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akali’s distraught, yelling. “help them! do something.” she coughs, hunching over as she covers her mouth, trying to deal with the fumes that surround them.

- SG ft. kid akali :)

Something stutters within hollow chest — a heart, a bird in a cage. A monster buried deep. And underneath? Akali's words grate on her ears and all the vulpine can think about is how wrong things feel, kneeling amongst the rubble as she checks for a pulse. It’d been the right call. She stands by that decision even now. Except... screaming in Akali's face would almost come as a relief.

Be that as it may, sentiments matter little. Ahri hesitates, visible shudder coursing down starlight-endowed tails. This isn't supposed to happen. Innocents weren't supposed to die ( though, an inevitability ).

Hand pressed to shredded side, quickly stained crimson as she tries to stop the hemorrhaging. The girl is dying; bleeding out despite the Star Guardian’s desperate attempts at saving her life.

Chest is burning with words Ahri cannot utter, so she impulsively bites down 'pon her own tongue. Hard enough to draw blood. She knows this kid. Not personally, but from the description she'd been given.

This is... Kai'Sa?!

Fuck.

At least, Akali doesn't seem to have realized. Not yet. Though, when she ultimately does? Ahri knows the fallout... won't be good. She needs the kid to keep it together ( best that she's able ) and so does her friend.

‶Akali... I- need rags. Strips of cloth. Anything I can use for bandages.‶

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Artwork by @Elysian_Peter

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I talked about how Ahri's and, truthfully, the Guardian's actions as a whole invoke unintended consequences. They all deal in different ways. Attempt to justify their actions. Though, in all honesty? Things would definitely be worse in inaction. Rakan and Xayah would probably both still be lost to corruption. Valoran City? Destroyed. Millions dead.

Which is partially Ahri's justification. She got her friends back. Everyone she'd personally lost. So... maybe it's the entire justification, selfish as that sounds.

We all know Ahri is definitely selfish. Though not heartless. She feels deeply for those affected by Zoe. The ones having had no say — their lives abruptly altered. Just... Ahri isn't particularly good at showing it. Not in big ways. Nothing that'd put her on a pedestal. Metaphoric or literal.

For example? It makes sense Valoran would've had some kind of memorial for those lost. Getting Ahri, the de facto face of the Star Guardians, to attend? Sarah practically had to drag the vulpine by those precious tails. Events like that? Despite typically relishing in attention? They're not her style. She's the little things. Small acts of kindness easily overlooked by most.

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Something worth talking about?

Just the ( sometimes ) massive amounts of collateral damage resulting from fighting Chaos beasts… Zoe or whatever other horrors giving Valoran City an unwelcome visit. Or, rather, how it is something which Ahri compartmentalizes.

The Twin Stars short story mentions Akali finding someone buried beneath the rubble. Laboring in vain trying to save them — an innocent life cut short, arguably, by Sarah's hands... err guns. It depends how one interprets that particular scene.

Regardless? Ahri's aware these things happen. People get hurt. People die... no matter how hard she and her fellow Guardians fight. No matter how hard she tries to protect everyone. And that sometimes it's their fault.

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What Cycle Do You Keep Repeating?

Mirror

You shape-shift without realizing it. Around some people, you're brighter. Around others, quieter. You reflect what they want, what they expect, what they need. You're not faking — it’s just that you’ve never felt entirely safe taking up space as only yourself. Maybe you were praised for being easy, adaptable, low-maintenance. Maybe being too much once cost you something. Either way, now you dim and twist and contort to keep the peace. The fear isn’t that people won’t like you. It’s that they’ll know you and then decide not to. The trap: You become who others need, until you forget who you are. The truth: Being loved for a performance will never feel like being loved. To break it: Let someone see you without the mask — even if it’s just you, at first.

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What Cycle Do You Keep Repeating?

