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sweetsbfreex · 1 month ago
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Bucky gets drafted I
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summary: what if bucky was never taken from hydra? What if through all his ptsd, Bucky had a wife and two kids to come back to. 
wc: 2259
warnings: talk of war?
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February 1942
The whirring of the machinery is heard throughout the brownstone. It’s only twelve, but everyone has been fed and you need to finish this before Sunday. A beautiful red smock dress to wear with black mary janes and ruffle socks. 
You had to, your sweet Adelaide had pleaded with you for a new dress. Not in an ungrateful manner, no, but this Sunday the Children’s choir would sing for everyone. So here you are, focused, pushing through the red cotton as the matching thread pierces through. 
Bucky is on child duty. Seven-year-old Adelaide practices her reading, ever the perfect girl, sitting prim on the floor, legs out and a book between. Ten-month-old Georgie (George), named after the late George Barnes, plays with his wooden blocks next to his sister. Stacks them, then crashes them down. 
Bucky is sat up at the end of the couch, ears pierced to the radio. The list of rationing only grew, the fear for his family only grew, many women were working now, volunteering their time away from their families. It seems things are only getting worse before they get better. 
He sighs, deflating into the sofa at what he’s hearing. 
“Daddy?” a voice snaps him out. 
“Hm?” he answers.
“What is this word?” Adelaide points at her book, as if he could see a thing. So he waves her over and when she’s close, sits her on his leg. 
“What word, Addie?” he asks and she points to the word again.  “Sound it out with me, ‘skw-er-l’” 
She tries and tries, and within those attempts James is there to guide her along, encouraging her to try again when she doesn’t get it right.
His bright spark he likes to call her at times. She’s intuitive and loves to learn. Every night, without fail, either him or y/n were meant to quiz her on at least ten words, like a spelling bee. If there was room to ask why, she would.
A rap is heard on the door. 
“Who’s that?” Addie asks. The attention of Georgie is also grabbed as he looks up at his father with an open mouth and a wood block in hand. 
“I’ll go find out, look after your brother and keep practicing” he kisses the side of her head, before setting her beside him, and walking straight to the door. 
“James Buchanan Barnes?” is the first thing Bucky hears from a pristine young-man standing on his welcome mat. A pressed black dress shirt, green tailored pants, a green tie, with shining wing tipped black shoes, and a side cap dresses up the man. 
The man’s eyes are void, almost sad (if he could guess) and he has to stop himself from looking at the gash on his cheek. 
“Yes."
An envelope is thrusted towards him and his heart drops, he could hear it shatter from a mile away. His ma wouldn’t take well to this, his sister wouldn’t, Steve definitely wouldn't, weeks without seeing his kid’s bright face would kill him. Y/n. 
“What is this?” he looks down at the letter accusingly, keeping his trembling hands by his side. 
“Mr. Barnes” The man persists, his voice softer it seems, as if he gives his condolences. 
“Thank you” Bucky has no choice but to smile and take the letter from the man’s outstretched hand. 
The man gives a curt nod in response and walks away, to hover a stormy cloud over someone else’s bright day it seems. It seems the list can only grow larger, will it ever end? He shuts the door and stares down at the envelope in his hands. His name and the address of their home is written neatly in the middle. 
He rips the bandage off his bruise. Ripping into the envelope until the letter is open and held between his hands, and his eyes fly over the ink. 
To, James Buchanan Barnes
notified that you been selected…army
report to the Local Board named above at 107th Infantry Regiment.
10:00 am on the 26 day of February, 1942. 
Only a week. 
“Daddy!” Addy calls for him impatiently. 
“One- one second, sweet girl. Just need to talk your ma for a split” he shouts back, before hearing her dramatic sigh in response. 
He strides to the stark white door of her sewing room, knocks once to get her attention then walks in. His wife is sitting at her sewing table, whose eyebrows are knit and her bottom lip rolled in. Just like his sweet Addie. Unlike many men, James had no problem letting everyone know both their kiddos got their brightness from Y/n. 
“Honey,” Bucky calls out, fingers fiddling with the papers. 
“Yes? I’m almost done, honey, do the kids need anything?” she glances up swiftly, then goes back to her work. 
“I just need to talk to you for a quick second, if that’s alright.” 
She removes her hand from the crank of the sewing machine. Noticing the worry clouding her husband's features. The swish of her polka dotted, a-line dress fills the air.  
Her hand clutches the lapel of his striped suit, while the other splays against his forehead, “What’s wrong, honey, are you out of sorts?” His skin felt normal and his eyes weren’t the prickly pink they usually were when he was sick. 
“No, no, I’m solid.”
At least he hopes he would be, he thinks to himself. Removing her hand from his forehead and kissing her knuckles gently. He can subconsciously feel the heat rising in her cheeks, watching her eyes look at anywhere but him. 
Time to rip off the second bandage. He raises the letter between the two of you. She stops and stares intently at the piece of paper and the envelope next to it. 
“What is this?” she asks, staring into his sky-blue eyes. 
Bucky doesn’t need to say anything, his softening eyes tell her everything she needs to know. Bucky couldn’t fool the young man at his step, and there was no way Y/n would be able to fool Bucky. 
“I leave in a week”
She lets out a breath, before she’s stepping away. One hand splays over her waist while the other presses a hand to her throat. Her head shakes side to side as tears pool in her eyes. She shouldn’t be surprised, Bucky is perfect in every way. Healthy in every way, of course he would be drafted. They both knew this, when was the only question that dangled in front of their faces.
“It’ll be okay. Doll, look at me” he clasps your flushed face tilting it up. 
“Oh, Bucky this is-- this is--” her words break up and before she knows it she’s broken into an uncontrollable sob, shoulders bobbing and an unbroken stream falls down her face. 
He hushes you, bringing you to his chest as his hands run up and down your back. 
“You can’t leave me, us… Trash it!” you pull away, eyes wide and tinted. “They’ll never know, Bucky”
“Honey, you’re talking junk, you know that can’t happen.” he coos, his palms take her face once again, thumbs running circles on her cheeks. 
“Please.” 
She wasn’t in her right mind is the only excuse she can think of. Her mind is running a mile a minute with a thousand gory scenarios, things she’s only read about and heard about. She didn��t want any of that for Bucky. 
“It’ll be okay, I’ll be okay and i’ll come to the three of you in one piece” he crouches down slightly, so you’re at the same eye level “I promise” he speaks softly. 
“You can’t promise something like that”
“I can and I will” he brings you into his chest, kissing the top of your head. 
“Would you be dismayed if I proposed that you break a leg? You’d still be an honorable man in my eyes” she says, voice muffled against his dress shirt. 
“It’ll be okay, honey, I promise” he answers with a breathy chuckle at the end. 
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That night he breaks the news to Addie. She tries to stay strong at first, only humming in response with a tight smile on her face before tears run down her face silently. He consoles her as much as he can. Reassuring her that he would be alright, that everything would be alright. At some point this would all end and she’d have him back in one piece. And it repeats itself twice as he consoles his mother and sister. 
Telling Steve was one of the easiest bandages, no sticky residue was left behind.. He, of course, took in the slight disappointment on Steve’s face. Steve’s been trying like hell to get enlisted, the only thing holding him back was the long list of health issues and his small stature. 
Never the matter, he’s proud of Bucky. He knows his sharp mind will keep him safe. He’ll miss him while he’s gone and he’s promised to keep an eye on his favorite three while they’re gone. As long as he’s known Bucky, never in a million years did he see him falling in love and settling down with anyone.
“Don’t do anything stupid while I’m gone,” Bucky points a playful accusatory finger towards Steve.
Steve only chuckles breathily before he’s slammed into Bucky’s chest. 
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The week whirls by, as if Y/n’s prayers for the days to slow down even for just a second aren't heard. Just three days ago Bucky stopped by the enlistment depot to get everything he needs, including his uniform. 
Two days ago, after getting home from work, Bucky had taken a quick nap in the living room. George laid on his chest, his chubby cheeks squished against the breast of his coat; and his tiny fist clasped around a lock of Bucky’s hair. On the other side of Bucky, lays Adelaide, who snuggles up to his side while she watches the television. 
Adelaide has stuck to her father’s side like glue this past week. 
You stood by and watched the three silently, like a shadow, knowing days like this were slowly dissipating until his departure. 
His last day at home, Bucky takes his family to Coney Island, their favorite place. Bucky doesn’t let money hold him back as he throws it all away to put a smile on his kid’s faces. He buys them as many tickets as they need, gets them whatever they want to eat, and wins them as many stuffed animals as he can-- sending a wink to his wife as he throws the rings onto the milk bottles. Knowing how bittersweet this moment was, their first date was Coney Island, and now he’s winning her a prize, like all those years ago, except he’s going off to war. 
Presently, the both of you lay in your dimly luminated bedroom. Bucky has just read Adelaide, her last bedtime story for an unknown time, he’s made it extra special by doing a voice for every character and acoustic effects at every scene. 
Your head is laid in the crook of his neck, and a hand runs up and around his toned chest. You’re winded within his arms, his fingers running circles around your shoulder. 
At the moment all you wanted was to sink into him like the sugar cubes in his coffee. You wanted to keep everything about him in eidetic memory. 
The slope and flat bridge of his nose, his startlingly-intense blue eyes that always looked at you with adoration, his always perfectly gelled hair, and his heart of gold that fills his family with love (something most of your friends couldn’t say.) 
Bucky did the same, engraving everything from your scent to the plush of your skin to his mind. 
A moment passes before you speak up. 
“I don’t know what to say, and I know i’ll regret it later”
“You don’t gotta say anything, just promise you’ll take care of yourself and the kids, maybe visit Steve once in a while or invite him to dinner. Just make sure he’s alright?”
You nod in agreement. 
The way Bucky acts on his overcome emotions is automatic. He pulls you in for a searing kiss, his hands roaming all over your body as if it were braille. Your hands rest on his broad shoulders, squeezing them when Bucky pulls away from your lips to your neck. 
The night is full of heavy, panting breaths and scorching, gently touches. 
When Bucky does that trick you love so much, you have to muffle yourself in your pillow. 
The night is filled with sugared words from Bucky. As he calls you his sweet girl, kisses you everywhere he can, and drains you with every push of his hips. 
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Afterwards, the both of you are slicked in sweat. You both lay on your sides, facing each other, and holding onto each other. Time seems endless in his embrace. 
“J-James” 
Everything overcomes you within minutes, as you cover your face. It’s wretched and draining as the mountain collapses. It was happening. He would be leaving in just a few hours, and there was nothing she could do about it. 
Bucky pulls your head into his chest swiftly, shushing you as he cradles the back of your head. Kissing the top of your head in comfort. 
“You-- You have to p-promise to come back safely.” You pull away from his chest, eyes glazed over in tears. 
“Baby, you know I can’t promise that. All I can tell you is that I’ll try my best. I promise I'll try my best.” 
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tysm for reading!! I missed writing and can't wait to tell this story <3
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sweetsbfreex · 1 month ago
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thank you so much for the reblog! I'm happy you enjoyed the story <3
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summary: Bucky loses the love of his life.
pairing: Thunderbolts!BF!Bucky x Superhero!reader
wc: 1876
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A YEAR AGO
“What about Indian?”  You grunt, raising your knee to collide with your opposition's head. He sways at the move before you grab your throwing knives aiming for his chest. 
“No baby, we had that—“ Bucky throws two punches, “We had that two nights in a row this week.” 
“You weren’t complaining then.”
“I just can’t say no to you now can I?” He smiles charmingly before sending another agent flying across the room. 
“Okayy,” you sing, trying hard to ignore how attractive that was, “Italian? You like Mr. Catteano’s ravioli.” 
“Is that what you want?” He walks closer to you. 
“I think so? Oh wait,” you swing around him, throwing  stars at the running agent. One in each leg and another right in the throat, but it misses.
“That was cute,” Bucky smirks. “Something distracting you sweetheart.”
“No I’m perfectly fine,” you huff. Launching yourself in the air before sending a breath stopping kick to his chest. 
You look around the room to see everyone on the ground, “I think we’re good here.” 
Bucky places a finger to his ear, “Walker? Are we all finished here?” 
“All clear, Yelena has the sphere, you both can head to the quinjet.” 
“Understood.” 
Bucky steps beside you, drapes an arm over your shoulder, and steers you both towards the exit. 
“How about Caribbean?” You propose excitedly, you guys haven’t had that in a while. 
“Oh yes, let’s do that. Will you place the order on the way there?” 
“Yes,” you go to push back a piece of Bucky’s hair when you notice you’re missing something. “Shit. My bracelet. I think I dropped it in there.” 
You go before he can say a word, running back in as he walks after you. He hated to say it but these missions really did take it out of him. 
“Doll, Would you hate me if I said I might actually be craving Indian?” 
“James..”
It doesn’t even take a syllable for Bucky to detect the whimper in your voice.
“Y/n!” 
In the room, he’s met with you stood against the man from earlier. 
“Hey!” He dashes to you as quick as he can watching you struggle against the man’s restraint. 
“An eye for an eye.” The agent seethes.
“No!” 
Without a thought Bucky grabs the gun from his holster. It’s 2 shots to his head and two bodies hit the floor. 
He’s by your side in an instant, one hand cradles the back of your head from the icy, hard floor. The other goes to his earpiece. 
“Walker! Yelena! I need medics to the console room. Now!”
“Heard.” Comes through Walker's voice. 
“What’s going on?” Yelena asks, running towards the room. 
“Y/n— fuck!” He hates this. “Y/n’s been stabbed, hurry!”
It looks critical and feels even worse as you gasp in air. It stung but at the same time you could barely even feel the twisted bruise in your chest. 
“James,” you whimper. “Fuck, this hurts,” you cry.
“It’s okay,” he hushes you, his thumb rubbing over your temple. His free hand presses into your bruise. “You’re gonna be okay.” 
A YEAR LATER 
Bucky did not want this party. He would rather stay in bed and watch television. But no one would take no for an answer. Not Sam, not Yelena, and especially not you. 
The tower is decorated with all of his favorite things, and as endearing as it was he was not in the mood for any kind of festivities. He turns 108, so what. 
He shrugs his jacket on and a spritz of his favorite scent: Chanel Eau Fraîche and another spritz of his cologne.
He sighs, grabbing his door handle and not even within five seconds of him walking out he’s faced with an array of overly cheerful faces. 
“Happy Birthday!” Is cheered and the sound of a noisemaker fills the tower. 
Shuri, Fury, and Peter even came out for the occasion. Yelena walks over with glittery blue eyes. 
“Happy Birthday Bucky,” she smiles, placing a party hat with the words birthday boy sprawled on it. 
Sam stands beside her with a cake in hand. “Happy birthday, bud.” He claps him on the shoulder and at the same time everyone springs into the happy birthday song. They all cheer at the end when he blows his candles out. 
“Haha” Alexi laughs his deep grumble, picking Bucky up off the ground, “Happy birthday, you know, you are like brother to me. May your life be filled with many, many well wishes.” He kisses Bucky on the cheek. 
“Dad!” Yelena groans. 
Bucky just smiles and says a thank you. 
“How about a shot!” Joaquin whoos in holding the special asgardian concoction to Bucky.
“To Bucky!” Everyone cheers. 
… 
Fuck. Bucky can barely think straight. But he was in desperate need of a breather from everything. He doesn’t know how many fake smiles, laughs, and interest he could give to them. It was just all too much. 
“Y/n..” he walks away from everyone until he hits the end of the  hallway. It’s dark and almost quiet. Everyone else is an echo as he slides down until he’s sat with his back against the wall. His head hangs between his knees.
“Bucky,” he swears he hears your sweet voice like a whisper in his ears. 
“I need you,” he finally breaks. He’s been dreading this day ever since you passed. Birthdays were a special thing to you, and you made sure Bucky got to revel in the same feeling. He never cared about birthdays until he met you. Until you surprised him with a homemade cake in bed and a party of his favorite people later in the night. At those parties, you stuck by him like glue. Always by his side teasingly calling him ‘birthday boy’ until midnight struck. 
That’s when he officially started looking forward to birthdays. And now you’re gone. But your clothes are still in his closet, your perfume still sits on his dresser, your shoes are in the exact same spot you threw them in that day, he still keeps your pillow beside his. He refused to move anything out no matter what his therapist said. 
A YEAR AGO
“Bucky!” Yelena finally makes it through the threshold faced with Bucky and you on the floor. Bucky’s kneed against you, his forehead connected to your shoulder and an arm splayed across your body to hold your hand. His body heaves while yours lies still. “Bucky?”
“She’s gone.” He doesn’t move when he declares this, his voice steady and doleful. “She’s gone..” he lifts his head, red rimmed eyes looking into Yelena’s green ones. 
She walks over slowly to the two, placing a knee on the floor as she looks you over trying to keep herself together for Bucky’s sake. Gently, she places her hands to close your still eyes. 
“I’m sorry,” she speaks softly.
Bucky looks at your face one more time. His nose has pinkened and his chin trembles. He looks at the red eyeliner you put on this morning to match with Yelena, the lips that would never speak those soft, endearing pet names again. He looks at you and realizes there’s no way he could live without you. There’s no life if you're not by his side.
He’s been through hell and back, but he’s not sure if he can overcome this. 
