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the thing about being nonbinary is that you really do start to forget that other people have such strict walls around what is and isn’t allowed for genders. i thought we all agreed that we made that up. could you climb out of the cave real quick and feel the sunshine for a minute.

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[on the verge of having a complete breakdown] i need to make some kind of list or perhaps sort things into categories

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Other people's emotions are deep and complex and beautiful but mine are proof that there is rot at the core of my being

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“He would not fucking say that” except its the badly written source material so he did, in fact, say that

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The two best reasons to ship anything are:

1.Incredible deep and detailed narrative themes. The parallels that seem to hit just right, the narrative foils that they can be to each other, the intricate dynamic that's both extremely complex and easily understood. The juxtaposition between something that's harsh and undoubtedly toxic, with the softer undertones, the parts where you read in-between the lines and find a mutual feeling of loneliness from both parts, their intrinsic understanding of each other comes from the mere fact that they're each others mirrored reflections and shadows. In the end both sides will be together forever, and you as an audience can clearly see their tragedy laid out before in a path that blurs pure anguish and tender romance

2.It would be so fucking funny

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good smut is really a character study and that is final. i need it to be about vulnerability i need it to be about trust or lack thereof and most of all i need it to be emotional agony. thats what sex is for

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nice pair of characters who trust each other more than anyone else in the whole entire world it would sure be a shame if one of them betrayed that trust for the sake of trying to keep the other alive. it would sure be a shame to love someone so much you destroy them

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Jon Sims and Arthur Lester both look like they’d be 80 pounds sopping wet and have more scars than an alley cat but the difference is that Arthur lived in the 1900’s and isn’t supernatural so he could kill Jon with his bare hands. Yes even with Jon’s spooky eye thing. He’d be like “Ceaseless Watcher Turn Your Gaze Upon This Wretched Thing” and Arthur’d be like “I’m blind idiot” and murder him with a rock.

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"I asked ChatGPT-"

I asked the voice in my head, he called your mother a whore.

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Is this a problem?

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im posting this here instead of bsky bc its too long lol

the idea that gtn era griddlehark would have good? functional? sex is wrong lmaoooo

neither of them know how to have sex in the slightest

you could maybe, maybe convince me that gideon could talk a big game bc she does objectively read a lot of porn, but imo it would be cringe pornographic talk that doesn't translate to real life. also gideon in gtn ,while a cool, buff butch, is also a seriously under socialized 18 year old. anything she says would come out so awkward, which is charming in and of itself, but she is not suave.

and the idea that 0 experience gideon would have any kind of strap game, let alone a good one is a pipe dream (pun intended)

aLSO gtn era harrow would 1000% not be into physical domination. its something one could explore for a more mature harrow, but not gtn harrow. imo she's more likely to top than gideon bc gideon is willing to relinquish herself to harrows control (a thing that happens, regularly in the book) whereas harrow is still so desperately grasping onto any modicum of control she can get in her life. hell i think harrow allowing herself to be touched romantically/sexually at all would be a huge moment, one that is infintely more interesting to me than just getting dicked down by her butch.

anyway i think you can say so much about a character through sex and their dynamics with another person, and frankly its really fun and i love doing it.

👏being butch does not automatically mean being the top👏

ugh stone!harrow / bottom!gideon would be so delicious bc of the way being a stone's partner entails so much inherent and absolute trust in them that is in line with the story's themes. fuck, anyway im right <3

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i've been thinking about how we describe these books recently as part of my endless quest to spread the brain rot, and just thinking about how much 'lesbian space necromancers' undersells these books.

as a tag line its giving 'only one bed enemies to lovers' as a collection of tropes, and while i think its a good way to persuade people to read these books with a fun hooky premise, it gives wildly different vibes to 'the aristocrats of a necromancer empire are summoned to post-apocalyptic earth to ascend to sainthood at the right hand of their god emperor, and then it all goes horribly wrong' its an accurate description of the plot premise (although fails to communicate the appeal of a majority queer cast, but we can workshop that) AND also less likely to persuade people to read the books with the exception of horror fans like my mutual who did not enjoy GtN because there wasn't enough horror up front. neither of these are solutions, i just think its a fun problem of trying to 'elevator pitch' these books in all their complexity, and maybe none of this matters if 'lesbian space necromancers' makes someone new read them

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I feel like an alien tomb would be sooooo fucking cool until a alien mummy gets up and chase you

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“how do you write again after a long break?” you just start. that’s the horror of it. you just. start. and then the story opens its eyes.

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'being obsessed with your ocs is so embarrassing' no it isn't. we're returning to our noble roots of playing dolls. stop self depricating and tell me about your guy.

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Doctor Who is a great fandom to be in on tumblr because you'll see spoilers everywhere but not a single one of them is coherent unless you've seen the episode anyway. like oh the glorbon is secretly trying to ensnare humanity in a giant crab trap? the new companion Jiminy Pubble turned out to be the latest regeneration of the Doctor's old enemy The Fuckwizard? thanks I know less than I did before