The Caretaker Loop

You build homes in other people. You notice the unspoken needs in a room and instinctively try to fill them — emotionally, practically, spiritually. You’re the one they lean on when things fall apart. But somewhere along the line, your own needs became negotiable. You learned (maybe too young) that being useful was how you earned love. Now, even when you’re exhausted, you keep showing up. You listen until your ears ring, offer softness until you go numb, smile through the ache. And part of you resents it. But then you feel guilty for that, too. The trap: You give to feel needed, but being needed keeps you from feeling truly seen. The truth: You don’t have to earn your place in someone’s heart by tending to their wounds. To break it? Learn the difference between care and self-erasure. you matter too.

Tagged By: @lcstwarricr

Tagging: @valettice, @aevyternal, @xuchiwa, @kalijhomentethi, @agonizedembrace

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✿

send me a  ✿  and i’ll fill out the template below. bold for things i could definitely see or want, italics for things i could see or am unsure of and striked out for things i don’t want or cannot see.

FRIENDSHIP.     childhood friends  /  work buddies or coworkers  /  family friends  /  friends with benefits  /  smoking buddies  /  adventure buddies  /  fake friends  /  recently friends  /  party buddies  /  friendship of need  /  dying friendship  /  circumstantial friendship  /  partners in crime  /  old friendship  /  [ your muse ] is the good influence  /  [ your muse ] is the bad influence  /  [ my muse ] is the good influence  /  [ my muse ] is the bad influence  /  opposites attract  /  ride or die  /  frenemies  /  roommates or flatmates  /  penpals  /  exes to friends  /  enemies to friends  /  other

ROMANCE.     childhood sweethearts  /  [ your muse is mines ] childhood crush  /  [ my muse is yours ] childhood crush  /  exes  /  exes to lovers  /  forbidden lovers  /  highschool sweethearts  /  secret relationship  /  opposites attract  /  long distance  /  unrequited [ from your muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from my muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from both sides ]  /  skinny love  /  friends to lovers  /  enemies to lovers  /  spurious relationship  /  power couple  /  newly entered  /  soulmates [ metaphorical ]  /  soulmates  [ literal ]  /  awkward  /  turning toxic  /  toxic love  /  cheating [ on your muse ]  /  cheating [ with your muse ]  /  other 

FAMILIAL.     siblings [ half ]  /  siblings [ step ]  /  [ my muse ] is an older sibling figure to your younger sibling figure  /  [ my muse ] is a younger sibling figure to your older sibling figure muse  /  [ your muse ] is a parental figure to mine /  [ my muse ] is a child figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal guardian  /  adoptive child  /  foster child  /  [ your muse ] is taken under mines wing  /  [ my muse ] is taken under yours wing  /  other

ANTAGONISTIC.     dangerous to each other  /  dangerous to others  /  unpredictable  /  rivals  /  petty  /  developing into sexual or romantic tension  /  based off family matters  /  based of off circumstance  /  based of professional matters  /  based off misunderstanding or lies  /  conflict of ideology  /  betrayal  /  hero - villain dynamic  /  enemies  /  fight club  /  friends turned enemies  /  lovers turned enemies  /  exes turned enemies  /  other 

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Unconsciously, a part of Ahri moves. Digits shift, hesitantly toying with the choker fastened securely about her neck, a singular Star-shaped gem glowing softly on its front. What are Star Gems? The Vulpine Guardian still finds it arduous to thoroughly comprehend their nature. Though, the gist of it?

‶They're the core of my— our abilities. Conduits for the First Star's power. Every Guardian has one.‶

Violet hues instinctively return to Hope’s painting, then, to Hope herself.

‶Though for one to be damaged to this extent... That they can be damaged; I've no idea how it's possible.‶

                THERE WAS A CLEAR UNEASE as stormy hues remained unwavering from her companion. ahri's eventual concede didn't bring hope any relief, instead actually feeling even closer to a knife's blade with the way the blonde continued. the seer KNEW she wasn't going to face the wrath, but being akin to it was still something of a discomfort.

        it wasn't like she enjoyed painting bad things about the future... they could be helpful, though. w a r n i n g s. which is how ahri seemed to take the imagery.

                     truth be told, hope had no idea how malleable her visions were. so far they had been correct, but that was information she opted not to disclose. at least not unless asked.

