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now that it's summer....

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There has not been a single day in 2025 that I have not felt weird and bad in some capacity.

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106 ??? for a "feels like" temp?

It's going to be 102, with a 106 degree F "feels like" temp tomorrow in my little Massachusetts suburb. It has never been that hot here in my lifetime, or possibly ever

Please kill me (or better yet, a fossil fuel executive/lobbyist). I am not made for heat.

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Bothers me (even days later) that what would've been a good point was ruined by me making a typo. Ah.... *sigh*. That's my life. Read and re-read the body, and forgot to look at the title... would've seen I typed "Is do they?" instead of "Or do they?" if I had...

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I wonder if drinking well water up through my 20s is why I had so many cavities? On the other hand, while I was drinking well water I never had an iron deficiency, cause boy did that water have iron in it (natural from the surrounding soil, not the pipes).

Not trying to derail, I agree with the post. Give me all the vitamins, minerals, and vaccines. Fortify me!

As a society we have benefited so much from successful public health measures that we now have the privilege of declaring that we must not need them anymore

Bitch before enriched flour, neural tube defects like spina bifida were far more common. Even now, spina bifida clinicians and researchers are begging to have salt and maize fortified to reach groups that don’t use as much flour. Before iodized salt, the United States had a fucking GOITER BELT. Eleven years after the introduction of fluoridated water, a city in Michigan found the rate of dental caries among school children dropped a staggering 60%— in an era where tooth decay regularly fucking killed people

I’m literally not even going to start on vaccines, which are among the most successful and robustly studied public health measures in world history

You might say “oh well today we all have access to vitamins and toothpastes and dentists so we don’t need those things in our food supplies” and boy do white people on social media loooove to fucking say that. But here’s the thing: no, people don’t all have easy access to those things. That’s privilege talking yet again

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I was about to comment that "if I see her in a store for a decent price, I'll get her"

Then I saw $55. FIFTY FIVE DOLLARS ?! In this economy? Mattel you almost had with nostalgia, but I've got bills to pay!

This is a $25 doll at most, c'mon!

Barbie Masters of the Universe Princess of Power She-Ra Doll

Price: $55.00

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y'all it's about to get really fucking humid and hot

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Everyone needs to read this... or do they?

Constantly on tumblr I see posts that are addressed to everyone, usually with "everyone needs to read this" or "everyone needs to understand that" or some other version

and then the op reblogs it yelling at people they don't like to get off their post. Is it for everyone or not? Shouldn't it be a GOOD thing that people you might disagree with on one or more issues agrees with you on this one? Stop recoiling when someone from the "other side" (whatever side that may be) agrees with you on something, it doesn't taint either of your... whatever you got going on.

How is anything supposed to get done, supposed to change, if its gotta be all or nothing, either everyone converts to your every viewpoint or belief (which won't happen) or that post isn't for everyone, it's for your tiny circle of mutuals...

Building tiny digital fortresses isn't working out for society.

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GOING TO THE DOCTOR

Expectations: I’m Sorry You Have Going To Die Disease You Are. Going To Die

Reality: The Doctor Says I Don’t Know

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break from the hugs with a sailor mars sketch

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Money Stresssssssssss

I used to have money to do things. But

Had to take out a bank loan for certain repairs. Whole thing was a harrowing experience but I got approved, got the 2 checks (a little over $6,000 each) mailed off the first one as requested, the company doing the repairs said they got it and scheduled the repairs (on a weekday so I have to take a day off work even to oversee it and sign off on each step, though I don't want to take off any more days of work)....

Only for the bank to e-mail me saying they made out the checks wrong and to bring them back so they can reissue both! ahhhhh! I don't have both!!!! ahhhhhh!!!!!!!

ON TOP OF THAT I have a scheming uncle. Who is going behind my back to push me out of my house and my inheritance. He called up the company handling my dad's stocks and tried to initiate a transfer to him (I'll get them after my dad dies but literally no one can do anything with them until then, they are locked up legally). He tried going to my Dad's tax guy (whose office is closed because tax season is over), and I'm sure he's the one who stole my dad's coin collection that was worth 10k (he's stolen things from my dads old car before my dad sold it because dad is too disabled to drive, and I've caught the scheming uncle stealing from our old house) and I'm sure he's the one who keeps calling elder services who make unpleasant visits accusing me of neglecting my elderly parents (my mom died a few years ago, but it was happening then too) saying I'm just using them for their money. He says he and his brothers worked hard but I don't, that I don't have a right to have anxiety, that I should go live in the old house (the one taken by eminent domain by the town that has no water or working plumbing, full of mold and mice and bugs).

What woudl he do with the money? He'd gamble it all away of course. He "takes care" of one of my other uncles but really just takes his SSI check to Foxwoods (casino) and gives that disabled uncle only $15 from it.... a month.

I haaaaaaaaate Scheming Uncle. My mom hated him! but my dad likes him and always lets him in because he's his brother, buys him cigarettes and pastries and cuts his hair, and tells him he can and should smoke in the house (even though he'd never let my dad smoke in HIS house). he wants to be in the will soooo bad, (he is not and never will be) and short of that will steal anything he can.

He's even been trying to dig up info on my boyfriend.

