ryujinrk

[ryujinrk]

i love ryujinrk and i love you ^^ i love the way you write for her and she's such a lovely muse ^^ i hope we can get to plot in the future ~

thank you! we most definitely need more positivity like this around, so thank you so much for making the effort to do something like this. not only for me, but for everyone. that’s such a big task, and you’re incredibly kind to take it upon you! you’re great, you’re amazing. thank you.

[ryujinrk]

—»﴾: BROKEN.

MNET Global Autidions S5E6 — Aftermath.

The lump in her throat grow with each step that bring her closer to home. She feels numb, she feels like the very soul has escaped her body to leave her with an empty shell that looks like a typically bright and promising teenager. Ryujin is anything but that right now however, after having been eliminated from a show that she saw as her last chance back into the business and to reach a dream that has been her dream since she was a mere nine year old chick. 

Her phone vibrates in her hand and yet she can’t bring herself to look at it and face the person who desperately try to contact her, she already know who is calling her. Ryujin know that she’ll eventually have to look Yeji in the eye, they live in the same building complex and they also do attend to the same dance studio, but now is not the time. She wonder how she will be able to-- after recording she was quick to leave, once the opportunity struck that is, without being disrespectful.

Well, quick as one can be while absolutely devastated, that is. Two of her best friends are still competing and though she is happy for them, she has no energy to think about Yeji and Juho. Not right now, it’s too much for her and she know that it’s selfish. Tears threaten to escape the drowning eyes but she isn’t one to cry, Ryujin does not want to cry... She reach home, having spent about double the time she usually does because her feet are just that heavy to move.

She is as slow as Flash in Zootopia when she reach for the keys to her apartment but instead of opening the door she just stands there for a moment, trying to control her breath and collect herself. She doesn’t know why because there is no one there waiting for her, but she suppose that once she close the door behind her the journey is actually over. The door opens, and she move one foot in front of the other, the door closes, and it’s like she has no legs anymore.

Ryujin is glad that she is alone but in reality, she could have needed someone to lean on. She whimper loudly when her legs give in and she hit the floor, ultimately it becomes too much and the tears roll out and down chubby cheeks. Sobs that hopefully nobody can hear fills the room while she hug her arms around her knees, Ryujin tries to bite back the cries but they come out uncontrollably beacuse it hurts so much. She was so close, but it wasn’t enough.

She wasn’t enough. 

[ryujinrk]

rkyuna‌:

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it’s been two weeks and yuna has yet to get it out of her head. she feels the devastation like a fresh wound whenever she relives the moments right before her elimination. was this some form of ptsd? would webmd be able to prescribe her some type of drug to let her float away from this mess? probably not and it wasn’t like yuna was looking for any vices this early on but it still hurt and she dreaded facing her friends during the aftermath of it all.

she wanted to be happy for them. because that was what good friends did – they supported their loved ones no matter the reason. and if yuna said it enough times she thought she could believe it.

when ryujin calls her up, yuna is forced to face the music and put on that darling little smile she knows won’t fool the other but here goes trying, right? she’s pulled herself out of the depths of her room and shut-eye for this. ryujin has worked hard and there’s not way yuna had the right to rain on her parade. so, she does what she thinks is perfectly healthy: she buries it all. in favor of a breezy smile, newly-painted red nails and some treats she thinks ryujin would like as she comes knocking on the other’s door. just because she couldn’t be happy, doesn’t mean she had to drag ryujin all the way down to hell with her – no, her best friend didn’t deserve that type of shit.

then again, she’s sure – in two seconds: ryujin would see through all her bs. two seconds, that’s all she needed to clear the level – two seconds and maybe even yuna could fool herself that the feeling of dread was a passing phase. 

“ryujin unni! open up! i have snacks!” she barks, hand raised to knock once more whilst juggling her arms out of the plastic hold of the convenience store bag.

ryujin is exhausted from today’s practice at royal entertainment with the group which they will eventually name the ‘golden trio’ -- ironically so, really, taking everything into consideration. it seems like she has a dark path ahead of her, although having managed to reveal the truth for suwoong, who blindly trusted the lies of his cousin. she gets it, they are family, but she did not think that it was fair to spread rumors like he did regardless. what she thought belonged to the past came back and slapped her in the face, ryujin couldn’t believe it.

it’s late, but she want some company nonetheless, having went home a little earlier than usual due to her little visit to the infirmary. ryujin has no idea what kind of medications they gave her but they worked, almost too well, because she’s still feeling drowsy almost a dozen hours later -- it scares her a bit, if she should be honest, and she cross her fingers hoping that she never has to take them ever again. and, well, not to mention that she know that yuna probably need some company herself, ryujin hasn’t heard from her since the eliminations.

she feels bad for the younger, who wanted this as much as she does herself, but was let go in the early stages. sometimes she wonder what the judges think with, though she’s likely biased beyond belief. it’s wishful thinking and highly optimistic believing that all of her friends will stay until the finale so ryujin isn’t surprised per se, but she had hoped that yuna would have gotten just another chance to show herself. “ryujin unnie,” is what brings her back to reality when she hear the other female from the other side of the front door. “coming!”

byeol and dal shift on the couch when she get up to attend the door and once she does, yuna confirms her suspicions. ryujin knows that the other try hard to look alright but she knows, she knows that she’s not. “aish,” she mutters, she can see it in her eyes. bringing the other in for a hug she hold it for a good moment, not only for the younger but also for herself. “come in.”

RIP FEELINGS

[ryujinrk]

ayutork‌:

*   having been working back at this shop for a little over a week since he got back, yuto should be getting back into the swing of things. he should have most of his muscle memory to go on despite the fact it has been a good handful of months since he’d been working here. but as it seems, yuto was still the clumsiest worker they have. 

*   honestly, its a bit of a surprise they even accepted him back. 

*   today he hadn’t been doing too bad. most of his orders got to the table and the customers rang out with nay a bad word. he’d been a bit slow in regards to getting things cleaned up, but considering he hadn’t messed up any orders.. well.. they were all just happy for small victories. and now he’s on his last order of the day before he would be able to go home. 

*   “here…miso ramen, only egg.” he set the rather plain bowl of ramen down on the table, noddles and a single egg sitting in the broth that normally would have a bunch of veggies and stuff in it. 

