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Maybe it was getting used to sharing a body again. Maybe it was something else. He truly, deeply did not care as long as it stopped impeding him. He wanted to be able to function, even momentarily, to be able to do something. To be able to protect his family. After about five more minutes of this… frankly embarrassing display of weakness on his part, he pushed himself into a seated position, back against the side of Michael’s bed, head tilted back, eyes closed.

“Patrick. Focus on me.” Shaun says firmly. He hadn’t even realized his attention was already drifting. The fog rolled back in. Something was wrong with him. Something was wrong with him, and he didn’t know what and had no way to figure out what. There was a rot somewhere deep within him. He could feel it, tendrils reaching throughout him, killing him. Yes. A deep-seated rot that would cannibalize him. That would take him and return him to dust. Yes. that had to be the answer. “Patrick. Come on. You’re alright.”

“I think I’m dying.” He blurts out, and there is a quiet as thick as the fog in his head and as heavy as an anvil. He feels like he is going to have a heart attack. His chest is tight, but his heart beats quicker and quicker, it feels like it is on the verge of combustion. As though the tendrils of whatever rot is inside him have squeezed around his heart and are ready to let it burst. He drew in a sharp breath. “I’m not. I’m not.”

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“Patrick. Focus on me.” Shaun says firmly. He hadn’t even realized his attention was already drifting. The fog rolled back in. Something was wrong with him. Something was wrong with him, and he didn’t know what and had no way to figure out what. There was a rot somewhere deep within him. He could feel it, tendrils reaching throughout him, killing him. Yes. A deep-seated rot that would cannibalize him. That would take him and return him to dust. Yes. that had to be the answer. “Patrick. Come on. You’re alright.”

“I think I’m dying.” He blurts out, and there is a quiet as thick as the fog in his head and as heavy as an anvil. He feels like he is going to have a heart attack. His chest is tight, but his heart beats quicker and quicker, it feels like it is on the verge of combustion. As though the tendrils of whatever rot is inside him have squeezed around his heart and are ready to let it burst. He drew in a sharp breath. “I’m not. I’m not.”

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I love working on a chapter that makes me sad…

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: MLAndersen0 Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Michael Andersen & Shaun Andersen, Shaun Andersen & Patrick Characters: Michael Andersen, Shaun Andersen, Patrick (MLAndersen0) Additional Tags: Nightmares, Dreams and Nightmares, Family, Dysfunctional Family, Sleep, Memory Related, Past Lives, Transgender, Trans Character Summary:

Still though. He couldn’t help a stray thought, wondering what Michael would think if he did have a sister. If that girl he had dreamed up was real.

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Chapters: 1/? Fandom: MLAndersen0 Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death Relationships: Michael Andersen & Shaun Andersen, Shaun Andersen & Patrick, Shaun Andersen/Stormy, Michael Andersen & Patrick, Patrick & Stormy (MLAndersen0), Michael Andersen & Stormy Characters: Michael Andersen, Patrick (MLAndersen0), Shaun Andersen, Stormy (MLAndersen0) Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe, Canon-Typical Violence, Violence, Blood and Violence, Aftermath of Violence, Brother-Sister Relationships, Brothers, Brotherly Angst, Brother-sister angst, Family, Dysfunctional Family, Canonical Character Death, Canon Compliant, Mental Health Issues, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Hurt No Comfort, Hurt, Trans Character, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Implied/Referenced Character Death, Queer Character Series: Part 3 of Two Twin Deaf Kids Summary:

Things are different now, and he doesn't know why. Getting to the bottom of it is his first order of business.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: MLAndersen0 Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Michael Andersen & Shaun Andersen, Michael Andersen & Patrick, Shaun Andersen & Patrick Characters: Michael Andersen, Shaun Andersen, Patrick (MLAndersen0) Additional Tags: Mental Health Issues, Mental Instability, Mental Institutions, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Canon-Typical Violence, Violence, Minor Violence, Self-Hatred, This One Is Kind Of Esoteric, Based On A Discussion A Friend And I Had About Patrick Having PTSD From All The Cycles, How That Would Affect Michael, And How Being Returned With All Those Memories, To Childhood Would Make Them Hard To Cope With, Character Study Summary:

He’s always been such a good pretender.

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I need to cap off my current fics and start up on the next ones… I have some one shots in the pipeline… and I have endings in mind for ongoings.

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Working hard or hardly working

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:(

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I love writing a downward spiral of events. Things get worse before they get better. Sometimes they just get worse.

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Don’t worry about it everything’s fine :^)

Grind never stops

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Grind never stops

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Chapters: 1/? Fandom: MLAndersen0 Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Michael Andersen & Shaun Andersen, Michael Andersen & Stormy, Michael Andersen & Patrick, Shaun Andersen & Stormy, Shaun Andersen/Stormy, Shaun Andersen & Patrick, Patrick & Stormy (MLAndersen0) Characters: Michael Andersen, Patrick (MLAndersen0), Shaun Andersen, Stormy (MLAndersen0) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe - Wings, Canon-Typical Violence, Violence, Blood and Violence, Aftermath of Violence, Past Violence, Dysfunctional Family, Family Issues, Family Bonding, Angst, Angst and Feels, Medical Trauma, Medical Malpractice, Chronic Pain, Not Canon Compliant Summary:

[Wings AU]

Michael knows he didn't do it. Knows he wasn't the one who hurt him.

Trying to get anyone else to believe it is the bigger problem.

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Made a playlist of the sources of the Titles/Chapter Names of my fics. Details on chapters missing songs: The Good Life Chapter 6 - Keep the Lights On by Wave Machines. Missing. Wave Machines is not on Spotify, or at least doesn't have the song Keep The Lights On available on Spotify. Chapter 16 - Finally by the Correspondents is already on the playlist.

Ways To Go Chapter 2 - Keep the Lights On by Wave Machines. Same reason as above. A note on Anthems for a Seventeen-Year-Old Girl: I HIGHLY recommend listening to the original version by Broken Social Scene. I used the cover from I Saw The TV Glow as it felt right to use that version and it's a version I really enjoy.

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Chapters: 1/? Fandom: MLAndersen0 Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death Relationships: Michael Andersen & Shaun Andersen, Michael Andersen & Patrick, Michael Andersen & Stormy, Shaun Andersen & Patrick, Shaun Andersen & Stormy, Patrick & Stormy (MLAndersen0) Characters: Shaun Andersen, Patrick (MLAndersen0), Michael Andersen, Stormy (MLAndersen0) Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe, Canon-Typical Violence, Violence, Blood and Violence, Aftermath of Violence, Brotherly Love, Brothers, Brotherly Bonding, Brotherly Angst, Canonical Character Death, Canon Compliant, Mental Health Issues, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Hurt No Comfort, Hurt Series: Part 2 of Two Twin Deaf Kids Summary:

He's tired of surviving.

He wants to live.

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actually why am i apologizing for writing something that is torment and agony, the last two mla0 fics i've read kicked me in the gut until i cried. you know who you are and what you did