shrrruti19

[shrrruti19]

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[shrrruti19]

“november, invigorate my intentions. raise the volume on the beautiful parts of me that i turned down or silenced because my insecurities and fears were too loud, play them on repeat through loud speakers so i can hear how love for myself should always sound. speak to my spirit.”

— iambrillyant

[shrrruti19]

PROTECT YOUR HEART,BABE

Heya peeps!

Okay so 11:37 it is , laptop on the desk , fairy lights on , weather is cold but my soft shawl is making me feel warm ,nd my heart is staggerd kindof a very imperfect perfect the vibe is.

Finally today I wrote my day in my diary nd realized how relaxing it is and just scolded myself for why did I stopped ....Okay so I always had this thought in my mind suppose you are waiting for something very eagerly and how if suddenly that particular thing goes away from you...maybe for some span of time or maybe for lifetime...Can uh people just imagine how worse that feeling could be broken , painful , incomplete types....nd suddenly a thought came into my head nd it changed the whole thought process that too very beautifully...BROKEN THINGS CAN BE BEAUTIFUL TOO...Isn''t it? I mean is it really necessary that every single thing on this planet should have a complete end...For say 'The colosseum in rome' its broken, its incomplete yet beautiful and historical...

Similary your feelings, your stories can be incomplete too and its alright coz it's beautiful just the way it is...Never ever loose your individuality just for the name sake of completing the broken peices

IT'S BEAUTIFUL JUST THE WAY IT IS..YOU JUST NEED TO PROTECT IT

[shrrruti19]

THIS TOO SHALL PAAS...

Heya peeps..

Okay , so lemme share something with you all...I am someone who maintains a personal diary..where I write about my day..my feelings nd thoughts and before uh people think wow it is a good habit r anything like that....lemme just interrupt uh guys with this but am really very very inconsistent with it... I guess last time I wrote something in it was in august nd I completely dnt hve an idea abot why I stopped..I dnt know weather anybody else face this too r am the only one but whenever something really bad happens to me r maybe when am at my lowest, r something bothers me I kindaa avoid writting it down coz I just dnt want to mention it anywhere...I just dnt want to recall it r just speak about it...Nd I keep avoiding it . WHICH SHOULD NOT BE DONE...Like dude It's my life ..my ups and downs ..why the hell am I running from my downs , my bad experience nd not accepting them . .Nd uh know what is worst part uh are not able to write this in ur personal diary then just forget about sharing it with ur loved ones...But this technique of ignoring doesn't actually works...IT KIND OFF STAYS BACK IN MY HEART SOMEWHERE IN A CORNER......which is not healthy at all. I hope I will start writting in it again..

WELL..I just took a look on my dairys nd read my own life 3 years ago..ND I could see my whole journey of last 3 years ..those days I used to mention everything ...MY DIARY'S WERE MY BFFS..Going through the pages I realized how beatifully I healed myself...how amazingly I handled each of my prblms nd yup upgraded myself too I even noticed something really interesting that whenever I used to deal with some bad times I used write few lines which are my favorite till date

'THIS TOO SHALL PASS , GOD HAS A BETTER PLAN FOR YOU .

'DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS BUT HE SURLY HAS'

Gawwddd this line kept me going ....like in every difficult situation...I dnt know who needs this but trust me this line has some MAGIC.

[shrrruti19]

HAPPINESS IS AN INSIDE JOB.

Heya peeps!

So , this isn't going to be a daily blog this one is just going to be my pool of thoughts..HAPPINESS IS AN INSIDE JOB. You won't get paid for being happy still most of us choose to do it...afterall it's important as well...it does happens that even if uh r a healthy nd a bublee kinda a person...life does puts in difficult situations. There will be times when uh would feel depressed but uh need to find ur therapy , ur therapy of being happy...yes ur therapy of smiling even in worse situations.

Okay so from last few weeks I have indulged myself in few activities which I never tried before..nd to my surprise they make me feel contented. The very first are fairy lights , like I never noticed this before but yah just starring at the bright sparkling lights does some sort of magic to me...nd hence I decorated a corner of my room with these magical sparkles nd realized that the same eplace where I hve been from last 8 years seems really new nd exciting to me...That I can just sit around for the whole evening nd paint....So, yes another discovery of mine are paintings which makes me smile and enjoy the moment..now the reason why I call it a discovery coz I was never an artistic kid but yah growing uh tend to try new things nd find ur peice of cake...nd my most recent one is this blogging like am sharing my thoughts nd my day but not to my personal dairy but to the outside world in an innovative manner ofcourse.... nd the best part uh just dnt hve to be specific about anything...the app itself welcomes uh with the line 'GO AHEAD,PUT ON ANYTHING'

SO, these are my way to escape the world...what are yours?

I just wonder how will the 22 or 23 year old "Shruti "will feel after reading these blogs

Either she's gonna be proud r embarresed LOL....But for now this 19 year is just in love with the process..

GOOD LUCKS TO HER!

[shrrruti19]

6.11.2022

Heya peeps!

So, It's gonna be my first blog ever. Now why I decided to start this coz why not? It's just that ur heart is always full of words and emotions...but sometimes uh just dnt need people to hear you, uh just need urself to speak !

It was a ususal day waking up nd doing all my business nd heading to my study space...pretending to concentrate actually hoping to concentrate..nd then landed up watching my favorite web series for Nth no. of time ..nd even cancelled my plans with my bestie bcoz of the classes nd later realized that it's sunday...ANYWYAS ..evening was pretty good just like the weather...winters round a corner reminding me some of my beautiful memories , wish I could live them again...nd then am back at my room .Well I swear I hve alot more to say but I guess its enough for the day!