*   @ryujinrk

she’s tired, exhausted honestly, after what has been an unnecessarily stressful week. she has the memory of dramatic events fresh in mind and though she recovered from being framed for something she didn’t do, it was like she was hit all over again when jaemin was eliminated. it’s not fair, and ryujin wonder if it’s her fault that he was sent home last thursday.

it couldn’t be helped, she know that, but she wonder... if he had been placed in a different trio, then he would possibly have been competing still. ryujin feels guilty when she think about it as jaemin was ultimately the only one who believed in her, and he was the one who helped her to get the truth on the table. and now he is gone, out of the mgas while she’s still there.

she sigh for herself and shakes the thoughts away when she realise that the food that she has been waiting for, is finally coming. her expression blank when she find that her order isn’t at all as it should be though, again, and the male is about to become a victim to her bad mood. “are you...,” she cuts herself off with a sigh, obviously annoyed. “i ordered regular miso ramen.”

;extra eggs

[ryujinrk]

-.✦･｡ﾟMGA season 5: episode 6, outfit (lyrics + line distribution)           performing nct 127 “whiplash” with @rkyeji, @rkmason, @rkchaeryeong, @rkkhg

Ryujin wasn’t at all surprised when she realised that the so called Golden Trio was deemed as one of the lower ranked performances, the trio was even last to be called out. The news came somewhat as expected but was just as defeating nonetheless, and honestly it made her angry when she know that two full days went to an unnecessary spectacle of a drama scene when it should have been spent on practices. At this point there is no way of knowing whether the two days would have mattered but one thing is for certain, the hiccup was unneeded and certainly avoidable if SUWOONG had only just came to her instead of speculating. 

She gets it though, that’s not the case, when the source of the rumors was none other than a vicious snake who caused the end of the entire group Amarante. It’s just so annoying, and so incredibly unfair, when one isn’t allowed to fend for and explain themselves. Although they had managed to make amends and provided with a solid performance that they all had faith in, she can’t help but wonder whether the amazingly poor start of their week had something to do with this particular outcome. It was like a slap in the face really, she thought that after what they had been through and what they had pulled off, it had been a great stage in the end.

Apparently it wasn’t, and she was sad when they announced that JAEMIN had to leave. If the outcome had been different then in the end he could have joined them into the next week, but obviously with a new group, just like them. She felt so guilty knowing that, so inncredibly guilty, especially since it was him. The one person who believed in her during dark times, and he was ultimately the one and only reason why Ryujin managed to get to the bottom of the issues that she didn’t know she had with SUWOONG. It wasn’t fair that he had to go home but in the end, she is fully aware that talent shows like the MGAs are never fair. Ever.

-.✦･｡ﾟ

It feels like Ryujin wears weights on her shoulders when she meet the new week, even if there certainly are things to be excited about. For one, she is finally grouped with YEJI, who’s one of her best friends for some years already. It was never a goal of hers to step on stage with friends, not anyone but OLIVIA anyway, but she notice that she is eager to perform with the elder. Perhaps it’s because they have danced together multiple times before that she didn’t necessarily crave this scenario before, but now that the opportunity is here she can’t wait to actually perform with the other dancer. Secondly, she was picked to join the TRC group.

Anyone who knows her knows that she is in heaven right now as BigStar, Feeldog and TRC are the main reason that she wanted to step onto a stage in the first place. So to be trained by some of the idols and trainees of the very company she want to sign with, it’s a dream come true just that alone and she can’t even begin to express how much it means to her. She listen to their advices carefully, and want to prove to them that she deserves to be placed in a group with a concept fitting TRC. If she can say so herself, Ryujin does believe that she can fit their image with the skillsets that she provides. She is sure of it, she has to be.

The week starts off well, in spite of the guilt and vary steps that she thread. Since SUWOONG has been telling people false truths she wonder just how many he has told, and whether those have realised that it was all a misunderstanding, whether they believed that it was all simply a misunderstanding. Well... she wouldn’t necessarily call it so herself, because in her eyes it was straight up lies told by a coward who needed someone to blame. It’s what she has agreed to however, misunderstandings, because she couldn’t be bothered with making a scene out of something so small like that. She just wanted to be over with it.

MINHO invited them out on dinner so that the group could get to know each other better, and HYUNGGU suggested that they had an introductional game to break the ice.  She appreciate that as it allowed her to relax sooner, to feel more comfortable around the current members of her group since ultimately she was still worried that someone believed the lies about her. That she was the cause of Amarante’s cancellation, when she was so close to debuting. In her eyes that doesn’t make sense but then again, it doesn’t make sense that Jimin would jeopardize such an opportunity either and in the end, that was precisely what she did.

She smiled when HYUNGGU chatted with her during the introduction where he explained that DOYEON is someone that he used to dance with back in the days, that he used to be her sunbae and that now it’s the other way around. “Really? That must be so weird,” she chuckles under her breath and wonder how that must feel like, “but it must also be nice to have a familiar face regardless. I know I’m glad to have YEJI unnie by my side, it makes me feel more at ease.” As the second youngest members of the group she feels a bit small, especially since she is grouped with MINHO, who is also an ex-idol. He isn’t at all how she expected him to be however, pleasantly surprised with how caring and thoughtful he is.

The coaches suggested some songs, and the group suggested some. When they landed on the choice of NCT 127′s Whiplash she truly understood CHAERYEONG’s worry, since the younger had already performed the group’s songs twice already. But with the others she assured her that the feeling would be completely different, that they will not perform exactly what is expected. As they make their own choreography, as well as write their own raps, it will be something new entirely, just with the original song in the background. The song fits their image well, and it provides a proper distribution of lines along with the fact that they all get to show what they do best, which is dancing. Five dancers in one group, trying to fit TRC’s image.

It was difficult, should she be honest, since TRC isn’t dance focused whatsoever, but they all managed well. YEJI and HYUNGGU was assigned to choreograph the new dance, with MINHO and Ryujin’s inputs. The latter two writing their own raps, and helping CHAERYEONG with hers. Ultimately, it would end up with a original take on the song with some small exceptions like the bridges. With the wound from last week still fresh Ryujin felt guilty for ending up in the infirmary and thus, worked even harder this week than previously. Now, she isn’t known to take breaks but she certainly worried YEJI to the point where she was told to relax, multiple times.

Drink water, sit down, rest a little.

