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You suddenly miss everybody when you’re drunk and falling apart.

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i’ve been going through a lot of old music lately and realized that i have a good handful of songs that have never seen the light of day. my last release ‘happy’ came out a couple of years ago even though most of the songs on it were written much earlier. the title track on that EP is actually an alternate version of the original that i wrote back in 2012. i played it live at shows but never released that original version of it. it’s much more raw and morose than the version on the EP, and much more true to the sad and twisty version of me that many of you, and myself, connect with. so, i decided i’m going to release it cuz i do what i want. it will be available as soon as tomorrow and i can’t wait for you to all hear it. 🖤 — — 📸 @brittneychristie #music #bsides #singersongwriter #steffaloo #happy #sad #twisty #love #singer #newoldmusic https://www.instagram.com/p/BwbACmah1wh/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=dsnldd68836v

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i got to make a song with my friends @gangplans and @saigomusic 🙏🏼 and you can listen to it now! go check the link in my bio (swipe 👉🏼) — — #newmusic #steffaloo #gangplans #saigo #hiandlo #trippyvids #singersongwriter #music #kaleidoscope #blessed https://www.instagram.com/p/Bt9Bc_EBsW8/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=12ckbuvr5xa1p

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“half of me is filled with bursting words and half of me is painfully shy. i crave solitude yet also crave people. i want to pour life and love into everything yet also nurture my self-care and go gently. i want to live within the rush of primal, intuitive decision, yet also wish to sit and contemplate. this is the messiness of life - that we all carry multitudes, so must sit with the shifts. we are complicated creatures, and ultimately, the balance comes from this understanding. be water. flowing, flexible and soft. subtly powerful and open. wild and serene. able to accept all changes, yet still led by the pull of steady tides. it is enough.” -victoria erickson- — — #youngsteph #loveyourself #weallcarrymultitudes #multitudes #knowthyself #beingahumanishard #loveyourself #accept #rewindwednesday

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“what a gift it is to meet others in the light of realness, a place where we can love each other even more because of our shared imperfections, vulnerabilities, and experiences. when we see each other’s scars, we love each other more... perhaps you sit here with a messy story you haven’t shared. maybe you thought it had to be all figured out before telling it to someone. maybe you thought it had to have a happy ending before it could be revealed. maybe you thought you had to have all the periods in the right places for it to be seen.”

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this week has been rough for me. my body has been telling me to rest. it has been telling me i need to stop. not everyone knows it, but i have hashimotos, an autoimmune disease that makes me feel like i’m 65 years old most days haha.. it’s not something that is easy to talk about unless you too also deal with some form of autoimmune issue, because from the outside, everything appears to be fine. it is a silent battle for the most part. i have learned to deal with it in my own ways, but some weeks it is more than i can handle.. my body screams at me and all i can do is give in and let it pass; do my part to take care of it and keep on moving. this has been one of those weeks. from throwing up to headaches to aches and pains to chronic fatigue, it has taken a toll on me. and it starts to take a toll mentally as well. i share all of this not to have people feel sorry for me, but to invite those struggling with chronic illness or pain to feel a little less alone in it. i am here if you need me. i am here to listen. it’s ok to not always be ‘ok’, it’s ok to stay in bed all day so you can heal, it’s ok to have days or weeks when it gets the best of you. pay attention. be kind to yourself. let others be kind to you, and let others not get it at all. all that matters is that you take the time to love yourself, and to accept and keep on living. you are just as wonderful when you are weak as when you are strong. — #stayupandamazing #life #sometimesitsucks #butyoureok #hashimotos #autoimmunedisease #keeponkeepingon #itsoktonotbeok #rest #selfcare #selflove #bekindtoyourself #film #lca #lomography #lomo #flaily #humpday #meh #gonnasleepforever #alwaystired

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IT’S HERE!! new EP out with my favorite @sunglitters ✨❤️✨ i’m so happy to have some new music out and it is always special working with victor. these songs have a rad 80’s synth vibe that i’m really digging. you can go listen/stream/download/purchase these three songs on itunes, spotify, soundcloud, bandcamp, etc.. i hope you enjoy!! (link in bio) — — #sunglitters #steffaloo #sgxsteffaloo #newmusic #synthvibes #80s #electronicmusic #chillwave #80svibes

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you guys!! it’s been some time since the amazing @sunglitters and i made the 'cosmic oceans EP' and now we are back together again!! new music with one of my faves is out APRIL 20th!! you can exclusively listen to and download it for free NOW on the new and fresh #DXFXWXU online mag, among lots of other great stuff! just sign up for free here: www.dxfxwxu.com ✨❤️✨ — — #steffaloo #sunglitters #duo #electronicmusic #newmusic #420 #togetheragain #chillwave #synthpop

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love yourself. ♡ give yourself stick n poke tattoos to remind yourself that you are lovable and magical and enough! 🤷🏻‍♀️ or maybe just remind yourself how magnificent you are without giving yourself a tattoo? — — #stickandpoke #tattoo #loveyourself #love #hearttattoo #diy #sticknpoke #sticknpoketattookit #youareloved

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“you don’t get better on the days when you feel like going. you get better on the days when you don’t want to go, but you go anyway. if you can overcome the negative energy coming from your tired body or unmotivated mind, you will grow and become better. it won’t be the best workout you have, you won’t accomplish as much as what you usually do when you actually feel good, but that doesn’t matter. growth is a long term game, and the crappy days are more important.” ••• just keep going. no feeling is final. 💓 (pic by the beauty @brittneychristie)

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new remixes!

i somehow failed to share these new remixes of my title songs 'happy' and 'throw me to the wolves' by my bb's sun glitters and gangplans. check them out!! <3 

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just got a bunch of film back and this is one of my favorite shots. this is my niece, atop her dads shoulders holding the sign she made for the women's march back at the beginning of the year.. i am so proud to be a part of the family i am. my siblings are raising their children to think and love and fight and reason and i hope to be able to do the same one day. the fight continues and there is love to be had yet.. ❤️✊🏼❤️ #film #35mm #ae1 #canonae1 #photography #womensmarchla #equality #love #together (at Downtown LA)

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 "it’s dark because you are trying too hard. lightly child, lightly. learn to do everything lightly. yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply. just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them. so throw away your baggage and go forward. there are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet, trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair. that’s why you must walk so lightly. lightly my darling, on tiptoes and no luggage, not even a sponge bag, completely unencumbered." -aldous huxley-

i have a hard time being lightly.. i usually end up feeling everything so intensely that i'm spun into a fit of anxiety or i just shut down entirely so i can recover without depleting myself completely. and if i'm not feeling intensely i'm probably overthinking everything intensely. oh how i want to be light. i want to breathe lightly and to see lightly and to think lightly and to feel lightly. especially when life does not always seem like it is treating me lightly. i am practicing this new way of being. to uncurl and to be open and upright, to know that the weight of things can be let go and that it is possible to walk forward lightly.. lightly my darling..

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"we don’t even ask for happiness, just a little less pain." -charles bukowski-