      "yeah, things change. people change, too. everything is... uh... i don't know where i was going with this." being i n s p i r a t i o n a l wasn't something foreign to her, but the moment was still a bit off-guard for her. so words were left floundering. "...what is it about though? what are those gems?"

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PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP MEME 0.2

over a year ago, i made this meme & since then, it’s blown up. so, over a year later — i thought i would make a new one. so here it is, after several requests & a pile of brains,  THE PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP MEME 0.2 send me a  ✿  and i’ll fill out the template below. bold for things i could definitely see or want, italics for things i could see or am unsure of and striked out for things i don’t want or cannot see.

FRIENDSHIP.     childhood friends  /  work buddies or coworkers  /  family friends  /  friends with benefits  /  smoking buddies  /  adventure buddies  /  fake friends  /  recently friends  /  party buddies  /  friendship of need  /  dying friendship  /  circumstantial friendship  /  partners in crime  /  old friendship  /  [ your muse ] is the good influence  /  [ your muse ] is the bad influence  /  [ my muse ] is the good influence  /  [ my muse ] is the bad influence  /  opposites attract  /  ride or die  /  frenemies  /  roommates or flatmates  /  penpals  /  exes to friends  /  enemies to friends  /  other

ROMANCE.     childhood sweethearts  /  [ your muse is mines ] childhood crush  /  [ my muse is yours ] childhood crush  /  exes  /  exes to lovers  /  forbidden lovers  /  highschool sweethearts  /  secret relationship  /  opposites attract  /  long distance  /  unrequited [ from your muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from my muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from both sides ]  /  skinny love  /  friends to lovers  /  enemies to lovers  /  spurious relationship  /  power couple  /  newly entered  /  soulmates [ metaphorical ]  /  soulmates  [ literal ]  /  awkward  /  turning toxic  /  toxic love  /  cheating [ on your muse ]  /  cheating [ with your muse ]  /  other 

FAMILIAL.     siblings [ half ]  /  siblings [ step ]  /  [ my muse ] is an older sibling figure to your younger sibling figure  /  [ my muse ] is a younger sibling figure to your older sibling figure muse  /  [ my muse ] is a parental figure to yours  /  [ my muse ] is a child figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal guardian  /  adoptive child  /  foster child  /  [ your muse ] is taken under mines wing  /  [ my muse ] is taken under yours wing  /  other

ANTAGONISTIC.     dangerous to each other  /  dangerous to others  /  unpredictable  /  rivals  /  petty  /  developing into sexual or romantic tension  /  based off family matters  /  based of off circumstance  /  based of professional matters  /  based off misunderstanding or lies  /  conflict of ideology  /  betrayal  /  hero - villain dynamic  /  enemies  /  fight club  /  friends turned enemies  /  lovers turned enemies  /  exes turned enemies  /  other 

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&. 𝐡𝐨𝐳𝐢𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐬 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

(  lyric  dialogue  prompts  taken  from  various  hozier  songs.  free  to  change  how  you  seem  fit.  )

❛ i’ve walked the earth and there are so few here that know how dark the night and just how cold the wind can blow. ❜

❛ i’ve no more kept my warmth than blood upon the snow. ❜

❛ it’s not my arms that will fail me, but this world takes more strength than it gave me. ❜

❛ the only heaven i’ll be sent to is when i’m alone with you. ❜

❛ i’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies. ❜

❛ i’ll tell you my sins so you can sharpen your knife. ❜

❛ good god, let me give you my life. ❜

❛ so tired trying to see from behind the red in my eyes. ❜

❛ every version of me dead and buried in the yard outside. ❜

❛ you knew who i was with every step that i ran to you. ❜

❛ would things be easier if there was a right way? ❜

❛ honey, there is no right way. ❜

❛ i fall in love just a little, a little bit every day with someone new. ❜

❛ when you kill the lights and kiss my eyes, i feel like a person for a moment of my life. ❜