And she did, eventually, because she know better than to say no to the other female in addition to the fact that she would definitely not be of any use if she’s sent to the infirmary again, just this time due to exhaustion instead of pure stress. During one of her breaks she decided to go out for a little walk, and to bring them all refreshments in the sorts of smoothies-- with the incredibly warm weather she found that they needed to keep themselves chilled, and energized. Bringing five different flavours she let the others pick first and though she know how to memorize lyrics, the ingredients of all five drinks went straight over her head.

-.✦･｡ﾟ

It’s strange being so close to a dream, yet so far away. The set up has changed and instead of sitting as an audience when not performing, they are now hidden behind the scenes as the audience has been replaced with an actual audience. Ryujin is thrilled, beyond excited because this will be the first time she actually perform in front of a live crowd of fans. Not necessarily hers, she is that realistic about it, but she hopes that at least some of them are there for her. She know that some people noticed her during the promotion times, when Starship released their dance practices and blogs, but she don’t know whether anyone kept their interest in her.

She squeezes YEJI’s hand back before they walk onto the stage, the crowd screaming loudly because of all the hype around them. Having been assigned to open their stage she look over towards the others before she speaks with a grin, “we are your,” and then they all speak in unison, “ANTIDOTE.” It was funny, cliché and something that Ryujin won’t ever let YEJI live down because she was the one to suggest the team name. They all get in position and she is ready. During the past few performances she has had no cue because she either rapped without the music, or she spoke just as it started, but this time she has a split second cue.

채찍질로 나를 깨워줘 My baby you are like (널 데려가) Palazzo Rocco, you are my antidote Lemon detox, right

The chorus comes up just after the intro, and it’s split between the two people in ANTIDOTE who can actually sing. She honestly envies them for their vocals, though she know that they are not by the best in the show, because she wish that she could sing as well. MINHO has the bigger rap verse almost for himself, Ryujin adlibs here and there but does not by any means try to take the spotlight as she know that she will get her own. He finishes off a self written rap verse strong as expected, having delivered his rap perfectly as expected. The chorus comes back up just like in the beginning before CHAERYEONG and Ryujin move into their parts, the former starting off with her own self written rap, Ryujin coming in every second line in the end to transition into her own verse that she has also written herself.

When they close up to YEJI’s big part of the stage she get anxious, Ryujin anticipates what the other has in store and she believe in the elder to pull off the high note because she has practiced so hard... and, she nails it, of course. She expected nothing less of her friend, and is satisfied not only for their performance but for YEJI as well as she know how much it means to her to master the art of singing. It leads straight into their dance break, which Ryujin suggested could be a sort of dance battle between the guys and the girls, excluding CHAERYEONG for only a short moment as her role becomes obvious soon enough, when she bring them all in to dance together again.

Ryujin feels good about the performance, like they have managed to complete it without flaws and that they could not have done anything differently. It’s how she has felt before however, so she doesn’t want to rely on such a feeling since she can’t possibly know what the judges look for in particular. But she is happy with their stage, more than happy actually, and the crowd seems to be satisfied as well because they roar in response, cheering loudly, and it only makes her want to step onto the stage again, again and again.

[ryujinrk]

-.✦･｡ﾟrkopenevent: rkcreativity            shin ryujin’s first digital single-.✦｡ﾟ 

1. day of a kid 

[ryujinrk]

-.✦･｡ﾟMGA season 5: episode 5              sunday 07/21, practice at royal entertainment              mentioned: @rkjaemin, @rksuwoong, @rkxsnh

TRIGGER WARNING: migraines (headache, nausea), medications

Ever since Ryujin woke up this morning she has felt unweel in an eerie kind of way, the feeling that something is wrong haunting her from the very moment she opened her eyes because it’s appearing to be a brand new sensation. She’s nervous, abnormally so really, when she makes her way to the Royal Entertainment, a route that is becoming familiar with time as result of the practice happening there. It’s early, but not too early. Ryujin follow the company’s schedule as good as she can while excluding the breakfast, especially today since her appetite vanished-- that alone is strange, and anyone who knows her would recognise the change.

She is the first one to arrive out of both groups and a staff member is showing her the way, it’s the same way that she has walked many times already during the past few days but she know that she has to be escorted by someone. She met them with a tired smile, head bowing in that typical respect that she show to anyone who is more authorised than herself. As someone who rarely ever has a headache it’s unbearable even to walk like this, silence consumes the short trip from the entrance and up to the practice room but their footsteps are loud enough. She has no time to stay at home though, she has no time to rest. It will pass, is what she tell herself and that especially when she notice that SUWOONG arrive a little while after her.

Eyes twitch slightly by the sight of him, briefly and so quickly that nobody would notice. While they settle their things and prepare to practice she notice that something is different, still. The lights are so much brighter than they were the day before, the sounds are so much louder. It doesn’t take Ryujin long to realise that this is going to be an incredibly long and tiresome day, and she has only just arrived at 9AM. JAEMIN arrive not long after, with his textbooks. They are practicing the dance still, perfecting it the best that they can because although JAEMIN is a very strong, creative rapper has he expressed it isn’t the same when it comes to dancing. He isn’t a dancer, but that’s okay.

He is teamed with two dancers, after all-- one way or another, they will all manage to learn the choreography. Luckily for him, the song that they chose doesn’t require much technique. If the famous P.O can pull off the stage then she is sure that JAEMIN can as well, they just need for him to practice, practice, practice. And Ryujin believes in him, she has huge faith in him. She’s worried for other reasons though, which she blame her unwellness for. Surely no one else has noticed how SUWOONG has treated her the past days, no one but herself because it is easier to notice when it happens to oneself. She doesn’t get it, what has she ever done to him?

SUWOONG is particularly picky with her, he always leave her to choose lastly and he flee the scene with her once breaks hit. Instead of getting to know her he’s seemingly everywhere but with his own group, every chance he get, and she slowly begin to feel worse and worse. They seem like small “innocent” things things but small “innocent” things add up rather quickly, and she honestly don’t feel welcome or liked in her very own group... and she simply do not know what she has done wrong, SUWOONG just seem to hate her for no apparent reason. She’s a hardworking girl who usually don’t take breaks but today, she has to.

She simply has to, or she will puke right there and then though that is a fact that she decided against telling her group about. It’s not like the elder male would understand anyway, Ryujin’s absolutely sure about that, because everything she does in his presence seems to be wrong. Closing up towards lunch time it’s becoming unbearable, overwhelming is an understatement and she honestly feel so awful that she want to sit down and cry. The waves come and go yet she can’t seem to find a pattern, suddenly there is a severe rush of nausea and then suddenly there is a immensely throbbing pain in her head. What is going on?

