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Shen Qingqiu in wedding attire (getting married to Yue Qingyuan) staring at a mirror of his younger self also in wedding attire (getting married to Qiu Haitang)

I love this idea! Sadly I currently don't have the means to draw this digitally, so I hope you'll enjoy my attempt to do this traditionally!

Thank you for sending in the suggestion!

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I think SQQ and LBH should get pregnant with each other at the same time and raise their quarter demon babies like twins.

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Shen Jiu (looking at the child clearly identical to him that Yue Qingyuan brought to the Sect one day without any explanation to anyone): ... being a flatterer won't get you anywhere

Shen Yuan (who flattered Yue Qingyuan with shining eyes to get an adoption, who flattered Mu Qingfang to get medicines that didn't taste bad, who flattered Qi Qingqi so that she would give him sweets, who flattered Liu Qingge to get a piggyback ride while hunting a not-so-dangerous beast, who flattered Shang Qinghua into writing bedtime stories for him): Are you sure about that? Because that's what brought me here :)

aka, Shen Qingqiu's unacknowledged son (according to the entire sect. Shen Jiu is VERY SURE that this is not his offspring, but no one believes him) becomes the favorite apple of his martial uncles' eyes, behaving like a sweet and adorable baby with pinchable cheeks and sweet little voice lisping from his growing tooth, but when he is alone with Shen Jiu (due to Yue Qingyuan's attempts to get Xiao Jiu to recognize his son) becomes the worst piece of shit, with the most cutting answers, intelligence and worthy cunning much older than his age— and even if Shen Qingqiu is VERY sure that he never put his seed in anyone, in fact, when that kid acts like a clever, manipulative little shit getting everything he wants from his martial uncles and making everyone in the sect worship and care for him, he might just accept that he's his kid without even asking where he came from.

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My most well fleshed out thought on Yue Qingyuan is that I don’t think he believes he’s his own person. He’d spent his formative years a slave, being the oldest of the group, being a peacemaker, trying to keep some order with all the kids, keep everyone safe, be someone they can rely on, he’s Xiao Jiu’s companion. He makes a promise to free him and from then on his mission is to do that, he says by cultivation sect because that is the plan already spoken of. He goes sect to sect being rejected and chased away until he finds one and he has to cling to it because he made a promise and his body and soul is stolen away from him by his sword because of his promise and the manor is burnt when he gets there and all he has is being head disciple so he can’t kill himself or anything because he is head disciple and that means people depend on him and when Shen Jiu returns he can’t explain why everything ended up the way it did because Yue Qi isn’t a person he’s something to be put in a position so it’s like your kettle trying to explain why it won’t boil water, right?, and he keeps getting put in different positions and that’s all he is and all he knows how to do. He doesn’t know how to exist as himself and for his own sake. It has to be for something or someone else. Maybe, in his eyes, Shen Jiu is angry at his betrayal because his thing didn’t do what it was meant to. And in that sense it is a betrayal rather than a twist of chance

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something something, yue qingyuan and su xiyan both destroying their bodies in service of love but showing up too late anyway, being accused of betrayal and abandonment for their failure, and the truth coming out too late.

yue qingyuan becoming both victim and perpetrator of the same kind of misunderstanding.

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Pre-abyss Binghe vs post-abyss Binghe 😝

Og

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lot of thoughts about the way power works in bingqiu's relationship that i think people don't actually pay attention too. like there's a lot of fix its / canon divergence where they want to focus on the age gap / master disciple issues with shen qingqiu explaining to binghe why these things are bad but 1) shen qingqiu in canon isnt even thinking about the age thing most of the time bcus he's seeing binghe as bingge and 2) the actual reason he doesn't see binghe as a viable romantic interest is bcus of his internalized homophobia and heteronormative beliefs.

i also think because we as readers Know that shen qingqiu has power over binghe ppl assume that shen qingqiu knows this as well. but thats like the core of their issues!!!! day 1 post transmigration shen qingqiu doesnt view himself as having any power within the relationship. like in his mind he is already binghe's victim because he is always seeing binghe thru the lense of bingge. he doesn't believe he has power over binghe and that's why we don't see him set boundaries or even really assert his authority over him in meaningful ways. like shen qingqiu's realization at the end of the series that he has power over binghe because of binghe's feelings and therefore is capable of doing harm that no one else is (as seen by binghe's scars) is like crucial to them actually being capable of having a relationship.

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Cumplane au where they both survive, but some media company steals PIDW for a very obvious serial numbers filed off cash grab

Worse, leaks suggest it's BETTER (because they can't just fill time with porn)

Well cucumber isn't having any of that! And he gets the family lawyers involved so airplane has to meet up with his biggest hater and a bunch of eye wateringly expensive lawyers to prove this is his idea they're stealing

Featuring: drama about how there's no proof since he lost the original outline

(Sy and lawyers point out that publish dates of the Web chapters are pretty clear)

Airplane passes out because he hasn't eaten and couldn't afford anything near the fancy law office

(Sy definitely dotes on him like a love interest - the lawyers start preparing 'permanent cohabitation' documents and a pre-nup)

SY taking airplane shopping for clothes because no one will take him seriously dressed like that

Shen family being strangely welcoming because they haven't seen sy this energetic since he was a kid

Sy telling airplane he'll kill him if he so much as looks at his sister

(Airplane laughs so hysterically he starts coughing)

Madam Shen telling sy she can't wait to host a wedding for them

(Sy confused and so deep in the closet convinces himself she means airplane and his sister and says over my dead body)

Flash forward to soc med mock up of PIDW 's official adaptations release party and comments/articles going nuts over cumplane

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the thing about mxtx is that her novels have such fascinating themes about gender and gender performance, but at the same time she does not seem interested in writing women and her female characters rarely get narrative attention. the curse of doing gender analysis through BL novels.

