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Heavens, yes. I have some repressed shit I didn’t know about. The rage has been strong in this one. And I’m miserable, because I loathe violence and/or anger as a weapon. I don’t feel as if I’m in my own skin. I’ve been trying to keep myself to myself. All you people bragging about being horny. Fuck you. (See! That meanness right there, that bitterness. That’s not me but it just slipped out. Messy and not fit for interacting. Normally, I’d be celebrating for folks!) I’m innately happy. My grandma used to tease me and say I should’ve been named Joy or Sunny because when I arrived, I brought sunshine with me. If she was alive, she’d be dismayed by the permanent scowl I’ve been wearing.

if mars retrograde is already triggering you, you are not alone. these issues are coming up now because you didn’t even know there were there. now you have to look at them without judgement and figure out what’s their root, what is the real reason why you’re getting upsed. there’s more to this than just the surface, examine it before reacting. then choose how you want to react, choose what is important and what isn’t, choose how you want to heal and integrate this. until you can make a choice that is right for you, sit with these thoughts and feelings. allow them to happen to you. be curious about them, they are here to teach you. it might feel very foggy and strange and sudden, but that’s because things are happening behind the scenes. this might be one of the final struggles before a breakthrough. you have to travel through the blank unknown first.

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OMG> I looked up PH’s astro (https://www.astrotheme.com/astrology/Prince_Harry,_Duke_of_Sussex) chart, because this assessment didn’t sit well with me. I’ve always thought Harry’s personality tainted his looks and it was his choice to be stubborn rather than grow. I’d never. Then! This dude! Virgo in the 8th for Sun, Taurus Moon in the 4th, Ascendant in CAPRICORN! Bless. No wonder he’s always looking for love and acknowledgement while also looking like a fussy, expectant diva… yet also, so lovable and in denial. Run. Even you, messy Leo, Megs. Run.

ETA: for me it’s always personality over looks. looks fade and you’re suck with what’s left, assuming you want a life partner. get the one who does the work.

Harry had such a weird shaped head as a kid. Still does now. William has always been the best looking one and best one psychologically and emotionally too

William was definitely more attractive than Harry when they were younger, but in terms of them being grown ups now I think if Harry was mentally more healed would beat William due to his personality therefore making him more attractive. Plus without all the negativity clouding Harr y, he would look better physically as well since happiness translates on the inside and then outside spiritually (that's why Kate looked glowing at Louis's birth for example or Meghan stood out so well at the engagement photocall).

I also don't think Harry is the weaker brother for being more sensitive and emotional than William necessarily. I think he actually has that as a strength over his brother and allows him to connect to people in a way Diana could (due to how empathetic that makes someone) but William, I think still to this day cannot, at least in the same way. I think the problem is like you said, Harry not handling it well and fighting in various ways healing from his trauma as a kid which makes it toxic and therefore a weakness and him weaker to his brother psychologically and emotionally.

I do think William was always the stronger one in that regard (psychological/emotionally), but that is more because William has a stronger, more mature, steadfast personality that naturally would bounce back whereas Harry's personality is the opposite where he would be some consumed in emotions he would get lost trying to calm down and heal. So I don't necessarily think it's Harry's fault or we should shame him entirely either that William naturally took the mature route to handling his trauma either given the difference in personalities.

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and when you see what they’re asking of Congress... it’s common sense stuff that should already be in place! shameful

If you have not seen it already, Savanna’s Act needs more signatures! I thought your followers might be interested in signing an act that seeks to get congress to acknowledge the deaths of Native Women throughout the states! I know this is not a petition for Canada but I thought you would be interested nonetheless! Have a nice day Lydia!

Sign the petition to the U.S. Senate: Support Savanna’s Act!

I honestly did not even hear about this, thank you for sharing, anon.

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casual chitchat is casual chitchat. don’t mistake it for more. 

Star Tribune, Minneapolis, Minnesota, September 8, 1946

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Ah, yes. The lost epiphanies

Eight of Pentacles and Ace of Swords

Your mind will be struck by a sudden inspiration, just as your thumb is struck by a sudden hammer.

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imagine being a pisces moon 24/7 and living this way...

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When someone says they care about you and their actions don’t align with their words, it’s because they love how you make them feel about themselves. They don’t care about you. They like the high you give them. Real, genuine love is selfless and this type of love is selfish, and that’s the difference.

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Whew! I’m not a crier or an advocate of publicly expressing private things kinda person (like grief) but this is beautiful. It resonates, because it’s sincere. There’s real respect and loss here. This man knows what we’ve all lost, and he made me feel it.