The only pattern she notice is that whenever a wave of sickness appear, her heart beat so fast and so forcibly against her chest that she wonder whether it will jump out of her very body. As she sit down for another break SUWOONG seems to have had enough of it and calls for a fifteen minute break himself. The lump in her throat grows bigger and bigger because she’s scared, it frightens her that she don’t know what is going on with neither SUWOONG nor herself. Ryujin uses the given break to call Jonhyun, her step-brother who happens to work within the branch of medicine, after excusing herself to the hallway just outside the practice room.

His message is quick and simple, Ryujin needs to find herself a place to rest and she know to listen to his advices. If there is anyone that she look up to, it is him. There is nothing that is as important as time at this very moment so she hurry the best she possibly can to find one of the nearby staff members, who agrees to show her the company’s infirmary where she is allowed some rest and some meds to relieve the symptoms. Ryujin isn’t sure what she is given but she takes it regardless, wanting to get better sooner rather than later so that she can return to the practice. Gosh, she forgot to tell JAEMIN where she was going. 

Well, surely the staff member would let them know. Before she lay down to rest she put on an alarm to make sure that she won’t oversleep, and she pass out almost the moment she closes her eyes. Just before that, she manages to send off a few texts to her best friend.

text sent to @rkxsnh (  혜주 💕 ) —— (2)

✉ ▸ i feel so sick... i don’t know what’s goign on  ✉ ▸ i’m at the infirmary, i don’t want to be sent home...  😭 

The alarm wakes her back up and although she feels better in the sense of why she came into the infirmary, Ryujin feels utterly rotten inside. If she could go back to sleep she would but she can’t, so instead she drag herself out of the comfortable hospital bed and sloppily head back-- she hopes that this decaying feeling will pass with time, and she wonder just what on Earth she was given just an hour earlier. That were some strong meds, that is for sure. She squints most of the way back to the practice room where JAEMIN and SUWOONG practice with the other trio because the lights are so gosh darn bright today, but find the room near empty upon arrival.

Oh well, she will have to practice on her own then. Ryujin doesn’t think much of it, other than wondering where they might be, they surely will return shortly anywyay... she hopes, anyway. And they do precisely so, she has only danced for a few minutes when they return and she’s noticing a slight change in JAEMIN’s face that makes her curious. It’s not very obvious, but it was enough for her to notice as she has spent quite some time with the other already. They’re not close, far from it, but she admire the other and he intrigues her. But hey, they brought her a sandwich! When she think about it, she hasn’t eaten the whole day, appetite non-existent.

“My head is fine,” she responds shortly because she know that he SUWOONG only ask about her head out of courtesy. A smile appears  though, due to the food. “But thanks. I appreciate it.”

They aren’t grouped for long before JAEMIN offer to fetch some drinks, and ask Ryujin if she would like to accompany him on the trip outside. Strange as it may be she gladly accepts that offer right away, fresh air sounded amazing when she still feel completely dead inside but she realised quickly that something was up, just like everything today. Sandwich in hand, she eats it on the way greedily, suddenly realising how hungry she really is. The questions that he bring her hurts more than she thought they would, and the fact that he seemingly believed for even a second that the rumors are true hurt even more. She can’t blame him however, he was never there to witness what actually happened with Amarante.

Ryujin explains to him the best she can, without revealing too much. It seriously baffles her how effective rumors are, whether they are true or false, and she suddenly understand what has been going on with SUWOONG, that he has been spreading lies about her all along. Her heart sink to the bottom of her stomach and once again, she want to cry while she don’t. Even if the tears are threatening to roll down rosy red cheeks she will not grant him that satisfaction, and she will not cry in front of JAEMIN. Drinks ordered, waited for and now in hand, they make their way back to the building where Ryujin has forgot for the moment that they are recording.

Other matters are more important right now and if the “GOLDEN TRIO” is supposed to have a chance to win they need to settle things, right away. So she approach the elder male, in midst of a face time which he end rather quickly upon their arrival. Ryujin doesn’t beat around the bush and ask why he is out and about telling false truths to people, and where the lies come from. Tears are evident in her eyes, but she still does not cry. He responds with a question of his own, whether she call his cousin a liar-- she is confused, she doesn’t even know who this cousin is and how she is related to the matter. SUWOONG says that he doesn’t appreciate that she insult his cousin in front of him and she want to snort, the audacity.

“Yeah, please call her.” She agrees to the suggestion, once she realise who his cousin is. The call should be interesting enough as Jimin has stepped way over the line by spreading lies, and if she don’t spill the beans she will have to resort to old fashioned threats. Jimin may be older than her but in the end, she could have faced serious punishment for what she did and was honestly let go easier than everyone else. Heck, the other members of Amarante did nothing wrong. She luckily didn’t have to threaten with their old CEO as the other tells the truth. Ryujin couldn’t care less whether SUWOONG apologised after that, she was just glad it’s over. 

“It’s okay,” is her way of forgiving the elder. “I’m just glad that we got this out of the way.”

[ryujinrk]

-.✦･｡ﾟMGA season 5: episode 5, kyung’s outfit (lyrics + line distribution)            performing block b “jackpot” with @rkjaemin & @rksuwoong 

They look absolutely ridiculous in their brightly yellow outfits that makes them all look like some giant bumble bees but honestly, Ryujin does believe that if they are going to have a fair chance to win this whole thing they need to walk the extra mile that she reckon some people will skip. It should be more than enough to gain attention though, and part of her love, love, love, that they are actually about to be this extra about the whole concept. They aren’t only covering the song, they are stepping into the roles with the same enthusiasm as Block B.

Considering how the week started it’s almost unbelieveable how comfortably Ryujin sit next to her partners, SUWOONG in particular, their first impressions of each other so turbulent it even resulted in the teen experiencing her very first migraine attack that sent her to the infirmary. If it wasn’t for JAEMIN then the trio would likely have been doomed because truthfully, the dynamic between them was just that bad. They call themselves the Golden Trio and are the very last to parform today; saving the best group for last, is what she like to believe. 