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Shen Qingqiu doesn’t know immediately he’s cursed. Sure, maybe he’s lost some weight. Maybe his arm feels a little heavier than usual. Maybe he’s a little lightheaded from time to time, but what of it? He’s waiting for his impending death, which will be long and painful, who would have a good appetite in a situation like this?

Weeks go by, he rarely leaves the house, and everything is fine, even if some of his students keep looking at him like he might faint any minute now.

And then he does faint.

The whole next day is a blur — Mu Qingfang with his needles and familiar qi, Yue Qingyuan with his guilty expressions, Liu Qingge trying to break through the Without-A-Cure blockage that just isn’t there.

It’s a Fading Curse. Stupid fucking wife plot that makes his body slowly fade away in the most dramatic and tragically beautiful way. Shen Yuan remembers reading about that what feels like a lifetime ago — another beautiful maiden fell victim to a mysterious disease, origins of which weren’t even mentioned, and started to lose her life force.

Of course, since she was a future wife, she couldn’t be slowly dying in a real way — her hair didn’t fall out, her teeth were just fine, and even by the time she was barely breathing her bladder worked alright. Absolutely unrealistic.

So, Shen Qingqiu is thin, with fragile wrists and fingers, his skin is a fetching porcelain-pale, he’s dizzy all the time and is ready to fall into Luo Binghe’s arms in a very dramatic fashion.

Only Luo Binghe isn’t here. Because Shen Qingqiu tossed him into the Endless Abyss.

Shen Qingqiu thinks, at first, he’s got about enough time in his once-again-dying body for his and Shang Qinghua’s back-ups to be ready. Shen Qingqiu is wrong.

He wakes up one day to a wet pillow. It’s not the first time it’s happened, to his horror, so he just groans and furiously wipes at his face. His hands come out bloody.

“The curse has progressed to its final stage.” Mu Qingfqng says, careful hands wiping at Shen Qingqiu’s cheeks, cleaning blood that won’t stop flowing from his eyes. “The treatment isn’t-”

“This one doesn’t need treatment.” Shen Qingqiu interrupts.

“Allow this shidi to disagree. Shixiong will die, and he will die soon, if he doesn’t-”

“This one will not get married.” Shen Qingqiu snaps.

He will not get someone to marry him. Him! An alive target for Luo Binghe’s ire!

“It doesn’t have to be… real.” Mu Qingfang tries.

As if Luo Binghe will care if it’s real or not. He will probably kill Shen Qingqiu’s fake spouse as an introduction to the torture.

“It doesn’t have to happen at all.”

But plant bodies aren’t ready and Shen Qingqiu gets worse and everyone is worried. He is always accompanied by at least one of his martial brothers, Yue Qingyuan and Liu Qingge being his most common companions.

“You have better things to do.” Shen Qingqiu grunts at Liu Qingge, as he comes to himself after trying to walk across his room and fainting, once again.

“Then marry me.” Liu Qingge says.

And Shen Qingqiu agrees.

The wedding is organized quickly. Everything is ready by the next morning. Shen Qingqiu is dressed by Ming Fan, and it feels all wrong. The whole thing is wrong. He never planned to wear red wedding robes at all, let alone like this. He’s at least thankful for the color of his clothing — blood isn’t that visible on crimson red, and he just can’t seem to stop crying. Pathetic.

The ceremony is to take place right by his bamboo house, since no one trusts him to walk any further. Liu Qingge arrives right in time, dressed impeccably, as a groom who will never become a real husband. One more thing that Shen Qingqiu ruined.

His head is clouded, and he feels a treacherous quiver in his knees. He’s about to fall, again. He wipes his face with a wet, silk kerchief and tries not to fucking cry. Gods.

“Let’s get this over with.” He asks.

There’s movement around him, quiet voices.

“Aren’t you dead?” Liu Qingge asks.

Shen Qingqiu doesn’t think so, though he is certainly close. He looks up, and finds that Liu Qingge isn’t talking to him. There’s someone behind, someone who-

Shen Qingqiu turns around, willing his feet to stay steady.

“Shizun,” Luo Binghe’s eyes are red. It’s bad, though Shen Qingqiu doesn’t register why right away. “Is this one late to celebration?”

He’s early. Shen Qingqiu should have known that his Luo Binghe is so much better, stronger, faster. He should have known that he’ll be out of hell faster. His barely beating heart fills with misplaced pride for a short moment. His eyes fill with tears.

“Shizun.” Luo Binghe gasps.

Will he kill him now? Will he kill everyone?

Shen Qingqiu doesn’t get to find out. His knees give out and he falls.

binghe’s pov

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The male lead of this Proud Immortal Demon Way, Luo Binghe, was neither the kind who started heroic and invincible, like a proud dragon of the heavens, nor the kind who was a loser, a good-for-nothing without merit—

chp 1; scum villain's self saving system

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Do I ship SQQ and ZZL? Yes. ZZL is best boi and deserves love with a freaky mofo who was definitely a scalie in his former life.

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Trying to solidify some ideas for a beast peak disciple Shen Yuan, since I do enjoy a fellow disciples scenario very much

He has an off-brand gimme cat that follows him around for no reason! He can’t explain why it seems to like him so much! (It’s because he’s wildly indulgent.)

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His opinion is rly important to SQQ 😤😤

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doodle dump...trying to get a feel for the character designs on my own

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woah, ive had this account for six years apparently from today! have some old winter bingqius. merry chrismis everypne!

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