A YEAR LATER
“Please come back,” Bucky cries.
He’s a defined mess. A grieving mess. His hair has grown out to what it used to be. If he wasn’t sleeping, he was fighting, and if he wasn’t fighting, he was drinking the day away. 
“Hey Buck.” 
“Bucky,” Yelena and Sam are each by his side, he feels her hands against his cheeks lifting his head. 
It’s crowded in the hallway as everyone looks on concerned. 
“I need her Sam, I can’t do this without her.” He goes on drunkenly. 
“Hey, you can feel this for as long as you want, but y/n would’ve wanted you to celebrate with family.” Sam says. 
“Bob!” Bucky calls, disregarding everything and everyone, he holds his hand out. “Please, I need to see her. I can’t…” he begs inconsolably. 
“What?” Yelena whips her head around, “I thought we stopped that, you let him go back in there?” 
“I— He wouldn’t let me say no, I’m sorry.”
She huffs before turning to Bucky, “Bucky we talked about this, it isn’t good for you. Y/n wouldn’t want you to cope like this.”
It wasn’t a great memory, living that same day. But it wasn’t always terrible. He likes the beginning: getting to see you kickass so confidently. He loves getting to see the smile on your face that day and the love in your eyes when he teases you. 
God, He misses you more than anything. 
“Please Bob, please. Just this one time. I need to see her. She should've been here today.”
It takes a second before Bob speaks up, “I uhh, I’ve been working on something. A more positive side of the void.”
“Bob..” Yelena speaks with uncertainty.
“I can do this,” Bob says and clasps Bucky’s hand. 
“The hell is going on,” Bucky looks around to see his bedroom, but he’s in the same outfit. It’s not the console room like it usually is.
“Bucky?”
His heart drops because it couldn’t be possible, not in this way at least.
“Y/n?” he turns and it’s you. He chuckles to himself when he sees you dressed in his henley. Your fresh out the shower with your hair in two plaits. “It’s you?”
“It’s me.” You answer.
After that, he rushes you. You're in his buff arms in seconds and your feet are off the ground. He places his head in the crook of your neck.
“I miss you,” he breathes out. “This has been the hardest year of my life.”
“I love you so much,” Y/n whispers and pulls away, her hands frame his face. “I love you and I want you to try and be happy, yeah?”
There's a beat of silence.
“Bucky?”
“I don’t wanna talk about that right now,” He states. 
“That’s okay,” you tell him.
“I’m sorry I didn’t protect you that day. This should’ve never happened, not with me standing right there.” 
Your arms are sat on his shoulders and one hand carts itself through the nape of his head. He hasn’t felt that sensation in days, he could shudder at the familiar feeling. 
“You were there for me everyday we were together. There is no one else I could’ve imagined spending the rest of my life with,” you smile up at him. 
He sniffles at your words. 
On the other side everyone watches Bucky’s relaxed face. 
“What did you do?” Yelena asks Bob. 
“I’ve been working on a positive spin on uhh “the void”. It’s the same but a more structured positive memory. 
“Whatever it is seems to be working.” Sam chimes in. 
Sam had never seen Bucky so low before and that was saying something. Something in him shifted after losing Y/n. He thinks about the day of the funeral and how empty and sunken Bucky looked. He just hopes whatever this was what would help a little. 
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sweetsbfreex · 1 month ago
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summary: Bucky loses the love of his life.
pairing: Thunderbolts!BF!Bucky x Superhero!reader
wc: 1876
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A YEAR AGO
“What about Indian?”  You grunt, raising your knee to collide with your opposition's head. He sways at the move before you grab your throwing knives aiming for his chest. 
“No baby, we had that—“ Bucky throws two punches, “We had that two nights in a row this week.” 
“You weren’t complaining then.”
“I just can’t say no to you now can I?” He smiles charmingly before sending another agent flying across the room. 
“Okayy,” you sing, trying hard to ignore how attractive that was, “Italian? You like Mr. Catteano’s ravioli.” 
“Is that what you want?” He walks closer to you. 
“I think so? Oh wait,” you swing around him, throwing  stars at the running agent. One in each leg and another right in the throat, but it misses.
“That was cute,” Bucky smirks. “Something distracting you sweetheart.”
“No I’m perfectly fine,” you huff. Launching yourself in the air before sending a breath stopping kick to his chest. 
You look around the room to see everyone on the ground, “I think we’re good here.” 
Bucky places a finger to his ear, “Walker? Are we all finished here?” 
“All clear, Yelena has the sphere, you both can head to the quinjet.” 
“Understood.” 
Bucky steps beside you, drapes an arm over your shoulder, and steers you both towards the exit. 
“How about Caribbean?” You propose excitedly, you guys haven’t had that in a while. 
“Oh yes, let’s do that. Will you place the order on the way there?” 
“Yes,” you go to push back a piece of Bucky’s hair when you notice you’re missing something. “Shit. My bracelet. I think I dropped it in there.” 
You go before he can say a word, running back in as he walks after you. He hated to say it but these missions really did take it out of him. 
“Doll, Would you hate me if I said I might actually be craving Indian?” 
“James..”
It doesn’t even take a syllable for Bucky to detect the whimper in your voice.
“Y/n!” 
In the room, he’s met with you stood against the man from earlier. 
“Hey!” He dashes to you as quick as he can watching you struggle against the man’s restraint. 
“An eye for an eye.” The agent seethes.
“No!” 
Without a thought Bucky grabs the gun from his holster. It’s 2 shots to his head and two bodies hit the floor. 
He’s by your side in an instant, one hand cradles the back of your head from the icy, hard floor. The other goes to his earpiece. 
“Walker! Yelena! I need medics to the console room. Now!”
“Heard.” Comes through Walker's voice. 
“What’s going on?” Yelena asks, running towards the room. 
“Y/n— fuck!” He hates this. “Y/n’s been stabbed, hurry!”
It looks critical and feels even worse as you gasp in air. It stung but at the same time you could barely even feel the twisted bruise in your chest. 
“James,” you whimper. “Fuck, this hurts,” you cry.
“It’s okay,” he hushes you, his thumb rubbing over your temple. His free hand presses into your bruise. “You’re gonna be okay.” 
A YEAR LATER 
Bucky did not want this party. He would rather stay in bed and watch television. But no one would take no for an answer. Not Sam, not Yelena, and especially not you. 
The tower is decorated with all of his favorite things, and as endearing as it was he was not in the mood for any kind of festivities. He turns 108, so what. 
He shrugs his jacket on and a spritz of his favorite scent: Chanel Eau Fraîche and another spritz of his cologne.
He sighs, grabbing his door handle and not even within five seconds of him walking out he’s faced with an array of overly cheerful faces. 
“Happy Birthday!” Is cheered and the sound of a noisemaker fills the tower. 
Shuri, Fury, and Peter even came out for the occasion. Yelena walks over with glittery blue eyes. 
“Happy Birthday Bucky,” she smiles, placing a party hat with the words birthday boy sprawled on it. 
Sam stands beside her with a cake in hand. “Happy birthday, bud.” He claps him on the shoulder and at the same time everyone springs into the happy birthday song. They all cheer at the end when he blows his candles out. 
“Haha” Alexi laughs his deep grumble, picking Bucky up off the ground, “Happy birthday, you know, you are like brother to me. May your life be filled with many, many well wishes.” He kisses Bucky on the cheek. 
“Dad!” Yelena groans. 
Bucky just smiles and says a thank you. 
“How about a shot!” Joaquin whoos in holding the special asgardian concoction to Bucky.
“To Bucky!” Everyone cheers. 
… 
Fuck. Bucky can barely think straight. But he was in desperate need of a breather from everything. He doesn’t know how many fake smiles, laughs, and interest he could give to them. It was just all too much. 
“Y/n..” he walks away from everyone until he hits the end of the  hallway. It’s dark and almost quiet. Everyone else is an echo as he slides down until he’s sat with his back against the wall. His head hangs between his knees.
“Bucky,” he swears he hears your sweet voice like a whisper in his ears. 
“I need you,” he finally breaks. He’s been dreading this day ever since you passed. Birthdays were a special thing to you, and you made sure Bucky got to revel in the same feeling. He never cared about birthdays until he met you. Until you surprised him with a homemade cake in bed and a party of his favorite people later in the night. At those parties, you stuck by him like glue. Always by his side teasingly calling him ‘birthday boy’ until midnight struck. 
That’s when he officially started looking forward to birthdays. And now you’re gone. But your clothes are still in his closet, your perfume still sits on his dresser, your shoes are in the exact same spot you threw them in that day, he still keeps your pillow beside his. He refused to move anything out no matter what his therapist said. 
A YEAR AGO
“Bucky!” Yelena finally makes it through the threshold faced with Bucky and you on the floor. Bucky’s kneed against you, his forehead connected to your shoulder and an arm splayed across your body to hold your hand. His body heaves while yours lies still. “Bucky?”
“She’s gone.” He doesn’t move when he declares this, his voice steady and doleful. “She’s gone..” he lifts his head, red rimmed eyes looking into Yelena’s green ones. 
She walks over slowly to the two, placing a knee on the floor as she looks you over trying to keep herself together for Bucky’s sake. Gently, she places her hands to close your still eyes. 
“I’m sorry,” she speaks softly.
Bucky looks at your face one more time. His nose has pinkened and his chin trembles. He looks at the red eyeliner you put on this morning to match with Yelena, the lips that would never speak those soft, endearing pet names again. He looks at you and realizes there’s no way he could live without you. There’s no life if you're not by his side.
He’s been through hell and back, but he’s not sure if he can overcome this. 
A YEAR LATER
“Please come back,” Bucky cries.
He’s a defined mess. A grieving mess. His hair has grown out to what it used to be. If he wasn’t sleeping, he was fighting, and if he wasn’t fighting, he was drinking the day away. 
“Hey Buck.” 
“Bucky,” Yelena and Sam are each by his side, he feels her hands against his cheeks lifting his head. 
It’s crowded in the hallway as everyone looks on concerned. 
“I need her Sam, I can’t do this without her.” He goes on drunkenly. 
“Hey, you can feel this for as long as you want, but y/n would’ve wanted you to celebrate with family.” Sam says. 
“Bob!” Bucky calls, disregarding everything and everyone, he holds his hand out. “Please, I need to see her. I can’t…” he begs inconsolably. 
“What?” Yelena whips her head around, “I thought we stopped that, you let him go back in there?” 
“I— He wouldn’t let me say no, I’m sorry.”
She huffs before turning to Bucky, “Bucky we talked about this, it isn’t good for you. Y/n wouldn’t want you to cope like this.”
It wasn’t a great memory, living that same day. But it wasn’t always terrible. He likes the beginning: getting to see you kickass so confidently. He loves getting to see the smile on your face that day and the love in your eyes when he teases you. 
God, He misses you more than anything. 
“Please Bob, please. Just this one time. I need to see her. She should've been here today.”
It takes a second before Bob speaks up, “I uhh, I’ve been working on something. A more positive side of the void.”
“Bob..” Yelena speaks with uncertainty.
“I can do this,” Bob says and clasps Bucky’s hand. 
“The hell is going on,” Bucky looks around to see his bedroom, but he’s in the same outfit. It’s not the console room like it usually is.
“Bucky?”
His heart drops because it couldn’t be possible, not in this way at least.
“Y/n?” he turns and it’s you. He chuckles to himself when he sees you dressed in his henley. Your fresh out the shower with your hair in two plaits. “It’s you?”
“It’s me.” You answer.
After that, he rushes you. You're in his buff arms in seconds and your feet are off the ground. He places his head in the crook of your neck.
“I miss you,” he breathes out. “This has been the hardest year of my life.”
“I love you so much,” Y/n whispers and pulls away, her hands frame his face. “I love you and I want you to try and be happy, yeah?”
There's a beat of silence.
“Bucky?”
“I don’t wanna talk about that right now,” He states. 
“That’s okay,” you tell him.
“I’m sorry I didn’t protect you that day. This should’ve never happened, not with me standing right there.” 
Your arms are sat on his shoulders and one hand carts itself through the nape of his head. He hasn’t felt that sensation in days, he could shudder at the familiar feeling. 
“You were there for me everyday we were together. There is no one else I could’ve imagined spending the rest of my life with,” you smile up at him. 
He sniffles at your words. 
On the other side everyone watches Bucky’s relaxed face. 
“What did you do?” Yelena asks Bob. 
“I’ve been working on a positive spin on uhh “the void”. It’s the same but a more structured positive memory. 
“Whatever it is seems to be working.” Sam chimes in. 
Sam had never seen Bucky so low before and that was saying something. Something in him shifted after losing Y/n. He thinks about the day of the funeral and how empty and sunken Bucky looked. He just hopes whatever this was what would help a little. 
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summary: Bucky can't imagine life without you.
pairing: Thunderbolts!BF!Bucky x Superhero!reader
wc: 1876
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A YEAR AGO
“What about Indian?”  You grunt, raising your knee to collide with your opposition's head. He sways at the move before you grab your throwing knives aiming for his chest. 
“No baby, we had that—“ Bucky throws two punches, “We had that two nights in a row this week.” 
“You weren’t complaining then.”
“I just can’t say no to you now can I?” He smiles charmingly before sending another agent flying across the room. 
“Okayy,” you sing, trying hard to ignore how attractive that was, “Italian? You like Mr. Catteano’s ravioli.” 
“Is that what you want?” He walks closer to you. 
“I think so? Oh wait,” you swing around him, throwing  stars at the running agent. One in each leg and another right in the throat, but it misses.
“That was cute,” Bucky smirks. “Something distracting you sweetheart.”
“No I’m perfectly fine,” you huff. Launching yourself in the air before sending a breath stopping kick to his chest. 
You look around the room to see everyone on the ground, “I think we’re good here.” 
Bucky places a finger to his ear, “Walker? Are we all finished here?” 
“All clear, Yelena has the sphere, you both can head to the quinjet.” 
“Understood.” 
Bucky steps beside you, drapes an arm over your shoulder, and steers you both towards the exit. 
“How about Caribbean?” You propose excitedly, you guys haven’t had that in a while. 
“Oh yes, let’s do that. Will you place the order on the way there?” 
“Yes,” you go to push back a piece of Bucky’s hair when you notice you’re missing something. “Shit. My bracelet. I think I dropped it in there.” 
You go before he can say a word, running back in as he walks after you. He hated to say it but these missions really did take it out of him. 
“Doll, Would you hate me if I said I might actually be craving Indian?” 
“James..”
It doesn’t even take a syllable for Bucky to detect the whimper in your voice.
“Y/n!” 
In the room, he’s met with you stood against the man from earlier. 
“Hey!” He dashes to you as quick as he can watching you struggle against the man’s restraint. 
“An eye for an eye.” The agent seethes.
“No!” 
Without a thought Bucky grabs the gun from his holster. It’s 2 shots to his head and two bodies hit the floor. 
He’s by your side in an instant, one hand cradles the back of your head from the icy, hard floor. The other goes to his earpiece. 
“Walker! Yelena! I need medics to the console room. Now!”
“Heard.” Comes through Walker's voice. 
“What’s going on?” Yelena asks, running towards the room. 
“Y/n— fuck!” He hates this. “Y/n’s been stabbed, hurry!”
It looks critical and feels even worse as you gasp in air. It stung but at the same time you could barely even feel the twisted bruise in your chest. 
“James,” you whimper. “Fuck, this hurts,” you cry.
“It’s okay,” he hushes you, his thumb rubbing over your temple. His free hand presses into your bruise. “You’re gonna be okay.” 
A YEAR LATER 
Bucky did not want this party. He would rather stay in bed and watch television. But no one would take no for an answer. Not Sam, not Yelena, and especially not you. 
The tower is decorated with all of his favorite things, and as endearing as it was he was not in the mood for any kind of festivities. He turns 108, so what. 
He shrugs his jacket on and a spritz of his favorite scent: Chanel Eau Fraîche and another spritz of his cologne.
He sighs, grabbing his door handle and not even within five seconds of him walking out he’s faced with an array of overly cheerful faces. 
“Happy Birthday!” Is cheered and the sound of a noisemaker fills the tower. 
Shuri, Fury, and Peter even came out for the occasion. Yelena walks over with glittery blue eyes. 
“Happy Birthday Bucky,” she smiles, placing a party hat with the words birthday boy sprawled on it. 
Sam stands beside her with a cake in hand. “Happy birthday, bud.” He claps him on the shoulder and at the same time everyone springs into the happy birthday song. They all cheer at the end when he blows his candles out. 
“Haha” Alexi laughs his deep grumble, picking Bucky up off the ground, “Happy birthday, you know, you are like brother to me. May your life be filled with many, many well wishes.” He kisses Bucky on the cheek. 
“Dad!” Yelena groans. 
Bucky just smiles and says a thank you. 
“How about a shot!” Joaquin whoos in holding the special asgardian concoction to Bucky.
“To Bucky!” Everyone cheers. 
… 
Fuck. Bucky can barely think straight. But he was in desperate need of a breather from everything. He doesn’t know how many fake smiles, laughs, and interest he could give to them. It was just all too much. 
“Y/n..” he walks away from everyone until he hits the end of the  hallway. It’s dark and almost quiet. Everyone else is an echo as he slides down until he’s sat with his back against the wall. His head hangs between his knees.
