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summerlovingbaby · 3 days

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Remus found Y/N hiding out in the library, lost in the aisles of shelves, lost in between the pages of the book she was reading. Apparently, it was very thrilling because she would gasp occasionally and could hardly put it down. Remus had watched her before approaching, he hadn’t seen her in 4 days and they hadn’t spoken in a week and Remus felt horrible about it.

He didn’t mean for it to happen, they were studying alone in the common room, pouring over the pages of brittle pages of old books, searching for anything to help with James' parents who were ill and dying. Remus owed them his life so it was the least he could do. And Y/N knew what it was like to loose a parent, and would do anything to spare James that particular pain.

They often spent late nights together and had grown close, they seemed to talk in a language that only they could understand, and Y/N was the only one who could keep up with Remus intelligence wise, who wasn’t Lilly. He liked spending time with Lilly, but she was too candy coated for Remus to tolerate all the time.

That late night quickly sprailed into making out, how that started neither were quite sure, their hands just happened to brush under the low light of the fireplace and they seemed so unbelievably close to eachother it seemed only right to kiss. His lips were on hers and it all seemed right, and that quickly progressed into more.

They didn’t get carried away enough to stop, Remus had enough sense to pull the pair of them to his dorm. James was with Lilly and Sirus was in one of his moods and storming around the castle. Peter was with his girlfriend leaving their room empty. Before he knew it she was left alone in her underwear, and Remus had no shirt.

His body seemed to fit perfectly in his, the curves of her hips seemed perfect for him to grab and hold and squeeze, and her lips seemed to be made for their neck. Remus fell asleep almost immedietly after with her in his arms and could have stayed like that forever. He woke up and she was gone, the only trace of her left was the sweater she was wearing that she must have not been able to find in the dark when she left, the browns and greens blended in with the ugly carpet of the floor.

She had avoided him since then, and he wanted nothing more than to see her. He missed his friend, and he wanted to talk about it. Lilly couldn’t know, and neither could James, the pair of them didn’t need anymore drama in their life. Peter was Peter and Remus knew he wouldn’t get it. He wanted to tell Sirus, but made the mistake of trusting him too many times, and was burned by his brightness too many times to not think himself a fool.

So he found her in the library, and waited in the isle was empty and she closed her book.

“ You’ve been avoiding me,” he said quietly, leaning on the bookcase.

Y/N stuttered a little bit before fumbling with a stack of books she collected, she jammed them into her bag and stood.

“ Bye Remus,” she whispered, brushing past him. He caught a wiff of her hair, and remembered how she smelled when their skin was close toeachother, and wanted nothing more than to hold her hand.

“ Can we talk?” he offered. “ We need to talk,” he said,” about what happened” he added, he kept adding on until he was interrupted by Y/N who looked vaguely ill.

“ Not here,” she said, peeking around, and though the library was empty there was a table of slyherins slyly watching them and the last thing either of them needed was relentless teasing.

Remus nodded and left the library, Y/N felt poised to follow him, through a series of complicated twist and turns through the hallway until they arrived at door of a room that Y/N had never seen before. It was a spare broom closest filled with random oddities, potion bottles, chalk, and rolls of parchement, a dozen stools lining against the wall.

Remus pulled two chairs to the center of the room and they both sat, she shrugged off her back pack and brought a knee to her chest and rested her knee on it. Remus opened his mouth to speak, then realized he had nothing to say so he closed it again. For a person who had such a love for words he found it strange how often words failed him.

“ I miss you,” she whispered, “ and right now I’m regretting what we did, not because we did it but because I miss my best friend.”

“ I miss you too,” he added. “ But I woke up and you were gone, and you’ve been avoiding me since.”

She looked at the ground, she had been unable to sort her feelings into something manageable so dealt with them by shoving them so deep down and hoping she would forget them. But everytime they saw each other passing in the hall or in the common room the feelings came flooding back.

“ You made me feel…” she waved her hands in the air, “ I got scarred,” she determined.

“ I scarred you?” he lifted a brow and crossed his arms. “ I’m sorry.”