There are so many strong song choices this week but for some reason, she is confident in her own group. It’s a familiar trait for her to be convinced of the fact that her stages are good but it isn’t just her this time, Ryujin has such strong faith in the Golden Trio because they have been through both good and bad together, they have bonded in a way that she think has brought the three of them closer. The performances start off strong, some certainly more interesting than others, and she looks forward to the group that she shared practice room with.

Ryujin is beyond excited when they head down to ready themselves to perform, the eyes that she has felt piercing through her the entire month suddenly don’t feel so scary anymore since the truth has finally been brought to the table. CHAERYEONG, NAKYUNG and WOOJIN step away from the stage and leave it empty, ready for the very last group to perform. She walk out with the males that she has worked with for seven days straight, a cheeky grin playing on her lips as she know that they look silly. They introduce themselves, THE GOLDEN TRIO. 

“I’m Lee Suwoong, I’m Na Jaemin, I’m Shin Ryujin - And we are the Golden Trio!”

Not necessarily because they are the best, though she believes that SUWOONG would argue that they most certainly are-- she too, honestly, but the group name means something more to complete their concept. As they shift into their positions she know that they are starting quickly, and she has to hit the beat, which has yet to be a hinder for her. They look stiff like dolls, which obviously is by purpose, their whole posture revealing what they are aiming for. Tense shoulders, bright smiles, head moving from one side to the other as Ryujin voice the first line.

0.00 저 오빠들 이상해 Those oppas are weird

She almost can’t contain herself when SUWOONG screams, that alone setting the mood for a great performance, but she remain professional and instead of laughing she grin genuinely as she move behind the elder as she and JAEMIN pose as the current backup dancers. They are swiftly and playfully shifting between who carry that particular role, depending on who’s in front doing their part. JAEMIN is the first one out with a proper verse, the two others dancing slightly differently to him before they hide behind him, only to pop out soon after to each his sides.

His rap is flawless in Ryujin’s ears and she is proud, in one way, to see him perform something like this. He’s quiet and usually keeps to himself, so that he agreed to such an energetic stage definitely took her by surprise. It’s fun though, they are having fun-- she thinks, at least. She is preparing herself for for the next part of the song, the first verse that she has been assigned. It suited her perfectly, being able to pretend for a moment that she is the famous P.O of Block B-- he’s not a dancer, they don’t have that in common, which makes it so much more fun.

Fit한 턱시도와 Brand new shoes Fit tuxedo and brand new shoes 여비서와 Well-being food Female secretary and well-being food 근사하게 외출준비, Fabulously get ready to go, 눈떠보니까 꿈이야 opened my eyes and it was a dream

난 지금 레이스중 I’m in the middle of a race 내 출세가 남에겐 Bad news My success to others is bad news

Midways into her verse the males position themselves perfectly to each her side, SUWOONG kneel in front of her to the right side while JAEMIN stand suspiciously to her left. The former is supposedly, through acting, kicked away and at the same time the latter is knocked to the very opposite side. The first part of the rap lacks dancing from her side as P.O refrain from it during the original choreography, but when she moves into the short part of dancer and rapper U-kwon she get a chance to do both herself. The song has a short pause, before the refrain.

SUWOONG comes in strong as he always does, during a part that requires a power vocal. It’s potentially risky picking a song with such power vocals but Ryujin has faith in her partners, the very least she can do is believe in them as they have practiced their asses off for seven days straight to make it through. He and JAEMIN share most of the refrain as well as the bridge, she only has one line in there but that’s okay, she is about to deliver a full verse soon after anyway. High kicks, twirls and giddy moves shift into the puppeteer dance from the intro.

While the males stood in front during that particular part Ryujin slide effortlessly in, in front of JAEMIN and lead the march of dolls until another playful fighting scene takes place to introduce her next verse. One apparent hit from one male, another from the other, twirl a few times and then JAEMIN kicks her off into the spotlight again. She absolutely loves this song, there is so much happening although there is a obvious red thread throughout the whole masterpiece. She grins broadly, the others waiting in the background for their choreo to start.

Aight- 나이를 먹어도 Even though I age 지갑은 탄력 넘치겠지 I bet my wallet will become very flexible 헛스윙 날려도 나, Though I make a bad swing, 나이스샷이라는 Caddie “nice shot” says my caddie 나를 무시했던 놈들에게 I will shake the hands of those who ignore me 복수대신 악수를 건네네 instead of getting revenge 조심해 넥타이와 손목시계는 Be careful, my necktie and wristwatch 목줄 또는 수갑으로 변해 becomes a collar and handcuffs

During the fourth line she swing her hand as if holding a baseball bat, the others pretending to watch the imaginary ball fly away. Part of her can relate to the lyrics that she’s assigned, from the very start to the end. These oppas are weird, they most certainly are. Fabulously get ready to go, opened my eyes and it was a dream, she was ready to debut but suddenly she was cancelled. I will shake the hands of those who ignore me instead of getting revenge, she is better than a certain someone who most definitely deserved revenge.

The beat shift slightly during her verse and while the origianl choreography calls for two girls, as backup dancers, and a somewhat suggestive squat, SUWOONG and JAEMIN came up with an alternative that they were both comfortable with. Ryujin follows the original choreography as the dance itself is rather basic, she’s only moving her free hand, lowering her body at one time, and then getting back up just in time for SUWOONG to lead her out of the spotlight like a cop and a criminal so that JAEMIN could step into center. They walk casually back and behind him, as to effortlessly claim the roles as backupdancers once again.

Refrain comes, refrain goes-- bridge and finally, the final act of their show. SUWOONG, along with Ryujin, pretent to fight in a silly manner. One hit, another hit, Ryujin pretends to grab onto the other’s blazer before JAEMIN breaks them apart as he then lead them into the final refrain and thus the ending part. Ryujin was looking forward to this bit the most, the entire stage has been practiced to fit perfection but this last scene was something that they came up with all by themselves. SUWOONG, in fact, but she loved the idea so she went with it. They all share a line here and a line there, performing around one another just like practiced.

And then...

When JAEMIN voice that they have hit the jackpot they begin to toss out a bit of chocolate coins to the audience, like they are sharing their wealth with everyone else. It’s hilarious that they are the final group on the stage performing, having this ending to the whole lineup-- the coins complete the act, in Ryujin’s eyes and she feel amazing as she close up the stage. Her eyes meet some random pairs in the audience, they meet the judges, and Ryujin is goofing around while having fun. 

