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Orange

24/05/25 11:54:48 pm In 6 minutes it will be the 25th of May 2025. From the black stage into Orange and honestly I have not really built the foundations in action. I know which way the wheels are turning. But still now in this moment of typing there is some resistance, a sort of inner tension that prevents me from moving forward. On the 28th of May I will return to Vipassana for the first…

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Rotting with RATs

RAT = Resisting A Task I’ve been riddled with RATs—the sort of nitpicky, pernicious thoughts that prevent all action and resist every task. Keeping a thought in mind too long, trying to make it perfect, is a surefire way for entropy to kick in. It feels like wasting time is all I do. I have ideas that I want to explore, but ideas have to become something through action. My mind comes up with…

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Y1W1D4

After many false starts and failed attempts I truly hope that this is the one. It has felt like the last ten years has been a very slow emerging of an idea that lives inside the mind from before birth. Even though the insights and inspirations came from many readings and observations the further I got with it the further it felt like an excavation over a creation. However, with all ideas…

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Hello

I would like a place to explore my ideas through writing. This blog will serve that purpose. For nearly 10 years now it has felt like an idea has been emerging from my own mind. In an imaginative sense it has been an incredible journey but in another, and arguably more important, way I have been severely lacking. The other way is the lack of the action, I have been waiting for something. But in…