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not kabuki

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Verbal arguments w the alters tonight. I’m exhausted and thankful no one was home bc I think I just about looked as crazy as I feel. It’s never been at the point where I’m yelling at “ myself/ves”out loud, back and forth like that, that I can remember. U ever just embarrassed by being alive.

Cringe ah ah disorder

Coping in gen z meme slang

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"omg you're a system!!! it just be so fun to have friends in your head!!!"

Yeah. They are my friends but you know what's really not fucking fun? Seeing how intelligent an alter is and how much they want to pursue their dream career but they can't because we share a body. Seeing how creative and talented alters are but we can't spend hours and hours drawing because we share a body and the body has to work. Seeing that an alter really wants to do something and we just don't have time, they say it's okay but we share a body and I know how they really feel.

Yeah I have friends in my head and I'm constantly letting them down because the things we all want aren't physically possible. Yeah that's really fun.

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Explanations:

1) beliefs:

I hate having to pretend that I changed my mind/still believe something another alter told someone when I never believed in it at all

2) goals:

We’ve got a lot of artists, but we also have a writer. Sometimes they want us to write 500 words or sth a day. I don’t want to. Stuff like that

3) skill:

This is self explanatory, but it’s hard to work on projects (e.g. a webcomic) when my art style changes— it makes keeping a consistent schedule impossible

honorable mention: relationships

it's annoying to have to hang out with someone I dislike just because someone else made plans because they like them

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That did moment when u wake up in the morning and ur mustache is gone…..

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i think they should add pvp to DID. i should be able to fistfight my headmates

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[TEXT ID: this system needs friends]

[IMG ID: a yellow rectangular box with an icon of two people hugging to the left, and the text 'this system needs friends' to the right.]

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Alters with religious trauma when an old trigger pops up:

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shout out to systems who ...

have a hard time moving on from trauma

have persecutors they can't work with yet for their own safety

have an "unbelievably" large alter count (we have 1000+!!)

can't identify all of their alters because of disassociation/blurriness

can't communicate with their headmates properly

don't have specifically outlined roles for different alters

are nearly entirely fictives or just fictives

are victims of ramcoa trauma, which is real and valid!!

you all are amazing and deserve just as much love as anybody else!! (so does everyone who's not included here, i just wanted to point to some parts of the community that don't get recognized often or get a lot of hate <3)

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[TEXT ID: this system uses either I/me or we/us depending on what feels right at the time]

[IMG ID: a light blue rectangular box with the OSDDID flag - a flag with four stripes, black, blue, green, and yellow - to the left, and the text 'this system uses either I/me or we/us depending on what feels right at the time' to the right]

[TEXT ID: this system uses either I/me or we/us depending on what feels right at the time]

[IMG ID: a light orange rectangular box with the original OSDDID flag - a flag with three stripes, white, orange, and black - to the left, and the text 'this system uses either I/me or we/us depending on what feels right at the time' to the right]

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The DOs and DON'Ts of your online privacy as a DID/DDNOS system.

Openly being a DID/DDNOS system online can be dangerous, as it may lead to harassment or other risks for your safety. These are some tips for online privacy as a system: for newly discovered systems, younger systems and anyone who might need advice.

❌️ DON'Ts

❌️ DON'T easily give away your Simply Plural/PluralKit/Octocon access. Those system tracking apps/bots are full of sensitive information about you and other people might use them to hurt you, so it's fundamental to set visibility levels on your general system profiles, alter profiles and fields. When setting any kind of visibility level where information is shared with even one other person, ask yourself: "What do we gain by sharing this?" and "Can this piece of information be potentially dangerous for us if shared?" ;

❌️ DON'T share your triggers publicly, even the non-negative ones. People might take advantage of you in the future by purposefully triggering certain alters out. If you want to share triggers with other people as a sort of emergency measure, then carefully choose people you trust such as partners, close friends, guardians, family members or your therapist. No one aside from yourself is entitled to know what's triggering for you, if someone keeps demanding to know then vocalize how it's highly sensitive information and set a clear boundary ;