“ No… not like that, I- you made me feel… I got scared of my feelings and the way my body reacted, and I don’t know, I just I’m sorry,” she said, “ I shouldn’t have left you must have felt horrible-”

“ I was just confused, I mean we- I woke up and you were gone, and you run away every time you see me and I just want to talk to you about it, but I don’t know if you wanted.. I mean I wanted to talk about it, but I wasn’t sure what to say, because I didn’t know how you feel,” he said.

“ Well how do you feel?”

“ I woke up and I was alone, I just feel alone,” he said sadly. He was slone most of his childhood, and then he came to school and made friends, but on breaks he would always go home and feel alone again. He didn’t have any parents, and James and Sirus were so uniquely close, Peter treated him with other disregard, and Y/N left him alone.

“I’m sorry I didn’t mean to abandon you.. I just… I don’t.” she frequently found herself unable to speak. Remus thought it was because she read too much and the words got jumbled in her head.

“ Take your time,” he said quietly.

She paused and chewed on her bottom lip trying to gather herself. She wanted to cry, but it felt stupid to cry for such a small reason. It felt wrong to cry infront of him when he had been through so much and he was only 17, she had no right to cry.

“ You mean something, so what we did meant something to me, and I guess I’ve been avoiding you because I was worried that it didn’t mean anything for you, and because it meant something to you, I don’t think just go back to being friends, but I can’t not be your friend, because you’re all I have.” she said, she still hadn’t looked at him, but her shoulders were shaking so he could tell she was crying.

He had only seen her cry once, it was was when she found out her parents died. For two days she was completely inconsolable and locked herself in her room refusing to speak or eat, or generally be functional, and it was the worst day of his life, because he felt so helpless, he lost his parents so young sometimes he forgot he even had them. For the longest time he only knew his father by a name, and even then it still hurt like hell when he missed his parents, and he knew how much Y/N loved her parents, they wrote together on a daily basis, so he could only imagine the grief she felt now that they were gone. And it was the worst day of Remus’s life, because he felt so horribly helpless to help her. He couldn’t bring her parents back. They never talked about it after, they still haven’t.

He sighed and tugged at the collar of his shirt which felt unbelievable tight.

“ Of course it meant something, you mean something, I just don’t know what it means,”he said. It was true, she meant something to him, what exactly he wasn’t sure. Friends seemed to casual a word for it.

“ I haven’t loved anyone since my parents died, I think I forgot what it feels like to love someone, to be in love with someone, but I think I love you, and I avoid that feeling because if I love you because-” she paused remembering her parents.

She loved them dearly and when they died, she lied on the bathroom floor for 2 days wearing Remus’s sweater feeling awful, and the only thing she knew after that was she never wanted to feel like that again. She sniffled loudly and wiped at her eyes.

“ Y/N,” he whispered, “ I think… I could… I like that you love me,” he said, “ and I think that I love you, but I’m not sure because I’ve never loved anyone,” he said.

“ You do?” she asked, peaking up and finally looking at him, her eyes were red and puffy.

“ Yeah, it meant something to me, and I’m glad it meant something to you, because I don’t want to just stay friends with you, I want to be with you, I need you,” tears welled in his eyes, he hadn’t cried in years. Hadn’t found it necessary, but the thought of never talking to Y/N was horrible and he refused to let her go. “ Please, don’t leave me again,” he begged.

“ Remus, I won’t I promise,” she let herself cry fully and kicked her stool away and stood, crossing the room in two swift steps to envelop him in a hug. “ You mean something to me, you will never not mean anything to me,” she whispered in his ear.

Remus took in the scent of her hair, she smelled like spring and spring was everything that was good in the world. Spring was fresh, and pretty and full of air, and he liked it. She only pulled away when she realized how foolish she felt, she brought forearm up to her nose and wiped away the snot that accumulated there.

“ What are we?” she cautioned an ask.

Remus considered it for a moment, boyfriend and girlfriend seemed to casual a word for it, but what ever intense feelings that they had it was definitely more than friends.