“Bucky,” he swears he hears your sweet voice like a whisper in his ears. 
“I need you,” he finally breaks. He’s been dreading this day ever since you passed. Birthdays were a special thing to you, and you made sure Bucky got to revel in the same feeling. He never cared about birthdays until he met you. Until you surprised him with a homemade cake in bed and a party of his favorite people later in the night. At those parties, you stuck by him like glue. Always by his side teasingly calling him ‘birthday boy’ until midnight struck. 
That’s when he officially started looking forward to birthdays. And now you’re gone. But your clothes are still in his closet, your perfume still sits on his dresser, your shoes are in the exact same spot you threw them in that day, he still keeps your pillow beside his. He refused to move anything out no matter what his therapist said. 
A YEAR AGO
“Bucky!” Yelena finally makes it through the threshold faced with Bucky and you on the floor. Bucky’s kneed against you, his forehead connected to your shoulder and an arm splayed across your body to hold your hand. His body heaves while yours lies still. “Bucky?”
“She’s gone.” He doesn’t move when he declares this, his voice steady and doleful. “She’s gone..” he lifts his head, red rimmed eyes looking into Yelena’s green ones. 
She walks over slowly to the two, placing a knee on the floor as she looks you over trying to keep herself together for Bucky’s sake. Gently, she places her hands to close your still eyes. 
“I’m sorry,” she speaks softly.
Bucky looks at your face one more time. His nose has pinkened and his chin trembles. He looks at the red eyeliner you put on this morning to match with Yelena, the lips that would never speak those soft, endearing pet names again. He looks at you and realizes there’s no way he could live without you. There’s no life if you're not by his side.
He’s been through hell and back, but he’s not sure if he can overcome this. 
A YEAR LATER
“Please come back,” Bucky cries.
He’s a defined mess. A grieving mess. His hair has grown out to what it used to be. If he wasn’t sleeping, he was fighting, and if he wasn’t fighting, he was drinking the day away. 
“Hey Buck.” 
“Bucky,” Yelena and Sam are each by his side, he feels her hands against his cheeks lifting his head. 
It’s crowded in the hallway as everyone looks on concerned. 
“I need her Sam, I can’t do this without her.” He goes on drunkenly. 
“Hey, you can feel this for as long as you want, but y/n would’ve wanted you to celebrate with family.” Sam says. 
“Bob!” Bucky calls, disregarding everything and everyone, he holds his hand out. “Please, I need to see her. I can’t…” he begs inconsolably. 
“What?” Yelena whips her head around, “I thought we stopped that, you let him go back in there?” 
“I— He wouldn’t let me say no, I’m sorry.”
She huffs before turning to Bucky, “Bucky we talked about this, it isn’t good for you. Y/n wouldn’t want you to cope like this.”
It wasn’t a great memory, living that same day. But it wasn’t always terrible. He likes the beginning: getting to see you kickass so confidently. He loves getting to see the smile on your face that day and the love in your eyes when he teases you. 
God, He misses you more than anything. 
“Please Bob, please. Just this one time. I need to see her. She should've been here today.”
It takes a second before Bob speaks up, “I uhh, I’ve been working on something. A more positive side of the void.”
“Bob..” Yelena speaks with uncertainty.
“I can do this,” Bob says and clasps Bucky’s hand. 
“The hell is going on,” Bucky looks around to see his bedroom, but he’s in the same outfit. It’s not the console room like it usually is.
“Bucky?”
His heart drops because it couldn’t be possible, not in this way at least.
“Y/n?” he turns and it’s you. He chuckles to himself when he sees you dressed in his henley. Your fresh out the shower with your hair in two plaits. “It’s you?”
“It’s me.” You answer.
After that, he rushes you. You're in his buff arms in seconds and your feet are off the ground. He places his head in the crook of your neck.
“I miss you,” he breathes out. “This has been the hardest year of my life.”
“I love you so much,” Y/n whispers and pulls away, her hands frame his face. “I love you and I want you to try and be happy, yeah?”
There's a beat of silence.
“Bucky?”
“I don’t wanna talk about that right now,” He states. 
“That’s okay,” you tell him.
“I’m sorry I didn’t protect you that day. This should’ve never happened, not with me standing right there.” 
Your arms are sat on his shoulders and one hand carts itself through the nape of his head. He hasn’t felt that sensation in days, he could shudder at the familiar feeling. 
“You were there for me everyday we were together. There is no one else I could’ve imagined spending the rest of my life with,” you smile up at him. 
He sniffles at your words. 
On the other side everyone watches Bucky’s relaxed face. 
“What did you do?” Yelena asks Bob. 
“I’ve been working on a positive spin on uhh “the void”. It’s the same but a more structured positive memory. 
“Whatever it is seems to be working.” Sam chimes in. 
Sam had never seen Bucky so low before and that was saying something. Something in him shifted after losing Y/n. He thinks about the day of the funeral and how empty and sunken Bucky looked. He just hopes whatever this was what would help a little. 
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summary: what if bucky was never taken from hydra? What if through all his ptsd, Bucky had a wife and two kids to come back to. 
wc: 2259
warnings: talk of war?
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February 1942
The whirring of the machinery is heard throughout the brownstone. It’s only twelve, but everyone has been fed and you need to finish this before Sunday. A beautiful red smock dress to wear with black mary janes and ruffle socks. 
You had to, your sweet Adelaide had pleaded with you for a new dress. Not in an ungrateful manner, no, but this Sunday the Children’s choir would sing for everyone. So here you are, focused, pushing through the red cotton as the matching thread pierces through. 
Bucky is on child duty. Seven-year-old Adelaide practices her reading, ever the perfect girl, sitting prim on the floor, legs out and a book between. Ten-month-old Georgie (George), named after the late George Barnes, plays with his wooden blocks next to his sister. Stacks them, then crashes them down. 
Bucky is sat up at the end of the couch, ears pierced to the radio. The list of rationing only grew, the fear for his family only grew, many women were working now, volunteering their time away from their families. It seems things are only getting worse before they get better. 
He sighs, deflating into the sofa at what he’s hearing. 
“Daddy?” a voice snaps him out. 
“Hm?” he answers.
“What is this word?” Adelaide points at her book, as if he could see a thing. So he waves her over and when she’s close, sits her on his leg. 
“What word, Addie?” he asks and she points to the word again.  “Sound it out with me, ‘skw-er-l’” 
She tries and tries, and within those attempts James is there to guide her along, encouraging her to try again when she doesn’t get it right.
His bright spark he likes to call her at times. She’s intuitive and loves to learn. Every night, without fail, either him or y/n were meant to quiz her on at least ten words, like a spelling bee. If there was room to ask why, she would.
A rap is heard on the door. 
“Who’s that?” Addie asks. The attention of Georgie is also grabbed as he looks up at his father with an open mouth and a wood block in hand. 
“I’ll go find out, look after your brother and keep practicing” he kisses the side of her head, before setting her beside him, and walking straight to the door. 
“James Buchanan Barnes?” is the first thing Bucky hears from a pristine young-man standing on his welcome mat. A pressed black dress shirt, green tailored pants, a green tie, with shining wing tipped black shoes, and a side cap dresses up the man. 
The man’s eyes are void, almost sad (if he could guess) and he has to stop himself from looking at the gash on his cheek. 
“Yes."
An envelope is thrusted towards him and his heart drops, he could hear it shatter from a mile away. His ma wouldn’t take well to this, his sister wouldn’t, Steve definitely wouldn't, weeks without seeing his kid’s bright face would kill him. Y/n. 
“What is this?” he looks down at the letter accusingly, keeping his trembling hands by his side. 
“Mr. Barnes” The man persists, his voice softer it seems, as if he gives his condolences. 
“Thank you” Bucky has no choice but to smile and take the letter from the man’s outstretched hand. 
The man gives a curt nod in response and walks away, to hover a stormy cloud over someone else’s bright day it seems. It seems the list can only grow larger, will it ever end? He shuts the door and stares down at the envelope in his hands. His name and the address of their home is written neatly in the middle. 
He rips the bandage off his bruise. Ripping into the envelope until the letter is open and held between his hands, and his eyes fly over the ink. 
To, James Buchanan Barnes
notified that you been selected…army
report to the Local Board named above at 107th Infantry Regiment.
10:00 am on the 26 day of February, 1942. 
Only a week. 
“Daddy!” Addy calls for him impatiently. 
“One- one second, sweet girl. Just need to talk your ma for a split” he shouts back, before hearing her dramatic sigh in response. 
He strides to the stark white door of her sewing room, knocks once to get her attention then walks in. His wife is sitting at her sewing table, whose eyebrows are knit and her bottom lip rolled in. Just like his sweet Addie. Unlike many men, James had no problem letting everyone know both their kiddos got their brightness from Y/n. 
“Honey,” Bucky calls out, fingers fiddling with the papers. 
“Yes? I’m almost done, honey, do the kids need anything?” she glances up swiftly, then goes back to her work. 
“I just need to talk to you for a quick second, if that’s alright.” 
She removes her hand from the crank of the sewing machine. Noticing the worry clouding her husband's features. The swish of her polka dotted, a-line dress fills the air.  
Her hand clutches the lapel of his striped suit, while the other splays against his forehead, “What’s wrong, honey, are you out of sorts?” His skin felt normal and his eyes weren’t the prickly pink they usually were when he was sick. 
“No, no, I’m solid.”
At least he hopes he would be, he thinks to himself. Removing her hand from his forehead and kissing her knuckles gently. He can subconsciously feel the heat rising in her cheeks, watching her eyes look at anywhere but him. 
Time to rip off the second bandage. He raises the letter between the two of you. She stops and stares intently at the piece of paper and the envelope next to it. 
“What is this?” she asks, staring into his sky-blue eyes. 
Bucky doesn’t need to say anything, his softening eyes tell her everything she needs to know. Bucky couldn’t fool the young man at his step, and there was no way Y/n would be able to fool Bucky. 
“I leave in a week”
She lets out a breath, before she’s stepping away. One hand splays over her waist while the other presses a hand to her throat. Her head shakes side to side as tears pool in her eyes. She shouldn’t be surprised, Bucky is perfect in every way. Healthy in every way, of course he would be drafted. They both knew this, when was the only question that dangled in front of their faces.
“It’ll be okay. Doll, look at me” he clasps your flushed face tilting it up. 
“Oh, Bucky this is-- this is--” her words break up and before she knows it she’s broken into an uncontrollable sob, shoulders bobbing and an unbroken stream falls down her face. 
He hushes you, bringing you to his chest as his hands run up and down your back. 
“You can’t leave me, us… Trash it!” you pull away, eyes wide and tinted. “They’ll never know, Bucky”
“Honey, you’re talking junk, you know that can’t happen.” he coos, his palms take her face once again, thumbs running circles on her cheeks. 
“Please.” 
She wasn’t in her right mind is the only excuse she can think of. Her mind is running a mile a minute with a thousand gory scenarios, things she’s only read about and heard about. She didn’t want any of that for Bucky. 
“It’ll be okay, I’ll be okay and i’ll come to the three of you in one piece” he crouches down slightly, so you’re at the same eye level “I promise” he speaks softly. 
“You can’t promise something like that”
“I can and I will” he brings you into his chest, kissing the top of your head. 
“Would you be dismayed if I proposed that you break a leg? You’d still be an honorable man in my eyes” she says, voice muffled against his dress shirt. 
“It’ll be okay, honey, I promise” he answers with a breathy chuckle at the end. 
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That night he breaks the news to Addie. She tries to stay strong at first, only humming in response with a tight smile on her face before tears run down her face silently. He consoles her as much as he can. Reassuring her that he would be alright, that everything would be alright. At some point this would all end and she’d have him back in one piece. And it repeats itself twice as he consoles his mother and sister. 
Telling Steve was one of the easiest bandages, no sticky residue was left behind.. He, of course, took in the slight disappointment on Steve’s face. Steve’s been trying like hell to get enlisted, the only thing holding him back was the long list of health issues and his small stature. 
Never the matter, he’s proud of Bucky. He knows his sharp mind will keep him safe. He’ll miss him while he’s gone and he’s promised to keep an eye on his favorite three while they’re gone. As long as he’s known Bucky, never in a million years did he see him falling in love and settling down with anyone.
“Don’t do anything stupid while I’m gone,” Bucky points a playful accusatory finger towards Steve.
Steve only chuckles breathily before he’s slammed into Bucky’s chest. 
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The week whirls by, as if Y/n’s prayers for the days to slow down even for just a second aren't heard. Just three days ago Bucky stopped by the enlistment depot to get everything he needs, including his uniform. 
Two days ago, after getting home from work, Bucky had taken a quick nap in the living room. George laid on his chest, his chubby cheeks squished against the breast of his coat; and his tiny fist clasped around a lock of Bucky’s hair. On the other side of Bucky, lays Adelaide, who snuggles up to his side while she watches the television. 
Adelaide has stuck to her father’s side like glue this past week. 
You stood by and watched the three silently, like a shadow, knowing days like this were slowly dissipating until his departure. 
His last day at home, Bucky takes his family to Coney Island, their favorite place. Bucky doesn’t let money hold him back as he throws it all away to put a smile on his kid’s faces. He buys them as many tickets as they need, gets them whatever they want to eat, and wins them as many stuffed animals as he can-- sending a wink to his wife as he throws the rings onto the milk bottles. Knowing how bittersweet this moment was, their first date was Coney Island, and now he’s winning her a prize, like all those years ago, except he’s going off to war. 
Presently, the both of you lay in your dimly luminated bedroom. Bucky has just read Adelaide, her last bedtime story for an unknown time, he’s made it extra special by doing a voice for every character and acoustic effects at every scene. 
Your head is laid in the crook of his neck, and a hand runs up and around his toned chest. You’re winded within his arms, his fingers running circles around your shoulder. 
At the moment all you wanted was to sink into him like the sugar cubes in his coffee. You wanted to keep everything about him in eidetic memory. 
The slope and flat bridge of his nose, his startlingly-intense blue eyes that always looked at you with adoration, his always perfectly gelled hair, and his heart of gold that fills his family with love (something most of your friends couldn’t say.) 
Bucky did the same, engraving everything from your scent to the plush of your skin to his mind. 
A moment passes before you speak up. 
“I don’t know what to say, and I know i’ll regret it later”
“You don’t gotta say anything, just promise you’ll take care of yourself and the kids, maybe visit Steve once in a while or invite him to dinner. Just make sure he’s alright?”
You nod in agreement. 
The way Bucky acts on his overcome emotions is automatic. He pulls you in for a searing kiss, his hands roaming all over your body as if it were braille. Your hands rest on his broad shoulders, squeezing them when Bucky pulls away from your lips to your neck. 
The night is full of heavy, panting breaths and scorching, gently touches. 
When Bucky does that trick you love so much, you have to muffle yourself in your pillow. 
The night is filled with sugared words from Bucky. As he calls you his sweet girl, kisses you everywhere he can, and drains you with every push of his hips. 
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Afterwards, the both of you are slicked in sweat. You both lay on your sides, facing each other, and holding onto each other. Time seems endless in his embrace. 
“J-James” 
Everything overcomes you within minutes, as you cover your face. It’s wretched and draining as the mountain collapses. It was happening. He would be leaving in just a few hours, and there was nothing she could do about it. 
Bucky pulls your head into his chest swiftly, shushing you as he cradles the back of your head. Kissing the top of your head in comfort. 
“You-- You have to p-promise to come back safely.” You pull away from his chest, eyes glazed over in tears. 
“Baby, you know I can’t promise that. All I can tell you is that I’ll try my best. I promise I'll try my best.” 
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Bucky gets drafted I
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summary: what if bucky was never taken from hydra? What if through all his ptsd, Bucky had a wife and two kids to come back to. 
wc: 2259
warnings: talk of war?
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February 1942
The whirring of the machinery is heard throughout the brownstone. It’s only twelve, but everyone has been fed and you need to finish this before Sunday. A beautiful red smock dress to wear with black mary janes and ruffle socks. 
You had to, your sweet Adelaide had pleaded with you for a new dress. Not in an ungrateful manner, no, but this Sunday the Children’s choir would sing for everyone. So here you are, focused, pushing through the red cotton as the matching thread pierces through. 
Bucky is on child duty. Seven-year-old Adelaide practices her reading, ever the perfect girl, sitting prim on the floor, legs out and a book between. Ten-month-old Georgie (George), named after the late George Barnes, plays with his wooden blocks next to his sister. Stacks them, then crashes them down. 
Bucky is sat up at the end of the couch, ears pierced to the radio. The list of rationing only grew, the fear for his family only grew, many women were working now, volunteering their time away from their families. It seems things are only getting worse before they get better. 
He sighs, deflating into the sofa at what he’s hearing. 
“Daddy?” a voice snaps him out. 
“Hm?” he answers.
“What is this word?” Adelaide points at her book, as if he could see a thing. So he waves her over and when she’s close, sits her on his leg. 
“What word, Addie?” he asks and she points to the word again.  “Sound it out with me, ‘skw-er-l’” 
She tries and tries, and within those attempts James is there to guide her along, encouraging her to try again when she doesn’t get it right.
His bright spark he likes to call her at times. She’s intuitive and loves to learn. Every night, without fail, either him or y/n were meant to quiz her on at least ten words, like a spelling bee. If there was room to ask why, she would.
