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Charles Bukowski

The Last Night of the Earth Poems

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But you need your lies, don’t you?

- R. F. Kuang, Babel

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AND THEY’RE FUCKING CORRECT

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I knew I'd be like this for the rest of my life, and I didn't want to drag anyone down with me. I didn't want to force anyone to live in constant fear that I might lose my mind at any moment.

"It's a terrible story. We worked so hard, so hard, building our world one brick at a time. And when it fell apart, it happened just like that.

Everything was gone before you knew it."

- Haruki Murakami (Norwegian wood)

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My arm was not the one she needed, but the arm of someone else. My warmth was not what she needed, but the warmth of someone else.

I felt almost guilty being me.

- Haruki Murakami (Norwegian wood)

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“In the end, though, I lost her. Gradually, in the beginning, then completely. Like something that is eroded bit by bit. The process began slowly until finally a tidal wave swept it all away, the roots and everything."

~Haruki Murakami , Drive my car.

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Goddess lakshmi

Water colour painting

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A frog once asked a centipede how is it able to walk on a hundred feet, so gracefully synchronized while the frog finds it difficult to manage even two. The centipede took a moment to analyze its own walk and was baffled. So as it tried to walk further its feet got entangled and it tripped.

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There was an island and you were to be reborn as a tormentor or a slave. The tormentor would make life hell for you, will give infinite pain to you and your kin, just for his pleasure. And he had no remorse over his actions to crush his victim.

Add to that there was no karma, no soul, no retribution, no being responsible for your actions. And you had to choose any one of them.

Who would you be?

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You say you are an atheist, and at the same time you believe in the concept of soul, which I think is rather convenient.

I don't think karmic casuality is the reason enough for anybody to behave ethically.

To think that there is retribution of any kind in this life or any other, it's like a weak man's hope for some kind of cosmic revenge.

It's very easy to believe in something out of fear and guilt.

All ethics must be arrived at in isolation of religious belief.

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And once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over.

But one thing is certain.

When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in.

That's what this storm's all about.

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Here I'm posting quotes from a movie I just watched so that I can read them everyday.

*~If a ship is replaced part by part up to a point where not a single original part remains in it, is it still the same ship?

*~You know how you doubt sometimes if what you remember is your own experience, some dream or something somebody told you that you pictured so well that it became your own memory.

*~I got you a gift. Alphabets. It's amazing how we imagine that just these few alphabets will someday arrange themselves in a way that everything will suddenly make perfect sense. A permutation of known words suddenly bringing forward a previously unknown meaning.

* We invent God, soul... heaven, afterlife...even life-imitating technology, all sorts of transcendence to cope with the idea of an absolute end. And then, we die for an idea that promises us some sort of immortality

* ~There was an island and you were to be reborn as a tormentor or a slave. The tormentor would make life hell for you, will give infinite pain to you and your kin, just for his pleasure. And he had no remorse over his actions to crush his victim. Add to that there was no karma, no soul, no retribution, no being responsible for your actions. And you had to choose any one of them. Who would you be?

* Does reality exist when no one is looking?

* A frog once asked a centipede how is it able to walk on a hundred feet, so gracefully synchronized while the frog finds it difficult to manage even two. The centipede took a moment to analyze its own walk and was baffled. So as it tried to walk further its feet got entangled and it tripped.

* Look into your own religion. There's constant reference to relativity. Your ancients, they were masters of understanding that there is no one ultimate rule book for all situations. The woman churning curd into butter, she has to pull one end of the rope, and let the other end go otherwise the rope will break. Contradictions and polarities are two ends of the same rope. You can pull one end and let the other end go.

* Monks are supposed to be celibate, then why this much intellectual masturbation in first place?

* Aaliya: I have to draw opinion and assurance about my own art away from what everyone else says.

* It gives me some kicks though, to know that, a part of me was a part of an animal once, a flame, a star. A part will become mineral, flow in a plant, sprout in a fruit, get pecked by a bird. Every atom of my body will be recycled by the universe. You think you are a person but you are a colony. A microcosm which has ten times more bacteria in its body... than it has human cells.

* We are all blind men trying to see the elephant.

* Why is it so amazing to not have any limits or doubts?

* Charwaka: I always knew monks are closet drinkers but unfortunately liver cirrhosis is going to give you away.

Maitreya: You know it should have more to do with intoxication than with drinking

Movie: The ship of Theseus

I don't have words to explain what emotions this movie made me feel , I felt changed as a person, the three stories and beautiful cinematography everything top notch. I feel different person now.

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Sometimes I don’t know what or who we are. Days I feel like a human being, while other days I feel more like a sound.

I touch the world not as myself but as an echo of who I was.

Can you hear me yet? Can you read me?

🖋️-Ocean Vuong (On Earth we're briefly gorgeous)

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Word of the day: Mauerbauertraurigkeit

Now when I say I'm feeling bit Mauerbauertraurigkeit, hope my folks understand .

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Did Lil sketching.

Inspired from Mikasa ofc.

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Cherry blossom.

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Things will happen to you from which you could not recover, even if you lived a thousand years. Never again will you be capable of ordinary human feeling. Everything will be dead inside you.

Never again will you be capable of love, or friendship, or joy of living, or laughter, or curiosity, or courage, or integrity. You will be hollow.

~ 1984 , George Orwell