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WATCHING THE FLAME DIE OUT "I'm fine.. don't worry," He said over the phone. Scattered stubbed-out cigarette buds told a different story In a disturbingly ironic tone. He struggled through the "what's up?" "How's college treating you so far?" "Are you sure you're really okay tho? 'cause you sound a little bizarre." On the edge of emotional meltdown, Each second passed like an hour. So he took a deep breath and finally Gave the most clichéd excuse of business And hung up the phone abruptly. Clink! The zippo ignited And illuminated the room as dark as his soul, For a brief moment though. He squinted hard against the flame As if refusing To let even the slightest light enter him And lit up yet another cigarette As he sat there alone Watching the flame die out. -Syed Ali Sher

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BREATH-TAKING Saline venom burns through my skin As it overflows From the oval shaped Furnaces where my dreams drown And deep down Where they hold hands And close their eyes, Something inside me dies. I throw my head back and gasp, Letting go for there's nothing to grasp. The blade slips out of my hand Taking a bounce here, Somersaults, then stops there After what seems like eternity, A few inches away, As if imitating me. I turn my head And stare at it as we lay Like two fallen lovers In their dying breath. My soul's escaping me in the guise Of a red potion they call life, Trickling out of me Like a guiltless prisoner breaking free. My fingers twitch for one last time. My death is my penance, My death is my crime. -Syed Ali Sher

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Shattering Tragedies series

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SHE FEARED ALOT Last night, Standing at the threshold of her soul, I gently knocked. "I don't want to let you in 'cause I'll just hurt you", She feared. So I sat there Talking to her Across the door And after my endless rhetorical questions, Her reluctance gave in. She let me in. Her darkness would keep me out, She feared, But little did she know That my fear as a child is now home to me That it was only when I couldn't see, I really felt That no one made it alive to the end of the tunnel That you can't see the stars in the morning That the sun doesn't reach the seabed That its... Its Okay. Her sorrows would drown me, She feared, But she never realised That it was never her reflection that blackened my eyes That happy doesn't make you wonder That the chucklesome clown from her 5th birthday party Hanged himself last night That happy endings are only reserved for fairytales That its... Its okay. She'd lose me to her real self 'cause I'd judge, She feared, But she had almost forgotten That you only lose something you never won That no scar of hers would scare me away That no matter how lost do I get, all the roads lead me back to her That no matter who she thinks she is, she's only mine That nobody's what they show to be That you just don't draw a plain white circle and call it moon That its... Its okay. One day, When I will read this to her She'd laugh In my arms Because that day She will know for sure That she feared alot That she always had the wings That it was only the weight of her guise which kept her down And she will fly! Care... Free... -Syed Ali Sher

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LOVE YOU TO DEATH Come out, come out, I know where you are! Hiding is futile, running won't get you far. Come out, oh Darling! You know how it works, You gotta stop screaming. God! It so fucking irks! Don't make me push myself, I'm trying to be nice, Open the door now or you'll have to pay the price! I've lit up all the candles and turned off all the lights. Just you and me alone, such a romantic night! I'll kiss your rosy lips 'fore I cut them apart So you wouldn't have to fake me a smile, sweetheart. Those hands that never touched me, I will hold them in mine, Then chop off all your fingers into pieces so fine. I'll pop out both your eyes cause I don't want you to see The bloodthirsty monster that you've forced out of me. One part at a time, I'll dismember your arms. Funny how I once felt like protecting you from all harm I'll crush every bone in your legs for walking away Breaking a heart comes with a price, so you gotta pay! You know I could have slit your throat and rid you of agony But what kind of a lover would then I really be? So I'll cut through your chest and see your heart beating hard Then holding you from hair, I'll drag you to your backyard. Digging your grave, I'll think about everything we could be, I'll place in all your cutouts, so that we.. Could have our last words before you really die, Lift you in my arms and kiss you goodbye. I can't ever imagine stabbing you with a knife So I'll just throw you in and bury you alive.. -Syed Ali Sher

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MINE My lover is better than yours; She's made of all things sunny, No clouds, no moonlight, no stars. Her face... Aurora. An electrical phenomenon. A sight of colorful light, Scattered from the heaven upon. She's Goddess of Dawn. And when she puts that smile on, That ultraviolet smile, Radiating madness, Making my heart fluoresce. Those sunsetty eyes. Hypnotizing. Mesmerizing. Greenish-grey centered with a pinch of orange, Like the sun drowning at the horizon. Those sunkissed hair, Oh! when she flips them in the air, I can't help but only stare. And just like the hottest of the fire turns to ashes, She might someday lose all this beauty to time. But she is, she was, And she'll always be mine! -Syed Ali Sher

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A FEW MORE ROUNDS TO GO Should I text you my feelings? Cause you don't seem like a mind-reader type to me. They say that some things are best left unsaid But what's a man to do when there's nothing left to be said? All the right answers I've been looking for In all the wrong places have brought Me to a point where It doesn't matter anymore. To say, to show To let them know 'Cause even I don't know How could I be so empty When I'm overflowing with The love that never was, The life that never ends, All the smiles that I forced To let them win the argument; They know me better than I know. All those stereotypes They try to fit me in Like I'm some fucking retard with a remedy so old, "It's all in the head boy, let it go" You've got it half-right, I gotta give you that. Its all in the head. The unknown fear. The unseen pain. The unheard noises. Anaesthesia! I'm fading out With the low frequency sounds In the background Like they show you in the movies. I throw my head in water Splash! And everything stops With the fizzing sound of bubbles settling around. The only other sound My underwater expiration Bubble after bubble Pacing up like an ecg of a dying heart. I pull my head out. Maybe today's not the day, Just maybe, I still got a few more rounds to go. -Syed Ali Sher

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HELPLESS And it starts, Obviously Not so obvious to begin with. Aimless. Reasonless. Like an unpredictable rainfall On a pleasant summer evening, Oozing from the roof of clear skies, It comes down. Slowly. Gradually. Your blood Galloping through your veins Your heartbeats echoing In the eternity of your soul. Grinding teeth. Clenched fists. Intense scowls. You don't even realise when it started raining Cats and dogs. You try to make a run for it But it's too late for that! Its flooding. Submerging you. Inch by inch. Thought by thought. Panic takes over And you're swatting air. Helpless. Clueless. So you blame it on The evil hour of the night. Sleeping might put it off, you'd think. But darling You see, It's not what's around you, It's what's inside you. And it's stuck there. Like a racking radioactive rock Buried deep inside the heart of a desert. -Syed Ali Sher

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why does every social interaction with someone new feel like taking a test i didn’t study for

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Petrichor is love! 💞

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All But Ashes Now

That once raging fire show Is all but ashes now, All those moments lived away, Mere glimpse of memories today, The far felt faultlessness, Impossible.. Unimaginable.. The eyes once intoxicating, Lost all their high. The voice once melodious, Lost forever in The music of silence. The hands that once fitted Perfectly into each other, have got Too bleak of holding on. The love I once had for you.. It's gone. I may never forget you But it does not And will not Ever mean I'll miss you.. You're not a survivor's nightmare, Chasing him everywhere. An abstract painting. That's what you are. Thought of.. Painted down.. Exhibited.. Praised upon.. And given away. Never to hold again, Never to ponder upon. -Syed Ali Sher

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Revenge

A hand for a hand, An eye for an eye, A lie for a lie, A life for a life, Playing with the knife; It goes on and on but You’re never satisfied. You’re never satisfied..

-Ali Sher