A rap is heard on the door. 
“Who’s that?” Addie asks. The attention of Georgie is also grabbed as he looks up at his father with an open mouth and a wood block in hand. 
“I’ll go find out, look after your brother and keep practicing” he kisses the side of her head, before setting her beside him, and walking straight to the door. 
“James Buchanan Barnes?” is the first thing Bucky hears from a pristine young-man standing on his welcome mat. A pressed black dress shirt, green tailored pants, a green tie, with shining wing tipped black shoes, and a side cap dresses up the man. 
The man’s eyes are void, almost sad (if he could guess) and he has to stop himself from looking at the gash on his cheek. 
“Yes."
An envelope is thrusted towards him and his heart drops, he could hear it shatter from a mile away. His ma wouldn’t take well to this, his sister wouldn’t, Steve definitely wouldn't, weeks without seeing his kid’s bright face would kill him. Y/n. 
“What is this?” he looks down at the letter accusingly, keeping his trembling hands by his side. 
“Mr. Barnes” The man persists, his voice softer it seems, as if he gives his condolences. 
“Thank you” Bucky has no choice but to smile and take the letter from the man’s outstretched hand. 
The man gives a curt nod in response and walks away, to hover a stormy cloud over someone else’s bright day it seems. It seems the list can only grow larger, will it ever end? He shuts the door and stares down at the envelope in his hands. His name and the address of their home is written neatly in the middle. 
He rips the bandage off his bruise. Ripping into the envelope until the letter is open and held between his hands, and his eyes fly over the ink. 
To, James Buchanan Barnes
notified that you been selected…army
report to the Local Board named above at 107th Infantry Regiment.
10:00 am on the 26 day of February, 1942. 
Only a week. 
“Daddy!” Addy calls for him impatiently. 
“One- one second, sweet girl. Just need to talk your ma for a split” he shouts back, before hearing her dramatic sigh in response. 
He strides to the stark white door of her sewing room, knocks once to get her attention then walks in. His wife is sitting at her sewing table, whose eyebrows are knit and her bottom lip rolled in. Just like his sweet Addie. Unlike many men, James had no problem letting everyone know both their kiddos got their brightness from Y/n. 
“Honey,” Bucky calls out, fingers fiddling with the papers. 
“Yes? I’m almost done, honey, do the kids need anything?” she glances up swiftly, then goes back to her work. 
“I just need to talk to you for a quick second, if that’s alright.” 
She removes her hand from the crank of the sewing machine. Noticing the worry clouding her husband's features. The swish of her polka dotted, a-line dress fills the air.  
Her hand clutches the lapel of his striped suit, while the other splays against his forehead, “What’s wrong, honey, are you out of sorts?” His skin felt normal and his eyes weren’t the prickly pink they usually were when he was sick. 
“No, no, I’m solid.”
At least he hopes he would be, he thinks to himself. Removing her hand from his forehead and kissing her knuckles gently. He can subconsciously feel the heat rising in her cheeks, watching her eyes look at anywhere but him. 
Time to rip off the second bandage. He raises the letter between the two of you. She stops and stares intently at the piece of paper and the envelope next to it. 
“What is this?” she asks, staring into his sky-blue eyes. 
Bucky doesn’t need to say anything, his softening eyes tell her everything she needs to know. Bucky couldn’t fool the young man at his step, and there was no way Y/n would be able to fool Bucky. 
“I leave in a week”
She lets out a breath, before she’s stepping away. One hand splays over her waist while the other presses a hand to her throat. Her head shakes side to side as tears pool in her eyes. She shouldn’t be surprised, Bucky is perfect in every way. Healthy in every way, of course he would be drafted. They both knew this, when was the only question that dangled in front of their faces.
“It’ll be okay. Doll, look at me” he clasps your flushed face tilting it up. 
“Oh, Bucky this is-- this is--” her words break up and before she knows it she’s broken into an uncontrollable sob, shoulders bobbing and an unbroken stream falls down her face. 
He hushes you, bringing you to his chest as his hands run up and down your back. 
“You can’t leave me, us… Trash it!” you pull away, eyes wide and tinted. “They’ll never know, Bucky”
“Honey, you’re talking junk, you know that can’t happen.” he coos, his palms take her face once again, thumbs running circles on her cheeks. 
“Please.” 
She wasn’t in her right mind is the only excuse she can think of. Her mind is running a mile a minute with a thousand gory scenarios, things she’s only read about and heard about. She didn’t want any of that for Bucky. 
“It’ll be okay, I’ll be okay and i’ll come to the three of you in one piece” he crouches down slightly, so you’re at the same eye level “I promise” he speaks softly. 
“You can’t promise something like that”
“I can and I will” he brings you into his chest, kissing the top of your head. 
“Would you be dismayed if I proposed that you break a leg? You’d still be an honorable man in my eyes” she says, voice muffled against his dress shirt. 
“It’ll be okay, honey, I promise” he answers with a breathy chuckle at the end. 
-
That night he breaks the news to Addie. She tries to stay strong at first, only humming in response with a tight smile on her face before tears run down her face silently. He consoles her as much as he can. Reassuring her that he would be alright, that everything would be alright. At some point this would all end and she’d have him back in one piece. And it repeats itself twice as he consoles his mother and sister. 
Telling Steve was one of the easiest bandages, no sticky residue was left behind.. He, of course, took in the slight disappointment on Steve’s face. Steve’s been trying like hell to get enlisted, the only thing holding him back was the long list of health issues and his small stature. 
Never the matter, he’s proud of Bucky. He knows his sharp mind will keep him safe. He’ll miss him while he’s gone and he’s promised to keep an eye on his favorite three while they’re gone. As long as he’s known Bucky, never in a million years did he see him falling in love and settling down with anyone.
“Don’t do anything stupid while I’m gone,” Bucky points a playful accusatory finger towards Steve.
Steve only chuckles breathily before he’s slammed into Bucky’s chest. 
-
The week whirls by, as if Y/n’s prayers for the days to slow down even for just a second aren't heard. Just three days ago Bucky stopped by the enlistment depot to get everything he needs, including his uniform. 
Two days ago, after getting home from work, Bucky had taken a quick nap in the living room. George laid on his chest, his chubby cheeks squished against the breast of his coat; and his tiny fist clasped around a lock of Bucky’s hair. On the other side of Bucky, lays Adelaide, who snuggles up to his side while she watches the television. 
Adelaide has stuck to her father’s side like glue this past week. 
You stood by and watched the three silently, like a shadow, knowing days like this were slowly dissipating until his departure. 
His last day at home, Bucky takes his family to Coney Island, their favorite place. Bucky doesn’t let money hold him back as he throws it all away to put a smile on his kid’s faces. He buys them as many tickets as they need, gets them whatever they want to eat, and wins them as many stuffed animals as he can-- sending a wink to his wife as he throws the rings onto the milk bottles. Knowing how bittersweet this moment was, their first date was Coney Island, and now he’s winning her a prize, like all those years ago, except he’s going off to war. 
Presently, the both of you lay in your dimly luminated bedroom. Bucky has just read Adelaide, her last bedtime story for an unknown time, he’s made it extra special by doing a voice for every character and acoustic effects at every scene. 
Your head is laid in the crook of his neck, and a hand runs up and around his toned chest. You’re winded within his arms, his fingers running circles around your shoulder. 
At the moment all you wanted was to sink into him like the sugar cubes in his coffee. You wanted to keep everything about him in eidetic memory. 
The slope and flat bridge of his nose, his startlingly-intense blue eyes that always looked at you with adoration, his always perfectly gelled hair, and his heart of gold that fills his family with love (something most of your friends couldn’t say.) 
Bucky did the same, engraving everything from your scent to the plush of your skin to his mind. 
A moment passes before you speak up. 
“I don’t know what to say, and I know i’ll regret it later”
“You don’t gotta say anything, just promise you’ll take care of yourself and the kids, maybe visit Steve once in a while or invite him to dinner. Just make sure he’s alright?”
You nod in agreement. 
The way Bucky acts on his overcome emotions is automatic. He pulls you in for a searing kiss, his hands roaming all over your body as if it were braille. Your hands rest on his broad shoulders, squeezing them when Bucky pulls away from your lips to your neck. 
The night is full of heavy, panting breaths and scorching, gently touches. 
When Bucky does that trick you love so much, you have to muffle yourself in your pillow. 
The night is filled with sugared words from Bucky. As he calls you his sweet girl, kisses you everywhere he can, and drains you with every push of his hips. 
-
Afterwards, the both of you are slicked in sweat. You both lay on your sides, facing each other, and holding onto each other. Time seems endless in his embrace. 
“J-James” 
Everything overcomes you within minutes, as you cover your face. It’s wretched and draining as the mountain collapses. It was happening. He would be leaving in just a few hours, and there was nothing she could do about it. 
Bucky pulls your head into his chest swiftly, shushing you as he cradles the back of your head. Kissing the top of your head in comfort. 
“You-- You have to p-promise to come back safely.” You pull away from his chest, eyes glazed over in tears. 
“Baby, you know I can’t promise that. All I can tell you is that I’ll try my best. I promise I'll try my best.” 
-
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Bucky gets drafted I
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summary: what if bucky was never taken from hydra? What if through all his ptsd, Bucky had a wife and two kids to come back to. 
wc: 2259
warnings: talk of war?
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February 1942
The whirring of the machinery is heard throughout the brownstone. It’s only twelve, but everyone has been fed and you need to finish this before Sunday. A beautiful red smock dress to wear with black mary janes and ruffle socks. 
You had to, your sweet Adelaide had pleaded with you for a new dress. Not in an ungrateful manner, no, but this Sunday the Children’s choir would sing for everyone. So here you are, focused, pushing through the red cotton as the matching thread pierces through. 
Bucky is on child duty. Seven-year-old Adelaide practices her reading, ever the perfect girl, sitting prim on the floor, legs out and a book between. Ten-month-old Georgie (George), named after the late George Barnes, plays with his wooden blocks next to his sister. Stacks them, then crashes them down. 
Bucky is sat up at the end of the couch, ears pierced to the radio. The list of rationing only grew, the fear for his family only grew, many women were working now, volunteering their time away from their families. It seems things are only getting worse before they get better. 
He sighs, deflating into the sofa at what he’s hearing. 
“Daddy?” a voice snaps him out. 
“Hm?” he answers.
“What is this word?” Adelaide points at her book, as if he could see a thing. So he waves her over and when she’s close, sits her on his leg. 
“What word, Addie?” he asks and she points to the word again.  “Sound it out with me, ‘skw-er-l’” 
She tries and tries, and within those attempts James is there to guide her along, encouraging her to try again when she doesn’t get it right.
His bright spark he likes to call her at times. She’s intuitive and loves to learn. Every night, without fail, either him or y/n were meant to quiz her on at least ten words, like a spelling bee. If there was room to ask why, she would.
A rap is heard on the door. 
“Who’s that?” Addie asks. The attention of Georgie is also grabbed as he looks up at his father with an open mouth and a wood block in hand. 
“I’ll go find out, look after your brother and keep practicing” he kisses the side of her head, before setting her beside him, and walking straight to the door. 
“James Buchanan Barnes?” is the first thing Bucky hears from a pristine young-man standing on his welcome mat. A pressed black dress shirt, green tailored pants, a green tie, with shining wing tipped black shoes, and a side cap dresses up the man. 
The man’s eyes are void, almost sad (if he could guess) and he has to stop himself from looking at the gash on his cheek. 
“Yes."
An envelope is thrusted towards him and his heart drops, he could hear it shatter from a mile away. His ma wouldn’t take well to this, his sister wouldn’t, Steve definitely wouldn't, weeks without seeing his kid’s bright face would kill him. Y/n. 
“What is this?” he looks down at the letter accusingly, keeping his trembling hands by his side. 
“Mr. Barnes” The man persists, his voice softer it seems, as if he gives his condolences. 
“Thank you” Bucky has no choice but to smile and take the letter from the man’s outstretched hand. 
The man gives a curt nod in response and walks away, to hover a stormy cloud over someone else’s bright day it seems. It seems the list can only grow larger, will it ever end? He shuts the door and stares down at the envelope in his hands. His name and the address of their home is written neatly in the middle. 
He rips the bandage off his bruise. Ripping into the envelope until the letter is open and held between his hands, and his eyes fly over the ink. 
To, James Buchanan Barnes
notified that you been selected…army
report to the Local Board named above at 107th Infantry Regiment.
10:00 am on the 26 day of February, 1942. 
Only a week. 
“Daddy!” Addy calls for him impatiently. 
“One- one second, sweet girl. Just need to talk your ma for a split” he shouts back, before hearing her dramatic sigh in response. 
He strides to the stark white door of her sewing room, knocks once to get her attention then walks in. His wife is sitting at her sewing table, whose eyebrows are knit and her bottom lip rolled in. Just like his sweet Addie. Unlike many men, James had no problem letting everyone know both their kiddos got their brightness from Y/n. 
“Honey,” Bucky calls out, fingers fiddling with the papers. 
“Yes? I’m almost done, honey, do the kids need anything?” she glances up swiftly, then goes back to her work. 
“I just need to talk to you for a quick second, if that’s alright.” 
She removes her hand from the crank of the sewing machine. Noticing the worry clouding her husband's features. The swish of her polka dotted, a-line dress fills the air.  
Her hand clutches the lapel of his striped suit, while the other splays against his forehead, “What’s wrong, honey, are you out of sorts?” His skin felt normal and his eyes weren’t the prickly pink they usually were when he was sick. 
“No, no, I’m solid.”
At least he hopes he would be, he thinks to himself. Removing her hand from his forehead and kissing her knuckles gently. He can subconsciously feel the heat rising in her cheeks, watching her eyes look at anywhere but him. 
Time to rip off the second bandage. He raises the letter between the two of you. She stops and stares intently at the piece of paper and the envelope next to it. 
“What is this?” she asks, staring into his sky-blue eyes. 
Bucky doesn’t need to say anything, his softening eyes tell her everything she needs to know. Bucky couldn’t fool the young man at his step, and there was no way Y/n would be able to fool Bucky. 
“I leave in a week”
She lets out a breath, before she’s stepping away. One hand splays over her waist while the other presses a hand to her throat. Her head shakes side to side as tears pool in her eyes. She shouldn’t be surprised, Bucky is perfect in every way. Healthy in every way, of course he would be drafted. They both knew this, when was the only question that dangled in front of their faces.
“It’ll be okay. Doll, look at me” he clasps your flushed face tilting it up. 
“Oh, Bucky this is-- this is--” her words break up and before she knows it she’s broken into an uncontrollable sob, shoulders bobbing and an unbroken stream falls down her face. 
He hushes you, bringing you to his chest as his hands run up and down your back. 
“You can’t leave me, us… Trash it!” you pull away, eyes wide and tinted. “They’ll never know, Bucky”
“Honey, you’re talking junk, you know that can’t happen.” he coos, his palms take her face once again, thumbs running circles on her cheeks. 
“Please.” 
She wasn’t in her right mind is the only excuse she can think of. Her mind is running a mile a minute with a thousand gory scenarios, things she’s only read about and heard about. She didn’t want any of that for Bucky. 
“It’ll be okay, I’ll be okay and i’ll come to the three of you in one piece” he crouches down slightly, so you’re at the same eye level “I promise” he speaks softly. 
“You can’t promise something like that”
“I can and I will” he brings you into his chest, kissing the top of your head. 
“Would you be dismayed if I proposed that you break a leg? You’d still be an honorable man in my eyes” she says, voice muffled against his dress shirt. 
“It’ll be okay, honey, I promise” he answers with a breathy chuckle at the end. 
-
That night he breaks the news to Addie. She tries to stay strong at first, only humming in response with a tight smile on her face before tears run down her face silently. He consoles her as much as he can. Reassuring her that he would be alright, that everything would be alright. At some point this would all end and she’d have him back in one piece. And it repeats itself twice as he consoles his mother and sister. 
Telling Steve was one of the easiest bandages, no sticky residue was left behind.. He, of course, took in the slight disappointment on Steve’s face. Steve’s been trying like hell to get enlisted, the only thing holding him back was the long list of health issues and his small stature. 
Never the matter, he’s proud of Bucky. He knows his sharp mind will keep him safe. He’ll miss him while he’s gone and he’s promised to keep an eye on his favorite three while they’re gone. As long as he’s known Bucky, never in a million years did he see him falling in love and settling down with anyone.
“Don’t do anything stupid while I’m gone,” Bucky points a playful accusatory finger towards Steve.
Steve only chuckles breathily before he’s slammed into Bucky’s chest. 
-
The week whirls by, as if Y/n’s prayers for the days to slow down even for just a second aren't heard. Just three days ago Bucky stopped by the enlistment depot to get everything he needs, including his uniform. 
Two days ago, after getting home from work, Bucky had taken a quick nap in the living room. George laid on his chest, his chubby cheeks squished against the breast of his coat; and his tiny fist clasped around a lock of Bucky’s hair. On the other side of Bucky, lays Adelaide, who snuggles up to his side while she watches the television. 
Adelaide has stuck to her father’s side like glue this past week. 
You stood by and watched the three silently, like a shadow, knowing days like this were slowly dissipating until his departure. 
