable I was. Who gave me the most agonizing mental anguish I'd ever experienced.

Who would call me names, would say if he was next to me, he'd slap me as hard as possible for misunderstanding things I said, who would enable my addiction to self mutilation, which ultimately led parts of my body being permanently scarred. Not offering any help when I was in crisis, he was only helping me to grow worse. Because of this there was a time I landed in a mental institution because it was so horrendous.

A man who was saving up money to come see a teenage girl in another country.

A man who spoke dedicatedly of marrying and impregnating this teenager.

A man who took advantage of a teenager and mentally deteriorated her, and made her feel worthless and weak. Who made her stay up late crying until she hurled. Who played games with the way she felt as a punishment to be cruel.

A man who made her suffer in social and relationship settings, all while she has little access to therapy.

A man who texted her when she was trying to cut him off, that he would do inappropriate things to himself to old pictures she sent because he was "lonely"

A man who, if he wasn't blocked, would have seen that girl in person just a month or two before it all ended.

I will never forgive and never forget the things that were done to me. The things I was subjected to and would've been subjected to if I was more vulnerable than I was then.

I could never forgive taking a teenager who needed love and care, and manipulating her into being in a "relationship" with you.

I'll never, ever be able to erase the nauseous feeling I get seeing people in public that look like you. When I somehow stumble across things similar to you.

I will forever be searching for ways to get over the trauma and the unhealthy habits being taking advantage of by you did to me.

I will never forgive you for taking my teenage years away from me.

I will never forgive you for not being an adult.

For seeing a child as an object of desire

For hurting her and then claiming that she was abusing you, therefore questioning who she was.

For making her feel like some sort of broken toy.

For making her feel forever mangled and unable to repair herself.

And I hope you remember what you did to me until the day you die.

I hope you remember, anytime you have feelings for someone, anytime you want to pursue anyone romantically...

I hope the guilt you feel of what you did to me stabs you as hard as possible, I hope it keeps you up at night.

I hope you think about it at random, and I hope it ruins your day

And I hope the realization that you did that, and that you can never undo it? I hope it makes you contemplate everything about yourself.

Thank you for ruining my life.

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i LOVE BEING IN BED !!!!!! i love being all cuddly and warm and curling up into a ball and feeling tiny !!!!! this is what life’s about !!!!!!!!!!!

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Armadillo officinalis and assorted offspring.

babies are growing slowly but faster than I expected. seems like there’s some color variation among them, although I’m not sure if it will last.

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Letting your girlfriend rest her head on your chest...

So you try to take a cute picture and she literally just looks like she's giving you a suspiciously luscious beard....💚😊

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The fuck do you mean there's an achievement for setting eve on fire

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We must.

The fuck do you mean there's an achievement for setting eve on fire

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Grounding techniques don't really work for me especially in public... "five things I can see" I see a bunch of people pissing me off