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A bit of a detox for my söl 🦋

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March 18, 2025

Hey stars :) So I’m watching a new show (despite the fact that I haven’t finished Darkly yet [see last post]) but Venus Retrograde has me wanting to investigate this thing called love and what that looks like.

So, today I started watching Temptation Island and I don’t typically watch shows about couples and romance but I thought the concept was pretty cool and actually very realistic so hey why not give it a try.

From the first episode, I definitely think the couples signed up for more than they might have realized cause they are all coming onto the show with insecurities and not knowing who or how those will be triggered, which is huge when your relationship and future are at risk. It kinda gives new levels new devils. Like you do all this work to find your “person” and then you realize that there is so much you still didn’t know about them, or yourself, until there are opportunity for someone else to bring it out of them. Like literally, you got it, but do you want to keep it and better yet, does it want to keep you? Is this love truly requited?

I guess we’ll have to see :)

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Happy St. Patties 🍀

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March 3, 2025

So I started a new book today 🦋 dyed my hair blue last night and Mercury went into Aries (it’s also Venus retrograde) so I’m really feeling myself. I’m Mercury ruled so do with that what you will.

Anyway, less than 2 minutes into the first chapter at Hecate is already being mentioned which lets me know that is about to be a book full of unraveling mysteries and realizations about the “unknown”. Hecate is a moon goddess, and whoever these characters are that I’m about to meet are clearly starting off on the dark side of it. Oh, and antique, but we’ll talk about what that means l8r.

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Clearly, the man character is a fan! A die heart fan. Like beyond obsession, more like marinated in the land of devotion! But I guess that’s why she would be chosen. Kinda like Charlie and Willy. Charlie was just as obsessed with Willy’s Factory as Willy was. Apparently a shared obsession is a great foundation of what I guess you call a “friendship”.

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I thought I was going to die of boredom 😅 because the first 5 chapter are SOOOOO SLOW even though the author is giving you so much information. Thankfully, I’ve made it to the point of interest, or entry, for me as a reader so here I am reporting that the book is in fact just the kind I like lol and the first thing that comes to mind: Willy Wonka :)

Oh to be a chosen child gaining the limited access to a manifestation of wonder created by someone you could have only hoped to meet one day. My inner child is screaming because unlike Charlie, I get to have this experience over and over again as many times as I please as long as writer keep writing books like this. Needless to say, I am pleased!

P.S. I could totally be tripping which meaning I’ll have to read the book again (bummer) but how is it that they mentions something about 1985 but there is also people on TikTok? I’m confused but like I said, I could be tripping

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“Consider this: First, the rain will come. Then, the roof will cave. Then, you’ll drown.” A riddle or a prophecy? I guess there is only one way to find out.

I find it so fascinating, and enlightening, to experience a book where the creations are both sought after for its value and its rarity as an art form. Often items such as these are tremendously infused with magical intentions and clear instructions for whom hands it so luckily is fated to fall into. With that being said, you can be sure that no thing is every lost, or person, and everything, and everyone, are always exactly where they need to be in order to receive whatever it is that is bound to manifest for one reason or another. It’s funny how in our world cursed things are the most value. I wonder if the same goes for people?

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I can’t help but to think that all of these games Veda created were recreations of experiences she or someone else had in order to spread the word about “forbidden” truths *reference my last book blog post*. I can only wonder for now tho. I’m just curious because they keep mentioning these letters from the past as the characters are making their into the future and the only truth is what they think they know. Kinda gives Spooky Island vibes (iykyk) and that turned out to be a weird outcome that I don’t think anyone was expecting. Can’t predict, too many thoughts, must keep reading

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March 4, 2025

Okay, not gonna lie. I know I said the book was a little boring but I’ve changed my mind cause I definitely got lost in it yesterday and yet again, forgot to write lol. But anyway, this book is less about descriptiveness and more about feeling and imagination. This book requires a tremendous amount of Neptune energy so I’m not surprised that I totally disassociated into the book. I’m going back today, but this time I won’t forget!

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I love when 13 ends up being important. I love when other value the truth of such as expression. This author does. And in chapter 13, the game begins as soon as they arrive on the island. It’s truly is a mad geniuses factory. From the moment you accept the invitation, the games begin, the information flows and the stakes increase all simultaneously and still immediately! Just when you thought you’d never knew, you end up finding out. Curiosity is greater than fear, and an even better companion! Not everything is what it seems, only one way to find out.

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It sounds like they all made a deal. One that would change their lives forever for reasons beyond their current comprehension. “What would you kill for ?” is how it all starts and needless to say, a curious statement that foreshadows how it ends. And, to my understanding…when you realize what you have vs. what you would be returning to, the deal might seem like the answer to a divine prayer, especially if you’re old life feels like hell. I guess you gotta make a deal to get into heaven too lol. And only one type of person would make that deal…AN ABSOLUTE MAD MAN, who simply would like to see their wishes come try without comprising their dreams, integrity and values. A person who would align so closely that it would become their own type of superpower! And you gotta be pretty unscrewed to believe in those. But I don’t have to tell you that lol, it takes one to know one :)

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March 5, 2025

I fell asleep listening to the book yesterday and didn’t go back to listen once I woke up. This resulted in me having to listen to a few chapter over again cause I’m not exactly sure where I left off but fine, whatever.

