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Dan Howell coming out doesn’t mean your fetishzation of him was valid or is validated

(@bowlcullt is a god)

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friendly reminder that being a gay trans man is not fucking equivalent to being a fujoshi and never will be

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friendly reminder that being a gay trans man is not fucking equivalent to being a fujoshi and never will be

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Hey dude hang in there, your situation is temporary and you'll get out soon. I know it seems hard right now but trust me you'll be okay. Keep looking to the future when people will see you for the man that you are. You're a totally valid dude and I will personally fight anyone who says otherwise.

Thank you sm dude

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Aaaaaaaa

Don’t you lOve it when your mom and dad dead name you every second of the day even though they’ve known for a whole year now and every thing is sheshe she even at school only two of my friends call me by my name and It’s so maddening like I just can’t wait to be on t

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me:

my dysphoria: stop having feelings that's girly

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Just a rant on a little bit of everything (I need advice)

Yeah I already know my grammar sucks

1.My dad is older so he doesn’t really understand the whole trans thing so I’m giving him time on it but when I complain about looking like a girl he goes “you are a girl”

2. I used to do makeup and I actually like it but I stopped because it was really uncomfortable and made my Dysphoria really really bad and I’ve done my makeup twice this week because I figured “fuck Dysphoria I’m going to do what I want” but noopppppeee lmao I thought I’d get over it so the whole day being upset and uncomfortable(I was at school)

3. Jeans are killing me because I can’t help but notice my thighs and it just makes me so uncomfortable and even when I wear regular guy jeans it shows and I don’t know what to do and I used to be into cross dressing and drag but it made me super super Dysphoric so I gave up on it for now like with the makeup

4.teachers:

I have a French teacher (I’m not taking French again next year) and she is so so sweet but I’m not out to teachers at school(just everyone else) and she keeps calling me mademoiselle and it’s so uncomfortable to me but its already the end of the year and I’m not talking it again so I’ll just bare with it I also have a sociology teacher and I have her class again next year for phycology 1 and 2 and I don’t know if I should come out to her now or what

5.My “friends” : I don’t really have any friends anymore but I still hang around these people who don’t support me there’s tori who has told me that she’s still call me by my deadname even when I started on T(she’s not transphobic just ignorant and self absorbed) but other then those type of comments every once and awhile she’s nice then you have my other “friends” they used to be my actual friends but they practically ignored me all the time I’m sure they didn’t mean too but I felt like they did and I’m hanging out with them in the mornings again and it’s happening again there’s also this one girl in the group and I’ve known her since I was 7 or 6 so about ten years now and she is obsessed with the lgbtq+ community like badly she’s lesbian but feels the need to tell everyone and ship every character together that’s female and she dose the same thing to gay guys and real people (like Eurovision idk if that’s what it’s called I’m not really that into music stuff except like heathers and bmc and I don’t really like talking about it I’d just keep it to myself) and she’s obsessed with trans people and constantly tells people for me that I’m trans I know I sound stupid I’m happy she supports us and all but I just can’t help but feel labeled as the trans guy by her and I’m more then just a gay trans guy hell im just a fucking regular guy that happens to be trans and gay

6.t

My insurance covers testosterone but finding a place that will do the bloodwork and the therapy shit to get it that takes my insurance is impossible (not sure what insurance I have) and I don’t have the money currently to go privately and I’ve been waiting to get on it since the beginning of the year and have been waiting for the 1st of 2019 to come since October now (I know I shouldn’t complain because people have waited way way longer than me) and I’m sick and tired of looking like a butch lesbian(no offense)

7. Weight loss tw

I’m like ether 5,3-5,5 and I weigh 150-162 pounds and my goal is 130 or 120 whatever’s healthy and looks good to me really and It’s hard for me to lose weight ive gotten really insecure with my weight to the point that I’ve just tried to not eat at all really but that lasted a full 3 or 4 days before I gave up because I love food and I’m definitely not recommended or saying “fuck yeah do what I did” because thats stupid and what I did was stupid and that goal was stupid you get the point but I just couldn’t help but think about the results now I’m just trying to loose weight by eating better ex: no soda or sweets except for a one small pice of dark chocolate every day almond milk fruits and all of that good shit (I’ve tried apple cider vinegar)

8.i just need friends like I’m lonely af my age is in my bio and all I really like is skating even though I can barely stand on my board yet birds mcr alternative stuff cadge the elephant the story so far blink 182 neck deep knuckle puck real friends and some pop stuff like Ellie Goulding

Anyways I just wanted to ask for advice on the teacher and ftm stuff maybe the weight loss shit too if y’all could give me it on that I’d absolutely love that (please)

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Do you ever wanna try out like a new name but are too scared to tell people?

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I just want to be able to grow my hair out and have shoulder length hair and not want to Yeet myself off the world.

Wow fun.

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My fave transgender Youtubers

My favorite trans male Youtuber: Kalvin Garrah.  

My favorite trans female Youtuber: Blaire White. 

What about you? 

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Are fedoras really that bad?

YES YES THEY ARE

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Goth ghost,fuck yeah.

Cursed Creature here

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Treat trans men the same way you treat cis men, or don’t call yourself a trans ally. If you treat us like we’re morally superior to cis men, safer to be around than cis men, inherently more attractive than cis men, or Men Lite™, we don’t want you. You aren’t helping us.

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Me: today’s gonna be a good day

Dysphoria: lol no

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Once Ive had top surgery and am on T, imma dress like the sluttiest dude ever, y’all ain’t ready