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A PALESTINIAN CITIZEN AND HIS DOG FROM GAZA RAISES THE VICTORY SIGN FROM INSIDE HIS DESTROYED HOME.

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I don't want to be me anymore, lord, help me be better

1 Fydoror Dostoevsky "the insulted and humiliated" // 2 Rainer Maria Rilke Rilke's book of hours:love poems to God // 3 Ethel Cain strangers // 4 Jihyun Yun some are always hungry // 5 icon for hire happy hurts // 6 Alice Notley from in the pine: poems; "in the pines" // 7 Edward Hopper interior, model reading (1925) // 8 Julien Baker Guthrie // 9 Clementine Von Radics dream girl "sweet the sound" // 10 Bao Phi Thousand star hotel "vocabulary" // 11 unknown // 12 Phoebe Bridgers funeral // 13 Yves Olade belovéd // 14 unknown // 15 Julien Baker everybody does // 16 Anne Sexton a self-portrait in letters // 17 pat the bunny I'm not a good person // 18 unknown // 19 Julien Baker sour breath

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everything is so much quieter at night and I love it

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May Sarton, from "She Shall Be Called Woman", Selected Poems

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Anne Carson, from Grief lessons: Four plays by Euripides.

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Chronic pain patients hide it so well, you can’t go by how they look on the outside. They have to learn how to function with the pain, you can’t just roll around on the floor all day screaming in agony. Medical personnel in hospitals don’t even realize this. A chronic pain patient can function with a pain level that would incapacitate any other person.

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What are you supposed to do when you’re scared of the world but your own head isn’t safe either?

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When I'm in a dark place

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I am healing for me.

I am not healing for work. I am not healing to return to being a productive member of society.

I am healing for my own stability, wellness, health and contentment.

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favorite part of my day

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Sometimes I feel like I want to talk to someone. I have a lot of friends & few close friends but somehow it isn't enough.

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yazzzz

the other day my therapist said, real quote, "giving a middle finger to patriarchy is giving a thumbs up to yourself" and i have not stopped thinking about it

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Many of us will never have closure. Many of us will never receive the apologies we deserve. Many of us can never forgive those who hurt us.

That doesn't mean we aren't healing or moving on. We're not letting our past stop us. We're not allowing our traumas to destroy our lives.

And I think, this is so brave of us.

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Some days i am Van gogh starry night, other days i am His suicide letter.

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“She had thought, in her nocturnal and suicidal hours, that solitude was the problem. But that was because it hadn’t been true solitude. The lonely mind in the busy city yearns for connection because it thinks human-to-human connection is the point of everything. But amid pure nature (or the ‘tonic of wilderness’ as Thoreau called it) solitude took on a different character. It became in itself a kind of connection. A connection between herself and the world. And between her and herself.”

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Matt Haig, The Midnight Library

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I know it since a long time ago, but still dk how to do it. God pls help me

You have to force yourself to get up early, you have to take care of your responsibilities, you have to be honest with yourself, and you have to evaluate your priorities. Nobody is going to do it for you. These are your goals and your dreams. Everything you want starts and ends with you.