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Dreamt that there were multiple little minigames on Tumblr, where a little character would talk to you and give you little tasks, and if you decided to play one of the games, it also unleashes it onto like 10 mutuals. I don't remember the penalty for if you don't complete the tasks and also there's a time limit once you begin it

The first one I did was unleashed upon me: some kind of red haired woman who makes everything spicy and I can't even drink any water or anything

The one that I chose to unleash onto mutuals was actually Yeonho. I also learned you could choose easy or hard. When I chose easy, I think his tasks were about buying food n it was rly cute

Irrelevant, but also in my dream I lost my shoes so I had to buy more shoes but how could I go to a shoe shop without wearing shoes???? Someone help??? (っ˘̩╭╮˘̩)っ🆘

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NAMELESS THE ONE THING YOU MUST RECALL MASTERLIST

Reader is GN unless stated otherwise

Dating Yuri Headcanons

Dating Red Headcanons

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Thank you for single-handedly keeping the Nameless fandom alive and well 🫡

You are welcome 😁 someone's gotta do it 😌🫡🫡🫡🫡🫡

I would be writing more of my Secret Ending Three fic but I'm actually more inspired recently to write my own original book - so far, the idea is for the book to be a series of short stories based on dreams that I or other people have had. Cuz I just love dreams so much. I have ideas that aren't inspired by dreams tho, so idk what I'll do w those concepts..

Right now, my parents are on holiday, so I'm mostly occupied with looking after my sister, so I haven't had time/energy to write much of anything basically -3- it's easier than I thought it'd be tho. And I'm also making progress with moving out. I viewed a property a couple weeks ago but someone else got the property before us 😤

This is a picture I took of a pigeon

Was wanting to get another Cheritz tattoo in Feb but was too depressed and decided against it since I was struggling so much already n didn't want the pain of the aftercare on my plate too. N now it's April?? Actually already May. Damn okay. I think I'll instead get the tattoo for my birthday in September when it won't be at as much risk of sun damage to it

Maybe I should make another post soon about my interpretation of Yuri's character. I'll see how I feel 😌 oh my god someone stop my cat from crawling behind the tv!! He could get electrocuted!!

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Another good review 😊😊 while I disagree with the interpretation of Yuri's character, I definitely don't disagree with why you've interpreted him in that way - I think the game definitely could've done better with how the narrative treated Eri. But Yuri's route will always be so sweet to me ❤❤❤😊

Nameless Route Review: Yuri - Could've Been a Contender

Again, SPOILERS Y’ALL. S P O I L E R S. Yuri marks my halfway point in Nameless. I have a lot to say so buckle up. Yuri, Yuri, Yuri. You had so much promise and potential. Too bad your route failed us all miserably. To expand a bit: Yuri, the only doll from Crobidoll’s adult line, is simply a bucket of smarm. He makes lots of money (somehow) and gets free things by charming women out of them.…

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Nameless Route Review: Lance - Tsundere? Kuudere? Anyway, Lots of Feelings

This review is NOT SPOILER FREE. BEWARE OF SPOILERS. *SLAPS POST* SHE CAN HOLD SO MANY SPOILERS. Ok, I warned you. SPOILERS. Second on my Nameless journey is the silver-haired tsundere? kuudere? certainly something-dere, Lance. From the beginning, Lance comes across as very aloof, uptight, and nitpicky. He pretends he only chooses to do things for Eri and the others in service of practicality;…

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i think it is important to recognize the ways in which your favorite thing sucks. i think it keeps u normal

