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Does anybody know her?

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anybody know this girl?

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“because a 16 year old girl who had her first orgasm whilst getting raped, had to watch her 34 year old rapist go free because she had an orgasm.

because when one of my guy friends told me and some friends he got raped by a woman when he was 12, a “friend” laughed at him and told him he should be happy he got laid that young.

because my 17 year old friend’s parents let her 14 year old brother roam the streets until 12am, but she has to be home by 10.

Because my brothers girlfriend, told the police she was raped and fell pregnant but the rapist didn’t get jail time as she got an abortion and the ‘evidence’ was gone.

because a guy from my old school was raped by another guy, but because he’s gay, they said it wasn’t considered rape.

because a 19 year old lesbian got raped by a guy, and he didn’t go to prison because he said “he only tried to turn her straight so she would be accepted by her parents”.

because in some cultures, girls (and boys, of course) still get thrown out of the family because somebody sexually assaulted them.

because they’re still teaching girls to walk faster at night instead of teaching boys that they shouldn’t rape.

Because they’re teaching kids that they’re only male rapists and not female rapists too.

because I have to explain why rape makes me mad.“

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i have changed in a kind of person i am not, a kind of person who hardly lets go thing. him. i dont know how many times he gave me chances because he felt bad, because he realized leaving me miserable was wrong. he thought he made biggest mistake to ever hurt me, i wasn't as strong as he thought. "i have been honest with you, i am honest with you. i can be anything but i can't be loyal" i silently hoped, that i could deal with sharing him. with any girls. turned out, a place where i met him, was a place to him meeting any girls. i am torn in pieces everytime i remember how much he lied to me. he thought, when he ignored me it wouldn't bug me. it did. it does. should i let him go? when all i could have just him. when all happiness i thought i once had, just him. to be honest, i hardly believe that i couldnt let him go. and how hard it is to losing him. no matter how much he hurts me i still want to run and kiss him. it might sound like we have abusive relationship (or even no relationship at all) but there is some kind of happiness that he shares with me. i could smile, i could. but it is different thing with waleed. it is just different. but i dont know, i dont want to even see what will happened later. if it is over, then it is. afterall, what i thought we once had wasn't even exist at all.

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this is the only picture i have left on my phone of him. i decided to stop trying, to just give it up, to just end all of this drama and shits he claimed. i am tired to work so hard over something he stopped believing. altho he didn't sound like want to make things right. i guess i should just call it off, i haven't talked to him yet. but if we really do, this is the last time. to talk to each other and try to be together.

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And if you call me at 4 am, too sad to even say hello, I will listen to your silence until you fall asleep. If you need to cry I will not wipe your tears away because you are only human and sometimes tears are as close to laughter as you can get and that’s okay. If you get sleepy I will let you drool on my arm and I won’t laugh at you if you snore too loud. If you need to yell so hard that your voice cracks and your knees fail I will hold you up and yell with you. If you get so angry you punch your hands red I will ice your knuckles and tell you that wounds heal both inside and out, and just like the cold that is harsh and burning, I will always be the warmth to soothe you and make you feel better. I will love you.

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dear anon

there is an anon saying that its not my boyfriend being cute telling me that he still cares about me even tho he is mad and working. but you know what anon, you dont know a damn thing that small little thing like that makes me think that this relationship could still work

i gave it up a while ago, i feel like he doesnt care about me at all. he just values my feelings because i genuinely love him, but i thought he doesnt care at all.until he calls me telling me that. did i try to change? i do. maybe what happened to us in past makes me skeptical about it. i thought this relationship wont work anymore, he works 24/7 and i read in some articles, i am no longer his priority.

again, this relationship gets harder and harder everyday. day by day. there is no chance i go to pakistan and there is no chance he wants to come here. i believe i should just stop hurting myself but that small little thing, the way he actually cared when i got mad, it makes me think that i probably should stay

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behind these accounts, there is human with real feeling and heart.

let just start it with the basic question, have you ever block someone because you think he(or she) is annoying?

we all have, probably.

i have been knowing internet for almost half of my age, i am 22 right now. i have been meeting different kind of people, my current boyfriend was the guy i met on internet a year ago. internet changes how people communicate with each other and how we interact across the countries. internet helps people. but somehow, it also changes the way people behave.

maybe before the era of internet, people rarely know other people from another countries. no whatsapp, no line, kik, or any other messaging apps. they were dating guys they met on parties, or maybe just small gatherings they usually attend. no, they wont be having any thoughts of dating someone who live thousand miles away, because the phone bills will be thousand dollars everyday. not like right now, you have facetime or skype. before the era of internet, i assume that people who have problems will try to face it, talk to the other people about it. if they find them annoying, well, they will just probably suck it up. but no, to get the closure, they will talk. explain, talk and talk. i rarely find my mom got upset over small matters that did not have the closure before.

however, things get so different right now. i have been meeting some good and bad people. guys, i also talk to a lot of guys. one of the guy named cody eller, i am not gonna hide his name because this is the fact. we talked, for almost a year. he said he loves me and i did love him, it was just not in the same way like with my ex. i cared about cody, cody was like a person i could talk with. he had issues and problems, i knew how it feels like when you just wanted to run away. he was that kind of guy, talked to him soothe me. he made me feel beyond comfortable, he made me feel happy for some reasons. he left me, but he would come back after few months. i did not know why but what didnt change, he would say the same thing over and over again, “i love you”. what i knew about cody, or lets just say what i thought i knew, he had ex wife, and they had been arguing about the custody of their son. she won it but he kept seeing her once in a while. he admitted they had sex after they went into divorce but then he said he would never come back to her. in february, he stopped talking. but this time i got so worried. let me warn you, i am not a person who holding back, so i messaged his mother. she told me that her son is married and happy with HIS WIFE and son. i was in shocked, a guy like cody could do that to me? no its not about i was blind about people who lied on internet, its how he lied about it. so i texted him, no he didnt respond. i found his instagram and yes i got very upset so i asked for explanation and threatened him that i might post his nude. what he said? he instead just responded to how i got so pissed and threatened him, not that at some points we used to talk and cared for each other. atleast thats what i thought. he blocked me.