❌️ DON'T share the body's face online if you are not aware of the risks, especially if you are bodily a minor. Unfortunately some groups of people might harass you to extreme ends just because you're openly a system online: if you show the body's face online you can become their target for bullying and/or they might even try to dox you. Of course this is dangerous for bodily adult systems too, but for minor bodied systems doxxing can be even more risky for a variety of reasons. If you want to post photos of the system's body, don't do it on your system's social media account or on a public discord server: do it on a separate account non-system centered ;

❌️ DON'T share alot of details about your disorder on social media. Publicly highlighting details about your disorder (ex. being a survivor of organized abuse, splitting very easily from stress, having other specific comorbidities, etc...) can gain the attention of ill intentioned people that might potentially try to hurt you by manipulating you. If you want to talk about those things online, save that information for conversations in safe spaces with people you trust. However if you want to spread awareness of some things that affect your experience as part of a system but can also put a target on yourself, then take some extra cautionary measures by not posting too much personal information ;

✅️ DOs

✅️ DO set boundaries on your profile based on whatever feels comfortable. It's your social media page and it's understandable if you feel like certain groups of people should not interact with your content: boundaries are important in everyday life and that should be the same online. Aside from DNI lists, on Tumblr specifically there are many other things you can do to filter content (mainly blocking people and filtering tags) and to prevent harassment (reporting, not allowing anonymous asks, not allowing asks at all or not allowing asks with media attached to them) which can be both quite useful too ;

✅️ DO take breaks from social media when some situations online are starting to take a toll on your mental health. It doesn't matter if it's syscourse related, harassment or just general drama: when it starts to be something heavy for you then take a break to take your mind of things. Learn when enough is enough. It's important to remember that you decide how much time you'll need in order to feel better, you shouldn't be pressured into coming back ;

✅️ DO be careful on the tags you use related to system spaces. Systemblr is extremely divided on many things and misusing a tag can make people accuse you of invading certain spaces, this would probably result in you being a target for harassment. Before using a tag in one of your post, make sure you know what that tag is used for to not cause misunderstandings and/or other issues ;

✅️ DO establish a clear level of privacy with the rest of the system. If possible, try to communicate and discuss how much you collectively want to share with the public about the system (such as names or other information about the system's members) and what is best to keep private. Remember that if another system online does it, it doesn't mean you should do it too: always do whatever feels comfortable and not what someone else does ;

Do add more advice in the comments or reblogs if necessary, systems online deserve to be safe just like anybody else.

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When an alter drops new lore at 3:45 am: what do u mean u don’t know how to do math??

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autistic system* culture is fakeclaiming yourself for “not having” symptoms you do have, but aren’t thinking about because you’re too focused on the literalness of the wording

*or any other conditions

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Introjects have feelings too.

We are not just caricatures or cardboard cutouts of your favorite characters.

We exist to protect the body from harm. Some of us exist to keep track of others in the system. Others like us.

And some of us just exist to exist, and that's okay.

Being an introject isn't fun and games either.

It's worrying about how our psuedomemories connect to the body's own.

It's being confused by a world we don't belong in.

It's no longer feeling like us.

It's having to hide in fear of others perceiving us wrongly just because of our source.

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Seeing people ship the inside out émotions is so funny as someone w DiD and internal relationships. That whole movie has honestly been a great help in explaining it to people, even my therapist (obviously it’s not 100% the same but it helps get the point across to people who don’t have it)

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🌙 how many nonhuman alters

🩸 how many vampire alters

🃏 silliest headmate?

💯 how many alters are in your system?

⏰ who are the most frequent fronters?

✨ which headmate has the weirdest source?

📚 do any headmates have typing quirks?

❤️ do any headmates have interests that nobody else in the system does?

🔪 are there any dangerous alters?

🍼 do your littles use baby talk?

🍓 do any headmates use neopronouns?

👑 does your system stim or tic?

🫶🏼 do any headmates have an accent?

OKAY HAVE AT IT HAVE FUN :D

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♡ System Ask Game! :D ♡

[NOT FOR (PRO)ENDOS]

🎵: Do you have an alter/system theme song?

🗺: Do you have any clubs in the system?

⏳️: Are you _ heavy of anything? (Brainmade, fictive, little, etc!)

🩷: Do you have a partner system?

🎉: What is your favorite thing to celebrate with your system?

🎭: Are you open about being a system irl?

📚: Favorite alter story?

🍀: Favorite alter quote?