❛ you don’t know what hell you put me through. ❜

❛ there’s something tragic about you. ❜

❛ i have never known peace like the damp grass that yields to me. ❜

❛ i have never known hunger like these insects that feast on me. ❜

❛ i’d be home with you. ❜

❛ there’s nothing sweeter than my baby. ❜

❛ no grave can hold my body down, i’ll crawl home to her. ❜

❛ what did you bury before those hands pulled me from the earth? ❜

❛ i will not ask where you came from. i will not ask and neither should you. ❜

❛ just put your sweet lips on my lips. we should just kiss like real people do. ❜

❛ i know who i am when i’m alone. i’m something else when i see you. ❜

❛ you don’t understand, you should never know, how easy you are to need. ❜

❛ don’t let me in with no intention to keep me. ❜

❛ don’t feed me — i will come back. ❜

❛ i’ve known the warmth of your doorways. through the cold, i’ll find my way back to you. ❜

❛ still my heart is heavy with the hate of some other man’s beliefs. ❜

❛ i need you to run to me, run until you feel your lungs bleeding. ❜

❛ when i was a child, i heard voices… some would sing and some would scream. ❜

❛ i learned the voices died with me. ❜

❛ don’t you ever tame your demons, but always keep ‘em on a leash. ❜

❛ you’ve done me wrong for a long time. but after all you’ve done, i never changed my mind. ❜

❛ honey please, try to love me. my love will never die. ❜

❛ nothing fucks with my baby. ❜

❛ if i was born as a black thorn tree, i’d wanna be felled by you, held by you, fuel the pyre of your enemies. ❜

❛ ain’t it warming you, the world going up in flames? ❜

❛ i couldn’t utter my love when it counted, but i’m singing like a bird about it now.❜

❛ i’m almost me again, she’s almost you. ❜

❛ i’ve had no love like your love. from nobody. ❜

❛ make your good love known to me, or just tell me about your day. ❜

❛ i’d suffer hell if you’d tell me what you’d do to me tonight. ❜

❛ that’s the kinda love i’ve been dreaming of. ❜

❛ i fell in love with the fire long ago. ❜

❛ with each love i cut loose, i was never the same. ❜

❛ i had been lost to you, sunlight, and flew like a moth to you. ❜

❛ know that i would gladly be the icarus to your certainty, oh my sunlight. ❜

❛ i have never loved a darker blue than the darkness i have known in you. ❜

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CARING FOR THE SICK PROMPTS.

i found this list and kinda fed into it each time i got the flu or a migraine, and u know what, it's just me revealing just how much i love the caring threads and the soft threads and the fondly exasperated "let me help you" threads! use at your pleasure, DO NOT ADD TO THE LIST NOR EDIT IT! i will be changing it accordingly!

" i found you passed out in the kitchen. you wanna stop working yourself so hard? or do i need to keep hitting the gym to carry you to bed every day? "

" you're burning up. "

" your neighbour called me and said you could use a nurse. looks like they were right, too. "

" you were told to take it easy, so... yeah. this is kinda on you. "

" you took a sick day. you NEVER take a sick day. so yeah, i got worried, and i figured i'd come over and keep an eye on you. "

" you texted me a long and incoherent text that held about 90% of the emoji list and about four different languages. figured it wouldn't hurt to drop by and see how you were doing. "

" how long have you been sick for? and don't lie. "

" you look like hell. "

" i brought you some soup; let me heat some up for you? "

" okay. it's time you went to the hospital. "

" hey… hello there, sleeping beauty. you gave me a bit of a scare yesterday. how are you feeling? "

" i swear, if you even think of getting out of that bed… "

" you know when i said to call if it's an emergency? a fever is most DEFINITELY considered an emergency! "

" if you think you're going to work like this, you better think again. "

" don't worry. my family swears by this remedy; just let it work its magic and you'll feel good as new in no time. "

" I don't care about getting sick. i'm not leaving you until you're back to full health. "

" you didn't stop to think that this might happen when you're burning the candle at both ends? "

" yeah, I can play the role of nurse AND say "I told you so" at the same time, actually. "

" you better drink every last drop of this tea, no matter how disgusting it is. "

" i told my boss it was an emergency so they've given me a full week to look after you. "

" quit being so stubborn and get into BED! "

" what part of doctor's orders hasn't sunk in yet? bed rest! for the WEEK! "