Anyway, I’m seeing that this mystery is about finding the “real villain” and restoring Veda’s true legacy. The whole idea of her dying before being able to find out who did the deed and what they intended to do with it is a dying parable of legacy restoration and perishing before seeing Justice be had, not for her but, for her legacy! These kids are the closest thing to her legacy as it gets but only the one who is genuinely aligned will actually see Justice, for themselves too. Here it’s not about blood, cause the lady had no surviving relatives but that game and the world she created was a divine manifestation of her genius; her cosmic DNA in this world! The games were her children and the Darkly legacy was her bloodline. She didn’t get to pass it on, but this mystery of the “stolen relics” is the universe’s way of restoring it to its TRUE glory. Oh, how the universe works. Cruel, but just!

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IF YOU HAVE EVER WATCHED OR PLAYED TAROT, YOU NEED TO READ THIS BOOK!

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Magic, art, criminal enterprise, stages, acts and royal targets. If you come to understand how they all weave together then you are too a member of an elite society of souls but for those who shall live curious and only remain as such, be grateful that the mercy of ignorance has been bestowed upon you. For those of us who have no such luxury, are damn to knowing more than what we would care to (lol)

Yet I digress, onward!

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She knew they were stealing. From the very beginning she knew that I was someone inside because they were already doing it and planting the seeds for shadow deals on the works of her art without her permissions, or from their perspective, or her knowledge. But nonetheless, she knew. It had to be one of the 26. Or one of the loyal bound.

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March 10, 2025

It feels like it’s been a week and I haven’t listened to my book lol. I missed my current escape world. I had to do some real life emotional purging though…but I’m back bright and early on this lovely morning. It’s gonna be 64 degrees where I live today (and I’m excited cause the cold was the bane of my existence) but anyway, yeah I’m gonna finish the book today likely cause I only have 4 hours & 44 mins left so yeah…without further ado —

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Today was a little different cause I was doing lots of multi tasking so I actually wrote down a bunch of notes. This is the part where things begin to borderline on “forbidden truths” and the game is to be sold not told. Unfortunately that’s the name of the game I’m playing so hopefully you can make something of these notes :) Want to chat about it? We can have a book date! You can schedule it here 😘

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March 19, 2025

Okay don’t kill me lol I knew I took forever to come back and finish but I’ve been a bit busy! I’m actually kinda glad it all happened this way because the exact lesson that I’ve been learning IRL is literally popping up where I am in the book (Ch 53) and finally I’m ready to finish this book and be done with this stalker ass archetype that is so amazing in the beginning yet so tragic and lost in the end. A Gatsby of sorts.

The damn man is trying to save her cause he think she don’t know what she doing but it should really bother him to feel like she NEEDS him to save her and from what? He doesn’t even know. And honestly, it’s not surprising because people will really go over your head to try to control you because they can’t do it alone and then it still doesn’t work out cause if you wanted to be controlled, IM SURE you could find someone who is FAR MORE than capable lmao! But I digress.

I’m gonna finish the book tonight and when I do I’ll come show y’all my notes again. I really want to take it all in and let it build up and burst until it simply isn’t anymore. And then as the smoke is clearing, we will reconvene to chat about it! Brb

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Feb 24, 2025

Okay so I bought this book after seeing it across my Pinterest timeline and, as intriguing as it looks obviously if your a Venus & Mars in Gemini like me, of course I was going to read it as soon as I got it. To my surprise it’s actually taken me a couple days and Audible gets a smooth $18 out of me monthly for this purpose specifically, so I acquired the audiobook. If you want to donate the actual book to me, feel free to :)

Anyway, after the first chapter…IM TRIGGERED lmao. And not the kind that makes you sad or angry or even over stimulated; the kind that makes you giggle because it confirms some cool or carnal fact about you and your shadow and you BOTH know it’s true. Yes, that…that’s what I’m feeling.

It’s almost impossible to feel anything than being toyed with and not having confirmation until the game is over and you so happened to win and truth is your prize lmao. Sick right? Yeah anyway, I’m starting to find it fantastic when books, shows and movies confirm things that I’ve only ever asked myself which not only means someone else was just as curious, but it lets me know that we in fact are many, rather than few and the worlds we imagine up are in fact REAL. We just haven’t met others who’ve been there yet. I feel like I’ve been meeting those people, not directly, but exclusively through their art and it forces me to wonder; is art a hidden form of communication for those who are forbidden to speak of what we know but must still communicate the message in some way and just hope that the whole “leave it up for interpretation” eventually leads to some truth being realized without having to ever deny or confirm.