His last day at home, Bucky takes his family to Coney Island, their favorite place. Bucky doesn’t let money hold him back as he throws it all away to put a smile on his kid’s faces. He buys them as many tickets as they need, gets them whatever they want to eat, and wins them as many stuffed animals as he can-- sending a wink to his wife as he throws the rings onto the milk bottles. Knowing how bittersweet this moment was, their first date was Coney Island, and now he’s winning her a prize, like all those years ago, except he’s going off to war. 
Presently, the both of you lay in your dimly luminated bedroom. Bucky has just read Adelaide, her last bedtime story for an unknown time, he’s made it extra special by doing a voice for every character and acoustic effects at every scene. 
Your head is laid in the crook of his neck, and a hand runs up and around his toned chest. You’re winded within his arms, his fingers running circles around your shoulder. 
At the moment all you wanted was to sink into him like the sugar cubes in his coffee. You wanted to keep everything about him in eidetic memory. 
The slope and flat bridge of his nose, his startlingly-intense blue eyes that always looked at you with adoration, his always perfectly gelled hair, and his heart of gold that fills his family with love (something most of your friends couldn’t say.) 
Bucky did the same, engraving everything from your scent to the plush of your skin to his mind. 
A moment passes before you speak up. 
“I don’t know what to say, and I know i’ll regret it later”
“You don’t gotta say anything, just promise you’ll take care of yourself and the kids, maybe visit Steve once in a while or invite him to dinner. Just make sure he’s alright?”
You nod in agreement. 
The way Bucky acts on his overcome emotions is automatic. He pulls you in for a searing kiss, his hands roaming all over your body as if it were braille. Your hands rest on his broad shoulders, squeezing them when Bucky pulls away from your lips to your neck. 
The night is full of heavy, panting breaths and scorching, gently touches. 
When Bucky does that trick you love so much, you have to muffle yourself in your pillow. 
The night is filled with sugared words from Bucky. As he calls you his sweet girl, kisses you everywhere he can, and drains you with every push of his hips. 
-
Afterwards, the both of you are slicked in sweat. You both lay on your sides, facing each other, and holding onto each other. Time seems endless in his embrace. 
“J-James” 
Everything overcomes you within minutes, as you cover your face. It’s wretched and draining as the mountain collapses. It was happening. He would be leaving in just a few hours, and there was nothing she could do about it. 
Bucky pulls your head into his chest swiftly, shushing you as he cradles the back of your head. Kissing the top of your head in comfort. 
“You-- You have to p-promise to come back safely.” You pull away from his chest, eyes glazed over in tears. 
“Baby, you know I can’t promise that. All I can tell you is that I’ll try my best. I promise I'll try my best.” 
-
tysm for reading!! I missed writing and can't wait to tell this story <3
pls don't forget to like & reblog
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sweetsbfreex · 3 months ago
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Bucky gets drafted I
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summary: what if bucky was never taken from hydra? What if through all his ptsd, Bucky had a wife and two kids to come back to. 
wc: 2259
warnings: talk of war?
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February 1942
The whirring of the machinery is heard throughout the brownstone. It’s only twelve, but everyone has been fed and you need to finish this before Sunday. A beautiful red smock dress to wear with black mary janes and ruffle socks. 
You had to, your sweet Adelaide had pleaded with you for a new dress. Not in an ungrateful manner, no, but this Sunday the Children’s choir would sing for everyone. So here you are, focused, pushing through the red cotton as the matching thread pierces through. 
Bucky is on child duty. Seven-year-old Adelaide practices her reading, ever the perfect girl, sitting prim on the floor, legs out and a book between. Ten-month-old Georgie (George), named after the late George Barnes, plays with his wooden blocks next to his sister. Stacks them, then crashes them down. 
Bucky is sat up at the end of the couch, ears pierced to the radio. The list of rationing only grew, the fear for his family only grew, many women were working now, volunteering their time away from their families. It seems things are only getting worse before they get better. 
He sighs, deflating into the sofa at what he’s hearing. 
“Daddy?” a voice snaps him out. 
“Hm?” he answers.
“What is this word?” Adelaide points at her book, as if he could see a thing. So he waves her over and when she’s close, sits her on his leg. 
“What word, Addie?” he asks and she points to the word again.  “Sound it out with me, ‘skw-er-l’” 
She tries and tries, and within those attempts James is there to guide her along, encouraging her to try again when she doesn’t get it right.
His bright spark he likes to call her at times. She’s intuitive and loves to learn. Every night, without fail, either him or y/n were meant to quiz her on at least ten words, like a spelling bee. If there was room to ask why, she would.
A rap is heard on the door. 
“Who’s that?” Addie asks. The attention of Georgie is also grabbed as he looks up at his father with an open mouth and a wood block in hand. 
“I’ll go find out, look after your brother and keep practicing” he kisses the side of her head, before setting her beside him, and walking straight to the door. 
“James Buchanan Barnes?” is the first thing Bucky hears from a pristine young-man standing on his welcome mat. A pressed black dress shirt, green tailored pants, a green tie, with shining wing tipped black shoes, and a side cap dresses up the man. 
The man’s eyes are void, almost sad (if he could guess) and he has to stop himself from looking at the gash on his cheek. 
“Yes."
An envelope is thrusted towards him and his heart drops, he could hear it shatter from a mile away. His ma wouldn’t take well to this, his sister wouldn’t, Steve definitely wouldn't, weeks without seeing his kid’s bright face would kill him. Y/n. 
“What is this?” he looks down at the letter accusingly, keeping his trembling hands by his side. 
“Mr. Barnes” The man persists, his voice softer it seems, as if he gives his condolences. 
“Thank you” Bucky has no choice but to smile and take the letter from the man’s outstretched hand. 
The man gives a curt nod in response and walks away, to hover a stormy cloud over someone else’s bright day it seems. It seems the list can only grow larger, will it ever end? He shuts the door and stares down at the envelope in his hands. His name and the address of their home is written neatly in the middle. 
He rips the bandage off his bruise. Ripping into the envelope until the letter is open and held between his hands, and his eyes fly over the ink. 
To, James Buchanan Barnes
notified that you been selected…army
report to the Local Board named above at 107th Infantry Regiment.
10:00 am on the 26 day of February, 1942. 
Only a week. 
“Daddy!” Addy calls for him impatiently. 
“One- one second, sweet girl. Just need to talk your ma for a split” he shouts back, before hearing her dramatic sigh in response. 
He strides to the stark white door of her sewing room, knocks once to get her attention then walks in. His wife is sitting at her sewing table, whose eyebrows are knit and her bottom lip rolled in. Just like his sweet Addie. Unlike many men, James had no problem letting everyone know both their kiddos got their brightness from Y/n. 
“Honey,” Bucky calls out, fingers fiddling with the papers. 
“Yes? I’m almost done, honey, do the kids need anything?” she glances up swiftly, then goes back to her work. 
“I just need to talk to you for a quick second, if that’s alright.” 
She removes her hand from the crank of the sewing machine. Noticing the worry clouding her husband's features. The swish of her polka dotted, a-line dress fills the air.  
Her hand clutches the lapel of his striped suit, while the other splays against his forehead, “What’s wrong, honey, are you out of sorts?” His skin felt normal and his eyes weren’t the prickly pink they usually were when he was sick. 
“No, no, I’m solid.”
At least he hopes he would be, he thinks to himself. Removing her hand from his forehead and kissing her knuckles gently. He can subconsciously feel the heat rising in her cheeks, watching her eyes look at anywhere but him. 
Time to rip off the second bandage. He raises the letter between the two of you. She stops and stares intently at the piece of paper and the envelope next to it. 
“What is this?” she asks, staring into his sky-blue eyes. 
Bucky doesn’t need to say anything, his softening eyes tell her everything she needs to know. Bucky couldn’t fool the young man at his step, and there was no way Y/n would be able to fool Bucky. 
“I leave in a week”
She lets out a breath, before she’s stepping away. One hand splays over her waist while the other presses a hand to her throat. Her head shakes side to side as tears pool in her eyes. She shouldn’t be surprised, Bucky is perfect in every way. Healthy in every way, of course he would be drafted. They both knew this, when was the only question that dangled in front of their faces.
“It’ll be okay. Doll, look at me” he clasps your flushed face tilting it up. 
“Oh, Bucky this is-- this is--” her words break up and before she knows it she’s broken into an uncontrollable sob, shoulders bobbing and an unbroken stream falls down her face. 
He hushes you, bringing you to his chest as his hands run up and down your back. 
“You can’t leave me, us… Trash it!” you pull away, eyes wide and tinted. “They’ll never know, Bucky”
“Honey, you’re talking junk, you know that can’t happen.” he coos, his palms take her face once again, thumbs running circles on her cheeks. 
“Please.” 
She wasn’t in her right mind is the only excuse she can think of. Her mind is running a mile a minute with a thousand gory scenarios, things she’s only read about and heard about. She didn’t want any of that for Bucky. 
“It’ll be okay, I’ll be okay and i’ll come to the three of you in one piece” he crouches down slightly, so you’re at the same eye level “I promise” he speaks softly. 
“You can’t promise something like that”
“I can and I will” he brings you into his chest, kissing the top of your head. 
“Would you be dismayed if I proposed that you break a leg? You’d still be an honorable man in my eyes” she says, voice muffled against his dress shirt. 
“It’ll be okay, honey, I promise” he answers with a breathy chuckle at the end. 
-
That night he breaks the news to Addie. She tries to stay strong at first, only humming in response with a tight smile on her face before tears run down her face silently. He consoles her as much as he can. Reassuring her that he would be alright, that everything would be alright. At some point this would all end and she’d have him back in one piece. And it repeats itself twice as he consoles his mother and sister. 
Telling Steve was one of the easiest bandages, no sticky residue was left behind.. He, of course, took in the slight disappointment on Steve’s face. Steve’s been trying like hell to get enlisted, the only thing holding him back was the long list of health issues and his small stature. 
Never the matter, he’s proud of Bucky. He knows his sharp mind will keep him safe. He’ll miss him while he’s gone and he’s promised to keep an eye on his favorite three while they’re gone. As long as he’s known Bucky, never in a million years did he see him falling in love and settling down with anyone.
“Don’t do anything stupid while I’m gone,” Bucky points a playful accusatory finger towards Steve.
Steve only chuckles breathily before he’s slammed into Bucky’s chest. 
-
The week whirls by, as if Y/n’s prayers for the days to slow down even for just a second aren't heard. Just three days ago Bucky stopped by the enlistment depot to get everything he needs, including his uniform. 
Two days ago, after getting home from work, Bucky had taken a quick nap in the living room. George laid on his chest, his chubby cheeks squished against the breast of his coat; and his tiny fist clasped around a lock of Bucky’s hair. On the other side of Bucky, lays Adelaide, who snuggles up to his side while she watches the television. 
Adelaide has stuck to her father’s side like glue this past week. 
You stood by and watched the three silently, like a shadow, knowing days like this were slowly dissipating until his departure. 
His last day at home, Bucky takes his family to Coney Island, their favorite place. Bucky doesn’t let money hold him back as he throws it all away to put a smile on his kid’s faces. He buys them as many tickets as they need, gets them whatever they want to eat, and wins them as many stuffed animals as he can-- sending a wink to his wife as he throws the rings onto the milk bottles. Knowing how bittersweet this moment was, their first date was Coney Island, and now he’s winning her a prize, like all those years ago, except he’s going off to war. 
Presently, the both of you lay in your dimly luminated bedroom. Bucky has just read Adelaide, her last bedtime story for an unknown time, he’s made it extra special by doing a voice for every character and acoustic effects at every scene. 
Your head is laid in the crook of his neck, and a hand runs up and around his toned chest. You’re winded within his arms, his fingers running circles around your shoulder. 
At the moment all you wanted was to sink into him like the sugar cubes in his coffee. You wanted to keep everything about him in eidetic memory. 
The slope and flat bridge of his nose, his startlingly-intense blue eyes that always looked at you with adoration, his always perfectly gelled hair, and his heart of gold that fills his family with love (something most of your friends couldn’t say.) 
Bucky did the same, engraving everything from your scent to the plush of your skin to his mind. 
A moment passes before you speak up. 
“I don’t know what to say, and I know i’ll regret it later”
“You don’t gotta say anything, just promise you’ll take care of yourself and the kids, maybe visit Steve once in a while or invite him to dinner. Just make sure he’s alright?”
You nod in agreement. 
The way Bucky acts on his overcome emotions is automatic. He pulls you in for a searing kiss, his hands roaming all over your body as if it were braille. Your hands rest on his broad shoulders, squeezing them when Bucky pulls away from your lips to your neck. 
The night is full of heavy, panting breaths and scorching, gently touches. 
When Bucky does that trick you love so much, you have to muffle yourself in your pillow. 
The night is filled with sugared words from Bucky. As he calls you his sweet girl, kisses you everywhere he can, and drains you with every push of his hips. 
-
Afterwards, the both of you are slicked in sweat. You both lay on your sides, facing each other, and holding onto each other. Time seems endless in his embrace. 
“J-James” 
Everything overcomes you within minutes, as you cover your face. It’s wretched and draining as the mountain collapses. It was happening. He would be leaving in just a few hours, and there was nothing she could do about it. 
Bucky pulls your head into his chest swiftly, shushing you as he cradles the back of your head. Kissing the top of your head in comfort. 
“You-- You have to p-promise to come back safely.” You pull away from his chest, eyes glazed over in tears. 
“Baby, you know I can’t promise that. All I can tell you is that I’ll try my best. I promise I'll try my best.” 
-
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summary: what if bucky was never taken from hydra? What if through all his ptsd, Bucky had a wife and two kids to come back to. 
wc: 2259
warnings: talk of war?
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February 1942
The whirring of the machinery is heard throughout the brownstone. It’s only twelve, but everyone has been fed and you need to finish this before Sunday. A beautiful red smock dress to wear with black mary janes and ruffle socks. 
You had to, your sweet Adelaide had pleaded with you for a new dress. Not in an ungrateful manner, no, but this Sunday the Children’s choir would sing for everyone. So here you are, focused, pushing through the red cotton as the matching thread pierces through. 
Bucky is on child duty. Seven-year-old Adelaide practices her reading, ever the perfect girl, sitting prim on the floor, legs out and a book between. Ten-month-old Georgie (George), named after the late George Barnes, plays with his wooden blocks next to his sister. Stacks them, then crashes them down. 
Bucky is sat up at the end of the couch, ears pierced to the radio. The list of rationing only grew, the fear for his family only grew, many women were working now, volunteering their time away from their families. It seems things are only getting worse before they get better. 
He sighs, deflating into the sofa at what he’s hearing. 
“Daddy?” a voice snaps him out. 
“Hm?” he answers.
“What is this word?” Adelaide points at her book, as if he could see a thing. So he waves her over and when she’s close, sits her on his leg. 
“What word, Addie?” he asks and she points to the word again.  “Sound it out with me, ‘skw-er-l’” 
She tries and tries, and within those attempts James is there to guide her along, encouraging her to try again when she doesn’t get it right.
His bright spark he likes to call her at times. She’s intuitive and loves to learn. Every night, without fail, either him or y/n were meant to quiz her on at least ten words, like a spelling bee. If there was room to ask why, she would.
A rap is heard on the door. 
“Who’s that?” Addie asks. The attention of Georgie is also grabbed as he looks up at his father with an open mouth and a wood block in hand. 
“I’ll go find out, look after your brother and keep practicing” he kisses the side of her head, before setting her beside him, and walking straight to the door. 
“James Buchanan Barnes?” is the first thing Bucky hears from a pristine young-man standing on his welcome mat. A pressed black dress shirt, green tailored pants, a green tie, with shining wing tipped black shoes, and a side cap dresses up the man. 
The man’s eyes are void, almost sad (if he could guess) and he has to stop himself from looking at the gash on his cheek. 
“Yes."
An envelope is thrusted towards him and his heart drops, he could hear it shatter from a mile away. His ma wouldn’t take well to this, his sister wouldn’t, Steve definitely wouldn't, weeks without seeing his kid’s bright face would kill him. Y/n. 
“What is this?” he looks down at the letter accusingly, keeping his trembling hands by his side. 
“Mr. Barnes” The man persists, his voice softer it seems, as if he gives his condolences. 
“Thank you” Bucky has no choice but to smile and take the letter from the man’s outstretched hand. 
The man gives a curt nod in response and walks away, to hover a stormy cloud over someone else’s bright day it seems. It seems the list can only grow larger, will it ever end? He shuts the door and stares down at the envelope in his hands. His name and the address of their home is written neatly in the middle. 
He rips the bandage off his bruise. Ripping into the envelope until the letter is open and held between his hands, and his eyes fly over the ink. 
To, James Buchanan Barnes
notified that you been selected…army
report to the Local Board named above at 107th Infantry Regiment.
10:00 am on the 26 day of February, 1942. 
Only a week. 
“Daddy!” Addy calls for him impatiently. 
“One- one second, sweet girl. Just need to talk your ma for a split” he shouts back, before hearing her dramatic sigh in response. 
He strides to the stark white door of her sewing room, knocks once to get her attention then walks in. His wife is sitting at her sewing table, whose eyebrows are knit and her bottom lip rolled in. Just like his sweet Addie. Unlike many men, James had no problem letting everyone know both their kiddos got their brightness from Y/n. 