" right, where do you keep your saucepans? i'm going to make you my famous noodle soup. it's a cure-all, i'm telling you! "

" hey, unless you're going to the bathroom or the sofa, I don't want to see you out of that bed. got it? "

" when are you gonna start letting people look after you, huh? "

" i know, i know, i turned off all the lights once i figured you had the migraine. you want some tea? water? "

" don't be mad, but i saw your fridge, and... it frightened me. so i've taken you back to my place, and i'm gonna get deliveroo to bring some groceries to your place tomorrow. okay? "

" i know your appetite is a little off, so i ordered in a whole tonne of options. just try a little bit of something, please? for me? "

" i've brought half a pharmacy, enough movies and boardgames to last us a decade, and every single snack i could fit into the basket at the grocery store. so sit your butt down, eat your soup, and try and make the most of your bed rest for the next week, will you? "

ACTION PROMPTS ( SEND THE FULL LINE! and feel free to reverse if u wish! ):

[ TOUCH ]: sender gently rests a hand against the receiver's forehead to check their temperature.

[ DAMP ]: sender presses a cool cloth against the receiver's face, neck and forehead to try and lower their fever.

[ BLANKET ]: sender wraps another blanket around the receiver to try and stop them from shivering.

[ SPOON ]: sender gently coaxes spoons of soup into the receiver's mouth to build up their strength after an illness.

[ CARRY ]: sender, finding the receiver weakened/unconscious on the floor, immediately lifts them up and carries them back to bed.

[ AROUND ]: sender keeps a protective arm around the receiver to help them walk without the risk of stumbling or collapsing.

[ STAY ]: sender decides to stay by the receiver's bedside after learning that they're sick.

[ HAIR ]: sender smooths back the receiver's hair in a soothing gesture to try and help them go back to sleep.

[ TILT ]: sender tips a bottle of water up for the receiver to sip from.

[ HUM ]: sender hums/sings to soothe a sick receiver back to sleep.

[ BACK ]: sender gently rubs the receiver's back, either to soothe them or warm them while they're unwell.

[ SHARE ]: sender climbs into the receiver's sickbed with them, wrapping their arms around them to offer warmth and comfort.

[ SHOWER ]: sender, learning the receiver has a high fever, takes a cold shower with them in order to lower their temperature.

[ WAKEN ]: the receiver wakes up in bed, having been found unconscious by the sender and carried into the bed from the floor.

[ QUARANTINE ]: the sender and receiver, both being sick, decide to quarantine together and spend the recovery period with each other.

[stahri-light]

Well, that was a slightly interesting follow up on some test results with my Cardiologist...

My resting heart rate has been a bit on the high side. And my high end heart rate? Just... a touch higher than it needs to be.

Ended up being put on a low dose Beta Blocker. Supposed to smooth things out so I don't have such... sharp spikes for lack of a better way to put it.

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Which Forgotten Feeling Are You?

Unspoken Love

It feels like a song you almost remember the lyrics to. Like the words caught in your throat that never found their moment. Its the weight of everything you didn't say, folded gently and hidden somewhere safe, because it still mattered even in silence.

Tagged By: No One ( stole it off the dash ) Tagging: @lcstwarricr, @namedhope, @agonizedembrace, @kalijhomentethi, @wistrea

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[ ⛓️ ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat does guilt feel like to them ?

✎ㅤ. . .ㅤ𝑯𝑬𝑨𝑫𝑪𝑨𝑵𝑶𝑵 𝑸𝑼𝑬𝑺𝑻𝑰𝑶𝑵𝑺. | Accepting

It's heavy — crushing. Something always weighing Ahri down ( like she's drowning ). Never not on her mind.

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It is the destiny of stars to collapse.

Neil deGrasse Tyson

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based on this teaser

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roleplay blogs ft. kendo, jade, & hope from fortnite , all exclusively connected together. multi-verse & crossover friendly. no game interest or knowledge required.

kendo ( @lcstwarricr )

jade ( @cursedguardian )

hope ( @namedhope )

& credit. non-rp blogs, do not reblog / interact !