P.S. I feel like this blog, in its entirety, is an introductory briefing to the rabbit hole (of immortality) I’m personally about to venture down and I guess I’m just reporting my observations as a form of “art” so that I may continue with integrity and never have to speak of forbidden truths or lie out of fear. So instead I will write, for the sake of values.

And so I continue reading to return when the half-life of this particular journey has reached the present…

*Questions I Asked Myself While Reading Part 1*

The humans are boring, why do we have to hear about them? Are they what balances the story?

Why aren’t people curious enough to check before making deals?

Does no one ask questions when it comes to the spiritual/astral status of their family members? Are they not curious about that either?

Do these people genuinely think they are the only ones the demons are visiting? Are they that shallow lol?

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Feb 28, 2025

I hadn’t realized that I ended up finishing Part 1 of the book. It started getting really good lol. With that being said, I’m actually starting to pay attention to the humans just as much as I have the workers of hell. These humans have secrets and they aren’t just small secrets that create frustration in their realities, there are dark secrets that create conflict in their legacies & bloodlines. It’s wild to me how easily they will surrender themselves for temporary satisfaction without even checking to see if what they asked for is actually going to happen. Like how tf do you manifest a contract but then don’t read it fr like not even a little bit 👀 SCARY HOURS.

But right this is where it gets good cause it’s not just the humans…the hell workers have pasts that they may not completely remember but someone in their level has ALL the info on them and it’s actually insane. Like imagine knowing somebody’s entire life like full access to their Akashic Record and they have zero clue about who they even are fr because they’ve been in hell so long and time isn’t really a supporting factor for them. The most innocent looking/seeming people usually have the most heinous histories and not as victims, but as conscious determined actors…it’s wild what a person can hide behind a character. Same goes for those who seem insignificant. Everyone has a history and until you learn it, you’ll never truly understand who they are and why they do what they do. Observe and learn. Allow them to tell you what they don’t think you already know :) Information is a tool, but being able to protect & archive information, aka keep secrets, is a DIVINE SKILL!

Now let me finish part 2 😎

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The most significant concept in this book, surprisingly, is “The Looking Glass” which so happens to be exactly what I would image it is; a computer with a printer. I find it extremely hilarious how the hell workers have tablets readily available but it’s damn near forbidden to get near a computer because that’s the key to getting out of hell, the internet. What a fvcking plot twist lol. They can only use technology to get people to agree to fvcked up a$s contracts but are forbidden to using it for general knowledge or other inquisitive quests of the sort. And you might think, “Well it’s hell, there can’t be a whole lot of rules” lmao until you find out that it too is a structure that has its own set of limits and restrictions just like our world but here we have free, nearly unlimited, access to the internet, libraries, data bases and all the other information services possible and hells’ only real rule is to stay as far away from those exact things as possible. I guess that means hell isn’t too far, I know LOTS of ignorant people 🤣 and here I am, living amongst them with heaven in the palm of my hand (tehe)

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March 1, 2025

I find it challenging to pull away from the book and remember to write about it. Finally, I’ve been able to tap back into fully immersing myself into a world (12H Mars) and almost completely escape from this one but with less escape and more vacation.

Anyway, Part 2 was mostly about secrets and the revealing of the secrets themselves to those who were searching for the information, regardless of the realm they occupy. The truth is still truth no matter who you are and where you reside. Truth is Metaversal, especially considering on this realm we have access to the internet. It leads me to believe that the internet is more of a blessing than a curse, you just gotta be truthful about how and why you’re using it; a luxury we get as a perk of “life” rather than a punishment of impeding “hell”. In that case, even jail isn’t hell cause they have access to the internet & libraries lol. Safe to say this book is changing my perspective about resources, geographic influence and access.

Now on to the finale, Part 3, which so far seems to be about revealing who knew the secrets all along, how they knew and what force of life convinced them to hold such a secret for so long! And the question the comes to mind is, “Are secrets a kind of deal too?”, ones that can only be created and broken but the one who holds it. Makes me think of Valentine from the movie MirrorMask; Riddle: if you’ve got it, you shouldn’t share it and if you share it you haven’t got it. What the answer?

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Here I am, at the near end of the book after madness and chaos in the most Akashic way has ensued amongst the characters and the only person I feel bad for is the damn main character who isn’t even alive. Ironic huh? All some souls ever want is to know that they did something good with their lives even if they end up somewhere they’d prefer not to be in the realm. As far as this book explains, hell isn’t always because you were a shitty person, sometimes its because you simply chose to take on the karma of another and you didn’t live to tell the tale, instead you made a deal. So I guess the moral is, don’t make a deal unless you’re ready to go on another adventure of eternal forgetting and remembering with only a glimmer of hope about your past life while surrounded by absolute psychos, that’s if you aren’t a psycho yourself.

Idk, you tell me in the comments. What do you think?

I’m just gonna finish the book because I feel like there isn’t much left to say. Everybody, by this time, has exactly what they were looking for. Full circle moments for all and so the only thing left is for life to move on and, for those who can stomach it, live happily ever after on Earth or, unfortunately, in Hell 🦋

xo, starlotusss