“Can we just be together, I don’t want to get all caught up in semantics,” he said, being together was simple.

�� Does that mean we get to hold hands?” she asked quietly, her voice seemed so small, and she looked so sweet. Her face flushed red and her hair wild and unkept over her head. Remus hands drifted to her waist, and they seemed to fit there perfectly. Y/N didn’t seem to mind all that much, just chewed on her bottom lip cutely.

“ That means we can hold hands and kiss and-” he almost forgot what he did. That night that they kissed, that was his first kiss. There were other girls, quick hook ups in broom closets, stuff that was meaningless to him, girls who meant nothing. “ Was it good for you?” he asked.

Y/N nodded, it was good for her. It wasn’t the flowers and roses that she imagined, but Remus was sweet, he was kind and considerate.

“ Was it good for you?” she asked.

“ It was good,” he breathed and smiled, and for some reason it just felt right to brush the hair out of her face.

“ It didn’t hurt?”

She shook her head quickly and Remus nodded and kissed her cheek.

2 days later

They walked hand in hand to the great hall, and sat down next to each other, pretending to not notice the stares from their friends. They noticed how the past week they avoided each other, so it was even more obvious that they always had to be touching each other.

They sat down, and Remus began loading a plate with sausage, eggs and toast, which was weird because Remus hated eggs, it all came together when he slid the plate of eggs in front of Y/N and she took her fork and poked at it.Y/N hardly ate, and Remus hated it, tried everything short of a feeding tube to make sure she ate. But he watched as she used her fork to cut the sausage link in half and eat it.

Sirius realized first, then kicked James in the shin to get his attention, James alerted Lilly who stared at them with both eyebrows lifted, she then gently elbowed Marlene in the stomach. Sirus smirked at the pair, he knew it was only a matter of time before they started carrying on. He awlays thought it would be later, they both seemed so keen on not getting attached.

Y/N couldn’t hide her embarrassment anymore and hid her face in Remus's shoulder, Remus looked at his friends across the table and sighed. Remus blinked expectantly, then the other side of the table erupted into questions. Y/N sat up and looked at them, holding up a singular finger.

“ One question, you each get one question and we never speak of this again.” she determined.

James eyes were darting between the pair, piecing together the story the best he could, until he pointed at Remus, then Y/N and blurted out the word, “ Thursday,” he said with intense determination and a loud finger snap.

Y/N shook her head begrudgingly, “ That is not a question, that is a day, we can both say days,” she said begrudgingly. Remus nodded behind her.

“ So you two?” Marlene asked pointing her finger between the pair. They both nodded in tandem. “ Did the thing?” Y/N rolled her eyes and Remus put his hands in his head.

“ Okay,” Sirius said leaning back and folding his arms over his chest with a wide smile, “ Finally I thought you two would never, glad you kissed and made up,” he said, stuffing his face with eggs, “ One question though,” he said, he winked at Remus. “ How big is it, I mean he has to be big, but he won’t tell me, so how big? Its big right?”

Y/N let her mouth fall open she stuttered a bit then looked at Remus who was looking bashfully at the floor. “ I’m not answering that,” she managed to get out.

Sirius held up his palms about 4 inches apart from each other, and moved them back and forth dramatically. Tired of his antics she stood reached across the table and pulled his hand a firm 7 inches apart/ Sirius stared at her hands and nodded impressively.

“ I love her,” he said, “ and were not labeling it yet, but we are together, so no jokes and no more questions,” he said.

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summerlovingbaby · 10 days

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Cramps

Eijiro hadn’t heard from his girlfriend, Y/N all morning, which was strange. She always woke up early to read, and when she did she would text him good morning. Even on the weekend, and this weekend was supposed to be special. For the first time in months, their was no mortal dangers, no training exercises, the couple wasn’t dodging mortar fires, or bombs, or rescuing civilians from collapsing buildings.

