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shhh-justdontask · 2 years

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I’m adding a lot of random tags to this because I really want this to get out there. Please, help this person if you can do so- or at least reblog this to try and spread the word.

⚠️I was in a car wreck and I need HELP ⚠️

I hate posting this again but I am in dire need at this moment. My life has crumbled to pieces and I’m losing my mind. Im trying to keep my head above water but I seriously need help to do so. My bank account could go under at any second now and I can’t do anything about it. My family is strapped for cash or hates me because I’m bisexual and a trans man. I NEED ANY AND ALL HELP I CAN GET!!

i was in a car wreck less than a week ago. The car got damaged to the point I cannot drive and it will not be ready for however long. There is no set date. I AM COMPLETELY OUT OF WORK AND UNABLE TO WORK UNTIL MY CAR IS FIXED. I have bills to pay and stuff that’s coming out/ has come out of my account that’s draining it quickly. I’ve tried selling things online, looking for remote jobs, or anything but I’m unable to do anything UNTIL my car is fixed. I have phone bills, internet bills, and some stuff with the car until it’s fixed. BUT I MAINLY NEED GROCERIES & MEDS AT THIS MOMENT! EVERYTHING I MAKE GOES TOWARDS MY BILLS/FOOD/MEDS.

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I take commissions for writing and props! I take any and all donations, anything really can help me right now. I’m begging for help, it feels utterly gross of me to need any at all but I don’t know what else to do. I’ve exhausted my other options this last week trying to figure it out. PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD OR REBLOG OR DONATE IF POSSIBLE! EVERYTHING HELPS ME OUT AND I APPRECIATE ALL ANYONE HAS DONE TO HELP.

i like my life right now. I have an amazing boyfriend and cosplay stuff going on, I got on meds (that I can’t afford atm), and so much going for me. this is delaying a lot so I hope I can just get everything together soon.

MORE ABOUT MY SITUATION AND THE CAR ACCIDENT :

I’m a 19 year old who’s a bisexual trans man. I struggle with PTSD, BPD, eating disorders, and Tardive Dyskinesia. I work on my education from home and online. I take care of my mother who has multiple sclerosis and have been since I was about 13, I took a leave from public school to switch online. That way I was / am able to be here with her. I take care of the house and my mom for a majority of the time. I’ve been in lots of bad situations and abuse so I have plenty of advice / love to give and wants to protect others from stuff. Im always happy to listen or give advice or help. Im just…im a person. Im just a person who is trying to survive and I can’t right now. I have been through hell already and I don’t know how much more I can take. The car wreck was a lot.

I was in this wreck on Sunday. I was trying to turn into a complex to do delivery driving stuff and some women came flying down the empty road, she hit my passenger side. I lost consciousness from impact and shock, my car spun out and barely avoided 3 other cars. My car luckily drove into a gas station next to the road but was barely able. It completely died and needs entirely new steering/ right front side repaired. Using my car is my form or work and EVERYTHING I do to make money. Without it, I’m drowning. I’ve been mentally and physically exhausted, my body hasn’t slept or been able to calm down much. I really just want to be able to take a break and recover but because of the money troubles and all, I haven’t been able to.

Previously, I was in a horrible car wreck two years ago. The driver was trying to kill me and the other passenger, along with themselves. It was an impulse decision and the driver tried to have us T-Bone a van. I turned the wheel to try and swerve away so we wouldn’t die. My other friend wasn’t wearing a seatbelt, so I had to turn us. She would’ve died. But, we hit another car. All the airbags went off, the car went silent…I couldn’t move or hear at first but then the second I could, I scrambled out of the car. Both people were unresponsive for a moment, I truly believed the impact really hurt or killed them. They came out a minute or two later, the car completely totaled. They were relatively unharmed besides a concussion…I had broken ribs and a concussion. After the wreck, these people lived with me. They abused the hell out of me, making my life hell for months. They drained my money, took my living space/items, verbally/physically abused me constantly, made my home a DRUG DEALING DEN, and made EVERYTHING hell. The constant stress is what put me in the hospital constantly and created a new stress disorder, I HAVE BEEN IN/OUT OF THE ER 23 SEPARATE TIMES AND ADMITTED 6 INTO THE HOSPITAL. BECAUSE OF WHAT THEY DID TO ME. For months, this wreck and these people destroyed me. It wasn’t until 9-10 months ago did I even feel okay after it all.

I cannot let my life fall into anything like this again. My whole world fell apart and I don’t want it to again. Please please help me spread this around or get some form of help if possible. It would be saving me from anything of what happened last time. I appreciate anyone who’s read this and taken time from their day.

Remember to drink water and take your meds! Thank you all and PLEASE help me of you can

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shhh-justdontask · 2 years

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Everyone who sees this, please give this post some love. My friend here is stressed out and I think it would really make their day if you could take some time to read this. Trust me, their work is adorable and you won’t regret it! 💕💕💕💕

Hi elli!! Would you interested in writing Shownu from Monsta X as the lee, and BTS members as the lers? hihi (the scenario is up to you) My bias from monstaX is shownu & from BTS is like most of them so this kind of fics will be nice to read, have a great day elli!

Hulk

I love that prompt! Thank you darling! So sorry you had to wait so long.