Before sharing my thoughts on the passing of the great Chadwick Boseman, I first offer my condolences to his family who meant so very much to him. To his wife, Simone, especially. 

I inherited Marvel and the Russo Brothers’ casting choice of T’Challa. It is something that I will forever be grateful for. The first time I saw Chad’s performance as T’Challa, it was in an unfinished cut of Captain America: Civil War. I was deciding whether or not directing Black Panther was the right choice for me. I’ll never forget, sitting in an editorial suite on the Disney Lot and watching his scenes. His first with Scarlett Johansson as Black Widow, then, with the South African cinema titan, John Kani as T’Challa’s father, King T’Chaka. It was at that moment I knew I wanted to make this movie. After Scarlett’s character leaves them, Chad and John began conversing in a language I had never heard before. It sounded familiar, full of the same clicks and smacks that young black children would make in the States. The same clicks that we would often be chided for being disrespectful or improper. But, it had a musicality to it that felt ancient, powerful, and African. 

In my meeting after watching the film, I asked Nate Moore, one of the producers of the film, about the language. “Did you guys make it up?” Nate replied, “that’s Xhosa, John Kani’s native language. He and Chad decided to do the scene like that on set, and we rolled with it.” I thought to myself. “He just learned lines in another language, that day?” I couldn’t conceive how difficult that must have been, and even though I hadn’t met Chad, I was already in awe of his capacity as actor. 

I learned later that there was much conversation over how T’Challa would sound in the film. The decision to have Xhosa be the official language of Wakanda was solidified by Chad, a native of South Carolina, because he was able to learn his lines in Xhosa, there on the spot. He also advocated for his character to speak with an African accent, so that he could present T’Challa to audiences as an African king, whose dialect had not been conquered by the West. 

I finally met Chad in person in early 2016, once I signed onto the film. He snuck past journalists that were congregated for a press junket I was doing for Creed, and met with me in the green room. We talked about our lives, my time playing football in college, and his time at Howard studying to be a director, about our collective vision for T’Challa and Wakanda. We spoke about the irony of how his former Howard classmate Ta-Nehisi Coates was writing T’Challa’s current arc with Marvel Comics. And how Chad knew Howard student Prince Jones, who’s murder by a police officer inspired Coates’ memoir Between The World and Me. 

I noticed then that Chad was an anomaly. He was calm. Assured. Constantly studying. But also kind, comforting, had the warmest laugh in the world, and eyes that seen much beyond his years, but could still sparkle like a child seeing something for the first time.   

That was the first of many conversations. He was a special person. We would often speak about heritage and what it means to be African. When preparing for the film, he would ponder every decision, every choice, not just for how it would reflect on himself, but how those choices could reverberate. “They not ready for this, what we are doing…” “This is Star Wars, this is Lord of the Rings, but for us… and bigger!” He would say this to me while we were struggling to finish a dramatic scene, stretching into double overtime. Or while he was covered in body paint, doing his own stunts. Or crashing into frigid water, and foam landing pads. I would nod and smile, but I didn’t believe him. I had no idea if the film would work. I wasn’t sure I knew what I was doing. But I look back and realize that Chad knew something we all didn’t. He was playing the long game.  All while putting in the work. And work he did. 

He would come to auditions for supporting roles, which is not common for lead actors in big budget movies. He was there for several M’Baku auditions. In Winston Duke’s, he turned a chemistry read into a wrestling match. Winston broke his bracelet. In Letitia Wright’s audition for Shuri, she pierced his royal poise with her signature humor, and would bring about a smile to T’Challa’s face that was 100% Chad. 

While filming the movie, we would meet at the office or at my rental home in Atlanta, to discuss lines and different ways to add depth to each scene. We talked costumes, military practices. He said to me “Wakandans have to dance during the coronations. If they just stand there with spears, what separates them from Romans?” In early drafts of the script. Eric Killmonger’s character would ask T’Challa to be buried in Wakanda. Chad challenged that and asked, what if Killmonger asked to be buried somewhere else? 

Chad deeply valued his privacy, and I wasn’t privy to the details of his illness. After his family released their statement, I realized that he was living with his illness the entire time I knew him. Because he was a caretaker, a leader, and a man of faith, dignity and pride, he shielded his collaborators from his suffering. He lived a beautiful life. And he made great art. Day after day, year after year. That was who he was. He was an epic firework display. I will tell stories about being there for some of the brilliant sparks till the end of my days. What an incredible mark he’s left for us. 