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Have you ever struggled with jealousy cause of your maladaptive daydreaming? I'm struggling with jealousy against a real life celebrity from my hometown living my dream life. I never thought anyone from where I'm from would be famous. But now they are & living my dream creatively. Also this person is beautiful unlike me. I'm not as talented, chronically shy & don't meet beauty standards thus I wouldn't be successful in this career. Plus my deeply religious upbringing & people pleasing wouldn't allow me to try & join. I can't even tell my parents I'm an atheist. It sucks cause only two years ago I used to pray my maladaptive daydreams would come true somehow. I literally need to find a way to stop being jealous cause this celebrity is all over the internet. I either have to drop social media or find a way to mute this celebrity on all platforms. I live on the internet cause I have zero friends. It's my daydreaming haven. Or I could just try "exposure therapy" & read the posts while 'crying' in JEALOUSY. I tried talkspace, cause I was to embarrassed to tell a therapist in person. But unfortunately for me my therapist didn't consider maladaptive daydreaming or my jealousy a serious thing. But I get an upset stomach every time I see a post of this celebrity it sucks. I hate this feeling I want to be happy for people not jealous. Especially when I know I'll never ever live out my daydreams. Usually I use celebs as an inspiration I don't know why I can't do that with this celeb...

Hi! It seems you found my blog from a post I made back when my blog was about MaDD. I do still have MaDD, even if I no longer post about it, but it's definitely definitely much easier to handle now. I used to have to pace every single day for hours at a time, so much that I would even have to pace while I was on sleepovers with my friend and would have to delay leaving my house for multiple hours for the purpose of daydreaming and pacing

You sound like you are not only struggling with the amount of daydreaming and how much time it takes out of your day, but also how it affects you emotionally and your view of your own life and such. And I know, it does suck. I did the same thing as you; I did try to wish my daydreams into existence, and at the age of 14 I tried to escape my own reality, thinking it was a simulation, thanks to the voices I heard.. I know what it's like to be so unhappy in your own reality :(

And I know how bad it feels when people don't take your experiences seriously. I tried to seek help at sixth form and when I described my MaDD as an illness similar to OCD, the counselor completely ignored the daydreaming aspect and how it affects me entirely and only focused on the compulsiveness of the pacing I do whilst daydreaming. I felt like I wasn't being listened to so I completely gave up on that. Therapists should prioritise the patient and what they want to focus on, rather than what they think is right or wrong.

It quite wrecked my education and I practically failed cuz the urge to pace was so strong I couldn't study and had to do all homework the night before. It was quite hell. It sounds like you are going thru just that.

To help you with this, I think I'd have to know a bit more about your situation and how similar it may or may not have been to my own. I'm going to assume that you still live with your parents and may still be in some kind of education, so you might still be quite young? And I don't know what country you live in, so I'm not sure what the health services are like where you live. Either way, here's my experience:

After finishing education, I tried to get a job. I managed to get about 2 and a half days into the job before having to quit because of the panic on the job being too strong. Nothing much wrong with the job itself, my brain just felt like I physically couldn't/shouldn't be doing that job

When I told the job centre about why I quit, they urged me to go to the doctor about the anxiety. It took a long while, since I'd never been to the doctor on my own before, but I finally got an appointment

I spoke to a doctor about my experiences and I've been on sertraline ever since then. On sertraline, my urges to pace/daydream still occur, but much less often and to a much tamer degree. It's a lot easier to ignore (altho it has been a while since I've gone a day without pacing 😬 my longest streak was 4 days, but my mental health has plummeted since my nan's funeral in February, so I've not been making as much of an effort to reduce pacing.... Wait, does that mean it's been like 4 months???? God..)

I think this got slightly off topic since you were actually asking me about if I experienced jealousy. I don't think I've had that experience necessarily but I do definitely relate to the experience of desperately wanting, needing that life, even if it's not even an objectively good one..

It sounds like you feel like this because of not recognising your own potential tho. If this other person from your home town can achieve it, why can't you? Even if you feel shy, I think it's still worth it to work on your skills in your own time and privacy where you feel comfortable

If fame and love is where this need is coming from tho, perhaps you could try and find love in other ways instead of looking specifically for being a celebrity? Altho, having experienced your experiences, I understand that it's not all just about the feeling the daydream gives you, it's about being in that world specifically in real life, so I understand if that advice isn't exactly helpful to you

I don't know about your specific circumstances but I highly recommend starting medication if you haven't already. It doesn't work for everyone but it has done wonders for myself and if there's a chance that you can get the same success, then it is 1000% worth it just to try. I was scared of it taking away my daydreams, and while your brain gets used to the change in hormones, things do go haywire for a bit, but then it evens out really nicely and, in my experience, my daydreams have stayed intact at least til today, so you don't have to worry about that ❤

Please don't hesitate to reach out if you have more questions. I do encourage asking myself and other MaDDers about their experiences, you'll get more help from them than from therapists imo. I don't want you to feel hopeless. I myself haven't experienced the jealousy but I am certain that you will find someone else who's had the exact same experience.