Lee: Shownu

Ler: BTS

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Jimin’s phone buzzed, when he grabbed to answer it and saw that it was Jungkook calling, he put him on speaker as Taehyung and Namjoon were also in the room.

"Hey Kookie, what’s up?”

"Guess who I just met in the gym!”

"I don’t know, the tooth fairy?”

"You’re annoying. No! Shownu Hyung!”

"Shownu as in Hyun-woo?”

"Yessir!”

"Well is he busy? Or would he like to come over?”

"I mean, we were gonna grab a coffee but we can also come over.”

"Awe, I would love that! We haven’t seen him in ages!”, Taehyung chirped in from the side.

***

Thirty minutes later the four boys were comfortable seated on the two couches in the living room.

"Shownu, how’ve you been?”

"Good, I’ve been really good. I mean, it’s stressful because of all the events and stuff, but you guys know what I’m talking about.”

"Oh yeah, I believe that any second.”, Namjoon nodded sympathetically.

"But hey look at you”, Jungkook pointed at him from across the couch. "You’re so muscly, that’s so cool!”

“Oh yeah, our Kookie here has been bulking up for a couple months now and you and Wonho are like at the top of his inspiration list.”, Taehyung grinned, shooting his younger a mean smirk.

"Leave him alone, Tae.”, Namjoon scolded, showing the younger’s shoulder.

Shownu chuckled, he knew these antics from his own group.

"Nah but seriously, this is insane. You’re an animal.”, Jungkook leaned forward.

"It’s really not..”, Shownu looked down flustered, scratching his neck.

"Oh c’mon, Hulk, don’t get shy now.” Jungkook grabbed Shownu’s biceps, trying to make a point just how muscular his friend was. What he did not expect was the flinch that he got from him.

"Oh, did I hurt you?”, Jungkook retreated his hand quickly.

"Are you sore?”, Taehyung questioned.

"Or did I ale you uncomfortable?”

"Or did he startle you?”, the two younger guys kept shooting out the questions.

Namjoon just leaned back with a shit eating grin, oh he knew exactly what had caused Shownu’s reaction. Leader things, you just know.

"No, no, you’re fine!”, Shownu’s cheeks began to become bright pink.

"Then what did I-“

"Big hulk’s just ticklish”, Namjoon decides to reveal.

"Wait what?”

"No I’m not! It’s just like you said, Tae, I’m just sore!”, Shownu tried to talk himself out of it.

"But you just said you weren’t!”, Taehyung now laughed.

"No, I was answering Kookie, he didn’t hurt me. Yah, that’s what I meant I- Namjoon don’t you dare!”, Shownu eyed the Virgo suspiciously. Said man has gotten up from his seat with a playful glint in his eyes.

"Chill man, I was just getting us something to drink.”, Namjoon laughed.

"Oh.” Shownu Switches his focus to the two youngsters now, who had a matching sparkle in their eyes.

"SIKE! Go get him boys!”, suddenly Shownu was pulled against the backrest of the sofa. Namjoon had, in fact, not gone out to get them some beer. No, that was just a lie to get Shownu to stop focusing on him.

Tae and Kookie exchanged mean grins before throwing themselves on the couch, sandwiching the oldest of the quartet and started prodding and poking his sides.

"Nohow hang ohon!”, Shownu yelped, trying to grab their hands, but since it was four offending hands against two, he didn’t really stand a chance.

"STAHAP!”, he squawked out when Jungkook’s fingers wormed their way into his armpits.

"YOU SAHAHACK!”

"No way, the dude that can deadlift 120kg gets taken down by a little bit of tickling.”, Taehyung teased, fluttering his fingertips over his collarbones, promoting Shownu to slam his chin to his chest.

"SHAHAHAT AHHAP!”

"There’s no way you’re actually this ticklish. Does Rocky know about this?? Oh I’m so telling him!”, came the teasing reply from behind him. Namjoon. That traitor.

"I AM OHOHOLDER THAN YOU! YOU HAHAHVE TO RESPECT MEHEHE!”

"You’re also more ticklish than all of his.”, Tae laughed.

Oh, he was enjoying this too much, Jungkook decided. "Really?”, he asked "I think you’re just as ticklish.” He reached over, poking the other in the ribs, earning an honest to god squeal.

"Don’t start.”, Tae mumbled, using his embarrassment to dig his fingers into the oldest’s torso with vigor.

"I AHAHAM NEVER COMING OVER AHAHGAIN!”

"Now that’s just mean.”, Jungkook playfully pouted before squeezing the other’s thighs.

"STAHAP! JUST STAHAHAP ILL GET YOU BAHACK!”

"Oh we know you will. Might as well wanna make it worth it.”, Jungkook tried to play it off, but he did gulp at the thought of the hulk wrecking him.

"Or we just tire you out so much that you can’t get us back.”, Namjoon purred.

"NAHAHA NOHO MORE! Please! CAHAHANT BREATHE!”

"Guys, I think even hulks need to breathe.”, Tae chuckled before signaling the other’s to back off.

Shownu hugged himself, curling into himself and panting heavily.

"I wihill. Gehet. You. Back.”

"Will see about that, hulkie Hyung.”

#bts tickle #kpop tickle

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