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Sea

“I just started walking and ended up at the sea  I’m looking at the coast from here  There’s endless sand and the rough wind  But I’m looking at a desert  I wanted to have the sea so I swallowed you up  But I’m even thirstier than before  Is what I know really the ocean?

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Inferiority

You’re stuck in a bubble.

It seems that this round sphere of space has engulfed you entirely. It circles around you with transparent boundaries that when you want to push out of this circular imprisonment, the bouncy walls will bring you back to the center to where you stand. 

You feel trapped. You are indeed small, but never before, have you felt that you had shrunk into the size of a miniature pea.  

You also always feel that tingle. It pulses chilling coldness through your bloodstream, prickling lumpy goosebumps across your pale skin. Almost like touching the metallic surface of steel pole.

What is this feeling of being small and unworthy? To feel unloved or loved incorrectly. To have no sense of identical recognition based on the sequence and importance. It feels that every little word of order can pound hard into your head, scrambling with the thoughts of neglect and sorrow.

You trying everything to be a stronger yet better person, mentally and physically. You want to upper head, the leader, the well-known hero for once. Trying to burst the personal bubble, you find a sharp tool, perhaps  long nails or the heel of the shoe, but the curved walls will not pop.

Lonely. It’s what we feel inside a enclosed small space, with the weak mind that once roamed freely and confidently. The only way to find out, is to beat yourself not physically, but mentally to gain control and power.

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Only in Hawaii (captured by Selindipity)

Opening the doors to my hotel balcony, the fresh fruity scent of warm air danced along to the music of the wind of ukulele strings strumming up and down. Tropical mango drink in hand, I gazed off into the wonders of Waikiki. Washing waves swishing along the beautiful sands and palm trees swaying their leaves like Hawaiian hula swooshing their grassy skirts. The sky blue sky, radiating it’s dazzling sun, was the perfect memory of pure happiness

“Aloha!”

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City by Night (captured by Selindipity)

The neon brightness flashing from the street lights above, lighting up the whole city at night. The darkness of blue hue, replace with ebullience, light up the whole mood that only the night can offer.Vision blurred with people passing through. Laughter of drunk people down the streets, couple out on dates hand in hand, travelling backpackers wondering through the heavy streets and a simple person (me) strolling down the familiar streets. As I skipped down the crowd with stars and moon, twinkling the dark sky and the buskers playing jazz on his saxophone, I felt rested knowing this is my city and this is what I see.

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Lost Woods (captured by Selindipity)

Confused and utterly heading in the wrong path, I walked aimlessly into the unknown. I took some left turn and maybe some right turns but I honestly admit, I don’t know where I am. Coming to a rest, I plotted down on the stony barrier surround by clear waters of running rivers. I looked up at the sky to see dangling vines, wrapping around the trunks of the narrow trees, hustling their leaves in the slight breeze. The white-light lanterns, flashing their pure beauty, glowed the wide blue yonder, enchanting the sky with it’s intensifying brightness. As the leaves, gracefully floating downwards and tumbling around in circles, landed in my lap, I realized I was lost in nature

“I’m completely lost”

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Mountains (captured by Selindipity)

The everlasting earthiness, drifting it’s refreshing and green scent across the cloudy mist. Focusing the distances of high and low, I’m on top of the mountain and that wind blowing, is the feeling of invincibility!

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Sunset Ocean (captured by Selindipity)

When the sunsets, the new awaking of the night comes. The boats drifted across the crystal ocean, sliding the surface quickly to scurry back to sea shore.  Eyes adjusting to the dim light of unfamiliar new atmosphere, I sighed with happiness and slowly watched the little glimpse of ebullience drown lower and lower into the depths of the deep blue sea

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The dark clouds hovering above all murky thoughts; the clarity of the mist, is within one mind, myself

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