라라라 라랄라, uh, Luxury Luxury life Lalala lalala, uh, luxury luxury life 라라라 라랄라, Get that money money Lalala lalala, get that money money get that right get that right 라라라 라랄라, Luxury Luxury life Lalala lalala, luxury luxury life Anyway we’re playing hard to get lucky Anyway we’re playing hard to get lucky

NOTE!! please pretend like ryujin is as energic, joyful, playful and expressive as they are in the original performance stage. i know i didn’t get to write that obviously bc i’m short on time :(

[ryujinrk]

-.✦･｡ﾟMGA season 5: episode 4             post performance interview             mentioned: @rksihyeon, @rkxsnh, @rkhyeon

Q: AND HOW WAS IT LIKE WORKING WITH KIM SIA THIS WEEK?

The time spent with Sia had been nothing but a walk on rose petals, the two of them worked a whole lot better than she could ever have imagined. With her difficulties trusting in others she’s been pleasantly surprised and with time, should she pass to the next round, maybe Ryujin can say that she genuinely look forward to working with other people. “Sia unnie was amazing, she took good care of me throughout the time that we had together making sure that I rested well~ She’s not only a great vocalist but she’s also so caring and easy to work with, I was lucky to be paired with her this week.” She smiles, and heaves a breath. “But while I was lucky I hope that she won’t suffer from being paired with me, she has been by the top three two weeks in a row already so the pressure and expectations are high. I hope that our duo were satisfying.”

Q: WERE THERE ANY PERFORMANCES YOU DID OR DIDN’T LIKE?

"Ah... Was I the only one who saw HYEJOO’s transformation? The stare she get when she’s getting serious gives me the chills, it’s just too breathtaking. Not to mention the performance itself with HOHYEON, I wish that I could have been part of that myself.” Ryujin is biased, she definitely is because Olivia is her very best friend in the whole wide world; that doesn’t mean though, that she don’t meant what she say. Friendship aside, Ryujin believes that the other is  underrated by far and that she deserve much more credit than she has received. 

Q: IS THERE ANYONE YOU ARE CERTAIN WILL BE ELIMINATED TODAY?

The answer to this is fairly obvious to her but Ryujin decides against speaking up her mind. It was such a shame she thinks, that they made a mistake so big. 

[ryujinrk]

rkjohnny‌:

As soon as Johnny walks out of the KT building, he’s craving for a long nap and probably a drink, though not necessarily in that order. He walks along, listening to music on his earphones. Honestly, he’d like to listen to anything but the song he’s supposed to be working on for rapping workshops. He sighs as the bright lights of the KT building finally disappear from view. It’s getting late, and he’s not exactly in the mood to catch up to whichever party his friends are at tonight. 

He contemplates heading to the convenience store before walking to the train station. He’s getting thirsty, and he’s not sure whether he wants to wait until he gets home to drink. He sighs as he gets himself a bottle of water before heading out to take the slightly long walk to the train station that will lead him home. 

Johnny pauses to take a sip of his water when he notices something… or rather someone rather unusual. Weren’t high schoolers supposed to be in cram school or something? Or at least heading home with their friends? So what was this one doing wandering around the streets at this hour? It’s either he’ll bust her for skipping class or he’ll help her go home. Either way, Johnny feels like he has to check what’s this kid’s game. Approaching her, he clears his throat. “You’ve got thirty seconds to explain to me what you’re doing here.”

This is the last time Ryujin put her trust into a GPS, that is for sure. She cannot believe that a tool like this can be so outdated to the point where she find herself lost in an area where they should have sufficient data, annoyance printed clearly on her features. Phone in hand still she has some slight hope to find the way to her father’s medical center and focused as ever, she’s not catching onto the fact that she is not alone in the streets.

Ryujin jumps visibly when a voice speaks to her in a tone that makes it seem like she’s done something wrong, hand clutching around the mobile to make sure that she don’t drop it in the surprise. “Seriously-- ah, why are you scaring me like this...” She lets out a sigh once having collected herself, hand reaching up to comb through loose shoulder length hair. “What do you mean I’ve got thirty seconds, am I not allowed to be here...?” 

Confused by the demand she completely disregard the fact that it’s nearing midnight and that she’s alone, on a Saturday night; with her uniform tucked safely into her bag it’s impossible to see where she has came from. Stranger danger is obviously not by the things Ryujin concerns herself with as she respond comfortably, without neither fear nor worry. She’s not disrespectful however, she thinks, but she realise that the male is older than her.

—»﴾: 30 seconds.

[ryujinrk]

-.✦･｡ﾟMGA season 5: episode 4, outfit             performing ed sheeran “cross me” ft Chance The Rapper + PNB Rock             with @rksihyeon (lyrics + line distribution)           mentioned briefly: @rkxsnh​, @rkhyeon​, @rkyeji​             @rkxbin​, @rkheejin​, @rkjaemin​, @rkkyungsoo

Surviving to the next episode again and again has always been expected by the teen but the further into the competition she comes, the more anxious she honestly becomes. Working as pairs proves to be difficult for her even if her partners are the sweetest things, having had the experience of being betrayed before she can’t help but wonder if she will be once again. Last week she was paired with Sakura who she already know and are close friends with, which in honesty did make things a little easier, but when doubled with a stranger Ryujin was sceptical. The trust that she ultimately need to have in others has been so swindled to the point where it sincerely is difficult even trusting in her friends and aquaintances 

She learned rather quickly that her worries were unjust though, when she started working with Sia she noticed right away that the two of them get along well and that they do have each other’s success at best interest. Ryujin is a team player, she know that it is how they will make progress and it is simply who she is as a person-- she will do whatever she can to make sure that not only does she pass to the next phase, but that her partner does as well. And that has nothing to do with the fact that they are eliminated in pairs this season. They practice mostly at 1MILLION dance studio, which is practically where Ryujin has grown up-- having started dancing there at nine years old she is familiar there, and was the one to suggest it.

With the summer heat Ryujin made sure that they kept cool and relaxed by bringing the pair a chilled drink each, fruity smoothies for Sia and iced mocha lattes for herself. In return, the elder saw to it that the teen was well and sufficiently rested throughout their time together as a pair. In one way they behaved like friends who genuinely cared about each other’s well being-- which ultimately is their stage concept as well, best friends who don’t let anyone in the way of their friendship. Both of them came with song suggestions, Ryujin proposing Ariana Grande’s song “Side to Side” but felt more inclined towards Sia’s option of Ed Sheeran’s “Cross Me” with Chance The Rapper + PNB Rock though both would be good alternatives.