Not to mention the prices of everything, work hours cut, tariffs, etc. adding to money stress.

I feel guilty buying anything other than groceries.... or spending on anything but the bills. Sorry if I bought myself dolls and crafts supplies and such for a couple of years to cheer myself up and distract me from my life my health and the world being a disaster! never went into debt or anything but my bank account did go down. I've stopped doing that! Trying to build the bank account back up!

I hate being in a constant panic and under a microscope!!!!

Ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

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Back in February 2025 I ordered this handsless (don't have any before photos, these are afters ) Bunny Blanc from EAH from eBay, before I'd ever watched the series (I've watched it all now) because I'd always liked her clothes when walking toy isles back in the 2010s but never bought her, so it was nostalgia from that time.

Was originally only going to steal the clothes (I'm a sucker for a mint , white, and pale pink combo) as the doll itself was very dirty and had part of her bangs chopped off and dyed green... but I cleaned her up and she grew on me.

Painted the eyes a bit so she's looking forward, not the eyes out to each side. Repainted the ears the exact same colors they should've been (paint was chipping off). Painted on matte pink lipstick, new micah makeup applied with a dry brush (someday I'll seal all my customs, but they just hang out on shelves for now). added gold paint to the heel details (hourglass). Made new hands out of a clearance lol omg doll (and took the stand for her)... painted hands as if they were bunny paws with fingerless gloves and added ribbon with white pompoms.

if you don't know what I mean about the original eyes looking out to each side, here's what she would've looked like in-box :

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MP3 player misadventures, continued

Annnnd the cheap blueMP3 player I bought BROKE within 2 minutes of work. I tried to turn the volume down and the whole damn button broke inward. And it somehow gut stuck on this radio static, no access to the menu, to way to reset

Luckily, returns are accepted! Plastic garbage! These 11-20 dollar mp3 players are for sale all around the net, all under different names but are the same thing... don't buy them. Don't fall for the nearly 5 star rating by other users.

Don't buy Ruizu brand ones either, used to have those for work, the player itself holds up on those but the software breaks down in less than a year and won't charge or won't turn off or won't play or just generally glitches out.

Instead I ordered a hot pink refurbished Sony Walkman MP3 player from eBay. I'll have to transfer files over to it by computer, instead of by SD/TF card.... and it holds far less bytes... but at least I'm familiar with them and they are reliable. And it will go well with my hot pink earbuds!

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I've been having a very stressful week. Bad things keep happening. moneywise, healthwise, familywise, housewise. and its only Tuesday.

won't get into them BUT on top of it all ... and this might seem small and petty to you... Monday, my work MP3 player broke. My OakCastle Mp100. I liked that it was tiny, fit in my pocket, headphone jack was on top, and most importantly, could listen to files by file folder.

When I was reaching for a box while standing on a 8 ft high grated platform, the player popped out of my pocket and to the concrete floor below and skidded to the grimy wall. It no longer turns on.

OakCastle no longer makes MP3 players.

No one is selling theirs used.

Was angry and bummed then got to the car after work and tried to pop out the microSD card that has all my unlistened to files on it.... and it flew into the backseat. It took my boyfriend and I half a day of taking apart the car to find it (admittedly I haven't cleaned my car in over a year, life has been stressful and any boring tasks that I don't have to do immediately, I put off.... and off and off and off).

I have tinnitus (or tinnitus like symptoms where my head is constantly buzzing "eeeeeeeeee" but there's apparently no damage to my ears) and my work is loud and also boring and repetitive, and i NEED to listen to podcast in order to not go insane.

So I ordered a different brand, a cheap no-name bright blue one online, the one that had the highest user rating, paid for next day shipping which is not something I usually do..... and it sucks. It suuuuucks because instead of being able to access the podcasts by the folders I put them in, like with Oakcastle, its one giant playlist that's alphabetical not chronological. It will have to do for now I GUESS

Just ordered a different cheap one, one that shows file folders on the screen, and should get here by this weekend (and had free shipping), so please work please work please work!!!!

If the new one does work, I'll put music on to the cheap blue one and give it to my boyfriend since he misses his CD collection (mostly held hostage by an ex) , and he won't mind it being one big blob of music with no user slection other than a next and previous button since he's rather tech illiterate (great musician, great carpenter, bad with computers) and it has a simple on/off glide switch, its foolproof. and he likes blue.

and yes I do have 2 old Sony Walkman 8gb MP3 players.... but they don't take SD cards, and I don't dare bring them to work (for fear of dropping and breaking them), plus all my music is on them and they are full. Those are for listening to while drawing only.

I don't have a smartphone and refuse to get one. So don't bother to tell me to stream from my phone.

All I want is a ittybitty podcast machine that fits in my pocket that I can plug earbuds into.

I need my distraction from the world. NEED.

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They should invent a way to sit hunched over doing crafts that is Good for your body

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I got this Monster Fest Draculaura some time back.

Loved the makeup, hated the clothes, redressed her in various RainbowHigh/ShadowHigh pieces except for the cat ears, which was from a pack of animal headbands from dolls I got online somewhere, and the legwarmers, which are the cut off ends of sleeves of a faux leather doll jacket that was too big for whatever doll I was using it for so had to be trimmed down anyway (always repurpose!)

I edited the background in paintshoppro7