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yall im excited for school. lowkey. ik ima hate it as soon as that shit starts but i need to get out of this house and meet new people who arent my two friends thatre afriad of leaving our neighborhood to go get sodas. no shade

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she bourg on my geo till she isies on my wishboner

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also?????????????? vodka cranberrY????????????????? waht the fucl!!!!!!!!!!!1 it i i amde uts was so!!!!!!!!!! no but wil smoked a ciggie for bran but bran woudnt quit smh. also fuck u want a summer mlm love pls. i love wilbran. FUCK THUS ALBUM IS GON RUIN ME.

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okay ! i did one thing off the cup !!

drink a whole bottle of water in one go (then go piss)

notes: yeah. um i got up to drink water and rembered ab the chit so i just chugged it and i did go wee after that. i love water. water fan check

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so underrated

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highkey stressing about not getting HRT before my puberty ends. my bodys changing so much every single day and every single change i notice feels undoable and its lowkey driving me bananas.

some trans folk who started hrt after puberty pls educate me lolz.

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hi im back. uhhh so me and my friend were planning our other friendS bday and i forgot ab posting. act i didnt forget, i jus kept procrastinating lolz.

i also havent done anything from the cup !! the entire point of this blog lol. i also dont have tumblr on my phone cos my mama is so strict ab it so i can only post from my laptop. theres also an ant infestation in my room and every time i drag my laptop out from under my bed i have to brush away a few ants. i always feel shit ab killing them when i do but if i scratch at my skin any longer it will give way and ill be forced to realise that i exist in meat, flesh, and blood too and not just in my own conscience. and thats never good. ILL DO THREE THINGS OFF THE CUP TODAY !!!!!!!!!!!

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dysphoria ruins all my swag smh

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Aap honge fine shyt, mai toh gharwalo pe bojh hu.

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QUEER DESI PINTTERSERT QUEER queer desi pinterest made 13 year old me cry

no you don't understand finding the queer desi side of pinterest and tumblr has genuinely healed something in me that i didn't know needed healing

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yall i kissed no one this pride month. didnt even fall in love. wheres my cmbyn but without the age gap summer ??? wasted another june

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my childhood crush was wendy and thats coming back in full swing

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also i started rewatching gravity falls today and im in love with it again. i wish i had shit to do with my three siblings

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i cant stand a month and fifteen days of summer without doing something real dramatic

hi. theres nothing to do in summer.

my parents are super strict about when to leave the house, who i go with. shi they wont let me go outside in our gated community alone.

so today i ripped up paper into strips and wrote stuff on them and put them in a cup and ill do that instead of doomscrolling bc thats lowk getting boring.

this account is for the rest of my summer bc um idk where else do you make a blog for yerself that ypu dont want no one to see but also have something physical to look at to validate that you did all ts.