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I welcome emptiness because love is unsafe.

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I only wish to fall to peaceful sleep but I only fall further into my own insanity.

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You make me wish I still remembered how to love. It took me far too long to discover I had forgotten.

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I‘m not for this world. Maybe I‘m too weak, I don‘t know but I‘m tired of all this fighting and failing even though I tried my best. I‘m not jealous of anyone it‘s just hurts so deeply when I see people making progress in their life and all I do is wonder what is wrong with me. Where is my happy ending?

(-deepthoughtsvibes)

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Perhaps being trapped in thought isn’t as bad as being caught up in the world these days.

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The most terrifying part of becoming close to someone is the power that comes with it. The power to break their fragile heart.

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The emptiness is tiring and lasts so long but when the emotions come back it’s always so much worse somehow...

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It’s amazing how being with some people can make you feel so alone.

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It has been too long since I have felt anything worth expressing.

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It was strange, as I lie in the dark last night my head was filled with voices but one stood out above them all. A small but powerful voice that came from something deep within me that said “I am happy” and then there was only silence and peace. Perhaps there is a happy future somewhere for me yet... or maybe I am a fool who hears meaningless voices late at night.

[somnolence-is-dead]

Here I am, stuck in the damaged place I call my mind.

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Silence. To some it’s a soothing melody but to me it’s a scream of sadness.

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Sometimes the reality of my existence hits me. It’s in moments like those when I realize just how deep my discontent with life lies.

[somnolence-is-dead]

The wine makes my head spin but not nearly as much as you did.

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The thing that hurts the most is knowing that I had a chance at one point. We had a chance and now I only lose sleep wondering what we could’ve been.

[somnolence-is-dead]

Ah, the emptiness of being oh so lonely.

it's almost 5am and depression is back. I've come to realize that I don't really have any friends, only acquaintances. I will end up all alone.

[somnolence-is-dead]

The wind feels lovely going through your hair

But now it’s a sign

Of falling too fast

Ever closer

To a permanent destination.