another guy i talked, he called himself as angel. turned out he was just some kind of depressed kid who wanted to be with girl, he claimed to be built and from australia. he was adopted and this and that, as if he was survivor. turned out? he was just a depressed kid. a fat depressed kid from a loving family. he wanted some kind of attention. he didnt explain anything to me, i went forward to talk to his mother about it. he blocked me.

and when i was with my current boyfriend, last year we had arguments and he blocked me everywhere. he claimed it was easier than had to explain all of it. it took one phone call to make this starting again.

what i was so surprised that those guys (other than my boyfriend) not realize that there is someone behind those accounts, a real person with feeling. a real person who probably grows some strong feelings, who cares, genuinely. they did not care if we deserve some kind of explanations or not. one block, they thought, could solve everything. it shut me up, but it did not stop me from wondering why. atleast, when we all had some kinds of moments, we all deserve the explanations probably.

maybe i was just an idiot, who thought that there are some people on internet who will be real about things. who will be honest, who atleast respect others feelings. i am not talking about those who stop talking to me, because lets just say we all will have life and start to driven away by that. but i am talking for those whose not being real, who thinks that well this is internet.

yes honey, its internet but behind these accounts, there is a human who has heart and feeling. if you are human, you will be hurt at some points no matter where the people who hurt us living at. whether it is on internet or not, everyone deserves some kind of closure, some answers for all the questions. please, stop using block to shut the fuck up people who got hurt by us. we have no rights to tell them that they shouldnt be hurt by us. please, think once again, if you think you ever hurt someone talk to them. explain.

and for those fuck boys, come on. be a man, atleast explain. why and ask for apology. thats it. sometimes you gotta live your life and be selfish but sometimes you also need to think that you dont live alone in this world

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he just called me after texted me that he hates me so much, called me just to tell that he couldnt help to not caring when i get mad. couldnt help to hear me saying sorry when i cursed lol idk if anything could be any cute when he was pissed yet caring yet hating me being crazy

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You should have realized what I hate the most, that whenever you get mad I do care. I fucking care, I really do. But you never realize that

my bf being cute but annoying

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if you find yourself constantly trynna prove your worth to someone, you have already forgotten your value

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ask me these things okay omg

1:Is there a boy/girl in your life? 2:Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them? 3:What do you think of when you hear the word “meow?” 4:What’s something you really want right now? 5:Are you afraid of falling in love? 6:Do you like the beach? 7:Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else? 8:What’s the background on your cell? 9:Name the last four beds you were sat on? 10:Do you like your phone? 11:Honestly, are things going the way you planned? 12:Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts? 13:Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler? 14:Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? 15:Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? 16:Are you tired? 17:How long have you known your 1st phone contact? 18:Are they a relative? 19:Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes? 20:When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with? 21:If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today? 22:Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? 23:How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now? 24:Is there a certain quote you live by? 25:What’s on your mind? 26:Do you have any tattoos? 27:What is your favorite color? 28:Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? 29:Who are you texting? 30:Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch? 31:Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right? 32:Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? 33:Do you think anyone has feelings for you? 34:Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? 35:Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you? 36:Were you single on Valentines Day? 37:Are you friends with the last person you kissed? 38:What do your friends call you? 39:Has anyone upset you in the last week? 40:Have you ever cried over a text? 41:Where’s your last bruise located? 42:What is it from? 43:Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad? 44:Who was the last person you were on the phone with? 45:Do you have a favourite pair of shoes? 46:Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day? 47:Would you ever go bald if it was the style? 48:Do you make supper for your family? 49:Does your bedroom have a door? 50:Top 3 web-pages? 51:Do you know anyone who hates shopping? 52:Does anything on your body hurt? 53:Are goodbyes hard for you? 54:What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? 55:How is your hair? 56:What do you usually do first in the morning? 57:Do you think two people can last forever? 58:Think back to January 2007, were you single? 59:Green or purple grapes? 60:When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug? 61:Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? 62:When will be the next time you text someone? 63:Where will you be 5 hours from now? 64:What were you doing at 8 this morning. 65:This time last year, can you remember who you liked? 66:Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? 67:Did you kiss or hug anyone today? 68:What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? 69:Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? 70:How many windows are open on your computer? 71:How many fingers do you have? 72:What is your ringtone? 73:How old will you be in 5 months? 74:Where is your Mum right now? 75:Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love? 76:Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? 77:Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago? 78:Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7? 79:Is there anyone you know with the name Mike? 80:Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? 81:How many people have you liked in the past three months? 82:Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days? 83:Will you talk to the person you like tonight? 84:You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with? 85:If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care? 86:What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie? 87:Who was your last received call from? 88:If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you? 89:What is something you wish you had more of? 90:Have you ever trusted someone too much? 91:Do you sleep with your window open? 92:Do you get along with girls? 93:Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth? 94:Does sex mean love? 95:You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem? 96:Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring? 97:Did you sleep alone this week? 98:Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you? 99:Do you believe in love at first sight? 100:Who was the last person that you pinky promise?

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REBLOG IF YOU HAVE STRETCHMARKS

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Take me to Pakistan. Just take me there, now

me to him