southsys

[southsys]

“introjects aren’t their source” until its a true crime factive

“introjects aren’t their source” until its a problematic person

“introjects aren’t their source” until its an introject of someone you like

“introjects aren’t their source” until its an introject of someone you hate

“introjects aren’t their source” until they act nothing like source

“introjects aren’t their source” until they act exactly like source

[southsys]

I’ve seen people talk about how it seems to be the older siblings develope DID because their siblings relied on them instead of abusers, for us it’s the opposite. We’re the youngest, but we had no one to protect us, they were all long moved out.

(IM ALSO NOT TRYING TO DIMINISH ANYONE ELSES EXPERIENCE AND TRAUMA THIS IS MY OWN PERSONAL VIEW OF MY OWN LIFE)

- unknown

[southsys]

Me when…when me..me when me me when pk; m new

(What the fuck is this? - Sav)

- pixie (she/it)

[southsys]

I can’t have anything. I want to be able to do stuff, from small things like decorating our room how I like, buying food I like and joining a sport I like to big things like making big decisions that I’ll like, going on holidays I want to go on and choosing where we live. I don’t get to make those choices, I don’t get to be an individual person. For most of our life I have to stick by the rules and everything has to be equal and unanimous. I want my own. And don’t get me wrong, I love my system and we’re here to help the body survive, but I just want to be my own person, for even a moment.

- Jin (they/she)

[southsys]

Being a system is uh….

(That’s it, that’s the end of the sentence)

- Jynx (she/they)

[southsys]

“Did is such a fun, silly disorder”

Our ex host is missing his brothers wedding because he got so triggered and so mentally unwell our gatekeeper and our manager have had to restrict him from front for his and the body’s own safety.

- Jynx & Jin

[southsys]

Vent

Mourning someone who never actually existed, only in your memories, is a different type of pain

- Jin

[southsys]

Maybe I’m not a system, maybe I’m just a Gemini

(I’m joking…I’m tired)

- Jin (they/she)

[southsys]

For us specifically our system can sometimes be manageable and we can even have fun days, like what do you mean Shadow the Hedgehog is learning French?

But that doesn’t diminish the fact that we struggle as well, sometimes we can’t get out of bed, we can go days without taking care of ourselves.

It’s important to remember that just because someone is happy and laughing and having a good time, everyone struggles and it’s all valid

- Shadow

[southsys]

Vent

Im all alone, there’s no one here but me, being pushed into a place that I don’t know and can’t remember, being pushed into a traumatising experience or because of the TS in C-PTSD. But I’m being watched, I’m constantly being watched and constantly feel a presence.

I don’t know

I don’t fucking know

Sorry for this, I’m at a loss right now and need to get this off my chest

- Jin (they/she)

[southsys]

Everything is uncertain at the moment

Life is scary

But we’re going to get through this

I believe in you, in all of us who stand for the right of the world

- Ivory (she/her)

[southsys]

daily amnesia in DID is something i don't see talked about that much, i see regular amnesia (ie not being able to remember years of your life, traumatic memories etc) talked about but never the daily things.

daily amnesia is on a day to day basis never being able to remember important things, did i take my medicine this morning? did i shower yesterday? have i eaten yet? what have i been doing for the past hour? what was i supposed to do today?

daily amnesia REALLY fucking sucks because whenever you start suffering you remember every other time you've been suffering and just scold yourself for not getting help and not getting better - but when the moment it's over? it's completely gone from your memory. it's so much suffering and you're so stuck because how can you ever get help for something you can't remember? you're always in a constant state of 'feeling fine' and when you end up getting help and going to therapy there's nothing to talk about because there's nothing you remember.

every day is groundhog day where you are forced against your will to repeat it over and over for god knows how long.

[southsys]

Shoutout to all alters/headmates (or whatever you like to call yourselves personally:) )

- Pup (he/him)

[southsys]

Here’s a drawing of me and Ollie (Ochako fictive) to remind everyone that it’s okay to love your source, if you are or aren’t connected to it!

- Himi (she/they)

[southsys]

Sometimes we know who we are, sometimes we don’t. We have fictives, factives and brain made alters. We also have other disorders along with this. We’re real.

You’re real.

- Monika (she/her) & Himi (she/they)

[southsys]

- Evan (he/him)

REBLOG IF YOU LOVE YOUR HEADMATES!!!!

[southsys]

^

I am not sober and so my heart is raw and my emotions are leaking. Forgive me.

But I love plurality. All systems are beautiful. You're one body with multiple people in it! That's badass duuude.

Fictives

Factives

Persecutors

Weird Littles

Spicy Littles

Holders of The Bad Things

And so many more systems and sysmate types and aaaa

Shout out to you all.

I love you.

Keep fighting.