He didn’t get a text and it was nearly noon.Y/N was on her period, and though her cramps were usually manageable, today she woke up with an earsplitting headache. She knew it was the weekend and was thankful that she had no prior engagements, so she ignored the violent churning in her stomach, stumbled her way to the bathroom. Blindly felt around the medicine cabinet grabbed Advil and took a handful of pills before she closed her black out curtains, crawled between her sheets and placed a pillow over her head, hoping the pressure would push away the headache.

She was unable to think about the oddities of her situation. Her period was on its final day, it was technically on its final day yesterday, and she expected only spotting today. Her PMS symptoms were never as horrific as they could have been, she never had headaches, and though her cramps wer awful it was nothing that couldn’t be managed with a heating pad and some painkillers couldn’t fix.

But this pain was deep in her stomach, and was shooting painful jabs in her stomach, her head hurt something awful and she wanted nothing more than to hide under her covers and for it to go away. She slept off her headache for 45 minutes before a gentle knocking on the door woke her up.

Eijiro knocked twice before he heard the bed groan, signaling that she had gotten up. He checked his watch, it was nearly 1PM in the afternoon, the door slowly opened and a blanket covered mound peeked their head out, he couldn’t helpbut smile. Y/N had always been particularly shy, but this was a new extent.

“ Hello,” he whispered quietly, like he was afraid of spooking an afraid animal, she used the blanket to block out the light, “ You okay?” he asked.

She nodded, “ Its just bright,” she said, “ And I have a headache,” she added on. Eijoro cocked his head to the side with confusion. Y/N never got headaches, unless she went days without eating, and after a particular situation where she forgot to eat for 2 whole days, he was always there to make sure that she ate at least 600 calories worth in granola bars a day. “ My periods kicking my ass,” she added hoping he would understand.

Eijoro nodded sympathetically, he would never understand the trials and tribulations of being a girl, bleed painfully for days on end, but he was always sympathetic to their plight. He had 2 sisters who cried alot watching nature documentaries on penguins who mate for life. Life was hardcore enough on it its own, but adding bleeding on top of it was metal as hell.

“ You feel up to lunch?”

Y/N shook her head and looked back at her bed, she wanted nothing more than to climb into bed and rot away the day. “ I just want to lie down,” she said quietly.

Eijiro nodded and looked at Y/N sadly. He missed his girlfriend, they had a busy week and hardly seen eachother the past week, barley having the chance for more than a glance and Y/N really wanted to have sex with him, her hormones were driving her up the wall and she wanted nothing more than to jump his bones, but felt too grossed to be touched. Eijiro studied her face, as she chewed on her bottom lip and hesitated opening her mouth.

“ Can I stay with you?” he offered, and Y/N quickly obliged, opening the door wide enough for him to follow her through the door. He placed a hand on the small of his back and guided her to her bed, pulled back the mountain of blankets and watched as she hid beneath them, he then made himself comfortable by sitting down. He outstretched his legs and leaned back on the headboard and watched as Y/N placed her head on his upper thigh and she fell into a vague sleep state.

It only lasted a few minutes before the stomach pain hit her in the gut and she sat instantly upwards, doubled oever and vomited over the edge of her bed. The sight of her vomit sent her spiraling, she already felt gross, and now she had thrown up in front of her boyfriend, she couldn’t wallow in her pity for long because a familiar horrible feeling was rising in her chest again, and she doubled over and threw up once more.

Eijiro had stood up by then, Y/N expected him to leave, she was in such a state of disrepair. Her hair was a birds nest, and her clothes were old and wrinkled, not to mention she just upchucked two times in front of him, she covered her mouth and spared him a cautionary glance at Ejiro, to her surprise didn’t look digusted, just vageluly confused and concerned. She opened her mouth and muttered a vague apology before the ground got closer to her head very very quickly.

She woke up what she estimated was an hour later, in a strangely calm emergency room, she was hooked up to all kinds of monitors with a very concerned Eijiro brushing hair out of her face and fretting over the thickness of the blanket, while her closest friends watched. If he was trying to be calm it wasn’t working because he frequently peaked his head out of the curtiains until a doctor showed up.

