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i got so passionate about it i wrote a fic if you’re interested 🥹🥹🥹

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64648174

the day people stop dropping brain dead john walker (mcu) takes is the day i will finally know peace

like he’s such a morally complex and interesting character who was a perfect narrative foil to sam and the long-standing arc of what it means to pick up that shield and be captain america. he perfectly displays the sentiment we got back in the first captain america movie “not a great soldier, but a good man”. the us government picks a great soldier, the greatest one they have available. they do not understand that being captain america is so much more than that. a guy like john walker thrives in the morally grey environments of war but you make him the beacon of morality and goodness that is captain america and he crumbles. he was not made for it. the us military made him into a soldier, a weapon, and asked him to be something else. he acts the way that a soldier acts, does what a soldier would do, but captain america was never supposed to be a soldier, so he fucks up and makes the wrong decisions at almost every turn. he’s doing his best but he wasn’t built for this so it isn’t enough

his character is also such a good commentary on the us military, how the government asks terrible and life ruining things of its soldiers and then leaves them behind at its earliest convenience.

like john walker is the definition of “i am what you made me”. they made him exactly who he is, he lived his life by their mandates, he did everything they ever asked of him, and it wasn’t enough because they asked him to do something he could never do, stop being a soldier

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/64648174

Eventually, he looks to his predecessor. Tries to find out how Steve Rogers threw the shield and emulate that. If it worked for Steve, it should work for him.

He pays attention to Steve’s technique in the video, hands his phone back to Lemar, and throws the shield. It hits the target, comes back, and he reaches to catch it before it hits the ground in front of him.

Three bones shatter in his hands.

OR

John Walker's failed attempt at being Captain America from his point of view, with broken hands and shoulders shaking under the weight of expectations he was never built to carry.

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the re-entering of my marvel phase has caused me to not be able to stop thinking about tfatws, and somehow this happened. I spent one 12 hour sitting writing it, so if it's a little insane i apologize but i hope you enjoy!!!

(ps while this is John Walker centric, it is not in any way John Walker apologetic. he's not a good guy, just an interesting complex character)

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anyone who thinks yelena and bucky should be together in thunderbolts is wrong because bucky in in love with sam and i’m not sure what yelena identifies as but it’s not as someone who is into men

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the day people stop dropping brain dead john walker (mcu) takes is the day i will finally know peace

like he’s such a morally complex and interesting character who was a perfect narrative foil to sam and the long-standing arc of what it means to pick up that shield and be captain america. he perfectly displays the sentiment we got back in the first captain america movie “not a great soldier, but a good man”. the us government picks a great soldier, the greatest one they have available. they do not understand that being captain america is so much more than that. a guy like john walker thrives in the morally grey environments of war but you make him the beacon of morality and goodness that is captain america and he crumbles. he was not made for it. the us military made him into a soldier, a weapon, and asked him to be something else. he acts the way that a soldier acts, does what a soldier would do, but captain america was never supposed to be a soldier, so he fucks up and makes the wrong decisions at almost every turn. he’s doing his best but he wasn’t built for this so it isn’t enough

his character is also such a good commentary on the us military, how the government asks terrible and life ruining things of its soldiers and then leaves them behind at its earliest convenience.

like john walker is the definition of “i am what you made me”. they made him exactly who he is, he lived his life by their mandates, he did everything they ever asked of him, and it wasn’t enough because they asked him to do something he could never do, stop being a soldier

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“stucky or sambucky?” Both. I think it’s objectively funnier if this dude can’t stop falling for Captain America

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watching tubbo list 100 women is so funny

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It's funny having a very high tolerance for pain but a very low tolerance for other forms of discomfort. Like yea tattoos piercings cramps shots cuts bruises whatever thats nothing. But I better not get nauseous or hear a loud sound. Or I'll die

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Your friends watching something for the first time and getting to that scene VS you, the knower.

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The thing about growing up the peacekeeper, the people pleaser who learnt that survival meant setting aside your own needs to constantly assuage the more volatile members of the family, is that it becomes so so hard to even recognize what you're feeling about any given situation, it becomes retrospective because instinct is to make the conflict go away and once the dust is settled is when your body and mind find it's safe to process what happened, and then voicing your wants and needs is an even harder battle if you do realize them. Repressed emotion can then express itself in outbursts, can build until, like water or lava until it spills forth from the widest crack, the shortest possible path. This often looks like anger, quick to rise, even quicker to fall because anger is an easier emotion to feel than sadness or fear. A learned reaction from the very caregiver you're trying so hard to please. And if you're always sad, or you're always scared but you're suppressing these emotions to accommodate everyone else, often, outwardly, you're always angry.

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i love tumblr because sometimes i get an urge to rb posts about something nobody likes and everyone just politely ignores me. everyone's like oh he's fallen into madness again, he'll be fine later i guess

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I hate having banger fanfic ideas. What do you expect me to do? Write them down????????????

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getting unzipped has to feel so good for the compressed file

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i love fandoms where one side of it is toxic dudebros and the other just wants to see two guys fuck

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they should invent a sunday that doesn’t have this sinking feeling

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adhd will get you thinking "i should make this doctors appointment" every day for 7 months and counting

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WHO tf keeping pads with no wings in production?? Put it in your draws and by the time you walk out the bathroom it’s down the street buying scratch offs at the corner store. Like girl

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i'd like to introduce my daughter Nuance to tumblr