-.✦･｡ﾟ

Seated next to Sia in their assigned seats Ryujin think that they look so darn cute in their matching outfits, the elder wearing the darker outfit while the teen wearing the lighter. Reason behind that obvious to them but likely slipping the audience; as a rap and vocal duo people do often see the rapper as the thug one and the singer as the innocent one, so they decided that today they are switching it up. Ryujin, the rapper, prepared the white and endearing look while Sia, the vocalist, preparing the more dark and mysterious vibe. “I’m so excited,” she note towards the other in a whisper while waiting for the performances to start already. Ryujin can’t wait until it all begin, and she’s so eager to watch Olivia with Hohyeon.

As well as Yeji and Changbin, and Heejin and Jaemin. Those are the ones that are interesting this week, in her personal opinion, along with the question-- will Kyungsoo dance, again? 

Ryujin sure hopes that he will because she want to see a lot more of him and see what he has to offer. Compared to their blind date set up by their parents he definitely show other sides, all the while she can spot the same man that she already met before. Pairs after pairs perform on stage and soon enough, sooner than Ryujin has grown used to actually, it’s her turn to step up and she is confident as ever walking next to her partner who has such an amazing voice; their stage is different from what she has done so far, much different from it really, which makes it a little scary. Although they have both practiced hard, alone and together, and have come down to a satisfying stage, Ryujin can’t help but worry. What if the judges don’t like it after all? What if they expected something else, or perhaps even more of her already?

“5040 Shin Ryujin and 5026 Kim Sia.” They are finally called to the stage.

Glancing over to the elder with a little smirk she reveal how much she crave to be on stage, if she can say so herself she believe that the two of them have prepared a strong performance-- Ryujin has faith in them, and in in their stage. Once reaching up to the center she bow down in front of the judges, introduce herself and step into position. Ryujin begin the moment she get a cue from Sia, her verse starting off before the music come in. As she deliver her part she rap with perfect English as a result of having English speaking family members, she has spent so many summers in America with her grandparents she barely has an accent. They walk ahead together, oozing of attidude as Ryujin effortlessly pass her opening verses, and execute a little secret handshake of sorts that they prepared to show their close friendship during the second part of Ryujin’s verse making sure to hit it with the beat of the song.

Anything she need, she can call me Don't worry 'bout her, that's my seed, yup, that's all me Just know, if you cross her, then you cross me Cross me, cross me, if you, if you, if you, if you (Ryujin)

Anything she need, she can call me Don't worry 'bout her, that's my seed, yup, that's all me Just know, if you cross her, then you cross me Cross me, cross me, if you, if-

While it’s originally a supposed love song Ryujin enjoy that they have attempted to switch it up like they did with their outfits, that rather bringing a romantic love song they turn it into about a friendship instead. Her verse came to a seemingly abrupt end but that is on purpose, just as in the original song. She doesn’t make too much out of herself when Sia  sing her part as it’s the elder’s time to shine, but she moves her body gently to the beat of the music. Sometimes encouraging the other with ad libs of ‘yeahs’ and ‘mhms’, nothing too extra. The music stops at Sia’s “ayy” but before anyone has the time to wonder if they are done Ryujin comes back around with a beatless rap consisting of the same verse that she opened with. This time, instead of ending it abruptly the two of them merge their parts into a smooth transision.

Anything she need, she can call me Don't worry 'bout her, that's my seed, yup, that's all me Just know, if you cross her, then you cross me Cross me, cross me, if you, if you, if you

Sia sing the refrain with her beautiful voice and Ryujin can’t help but feel a little envious, having yet to gain any confidence in her own singing. The teen has given up that dream, and she has settled with the fact that she is a dancing rapper instead. Having two lines in this refrain she make sure that she understand what the lyrics are about, so when she deliver the words of ‘anything she need she can call me’ she look over at the elder with a smile and an endearing look in her eyes, as though the two are actually friends who will do anything for one another. She is surprised how well they work together on stage, considering the fact that they met as strangers. The part come to an end as all things do and finally, Ryujin is coming in with the actual rap. Due to her age, they decided that she would rewrite some of the lyrics.

And she ain't messing with no other man Now what you not gon' do Is stand there 'cross from me like you got Kung Fu Death stare, crossed arms, running your mouth like a faucet But you don't know that my girl been doing CrossFit Pew! Kung Pow! Knock you out with a cross kick Blowing air out, wear you out, you exhausted Know she gonna slide anytime you girlies gossip Keep a lil' blade in her smashin lip gloss kit, ayy No one say hi to me without her Better pay your respect to the queen Better do that ish without a flirt Gotta respect the HBIC Couple of things that you need to know If you still wanna be friends with me 

During her verse she use the technique that she always does during her raps, her mind doing that automatically by now; always think one sentence ahead, prepare the next sentence while delivering so that the words won’t stumble. The flow is a little strange to her but she manage it well, having practiced from dusk till dawn to perfect her part. That’s what she enjoy about these performances, that she don’t necessarily need a specific place to practice. When she near the second part of her verse she step closer towards Sia, and while she express the words ‘better pay your respect to the queen’ she motion with her fingers as though she’s crowning the other female. She grin broadly after that and finish her verse strongly, then gesture towards the elder who is assigned to end their performance with the song’s signature phrase. Happy with their stage she bow down again as a kind of ‘thank you’ for allowing her to perform again. 

[ryujinrk]

rksoye‌:

     the summer was working wonders on the climate and the humid kind of heat was the worst kind of heat. it was the kind of heat you just kind of suffocated in and hoped would lighten up so that you could breathe a little bit just to be able to make into the next building where blessed air conditioners would restore the energy to your body that had been drained. soyeon loved the summer. cute bathing suits. cute boys. she could show off. music festivals. it all worked in her favor. but she hated the heat. because of that she preferred water parks to beaches and who better to visit a water park with than with someone who was like an adorable little sister to her?

    “is that everything?” she asked, climbing out of the car and locking it behind her as she moved to the trunk to meet up with the younger female. she’d scored a pretty nice parking spot so they wouldn’t have to carry anything far but soyeon simply didn’t know the definition of packing lightly. she secured her bathing suit top to avoid any slips and reached for the tote bags she’d brought of food her grandmother had insisted the two girls take with them, tugging them onto her shoulder after brushing her long dark hair away down her back. “i swear she wants us to sell this food. there’s no way we can eat all of this.”

