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Everything is on a timer.

Some people just see this clearer than most.

And obsess over what’s to come.

From now whenever I meet someone or experience something. I’ll always be questioning when does this timer run out?

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“How do you say goodbye when your heart still wants to hold on?”

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"Maybe he left because he saw me the way I see myself"

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"So don't swear to God, he never asked you. It's not his heart you drove a knife through".

Bring Me The Horizon, "in the dark"

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I’m finally realising that sometimes you can’t change the outcome. Nothing you can or could of ever done would of changed who they become.

I’ll miss you. I love you. But, you’re not mine. And I’ll be ok.

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You sing now. Like a free bird. And I’m mesmerised. Why couldn’t I harmonise your soul in such a way?

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Four years. I fell for you for four years. So why do you think. Now I’ve hit the ground, that it wasn’t going to hurt? The longer you fall the worse the impact.

I’m now slowly beginning to peel my wreckage from the concrete and evaluate what’s remaining.

I think that’s the explanation of to fall in love. You either fall, forever, in a loving eternity. Or. You crash onto the concrete. Obliterating everything you ever were or ever could be. You’re destroyed. Left to start again.

Admittedly you loose parts of your soul during this process. It’s hard to truly see what’s left. When your insides are laid bare to the world and there’s a hole where your heart used to be.

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I’m embarrassed to admit that even now. I’d have you back in a heartbeat.

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The kind of love that the neglect left you saying thank you. And the hate left you begging for more.

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Why tonight do I feel my whole value as a human relies on the opinion of the person who thinks the littlest of me.

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I used to wish I’d met you sooner. Now I wish I’d never met you at all.

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I’m tired of breaking my heart every day over you.

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Ijeoma Umebinyuo, from Questions for Ada; “Your Women”

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She was red. And I was blue. You touched me and suddenly I was a lilac sky, and you decided purple just wasn’t for you.

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We loved with a love that was more than love. And yet still. It was never enough.

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