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The maze runner

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Kindergarten

Let's start this story at a time when I was in kindergarten.

Back then, my father was first diagnosed on blood cancer, the less agressive type of leukemia. I actually didn't went to kindergarten for about a year, because me and my mom went to the hospital to visit him every day. It was a long drive every time (I still remember the smell in the trains - ugh!) and my mom was really stressed out after a few weeks. I mean who wouldn't be?

But in conclusion, it was not that bad for me because I guess I just didn't get what was going on (when they told me he had leukemia, I first thought it was something like a cold, nothing serious). My mom kept saying 'Dad isn't feeling so well' and it was okey (yeah, children nearly belive everything...). I just didn't really accept that dad would not come home for christmas and for my birthday. But I had my brothers to support me and my dear grandparents, so I was never alone even when my mom wasn't feeling good as well.

But after a time, I started eating less and became very thin, even though I was still a happy girl. I guess something affected my mental health, but I didn't realise it at that point. It was never that obvious, I just kind of never liked the food :).

So far so good, after a bit more than a year, my dad came back home. He wasn't healed, but save for the moment. Everything had almost turned back to normal, only my appetite did not change until I started elementary school.

This is actually the part of my story I have just a few memories of. And the things my mom and dad told me when I was older. The next part will probably be a bit more interesting :)

Be happy

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My first post

Hey everybody, I'm Sam and I am 19 years old. In my life I went through a lot of trouble and unpleasant situations so far (really nearly everything I can think of) and I really can not say that it was ever easy. But I made it and I want to share my story to everyone who needs positive thoughts or who is just interested :) I'm a very positive girl now, and I think everybody can be a positive (but realistic) person, and I'll try to show you how.