@ryujinrk

ryujin is certain that they have brought way too many bags with stuff for their little get away, as became all too obvious as the two of them emptied the car once reaching up to the lotte water park. she realise that there are many things that they definitely need however, with the sun up high shining brightly there are risks that they need to take into consideration-- this though, has most definitely gotten out of hand. she stare at all the bags with big eyes, “if that’s everything? your grandma really outdid herself this time... as usual,” she can’t help but laugh. not that she mind honestly, it’s nice having someone look out for them like this and making sure that they’re eating properly. as a foodie, ryujin definitely won’t complain.

especially since the food is so incredibly tasty too, ryujin feel like she’s in heaven every single time she has the opportunity to taste soyeon’s grandmother’s meals. “she is so nice though, i love her.” and she loves her almost as much as she loves her own grandparents. with time the elder of them has been promoted as someone that ryujin address as her elder sister, who she lean to when times are rough and trust with her life. while adjusting the hems of her own bags she glances around to make sure that they haven’t forgotten anything on the ground, at least it doesn’t seem like they have. reaching up to tighten her ponytail she begin to walk towards the entrance, although it’s moderately early it’s still so warm out. “let’s go!” she grins.

♛ ⁏ && ryujin. | lotte water park.

[ryujinrk]

@rkljhyun:

⟨ ━━ ↝  ✉ 3 messages sent to ‘ 🐉jin ’   » i saw u on tv  » look at u performing   » goodluck this week brat

text sent to (  🐭 JERRY ) —— (5)

✉ ▸ who are you calling a brat, huh??! ✉ ▸ you want to get hit?? ✉ ▸ you know i will  ✉ ▸ 😤😤😤 ✉ ▸ thanks… 😤

[ryujinrk]

rkhyojeong‌:

“oh, i don’t have it!” she grins, spinning it in relief once they’ve reached it. that meant that the next couple pokestops that were ahead of them would probably also be ones that neither of them had spun. honestly, hyojeong usually just trashes these tasks, because it’s too difficult to find pokestops that she’s never spun before, unless she specifically travels somewhere that she’s never been. but then ryujin also had the same task, so they had decided to see if they could find them together. 

half of her can’t believe that she’s going this far out of her way to do this. the other half is not surprised at all. 

“we can probably just keep headin’ this direction and hope that it leads up farther to new pokestops, and not back to where we began,” she grins, pointing and walking in the direction she meant, knowing that the other girl would follow her.

adjusting her backpack so that it rests more comfortably atop her shoulders she nod to agree, since they have come so far already they might as well step a little further. “we sure can,” she settles it with that, and follow after the other female with a broad grin. it has been quite a while since she spun a new stop now and for some reason it excites her to find a brand new one. 

sometimes she wonder why she go out of her way to accomplish these missions but then she remember, ryujin has grown rather used to long travel hours for her school so it’s not so bad--, and what makes it worth it isn’t exactly the game itself honestly but rather spending time with friends, as a social butterfly she get so much joy and energy out of hangingout  with people.

“i’m glad we found one already, i was starting to run out of pokéballs...” she admits, it isn’t like she’s a poor thrower but she’s pretty sloppy at it. “i need to be more careful when i throw!”

—»﴾: catch ‘em all.

[ryujinrk]

rkyeji‌:

⟨ ━━ ✉ 2 messages sent to ‘ ryuanne ’       ⇢ i dunno how to tell u this ⇢ i’m faLLING MORE IN LOVE? ⇢ send help?

text sent to ( lily 언니 💮 ) —— (2)

✉ ▸ ?? ??? ? ✉ ▸ why, what happened??

[ryujinrk]

-.✦･｡ﾟMGA season 5: episode 3              post performance interview              mentioned: @rkyuna, @rksakura, @rkyeji, @junheerk, @rkchwev, @rksihyeon

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE RESULTS LAST WEEK?

Ryujin is tired of sitting still already and shifts in her seat, also partly due to the fact that she is not entirely happy with the results last week. Having made it through to the next phase there’s some people that she think have been sent home, who shouldn’t have been. “I was sad to see SHIN YUNA going home, maybe I’m biased since she is my friend but as her friend I know she has a lot to offer. I hope that she will get other chances to shine.” In her opinion there are other contestants who should have been let go but she decide against speaking her mind about that. 

HOW WAS IT LIKE WORKING WITH SAKURA?

Moving onto the next question Ryujin suddenly beams again, her collaboration with Sakura for this week’s recording has been such an amazing time and she can’t wait to tell about it. “It was honestly the best thing that has happened to me in this show so far! I enjoyed my time with her the whole time and whether we were practicing, out shopping for our outfits or making our cute boxes I had a pleasant time.” She nods enthusiastically, smiling broadly. “I think we worked well together, as you probably understand already,” she chuckles, “there were absolutely no issues.”

HOW DO YOU THINK YOU DID?

Pouting slightly as she sometimes does whilst in thought, Ryujin think back not only on her own performance but everyone elses. “I think that Sakura and I did quite good, our dynamic felt very sincere and the way she complimented me, and I her, felt satisfying and smooth. I want to say it might be one of my more favourable stages so far, I had so much fun.” 

WERE THERE ANY PERFORMANCES YOU LIKED?

If Ryujin could be honest she would say that she didn’t enjoy very many stages this week but in the end, that’s not something she opts to say out loud. All of the contestants that are still in this competition are definitely talented but the choices were underwhelming in her opinion, though it could be due to the fact that she is incredibly biased towards her own performance with Sakura and that to the point where nobody seemed to match up with them. Ryujin hope that the judges are as pleased with their stage as she is herself. “I’m pretty sure that it’s expected when I say I liked YEJI unnie’s performance with PARK JUNHEE, it was refreshing to see unnie sing on the stage today because I think that she has much potential in that area as well as dancing. I also think that Junhee did great, they were a good pair together. Hmm, and I enjoyed HANSOL CHWE and KIM SIHYEON also. Their stage was cute.”

[ryujinrk]

@rkyeji:

⟨ ━━ ✉ 2 messages sent to ‘ ryuanne ’         ⇢ r Y U N JGFD ! deleted  ⇢ are you awake?

text sent to ( lily 언니 💮 ) —— (2)

✉ ▸ yeah, i’m awake~~ ✉ ▸ what’s up?