Please do not lose hope!!!! (*ˊᗜˋ*)ᵗᑋᵃᐢᵏ ᵞᵒᵘ for reaching out!!!!!! There is an end to this hell, I promise you, it is out there. I know how hard it is, I promise. But it is possible to live with your daydreams and not have them make such a strong impact on your life ❤❤❤ you are worth it, please keep trying 😊 (*ˊᗜˋ*)ᵗᑋᵃᐢᵏ ᵞᵒᵘ

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additionally let's say ur in a specific location like every day of the week where there is no uniform restriction n there's this person always wearing one specific pair of shoes given tht u even notice they're wearing one pair of shoes everyday

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u ever wonder if ur a mutual who your mutuals are scared to talk to

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additionally let's say ur in a specific location like every day of the week where there is no uniform restriction n there's this person always wearing one specific pair of shoes given tht u even notice they're wearing one pair of shoes everyday

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u ever wonder if ur a mutual who your mutuals are scared to talk to

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That's great!! It sounds like you're really enjoying the game then if you're about to start Red's route!!

I do also recommend Dandelion but agree that Nameless is much better, not just in terms of gameplay but story too!

I agree about Mystic and Ssum. I'm not as much of a mobile gamer either and the difficulty of a game can make the story unfortunately inaccessible

I'll definitely keep an eye out for your Nameless/Dandelion posts in future, thank you 👌 Nameless has been my biggest special interest for the past 7 years, so if you ever need someone to scream about it to, I'm always available to talk about it! 😌😊😁😁😁😁

Nameless Route Review: Yeonho – The Cute Aggression is Real

Here’s the first of my Nameless Route Reviews. SPOILERS ABOUND, so don’t read further if you plan to play the game and haven’t. If you do…well, I warned you. Often I’ll start my otome games with the route I’m least interested in, or one I’m less interested in than others. Much of the time, I’m not interested in the shota or shota-coded love interests (the younger, cuter ones meant to appeal to…

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It can't be to Ann Lovejoy, it's to my dad!!

Unless my dad is called Ann Lovejoy or he picked up the wrong postcard.. Idk why he'd pick up Ann Lovejoy's postcard, idek who Ann Lovejoy is

I'm convinced it says hottie. Why would it say Lottie and Ann Lovejoy 💀

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I'm convinced it says hottie. Why would it say Lottie and Ann Lovejoy 💀

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Woah, thank you for taking an interest in Nameless!!!! 😁 it's my favourite game and the fandom's super small, so I super appreciate this cute review!!!!

Yeonho is such a good character with such a good route!! And quite a good introduction to the game I think, tho I Lance is probably a better one.

I hope you enjoy Lance's route!!!! And I really hope you continue to write reviews as you continue playing!!!!! 😊 I'd be very interested to read them all :3

Nameless Route Review: Yeonho – The Cute Aggression is Real

Here’s the first of my Nameless Route Reviews. SPOILERS ABOUND, so don’t read further if you plan to play the game and haven’t. If you do…well, I warned you. Often I’ll start my otome games with the route I’m least interested in, or one I’m less interested in than others. Much of the time, I’m not interested in the shota or shota-coded love interests (the younger, cuter ones meant to appeal to…

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Hi friend, in the spirit of the boop event that encouraged people to interact more, I just want to say that I appreciate you as a mutual! Have a great day <3

Thank you so much!!!!! You're appreciated too!!!! 😁😁😁 whenever I see you in my notes, imagine I am booping you still. 😌 The booping never stopped, it just stopped being a feature of Tumblr 😊

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Preserving the cuteness. (´∀｀)♥ I’m sad these don’t get added to the in-game album!