“Honey,” Bucky calls out, fingers fiddling with the papers. 
“Yes? I’m almost done, honey, do the kids need anything?” she glances up swiftly, then goes back to her work. 
“I just need to talk to you for a quick second, if that’s alright.” 
She removes her hand from the crank of the sewing machine. Noticing the worry clouding her husband's features. The swish of her polka dotted, a-line dress fills the air.  
Her hand clutches the lapel of his striped suit, while the other splays against his forehead, “What’s wrong, honey, are you out of sorts?” His skin felt normal and his eyes weren’t the prickly pink they usually were when he was sick. 
“No, no, I’m solid.”
At least he hopes he would be, he thinks to himself. Removing her hand from his forehead and kissing her knuckles gently. He can subconsciously feel the heat rising in her cheeks, watching her eyes look at anywhere but him. 
Time to rip off the second bandage. He raises the letter between the two of you. She stops and stares intently at the piece of paper and the envelope next to it. 
“What is this?” she asks, staring into his sky-blue eyes. 
Bucky doesn’t need to say anything, his softening eyes tell her everything she needs to know. Bucky couldn’t fool the young man at his step, and there was no way Y/n would be able to fool Bucky. 
“I leave in a week”
She lets out a breath, before she’s stepping away. One hand splays over her waist while the other presses a hand to her throat. Her head shakes side to side as tears pool in her eyes. She shouldn’t be surprised, Bucky is perfect in every way. Healthy in every way, of course he would be drafted. They both knew this, when was the only question that dangled in front of their faces.
“It’ll be okay. Doll, look at me” he clasps your flushed face tilting it up. 
“Oh, Bucky this is-- this is--” her words break up and before she knows it she’s broken into an uncontrollable sob, shoulders bobbing and an unbroken stream falls down her face. 
He hushes you, bringing you to his chest as his hands run up and down your back. 
“You can’t leave me, us… Trash it!” you pull away, eyes wide and tinted. “They’ll never know, Bucky”
“Honey, you’re talking junk, you know that can’t happen.” he coos, his palms take her face once again, thumbs running circles on her cheeks. 
“Please.” 
She wasn’t in her right mind is the only excuse she can think of. Her mind is running a mile a minute with a thousand gory scenarios, things she’s only read about and heard about. She didn’t want any of that for Bucky. 
“It’ll be okay, I’ll be okay and i’ll come to the three of you in one piece” he crouches down slightly, so you’re at the same eye level “I promise” he speaks softly. 
“You can’t promise something like that”
“I can and I will” he brings you into his chest, kissing the top of your head. 
“Would you be dismayed if I proposed that you break a leg? You’d still be an honorable man in my eyes” she says, voice muffled against his dress shirt. 
“It’ll be okay, honey, I promise” he answers with a breathy chuckle at the end. 
-
That night he breaks the news to Addie. She tries to stay strong at first, only humming in response with a tight smile on her face before tears run down her face silently. He consoles her as much as he can. Reassuring her that he would be alright, that everything would be alright. At some point this would all end and she’d have him back in one piece. And it repeats itself twice as he consoles his mother and sister. 
Telling Steve was one of the easiest bandages, no sticky residue was left behind.. He, of course, took in the slight disappointment on Steve’s face. Steve’s been trying like hell to get enlisted, the only thing holding him back was the long list of health issues and his small stature. 
Never the matter, he’s proud of Bucky. He knows his sharp mind will keep him safe. He’ll miss him while he’s gone and he’s promised to keep an eye on his favorite three while they’re gone. As long as he’s known Bucky, never in a million years did he see him falling in love and settling down with anyone.
“Don’t do anything stupid while I’m gone,” Bucky points a playful accusatory finger towards Steve.
Steve only chuckles breathily before he’s slammed into Bucky’s chest. 
-
The week whirls by, as if Y/n’s prayers for the days to slow down even for just a second aren't heard. Just three days ago Bucky stopped by the enlistment depot to get everything he needs, including his uniform. 
Two days ago, after getting home from work, Bucky had taken a quick nap in the living room. George laid on his chest, his chubby cheeks squished against the breast of his coat; and his tiny fist clasped around a lock of Bucky’s hair. On the other side of Bucky, lays Adelaide, who snuggles up to his side while she watches the television. 
Adelaide has stuck to her father’s side like glue this past week. 
You stood by and watched the three silently, like a shadow, knowing days like this were slowly dissipating until his departure. 
His last day at home, Bucky takes his family to Coney Island, their favorite place. Bucky doesn’t let money hold him back as he throws it all away to put a smile on his kid’s faces. He buys them as many tickets as they need, gets them whatever they want to eat, and wins them as many stuffed animals as he can-- sending a wink to his wife as he throws the rings onto the milk bottles. Knowing how bittersweet this moment was, their first date was Coney Island, and now he’s winning her a prize, like all those years ago, except he’s going off to war. 
Presently, the both of you lay in your dimly luminated bedroom. Bucky has just read Adelaide, her last bedtime story for an unknown time, he’s made it extra special by doing a voice for every character and acoustic effects at every scene. 
Your head is laid in the crook of his neck, and a hand runs up and around his toned chest. You’re winded within his arms, his fingers running circles around your shoulder. 
At the moment all you wanted was to sink into him like the sugar cubes in his coffee. You wanted to keep everything about him in eidetic memory. 
The slope and flat bridge of his nose, his startlingly-intense blue eyes that always looked at you with adoration, his always perfectly gelled hair, and his heart of gold that fills his family with love (something most of your friends couldn’t say.) 
Bucky did the same, engraving everything from your scent to the plush of your skin to his mind. 
A moment passes before you speak up. 
“I don’t know what to say, and I know i’ll regret it later”
“You don’t gotta say anything, just promise you’ll take care of yourself and the kids, maybe visit Steve once in a while or invite him to dinner. Just make sure he’s alright?”
You nod in agreement. 
The way Bucky acts on his overcome emotions is automatic. He pulls you in for a searing kiss, his hands roaming all over your body as if it were braille. Your hands rest on his broad shoulders, squeezing them when Bucky pulls away from your lips to your neck. 
The night is full of heavy, panting breaths and scorching, gently touches. 
When Bucky does that trick you love so much, you have to muffle yourself in your pillow. 
The night is filled with sugared words from Bucky. As he calls you his sweet girl, kisses you everywhere he can, and drains you with every push of his hips. 
-
Afterwards, the both of you are slicked in sweat. You both lay on your sides, facing each other, and holding onto each other. Time seems endless in his embrace. 
“J-James” 
Everything overcomes you within minutes, as you cover your face. It’s wretched and draining as the mountain collapses. It was happening. He would be leaving in just a few hours, and there was nothing she could do about it. 
Bucky pulls your head into his chest swiftly, shushing you as he cradles the back of your head. Kissing the top of your head in comfort. 
“You-- You have to p-promise to come back safely.” You pull away from his chest, eyes glazed over in tears. 
“Baby, you know I can’t promise that. All I can tell you is that I’ll try my best. I promise I'll try my best.” 
-
tysm for reading!! I missed writing and can't wait to tell this story <3
pls don't forget to like & reblog
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sweetsbfreex · 3 months ago
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I'm so happy you enjoyed it <333 I'll kep that noted, thank you for the reblog
Bucky gets drafted I
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summary: what if bucky was never taken from hydra? What if through all his ptsd, Bucky had a wife and two kids to come back to. 
wc: 2259
warnings: talk of war?
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February 1942
The whirring of the machinery is heard throughout the brownstone. It’s only twelve, but everyone has been fed and you need to finish this before Sunday. A beautiful red smock dress to wear with black mary janes and ruffle socks. 
You had to, your sweet Adelaide had pleaded with you for a new dress. Not in an ungrateful manner, no, but this Sunday the Children’s choir would sing for everyone. So here you are, focused, pushing through the red cotton as the matching thread pierces through. 
Bucky is on child duty. Seven-year-old Adelaide practices her reading, ever the perfect girl, sitting prim on the floor, legs out and a book between. Ten-month-old Georgie (George), named after the late George Barnes, plays with his wooden blocks next to his sister. Stacks them, then crashes them down. 
Bucky is sat up at the end of the couch, ears pierced to the radio. The list of rationing only grew, the fear for his family only grew, many women were working now, volunteering their time away from their families. It seems things are only getting worse before they get better. 
He sighs, deflating into the sofa at what he’s hearing. 
“Daddy?” a voice snaps him out. 
“Hm?” he answers.
“What is this word?” Adelaide points at her book, as if he could see a thing. So he waves her over and when she’s close, sits her on his leg. 
“What word, Addie?” he asks and she points to the word again.  “Sound it out with me, ‘skw-er-l’” 
She tries and tries, and within those attempts James is there to guide her along, encouraging her to try again when she doesn’t get it right.
His bright spark he likes to call her at times. She’s intuitive and loves to learn. Every night, without fail, either him or y/n were meant to quiz her on at least ten words, like a spelling bee. If there was room to ask why, she would.
A rap is heard on the door. 
“Who’s that?” Addie asks. The attention of Georgie is also grabbed as he looks up at his father with an open mouth and a wood block in hand. 
“I’ll go find out, look after your brother and keep practicing” he kisses the side of her head, before setting her beside him, and walking straight to the door. 
“James Buchanan Barnes?” is the first thing Bucky hears from a pristine young-man standing on his welcome mat. A pressed black dress shirt, green tailored pants, a green tie, with shining wing tipped black shoes, and a side cap dresses up the man. 
The man’s eyes are void, almost sad (if he could guess) and he has to stop himself from looking at the gash on his cheek. 
“Yes."
An envelope is thrusted towards him and his heart drops, he could hear it shatter from a mile away. His ma wouldn’t take well to this, his sister wouldn’t, Steve definitely wouldn't, weeks without seeing his kid’s bright face would kill him. Y/n. 
“What is this?” he looks down at the letter accusingly, keeping his trembling hands by his side. 
“Mr. Barnes” The man persists, his voice softer it seems, as if he gives his condolences. 
“Thank you” Bucky has no choice but to smile and take the letter from the man’s outstretched hand. 
The man gives a curt nod in response and walks away, to hover a stormy cloud over someone else’s bright day it seems. It seems the list can only grow larger, will it ever end? He shuts the door and stares down at the envelope in his hands. His name and the address of their home is written neatly in the middle. 
He rips the bandage off his bruise. Ripping into the envelope until the letter is open and held between his hands, and his eyes fly over the ink. 
To, James Buchanan Barnes
notified that you been selected…army
report to the Local Board named above at 107th Infantry Regiment.
10:00 am on the 26 day of February, 1942. 
Only a week. 
“Daddy!” Addy calls for him impatiently. 
“One- one second, sweet girl. Just need to talk your ma for a split” he shouts back, before hearing her dramatic sigh in response. 
He strides to the stark white door of her sewing room, knocks once to get her attention then walks in. His wife is sitting at her sewing table, whose eyebrows are knit and her bottom lip rolled in. Just like his sweet Addie. Unlike many men, James had no problem letting everyone know both their kiddos got their brightness from Y/n. 
“Honey,” Bucky calls out, fingers fiddling with the papers. 
“Yes? I’m almost done, honey, do the kids need anything?” she glances up swiftly, then goes back to her work. 
“I just need to talk to you for a quick second, if that’s alright.” 
She removes her hand from the crank of the sewing machine. Noticing the worry clouding her husband's features. The swish of her polka dotted, a-line dress fills the air.  
Her hand clutches the lapel of his striped suit, while the other splays against his forehead, “What’s wrong, honey, are you out of sorts?” His skin felt normal and his eyes weren’t the prickly pink they usually were when he was sick. 
“No, no, I’m solid.”
At least he hopes he would be, he thinks to himself. Removing her hand from his forehead and kissing her knuckles gently. He can subconsciously feel the heat rising in her cheeks, watching her eyes look at anywhere but him. 
Time to rip off the second bandage. He raises the letter between the two of you. She stops and stares intently at the piece of paper and the envelope next to it. 
“What is this?” she asks, staring into his sky-blue eyes. 
Bucky doesn’t need to say anything, his softening eyes tell her everything she needs to know. Bucky couldn’t fool the young man at his step, and there was no way Y/n would be able to fool Bucky. 
“I leave in a week”
She lets out a breath, before she’s stepping away. One hand splays over her waist while the other presses a hand to her throat. Her head shakes side to side as tears pool in her eyes. She shouldn’t be surprised, Bucky is perfect in every way. Healthy in every way, of course he would be drafted. They both knew this, when was the only question that dangled in front of their faces.
“It’ll be okay. Doll, look at me” he clasps your flushed face tilting it up. 
“Oh, Bucky this is-- this is--” her words break up and before she knows it she’s broken into an uncontrollable sob, shoulders bobbing and an unbroken stream falls down her face. 
He hushes you, bringing you to his chest as his hands run up and down your back. 
“You can’t leave me, us… Trash it!” you pull away, eyes wide and tinted. “They’ll never know, Bucky”
“Honey, you’re talking junk, you know that can’t happen.” he coos, his palms take her face once again, thumbs running circles on her cheeks. 
“Please.” 
She wasn’t in her right mind is the only excuse she can think of. Her mind is running a mile a minute with a thousand gory scenarios, things she’s only read about and heard about. She didn’t want any of that for Bucky. 
“It’ll be okay, I’ll be okay and i’ll come to the three of you in one piece” he crouches down slightly, so you’re at the same eye level “I promise” he speaks softly. 
“You can’t promise something like that”
“I can and I will” he brings you into his chest, kissing the top of your head. 
“Would you be dismayed if I proposed that you break a leg? You’d still be an honorable man in my eyes” she says, voice muffled against his dress shirt. 
“It’ll be okay, honey, I promise” he answers with a breathy chuckle at the end. 
-
That night he breaks the news to Addie. She tries to stay strong at first, only humming in response with a tight smile on her face before tears run down her face silently. He consoles her as much as he can. Reassuring her that he would be alright, that everything would be alright. At some point this would all end and she’d have him back in one piece. And it repeats itself twice as he consoles his mother and sister. 
Telling Steve was one of the easiest bandages, no sticky residue was left behind.. He, of course, took in the slight disappointment on Steve’s face. Steve’s been trying like hell to get enlisted, the only thing holding him back was the long list of health issues and his small stature. 
Never the matter, he’s proud of Bucky. He knows his sharp mind will keep him safe. He’ll miss him while he’s gone and he’s promised to keep an eye on his favorite three while they’re gone. As long as he’s known Bucky, never in a million years did he see him falling in love and settling down with anyone.
“Don’t do anything stupid while I’m gone,” Bucky points a playful accusatory finger towards Steve.
Steve only chuckles breathily before he’s slammed into Bucky’s chest. 
-
The week whirls by, as if Y/n’s prayers for the days to slow down even for just a second aren't heard. Just three days ago Bucky stopped by the enlistment depot to get everything he needs, including his uniform. 
Two days ago, after getting home from work, Bucky had taken a quick nap in the living room. George laid on his chest, his chubby cheeks squished against the breast of his coat; and his tiny fist clasped around a lock of Bucky’s hair. On the other side of Bucky, lays Adelaide, who snuggles up to his side while she watches the television. 
Adelaide has stuck to her father’s side like glue this past week. 
You stood by and watched the three silently, like a shadow, knowing days like this were slowly dissipating until his departure. 
His last day at home, Bucky takes his family to Coney Island, their favorite place. Bucky doesn’t let money hold him back as he throws it all away to put a smile on his kid’s faces. He buys them as many tickets as they need, gets them whatever they want to eat, and wins them as many stuffed animals as he can-- sending a wink to his wife as he throws the rings onto the milk bottles. Knowing how bittersweet this moment was, their first date was Coney Island, and now he’s winning her a prize, like all those years ago, except he’s going off to war. 
Presently, the both of you lay in your dimly luminated bedroom. Bucky has just read Adelaide, her last bedtime story for an unknown time, he’s made it extra special by doing a voice for every character and acoustic effects at every scene. 
Your head is laid in the crook of his neck, and a hand runs up and around his toned chest. You’re winded within his arms, his fingers running circles around your shoulder. 
At the moment all you wanted was to sink into him like the sugar cubes in his coffee. You wanted to keep everything about him in eidetic memory. 
The slope and flat bridge of his nose, his startlingly-intense blue eyes that always looked at you with adoration, his always perfectly gelled hair, and his heart of gold that fills his family with love (something most of your friends couldn’t say.) 
Bucky did the same, engraving everything from your scent to the plush of your skin to his mind. 
A moment passes before you speak up. 
“I don’t know what to say, and I know i’ll regret it later”
“You don’t gotta say anything, just promise you’ll take care of yourself and the kids, maybe visit Steve once in a while or invite him to dinner. Just make sure he’s alright?”
You nod in agreement. 
The way Bucky acts on his overcome emotions is automatic. He pulls you in for a searing kiss, his hands roaming all over your body as if it were braille. Your hands rest on his broad shoulders, squeezing them when Bucky pulls away from your lips to your neck. 
The night is full of heavy, panting breaths and scorching, gently touches. 
When Bucky does that trick you love so much, you have to muffle yourself in your pillow. 
