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How I feel when I unmask

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Im undiagnosing myself. Im no longer mentally unstable. I am normal.

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I hate getting ignored, it makes me want to say and do things i'll regret

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I had a dream about my abusive ex again. I miss her so much.

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I hate getting triggered, it makes me feel like a pussy

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on one hand it is incredibly frustrating how stupid people are, but on the other hand it is also incredibly funny how stupid people are

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I feel so much hatred, it started to impact my mental well being. im suffering. I dont know how to stop feeling like this. Help me.

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Some stuff i did as a person with aspd, because for some reason i think no one can harm me???

1. Went to a concert to another country with two men who were literal strangers with no plan and nowhere to sleep

2. Let a guy i met once sleep at my place and sharing a bed with him

3. Drinking beer with a homeless person i met the same day

4. Some guy randomly started to talk to me when i was in a mall, he was extremely creepy and touchy but i still hung out with him and let him walk me home??? And he knew where i lived???

5. Letting a guy who was openly extremely sexual and creepy towards me walk me home through a forest (that was the only time i got harmed but i would probably do it again if i was in the same situation)

I regret nothing

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Why do i hate people i envy? Every time i see a person i want to look like or who is better than me at something, i feel deep hatred towards them and wish them the worst. I hate it.

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sorry for showing symptoms of the disorder i told you multiple times I have. Do you want me to kill myself?

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I’m not edgy I’m ill. If I tell you my dark thoughts it’s cuz I feel comfortable with you. Making fun of me for being “edgy” or judging me is going to make me not like you no more.

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What love is for me - a person with aspd

Keep in mind that its only my experience and i dont speak for other people with aspd.

I don't feel love on emotional level, i see love more as a set of conditions if it makes sense. I know that i love someone when:

1. i truly care about their well-being

2. I would be sad if they died or something really bad happen to them

3. I would do (almost) anything for them

I also cant experience romantic love. I can experience affection and romantic attraction towards someone but not love.

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I hate that i cant form a two sided relationship. I hate that i'll always feel lonely even when im in relationship. I hate that i cant truly care for and love someone.

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Why does unmasking feels like im some edgy teenager

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Im so angry, it makes me want to rip my skin off

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Intro

- Call me Nekro

- he/she male

- adult

- ASPD with NPD traits

- recovered from depression, anorexia and sh addiction

This is my sideblog so i cant follow back. This blog is for talking about my mental health/ASPD and live in general.

Dni

communists, sexists, misandrists and misogynists. Also respect your own DNI i beg

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I have no empathy, remorse, guilt or compassion.

That is how I experience things, as a result of my personality disorders.

If you are going to support personality disorders then you also must include people with these symptoms as well and not just the glorified version the media attempts to convey.