I haven’t grieved a loss this acute before. I spent the last year preparing, imagining and writing words for him to say, that we weren’t destined to see. It leaves me broken knowing that I won’t be able to watch another close-up of him in the monitor again or walk up to him and ask for another take. 

It hurts more to know that we can’t have another conversation, or facetime, or text message exchange. He would send vegetarian recipes and eating regimens for my family and me to follow during the pandemic.  He would check in on me and my loved ones, even as he dealt with the scourge of cancer.  

In African cultures we often refer to loved ones that have passed on as ancestors. Sometimes you are genetically related. Sometimes you are not. I had the privilege of directing scenes of Chad’s character, T’Challa, communicating with the ancestors of Wakanda. We were in Atlanta, in an abandoned warehouse, with bluescreens, and massive movie lights, but Chad’s performance made it feel real. I think it was because from the time that I met him, the ancestors spoke through him. It’s no secret to me now how he was able to skillfully portray some of our most notable ones. I had no doubt that he would live on and continue to bless us with more. But it is with a heavy heart and a sense of deep gratitude to have ever been in his presence, that I have to reckon with the fact that Chad is an ancestor now. And I know that he will watch over us, until we meet again.

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we’re all bored and i now have a quiz obsession so! take my “which celestial body are you” quiz and rb with your result in the tags!

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is it possible for chris evans to date a someone with virgo sun and scorpio moon?

Short answer: Yes. Long answer: Ahem. I know the bare bones of astrology, but I have opinions. When it comes to the absoluteness of Sun signs, I believe Sun placement is great for fun generalizations, because everyone knows Cancers only want to love, Leos like praise, Virgos are picky and Libras just want everyone to be happy... until you meet a person with a ----- Sun and it’s SO not them. Sun signs are awful as a litmus test for love matches. Chris Evans could fall in love with any Sun and Moon combo. Whatever his Sun or Moon may be... doesn’t matter. Love matches are strengthened by shared values and hard work. If you want to stick to astrology, then it’s down to complementary placements and aspects. Astrology is hella complicated. Not only do you have other planets chiming in, influencing personality and priorities but also it matters which house all your planets fall into due to your Ascendant. Scorpio Sun in the 2nd isn’t the same person as Scorpio Sun in the 8th... throw in all the other placements and aspects, and you have wildly different Scorpio Suns. Then. Add in synastry? Two unique people? Can’t predict that. Ha! Chris Evans should start asking potential partners for their date/time/location of birth so he can prop up educated astrologers! Might improve his luck

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if i ever misgender you or use slang (bro, man, gurl, dude) that makes you feel even slightly uncomfortable please tell me because your gender identity and comfort is more important than any word i may use to refer to you

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Could you pull up some cards and see what CE future wife will be like? In the last CE reading that TT did she said the Aceofwands, QoS, and emperor. She also pulled the moon/lovers cards. What do you think?

I’m flattered you’d ask, but LMAO, nah. I’m not going near @talkingtarot‘s interpretations. She’s much, much ... oh fuck it, soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much more talented than me. More importantly, she has time skill that I lack. Her vision reaches far! I’m not about to reinterpret her cards. But, thank you for asking, that was nice of you.

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Thank you for the Daveed and Emmy reading! They’ve been together since late 2016 and kept it very very private until recently bc fans weren’t very nice to Emmy. Daveed said in an interview recently that Quarantine really helped them become stronger than they’ve ever been bc with their hectic schedules their relationship was a high functioning long distance one. I’m really glad they’re in this for the long run with each other :)

Yay! They have beautiful energy, and I glowed for hours after that reading. My husband was like, ‘why are you so happy?’ and I said, “love”... which he misinterpreted but it worked out well for me! It’s sad that success led to celebrity, which led them to having to hide their life together. Fame is a mess. But, yeah, quarantine did a make or break on a lot of couples. I’m happy they came out of it together and stronger. I feel so much positivity for them.

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During an interview for Before We Go Chris Evans said he was single and that’s when he was starting the last round with Minka. I’m not saying he is with lily but people keep saying he wouldn’t say he was single if he was dating a woman and it’s not true. Maybe he considers himself single if he is just dating and not committed yet. He then cheated on her with Jenny Slate and Minka dumped him.

What does ‘the last round with Minka’ mean? Umm, I always labeled myself as single when dating but not committed? Is this incorrect?