The night is filled with sugared words from Bucky. As he calls you his sweet girl, kisses you everywhere he can, and drains you with every push of his hips. 
-
Afterwards, the both of you are slicked in sweat. You both lay on your sides, facing each other, and holding onto each other. Time seems endless in his embrace. 
“J-James” 
Everything overcomes you within minutes, as you cover your face. It’s wretched and draining as the mountain collapses. It was happening. He would be leaving in just a few hours, and there was nothing she could do about it. 
Bucky pulls your head into his chest swiftly, shushing you as he cradles the back of your head. Kissing the top of your head in comfort. 
“You-- You have to p-promise to come back safely.” You pull away from his chest, eyes glazed over in tears. 
“Baby, you know I can’t promise that. All I can tell you is that I’ll try my best. I promise I'll try my best.” 
-
tysm for reading!! I missed writing and can't wait to tell this story <3
pls don't forget to like & reblog
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sweetsbfreex · 3 months ago
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Bucky gets drafted I
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summary: what if bucky was never taken from hydra? What if through all his ptsd, Bucky had a wife and two kids to come back to. 
wc: 2259
warnings: talk of war?
-
February 1942
The whirring of the machinery is heard throughout the brownstone. It’s only twelve, but everyone has been fed and you need to finish this before Sunday. A beautiful red smock dress to wear with black mary janes and ruffle socks. 
You had to, your sweet Adelaide had pleaded with you for a new dress. Not in an ungrateful manner, no, but this Sunday the Children’s choir would sing for everyone. So here you are, focused, pushing through the red cotton as the matching thread pierces through. 
Bucky is on child duty. Seven-year-old Adelaide practices her reading, ever the perfect girl, sitting prim on the floor, legs out and a book between. Ten-month-old Georgie (George), named after the late George Barnes, plays with his wooden blocks next to his sister. Stacks them, then crashes them down. 
Bucky is sat up at the end of the couch, ears pierced to the radio. The list of rationing only grew, the fear for his family only grew, many women were working now, volunteering their time away from their families. It seems things are only getting worse before they get better. 
He sighs, deflating into the sofa at what he’s hearing. 
“Daddy?” a voice snaps him out. 
“Hm?” he answers.
“What is this word?” Adelaide points at her book, as if he could see a thing. So he waves her over and when she’s close, sits her on his leg. 
“What word, Addie?” he asks and she points to the word again.  “Sound it out with me, ‘skw-er-l’” 
She tries and tries, and within those attempts James is there to guide her along, encouraging her to try again when she doesn’t get it right.
His bright spark he likes to call her at times. She’s intuitive and loves to learn. Every night, without fail, either him or y/n were meant to quiz her on at least ten words, like a spelling bee. If there was room to ask why, she would.
A rap is heard on the door. 
“Who’s that?” Addie asks. The attention of Georgie is also grabbed as he looks up at his father with an open mouth and a wood block in hand. 
“I’ll go find out, look after your brother and keep practicing” he kisses the side of her head, before setting her beside him, and walking straight to the door. 
“James Buchanan Barnes?” is the first thing Bucky hears from a pristine young-man standing on his welcome mat. A pressed black dress shirt, green tailored pants, a green tie, with shining wing tipped black shoes, and a side cap dresses up the man. 
The man’s eyes are void, almost sad (if he could guess) and he has to stop himself from looking at the gash on his cheek. 
“Yes."
An envelope is thrusted towards him and his heart drops, he could hear it shatter from a mile away. His ma wouldn’t take well to this, his sister wouldn’t, Steve definitely wouldn't, weeks without seeing his kid’s bright face would kill him. Y/n. 
“What is this?” he looks down at the letter accusingly, keeping his trembling hands by his side. 
“Mr. Barnes” The man persists, his voice softer it seems, as if he gives his condolences. 
“Thank you” Bucky has no choice but to smile and take the letter from the man’s outstretched hand. 
The man gives a curt nod in response and walks away, to hover a stormy cloud over someone else’s bright day it seems. It seems the list can only grow larger, will it ever end? He shuts the door and stares down at the envelope in his hands. His name and the address of their home is written neatly in the middle. 
He rips the bandage off his bruise. Ripping into the envelope until the letter is open and held between his hands, and his eyes fly over the ink. 
To, James Buchanan Barnes
notified that you been selected…army
report to the Local Board named above at 107th Infantry Regiment.
10:00 am on the 26 day of February, 1942. 
Only a week. 
“Daddy!” Addy calls for him impatiently. 
“One- one second, sweet girl. Just need to talk your ma for a split” he shouts back, before hearing her dramatic sigh in response. 
He strides to the stark white door of her sewing room, knocks once to get her attention then walks in. His wife is sitting at her sewing table, whose eyebrows are knit and her bottom lip rolled in. Just like his sweet Addie. Unlike many men, James had no problem letting everyone know both their kiddos got their brightness from Y/n. 
“Honey,” Bucky calls out, fingers fiddling with the papers. 
“Yes? I’m almost done, honey, do the kids need anything?” she glances up swiftly, then goes back to her work. 
“I just need to talk to you for a quick second, if that’s alright.” 
She removes her hand from the crank of the sewing machine. Noticing the worry clouding her husband's features. The swish of her polka dotted, a-line dress fills the air.  
Her hand clutches the lapel of his striped suit, while the other splays against his forehead, “What’s wrong, honey, are you out of sorts?” His skin felt normal and his eyes weren’t the prickly pink they usually were when he was sick. 
“No, no, I’m solid.”
At least he hopes he would be, he thinks to himself. Removing her hand from his forehead and kissing her knuckles gently. He can subconsciously feel the heat rising in her cheeks, watching her eyes look at anywhere but him. 
Time to rip off the second bandage. He raises the letter between the two of you. She stops and stares intently at the piece of paper and the envelope next to it. 
“What is this?” she asks, staring into his sky-blue eyes. 
Bucky doesn’t need to say anything, his softening eyes tell her everything she needs to know. Bucky couldn’t fool the young man at his step, and there was no way Y/n would be able to fool Bucky. 
“I leave in a week”
She lets out a breath, before she’s stepping away. One hand splays over her waist while the other presses a hand to her throat. Her head shakes side to side as tears pool in her eyes. She shouldn’t be surprised, Bucky is perfect in every way. Healthy in every way, of course he would be drafted. They both knew this, when was the only question that dangled in front of their faces.
“It’ll be okay. Doll, look at me” he clasps your flushed face tilting it up. 
“Oh, Bucky this is-- this is--” her words break up and before she knows it she’s broken into an uncontrollable sob, shoulders bobbing and an unbroken stream falls down her face. 
He hushes you, bringing you to his chest as his hands run up and down your back. 
“You can’t leave me, us… Trash it!” you pull away, eyes wide and tinted. “They’ll never know, Bucky”
“Honey, you’re talking junk, you know that can’t happen.” he coos, his palms take her face once again, thumbs running circles on her cheeks. 
“Please.” 
She wasn’t in her right mind is the only excuse she can think of. Her mind is running a mile a minute with a thousand gory scenarios, things she’s only read about and heard about. She didn’t want any of that for Bucky. 
“It’ll be okay, I’ll be okay and i’ll come to the three of you in one piece” he crouches down slightly, so you’re at the same eye level “I promise” he speaks softly. 
“You can’t promise something like that”
“I can and I will” he brings you into his chest, kissing the top of your head. 
“Would you be dismayed if I proposed that you break a leg? You’d still be an honorable man in my eyes” she says, voice muffled against his dress shirt. 
“It’ll be okay, honey, I promise” he answers with a breathy chuckle at the end. 
-
That night he breaks the news to Addie. She tries to stay strong at first, only humming in response with a tight smile on her face before tears run down her face silently. He consoles her as much as he can. Reassuring her that he would be alright, that everything would be alright. At some point this would all end and she’d have him back in one piece. And it repeats itself twice as he consoles his mother and sister. 
Telling Steve was one of the easiest bandages, no sticky residue was left behind.. He, of course, took in the slight disappointment on Steve’s face. Steve’s been trying like hell to get enlisted, the only thing holding him back was the long list of health issues and his small stature. 
Never the matter, he’s proud of Bucky. He knows his sharp mind will keep him safe. He’ll miss him while he’s gone and he’s promised to keep an eye on his favorite three while they’re gone. As long as he’s known Bucky, never in a million years did he see him falling in love and settling down with anyone.
“Don’t do anything stupid while I’m gone,” Bucky points a playful accusatory finger towards Steve.
Steve only chuckles breathily before he’s slammed into Bucky’s chest. 
-
The week whirls by, as if Y/n’s prayers for the days to slow down even for just a second aren't heard. Just three days ago Bucky stopped by the enlistment depot to get everything he needs, including his uniform. 
Two days ago, after getting home from work, Bucky had taken a quick nap in the living room. George laid on his chest, his chubby cheeks squished against the breast of his coat; and his tiny fist clasped around a lock of Bucky’s hair. On the other side of Bucky, lays Adelaide, who snuggles up to his side while she watches the television. 
Adelaide has stuck to her father’s side like glue this past week. 
You stood by and watched the three silently, like a shadow, knowing days like this were slowly dissipating until his departure. 
His last day at home, Bucky takes his family to Coney Island, their favorite place. Bucky doesn’t let money hold him back as he throws it all away to put a smile on his kid’s faces. He buys them as many tickets as they need, gets them whatever they want to eat, and wins them as many stuffed animals as he can-- sending a wink to his wife as he throws the rings onto the milk bottles. Knowing how bittersweet this moment was, their first date was Coney Island, and now he’s winning her a prize, like all those years ago, except he’s going off to war. 
Presently, the both of you lay in your dimly luminated bedroom. Bucky has just read Adelaide, her last bedtime story for an unknown time, he’s made it extra special by doing a voice for every character and acoustic effects at every scene. 
Your head is laid in the crook of his neck, and a hand runs up and around his toned chest. You’re winded within his arms, his fingers running circles around your shoulder. 
At the moment all you wanted was to sink into him like the sugar cubes in his coffee. You wanted to keep everything about him in eidetic memory. 
The slope and flat bridge of his nose, his startlingly-intense blue eyes that always looked at you with adoration, his always perfectly gelled hair, and his heart of gold that fills his family with love (something most of your friends couldn’t say.) 
Bucky did the same, engraving everything from your scent to the plush of your skin to his mind. 
A moment passes before you speak up. 
“I don’t know what to say, and I know i’ll regret it later”
“You don’t gotta say anything, just promise you’ll take care of yourself and the kids, maybe visit Steve once in a while or invite him to dinner. Just make sure he’s alright?”
You nod in agreement. 
The way Bucky acts on his overcome emotions is automatic. He pulls you in for a searing kiss, his hands roaming all over your body as if it were braille. Your hands rest on his broad shoulders, squeezing them when Bucky pulls away from your lips to your neck. 
The night is full of heavy, panting breaths and scorching, gently touches. 
When Bucky does that trick you love so much, you have to muffle yourself in your pillow. 
The night is filled with sugared words from Bucky. As he calls you his sweet girl, kisses you everywhere he can, and drains you with every push of his hips. 
-
Afterwards, the both of you are slicked in sweat. You both lay on your sides, facing each other, and holding onto each other. Time seems endless in his embrace. 
“J-James” 
Everything overcomes you within minutes, as you cover your face. It’s wretched and draining as the mountain collapses. It was happening. He would be leaving in just a few hours, and there was nothing she could do about it. 
Bucky pulls your head into his chest swiftly, shushing you as he cradles the back of your head. Kissing the top of your head in comfort. 
“You-- You have to p-promise to come back safely.” You pull away from his chest, eyes glazed over in tears. 
“Baby, you know I can’t promise that. All I can tell you is that I’ll try my best. I promise I'll try my best.” 
-
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sweetsbfreex · 3 months ago
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Bucky gets drafted I
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summary: what if bucky was never taken from hydra? What if through all his ptsd, Bucky had a wife and two kids to come back to. 
wc: 2259
warnings: talk of war?
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February 1942
The whirring of the machinery is heard throughout the brownstone. It’s only twelve, but everyone has been fed and you need to finish this before Sunday. A beautiful red smock dress to wear with black mary janes and ruffle socks. 
You had to, your sweet Adelaide had pleaded with you for a new dress. Not in an ungrateful manner, no, but this Sunday the Children’s choir would sing for everyone. So here you are, focused, pushing through the red cotton as the matching thread pierces through. 
Bucky is on child duty. Seven-year-old Adelaide practices her reading, ever the perfect girl, sitting prim on the floor, legs out and a book between. Ten-month-old Georgie (George), named after the late George Barnes, plays with his wooden blocks next to his sister. Stacks them, then crashes them down. 
Bucky is sat up at the end of the couch, ears pierced to the radio. The list of rationing only grew, the fear for his family only grew, many women were working now, volunteering their time away from their families. It seems things are only getting worse before they get better. 
He sighs, deflating into the sofa at what he’s hearing. 
“Daddy?” a voice snaps him out. 
“Hm?” he answers.
“What is this word?” Adelaide points at her book, as if he could see a thing. So he waves her over and when she’s close, sits her on his leg. 
“What word, Addie?” he asks and she points to the word again.  “Sound it out with me, ‘skw-er-l’” 
She tries and tries, and within those attempts James is there to guide her along, encouraging her to try again when she doesn’t get it right.
His bright spark he likes to call her at times. She’s intuitive and loves to learn. Every night, without fail, either him or y/n were meant to quiz her on at least ten words, like a spelling bee. If there was room to ask why, she would.
A rap is heard on the door. 
“Who’s that?” Addie asks. The attention of Georgie is also grabbed as he looks up at his father with an open mouth and a wood block in hand. 
“I’ll go find out, look after your brother and keep practicing” he kisses the side of her head, before setting her beside him, and walking straight to the door. 
“James Buchanan Barnes?” is the first thing Bucky hears from a pristine young-man standing on his welcome mat. A pressed black dress shirt, green tailored pants, a green tie, with shining wing tipped black shoes, and a side cap dresses up the man. 
The man’s eyes are void, almost sad (if he could guess) and he has to stop himself from looking at the gash on his cheek. 
“Yes."
An envelope is thrusted towards him and his heart drops, he could hear it shatter from a mile away. His ma wouldn’t take well to this, his sister wouldn’t, Steve definitely wouldn't, weeks without seeing his kid’s bright face would kill him. Y/n. 
“What is this?” he looks down at the letter accusingly, keeping his trembling hands by his side. 
“Mr. Barnes” The man persists, his voice softer it seems, as if he gives his condolences. 
“Thank you” Bucky has no choice but to smile and take the letter from the man’s outstretched hand. 
The man gives a curt nod in response and walks away, to hover a stormy cloud over someone else’s bright day it seems. It seems the list can only grow larger, will it ever end? He shuts the door and stares down at the envelope in his hands. His name and the address of their home is written neatly in the middle. 
He rips the bandage off his bruise. Ripping into the envelope until the letter is open and held between his hands, and his eyes fly over the ink. 
To, James Buchanan Barnes
notified that you been selected…army
report to the Local Board named above at 107th Infantry Regiment.
10:00 am on the 26 day of February, 1942. 
Only a week. 
“Daddy!” Addy calls for him impatiently. 
“One- one second, sweet girl. Just need to talk your ma for a split” he shouts back, before hearing her dramatic sigh in response. 
He strides to the stark white door of her sewing room, knocks once to get her attention then walks in. His wife is sitting at her sewing table, whose eyebrows are knit and her bottom lip rolled in. Just like his sweet Addie. Unlike many men, James had no problem letting everyone know both their kiddos got their brightness from Y/n. 
“Honey,” Bucky calls out, fingers fiddling with the papers. 
“Yes? I’m almost done, honey, do the kids need anything?” she glances up swiftly, then goes back to her work. 
“I just need to talk to you for a quick second, if that’s alright.” 
She removes her hand from the crank of the sewing machine. Noticing the worry clouding her husband's features. The swish of her polka dotted, a-line dress fills the air.  
Her hand clutches the lapel of his striped suit, while the other splays against his forehead, “What’s wrong, honey, are you out of sorts?” His skin felt normal and his eyes weren’t the prickly pink they usually were when he was sick. 
“No, no, I’m solid.”
At least he hopes he would be, he thinks to himself. Removing her hand from his forehead and kissing her knuckles gently. He can subconsciously feel the heat rising in her cheeks, watching her eyes look at anywhere but him. 
Time to rip off the second bandage. He raises the letter between the two of you. She stops and stares intently at the piece of paper and the envelope next to it. 
“What is this?” she asks, staring into his sky-blue eyes. 
Bucky doesn’t need to say anything, his softening eyes tell her everything she needs to know. Bucky couldn’t fool the young man at his step, and there was no way Y/n would be able to fool Bucky. 
“I leave in a week”
She lets out a breath, before she’s stepping away. One hand splays over her waist while the other presses a hand to her throat. Her head shakes side to side as tears pool in her eyes. She shouldn’t be surprised, Bucky is perfect in every way. Healthy in every way, of course he would be drafted. They both knew this, when was the only question that dangled in front of their faces.
“It’ll be okay. Doll, look at me” he clasps your flushed face tilting it up. 
“Oh, Bucky this is-- this is--” her words break up and before she knows it she’s broken into an uncontrollable sob, shoulders bobbing and an unbroken stream falls down her face. 