She wanted to hide away from the embarrassment of it all. All her friends drug themselves to an ER because Y/N couldn’t handle her stomach pain without throwing up and blacking out, and she wanted to go home. She was never a fan of hospitals, her brother died in one two years ago and it was awful. Now every time she’s in a hospital she smells the clean sterile smell and the light blue walls and she remembers that gut-sinking feeling when her brother died, and all of a sudden her stomach pain and headache seemed bearable enough to be anywhere else but a hospital.

“ I wanna go home,” she whispered, Bakugo muttered something and fretted over the blanket and Denki took a phone call in the hall.

“ I know, just wait a second,” he whispered, “ Denki’s been calling your parents,” he said.

“ Don’t-”

“Shut up, its happening,” he scolded, “ Aizawa is on his way, you need an adult here for medical purposes until your parents get here.”

Her parents were on a trip to the States, and they weren’t getting here anytime soon. Before she could explain a man in blue scrubs with a clipboard jerked back the curtain hard, scribbling madly on his clipboard.

“ So you’re hear today because you have stomach pains, threw up and passed out?” he asked reading it off the clipboard, not bothering to look up.

Y/N nodded, “ Yeah, it’s not usually this bad,” she said quietly.

This seemed to peak his interest because he clicked his pen closed and finally looked up, “ This has happened before?”

“ Well I thought the stomach pain was just cramps, but I don’t think so because my period technically ended yesterday, and my cramps are usually manageable, and I never get headaches, and last time I threw up it was the stomach flu,” she said.

He sighed annoyed and took a few steps towards her, “ So you’re hear for period related stomach pains,” he sighed, “ And you want me to?”

Y/N blinked at him a few times, too stunned to speak. Eijoro had been waiting for a doctor for at least an hour, and was only met with incompetence, “ An exam would be nice?” he said.

“ I mean there really is no point, you said it yourself its PMS related pain, I mean are you experiencing any stress?” he asked begrudgingly.

“ We go to UA, stress is what we signed up for.” Bakugou interrupted. Denki stopped trying to call her parents, and instead listened in to the conversation.

“ Stress has been known to make period pain less tolerable, your BP is normal, you seem fine, I suggest moving to a less stressful environment, and maybe seeing at a nurse will be here in a few minutes to discharge you?”

The notion of leaving in this horrible pain sent her sprailing, she was overwhelmed tired and in pain and could no longer stand the idea of being left untreated and was unable to fight back the tears that she had been holding onto since this morning, Bakugou stroked her hair to calm her, but it wasn’t working, he looked at the monitor where her blood pressure suddenly spiked.

The doctor looked at the monitor then back at her, “ How about we try to calm down?” he said condescendingly, “ Your hysterics are spiking your blood pressure.”

Eijiro shook his head, he had no intention of going anywhere. “ We aren’t leaving, I want another doctor,” he demanded.

“ You’re requesting someone else?” he asked.

“ YES,” he raised his voice and rung his hands in the air, “ I WANT ANOTHER DOCTOR, OR A NURSE, OR SOMEONE WHO IS MORE COMPETENT THAN YOU-,”

His shouting got the attention of a passing-by doctor, who poked her head through the curtain, her intrusion didn’t stop Eijiros ranting.

“ YOU DIDN’T EVEN EXAMINE HER, OR LOOK AT HER CHART OR DO ANYTHING THAT EVEN REMOTELY REQUIRES A MEDICAL DEGREE, SHE IS ON HER PEORID AND REGARDLESS IF THAT PAIN IS RELATED TO THAT OR NOT SHE NEEDS HELP BECAUSE IT SHOULD NOT BE OKAY TO THROW UP AND PASS OUT SO FIND SOMEONE TO EITHER HELP HER OR FIND SOMEONE ELSE WHO WILL.”

His shouting made Y/N cry more, he never yelled and when he did it was always frightening. She wanted to go home and sleeep it off, she wanted to be anythere but this hospital with its blue walls and antispetic smell.

The doctor balked at him with his mouth open, and the lady stepped through the curtain with a plastered smile on her face. “ What seems to be the issue here?” she asked, “ My name is Dr. Ross.”

“Well Dr. Ross, my girlfriend had really bad cramps this morning and a headache, and around 4ish she threw up 2 times and kept passing out, and I know that you think that this is just period related pain but I don’t think so, they’ve never been this bad,” Eijiro began to explain to Dr. Ross who walked to Y/N and fiddled with the monitor.

“ This bozo didn’t even examin her-” Bakugou interjected.

This peaked Dr. Ross’s interest because she shot the doctor a deadly glare and snatched the clipboard from him, and read over her chart.

“ It says here that you were in the hospital 3 months ago, was that for abdominal pain or?” she smiled.

“ I broke 3 ribs and dislocated my shoulder fighting someone,” the doctor lifted a brow, “ You should have seen the other guy,” she added.

“ Is it okay if I palpate your stomach?” she asked.

Y/N meekly nodded, and Eijoro finished glaring at the doctor long enough to watch Dr. Rosses careful hands as she gently massaged her stomach, trying to ignore the pain as she pushed down around her stomach, Y/N then groaned loudly as she removed her pain.

Dr. Ross unhooked the portable ultrasound from the heart monitor quickly, “ And the pain started?”

“ This morning,” she groaned.

Dr Ross squeezed a quarter size of cool jelly on her stomach, and pressed the ultra sound wand firmly on her stomach than made a vaguely dissatisfied clucking noise, her eyebrows squinted together, before they raised suddenly, then with a grim look on her face she looked over her shoulder at the doctor, who still stood with his arms crossed over his chest and was looking rather annoyed. She removed the wand and Y/N groaned loudly, the pain was worse than it was with stomach pressure.

“ Book an OR,” she said grimly, then she turned back to Y/N who had now resulyed on holding her stomach and chewing her bottom because of the pain. “ It looks like her appendix burst a few hours ago,” she said. “ And because it went untreated for so long it turned into peritonitis, and that is beginning to turn into sepsis,” she explained calmly. “Without surgical intervention, she will die, so we need to take her to surgery right away.”

“ Sepsis?”

“ Yes, it seems like her appendix burst right before she threw up, and because it went untreated for hours, because an incompetent doctor,” she tossed a disapproving glance over her shoulder at the doctor, “because she sat in a hospital for hours bleeding out into her abdomen because you thought her pain was made up and you thought she was hysterical, because you didn’t give her the basic standard of treatment, like an exam, she has to have emergency surgery.”

Y/N began to sob, the last thing she wanted was surgery, and apparently she might die. It was alot to handle in 5 minutes.

Before Y/N could protest she was being wheeled out of the room, down hallways that smelled like cleaning supplies, and sterile baby blue walls. She cried for Eijoro but he was no where to be found, she didn’t want surgery, her brother went to surgery and now he was was dead.

Eijoro paced around the room listly, before a nurse led them to a waiting room, then he paced around that one frequently checking the time. Denki didn’t understand his nerves, it was just an appendix, lots of people didn’t have appendix, he one read on a article that it was a common surgery.

“ It’s okay, most people have their appendixes out,” Denki said.

“ She has sepsis,” Eijiro said, “ that means her organs are dying because her burst appendix gave her an infection, her organs are dying because she sat in that ER for hours, and now she might die, and I didn’t help her,” he sighed, finally collapsing in a chair.

“ Hey, you did what you could. That clown of a doctor tried to send her home, but you stayed and you fought for her,” he said, his words were seldom comfort so they waited in silence until Dr. Ross took them to a recovery room where Y/N was lying down in a hospital bed, loopy from all the anesthesia which was starting to wear off.

She smiled at the sight of him, her perfect handsome boyfriend, who was pulled aside by the doctor and wad given instructions about her post-operative care. She would need to stay at the hospital for 4 nights of observation due to the infection, though they were positive that she would recover.

“ You did good today, I know you probably felt helpless watching her in so much pain, but you fought for her when people tried to dismiss her, you fought for her,” she said.

Eijiro spent the next few days spoon deeding her icecream and cuddling while watching Gilmore Girls reruns on the shitty hospital TV.

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