He hushes you, bringing you to his chest as his hands run up and down your back. 
“You can’t leave me, us… Trash it!” you pull away, eyes wide and tinted. “They’ll never know, Bucky”
“Honey, you’re talking junk, you know that can’t happen.” he coos, his palms take her face once again, thumbs running circles on her cheeks. 
“Please.” 
She wasn’t in her right mind is the only excuse she can think of. Her mind is running a mile a minute with a thousand gory scenarios, things she’s only read about and heard about. She didn’t want any of that for Bucky. 
“It’ll be okay, I’ll be okay and i’ll come to the three of you in one piece” he crouches down slightly, so you’re at the same eye level “I promise” he speaks softly. 
“You can’t promise something like that”
“I can and I will” he brings you into his chest, kissing the top of your head. 
“Would you be dismayed if I proposed that you break a leg? You’d still be an honorable man in my eyes” she says, voice muffled against his dress shirt. 
“It’ll be okay, honey, I promise” he answers with a breathy chuckle at the end. 
-
That night he breaks the news to Addie. She tries to stay strong at first, only humming in response with a tight smile on her face before tears run down her face silently. He consoles her as much as he can. Reassuring her that he would be alright, that everything would be alright. At some point this would all end and she’d have him back in one piece. And it repeats itself twice as he consoles his mother and sister. 
Telling Steve was one of the easiest bandages, no sticky residue was left behind.. He, of course, took in the slight disappointment on Steve’s face. Steve’s been trying like hell to get enlisted, the only thing holding him back was the long list of health issues and his small stature. 
Never the matter, he’s proud of Bucky. He knows his sharp mind will keep him safe. He’ll miss him while he’s gone and he’s promised to keep an eye on his favorite three while they’re gone. As long as he’s known Bucky, never in a million years did he see him falling in love and settling down with anyone.
“Don’t do anything stupid while I’m gone,” Bucky points a playful accusatory finger towards Steve.
Steve only chuckles breathily before he’s slammed into Bucky’s chest. 
-
The week whirls by, as if Y/n’s prayers for the days to slow down even for just a second aren't heard. Just three days ago Bucky stopped by the enlistment depot to get everything he needs, including his uniform. 
Two days ago, after getting home from work, Bucky had taken a quick nap in the living room. George laid on his chest, his chubby cheeks squished against the breast of his coat; and his tiny fist clasped around a lock of Bucky’s hair. On the other side of Bucky, lays Adelaide, who snuggles up to his side while she watches the television. 
Adelaide has stuck to her father’s side like glue this past week. 
You stood by and watched the three silently, like a shadow, knowing days like this were slowly dissipating until his departure. 
His last day at home, Bucky takes his family to Coney Island, their favorite place. Bucky doesn’t let money hold him back as he throws it all away to put a smile on his kid’s faces. He buys them as many tickets as they need, gets them whatever they want to eat, and wins them as many stuffed animals as he can-- sending a wink to his wife as he throws the rings onto the milk bottles. Knowing how bittersweet this moment was, their first date was Coney Island, and now he’s winning her a prize, like all those years ago, except he’s going off to war. 
Presently, the both of you lay in your dimly luminated bedroom. Bucky has just read Adelaide, her last bedtime story for an unknown time, he’s made it extra special by doing a voice for every character and acoustic effects at every scene. 
Your head is laid in the crook of his neck, and a hand runs up and around his toned chest. You’re winded within his arms, his fingers running circles around your shoulder. 
At the moment all you wanted was to sink into him like the sugar cubes in his coffee. You wanted to keep everything about him in eidetic memory. 
The slope and flat bridge of his nose, his startlingly-intense blue eyes that always looked at you with adoration, his always perfectly gelled hair, and his heart of gold that fills his family with love (something most of your friends couldn’t say.) 
Bucky did the same, engraving everything from your scent to the plush of your skin to his mind. 
A moment passes before you speak up. 
“I don’t know what to say, and I know i’ll regret it later”
“You don’t gotta say anything, just promise you’ll take care of yourself and the kids, maybe visit Steve once in a while or invite him to dinner. Just make sure he’s alright?”
You nod in agreement. 
The way Bucky acts on his overcome emotions is automatic. He pulls you in for a searing kiss, his hands roaming all over your body as if it were braille. Your hands rest on his broad shoulders, squeezing them when Bucky pulls away from your lips to your neck. 
The night is full of heavy, panting breaths and scorching, gently touches. 
When Bucky does that trick you love so much, you have to muffle yourself in your pillow. 
The night is filled with sugared words from Bucky. As he calls you his sweet girl, kisses you everywhere he can, and drains you with every push of his hips. 
-
Afterwards, the both of you are slicked in sweat. You both lay on your sides, facing each other, and holding onto each other. Time seems endless in his embrace. 
“J-James” 
Everything overcomes you within minutes, as you cover your face. It’s wretched and draining as the mountain collapses. It was happening. He would be leaving in just a few hours, and there was nothing she could do about it. 
Bucky pulls your head into his chest swiftly, shushing you as he cradles the back of your head. Kissing the top of your head in comfort. 
“You-- You have to p-promise to come back safely.” You pull away from his chest, eyes glazed over in tears. 
“Baby, you know I can’t promise that. All I can tell you is that I’ll try my best. I promise I'll try my best.” 
-
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sweetsbfreex · 4 months ago
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who loves you
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summary: a four month long situationship with Ari goes south when you see a text you shouldn't have
pairing: college!hockey player!ari x situationship/fwb!reader
warnings: none?
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Fuck. You felt refreshed and blissed out as you sat up and stretched. Watching Ari’s bare, fit body disappear into his bathroom. 
It always surprised you how he showers without his phone because that meant he showered with no music. You couldn’t imagine taking a shower without music, how else would you fulfill your popstar dreams. But alas, Ari was different from a lot of the guys you’ve previously been with. 
You drop back against his bed, smiling at the ache between your legs. Ari was a lot of things and a sex god was definitely one of them. 
The incessant buzzing from a phone..his phone jerks you from your blissed out state.
Bzz-bzz
Ignore. 
Bzz-bzz
Ignore.
Bzz-bzz
Okay, what the hell?
You grab his phone beside you, it comes to life when you lift it. 
Joy ;)
—Meet you in the parking lot after? My place?
—I’ll wear the special panties with your number on them
You squint as more texts roll in. Special panties? Her place? The fucking winky emoji by her name?
What. The. Fuck. 
You stare in disbelief for who knows how long, feeling a little hurt and naive. 
“Why is my phone in your hand?”
Ari stands at the end of his bed. A towel wrapped around his hips as he runs another through his shoulder length hair. Your eyes can’t really help to worship the droplets over his chest. 
“Who’s Joy?” You push out the question. 
You can see something change in Ari as he walks over and takes his phone from your grasp. “None of your business, why are you snooping around”
You scoff, “I wasn’t snooping! It kept buzzing and I thought it was an emergency or something. Who’s Joy?” you question again, annoyed at the way he’s avoiding your question. 
“I don’t appreciate you looking through my phone. And she’s none of your fucking buisness, so drop it”
You stare up at him, subconsciously lifting his sheet to cover your bare chest. 
“You’re having sex with other people?” you accuse, and deep down you're confident you know the answer, but that naive part of you is hoping it’s all a misunderstanding. 
“And if I am? We’re just fucking around too. Are we not?”
Your breath stutters at his admission. Although the two of you have never stated terms of this…relationship, his actions have always spoken louder than words. Everyone thought the two of you were together. Even though he’s never formally asked you to be his girlfriend, you always had an inkling that he would at some point.
Your stomach flips thinking of his protectiveness over you, the way he’d always pay if he was there, and the way he goes out of his way to check up on you after his practices. Or the way you’re always there for him at every game, his number and name on your back as you cheer him on. 
Shit, even the sex was anything unlike a pair of friends. It always felt intimate between the two of you. Your toothbrush stood next to his in his bathroom, and yours, for Christ sakes. 
“Are you being serious right now?”
Ari shrugs. Fucking shrugs at your question.
“Y/n, I don’t understand why you’re upset. In no way have I ever committed myself to you.”
That stings. 
“You really don’t see it, do you?” You mutter, trying to blink away the tears forming in your eyes. 
“I don’t.” 
“Fuck you, Ari.” You seethe, dressing yourself with speed. “Have fun with Joy.” You tell him, buttoning your jeans, and gathering your shoes in your hand. Anything to get out of this humiliating scenario. 
You shove your way past Ari’s confused figure. Which stops you as he grabs your elbow, “I’m not understanding what the big deal is? You’re telling me you haven’t been sleeping around.” 
You remove your elbow from his grasp, “No. I haven’t. And if I did, I’d at least have the decency to let you know.” And with that, you’re out of the room. 
Ari stands there for at least a minute, disgruntled and confused with what the fuck just happened. He shakes his head trying to figure out whatever the fuck he was missing. 
-
“You’re a fucking idiot, a moron if you will. Maybe a dodo would fit better?—” Ransom laughs to himself as relaxes in his spot in the frats living room, snacking on his favorite biscuit cookies. 
“Ran,” Steve interrupts the way Ransom isn’t helping. Softly shaking his head in reprimandment. “Now isn’t the time.”
Ransom only shrugs, and looks back to the television. 
“I hate to say it, man. But Ransom is right, the only answer was in front of you the whole time.” Sam tosses in his opinion, clapping Ari on the back.
“Well what the fuck is it? Why is no one saying what I’m missing?”
“She likes you, Levinson.” Bucky answers, walking through the living room and out the door, his key to his motorcycle swirling around a finger. He didn’t need to know the full conversation to know what exactly was going on. He would’ve stayed to watch the aftermath, but he had a certain spicy redhead waiting for him at her apartment
Ari doesn’t mean to sound dramatic, but he quite literally feels the world tilt on its axis at the discovery. He’s admired you for a while, but never in his mind did he think he was the right guy for you. He’s seen the guys you’ve dated before and they were the complete opposite. 
Intelligent, brainy, in tons of clubs, they wouldn’t do stupid shit like fighting on ice skates because it’s fun. They were guys who any mother would love.
Fuck. He can’t believe this, there’s no way. 
“What—“ 
“Dude, you can’t be so blind, to not see how in love with you she basically is,” Ransom says around a mouth full of cookies. “The sex is probably great, but you think a chick like her is gonna wanna be around you without an ounce of admiration.” 
“I think what Ransom is trying to say is: there’s a lot of telling that y/n has feelings for you, and I’m pretty sure her getting offended that you’re sleeping with other people is a big one.” Steve says. 
“Fuck.” Ari groans, running his hand down his face and over his scruff.
“How would you feel if y/n told you she was screwing someone else?”  Sam asks. 
“Livid.” 
Sam snaps his finger pointing at the dark look already on Ari’s face. “There you go.” 
“Fuck. She’s not even answering my calls. What the hell am I supposed to do?” 
“Give her time to cool. If anything, maybe she’ll be at the game?” Steve offers.
“Maybe,” Ari mutters.
-
But you never picked up a single call and for some reason, even picked up that Ari thought of swinging by your apartment. You had texted him to leave you alone.
And then Saturday rolled around…
-
“How long have you been into hockey? I’d never take you up as a sports girl. Sorry that sounded terrible—“ 
“It’s okay, Jake.” You laugh. “Not until this year, you’re right I’m not really into sports at all. What about you?”
“I really got into it with my dad, we used to watch every game together if we could,” he smiles at the memories. 
“That’s really sweet,” you smile back, placing your hand over his. 
Jake Jensen is a computer science major you befriended over your French class last semester. But the both of you basically ran in the same social groups, leading to you guys staying friends. 
When talking about the upcoming game, you had let it slip that you passed the deadline to donate your ticket, and couldn’t find anyone to sell it to. Leaving you to go to the game alone or getting a strike. 
Jake was kind enough to let you join him. You would’ve joined Natasha and the others, but it felt too weird to you and you wanted no chance running into Ari. Especially since you weren’t wearing his jersey like you usually do. 
You haven’t spoken to him all week, minus the small text you sent, and you refused to. Even though he had tried non stop to run into you on campus. 
“Have you—“ Jake starts, but is interrupted by the commentators introducing the team. Everyone stood up and cheered at the sight of the school’s players. 
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Ari skates out with a smile on his face, lifting a hand in the air as he waves and joins the line of his teammates. As he does so, he tries to find you, but it’s hard to distinguish you among the wave of people in the stadium. Especially since you weren’t seated in your undesignated-designated seat closer to the rink. 
But he shakes it off, putting himself in the right mindset for the game. 
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“Ladies and gentlemen, it’s time for our favorite time of the night: THE KISS CAM!” 
Some players skate and others like Ari, watch the Jumbotron during the brief break.
The first is an elderly couple, then a pair of random strangers who kiss under the playful pressure, two pairs of students, parents with their children who dramatically gag. That makes everyone chuckle, including himself.
They go around the stadium one last and he cannot fucking believe it. His hand becomes around his stick.
He can feel his teammates staring at him in sympathy. But Ari cannot look away from the Jumbotron. 
The first thing he notices is your flustered smile, that you came to the game sans his jersey, and the most noticeable of all is the dork sitting next to you with his arm behind your seat, looking just as bashful.
He’s livid. You’ve been avoiding him all week, probably doing who knows what with this guy. 
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“You know what you gotta do,” teases the commentator. You laugh behind the back of your hand. Jake sits beside you just as flustered, scratching his eyebrow with his thumb.
In no way is he against kissing Y/n, but he also doesn’t want to make her uncomfortable. 
“C’mon folks!”
You stare at Jake, shrugging a shoulder in question. Jake only smiles back before sitting up straighter. The both of you go to lean in. Your lips press softly against his until a loud smack of temper glass breaks it up. 
The two of you jolt away at the sound of a disgruntled voice. You look to see Ari, “hey!” His voice booms. “Back the fuck off my girl!” 
“What— who is he?” Jake’s eyebrows knit together as he points towards the enraged giant pointing a menacing finger towards him. 
“An asshole who doesn’t know what he wants.” You answer, shaking your head towards Ari before you place a kiss on Jake’s cheek. 
You watch as Ari stands behind the plexiglass. And even though you’re about eight rows back, you can see the confused and upset expression on his face. A pinch in his eyebrows and a pitiful glare in his eyes. 
“I’m really sorry about that, Jake.” 
“It’s nothing, don't worry.” He smiles, “Do you want popcorn or anything?”
“Sour patch kids, if that’s alright.”
“No problem.”
You look at anywhere but Ari during the rest of the brief intermission. 
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Ari 🏒🦁
—Meet me outside the locker room
—Please?
You sigh as you grab your stuff. Just before the two of you reach outside the stadium, you gain Jake’s attention. 
“I’m really sorry to cut our hangout short, but I had a lot of fun. I just have to handle something really quickly.”
Jake tries not to show the disappointment on his face, “I’m gonna rightfully assume it has something to do with that ‘asshole who doesn’t know what he wants’?”
“Unfortunately,” you smile ruefully. 
“Okay,” he nods his head. “I hope everything goes well. I’ll see you around?” 
“Definitely,” you hug him before you make your way outside the doors of the locker rooms, with no trouble which you can guess is because of Ari. 
You smile awkwardly at the glances of Ari’s teammates. You hate that everyone has seen that happen and you assume most of his teammates know the intimate details of what’s gone down between you two. Which only adds another layer of unnecessary awkwardness. Time passes before you feel a light tap on your shoulder, looking up to see Steve at your side, a timid grin. 
“The locker is all cleared out, he’s in there waiting for you.” 
“Thanks, Steve.”
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“Ari?” You walk in to him tying his sweatpants.
He turns around with a mournful look on his face. His sweatpants low enough that you can see the bands of his Calvin’s; he’s shirtless so his six pack is on display and glistening from his shower; his hair is disheveled, but the ends still curl at the ends; and he has a towel thrown over shoulder. 
You can ask any women how they could not be hung up on a guy as attractive as him. 
“Hey,” he sends a small smile, making his way towards you. 
“Wait—“ you interrupt, “We cannot have this conversation if you’re shirtless.”
He won’t argue, but he does as you’ve said and throws on some ratty t shirt in his locker. He sits on the bench in front of his locker, patting the spot next to you. 
You sit beside him, making sure to keep some distance between you two. 
“I see you’re not wearing your jersey?” 
The audacity of men will always surprise you.
“Your jersey and is that really the first thing you want to talk about?” 
“You’re right…” warily his hand grabs yours and when he sees you won’t retract from him, he brings it his plush lips. “I’m really sorry, Y/n. Seriously.”
“What you said Sunday was totally uncalled for and spiteful— and where do you get off announcing to practically the whole state that I'm your girl? And You embarrassed poor Jake for nothing.”
“It wasn’t for nothin’ and the douche will be fine.” He staggers at the fire in your eyes. “Sorry, I’m sorry.” 
“That seems to be the only thing you can say,” you huff. You turn to him, needing to know the answer to this. “Are you really sleeping with other people?”
He notices how small your voice is as you ask. 
He sighs and looks down for a little, before tightening the grasp of your hand. “I was.” 
You stand up while trying to get Ari to let go of your hand. The last thing you want is for him to see the tears begging to fall. 
Ari stands with you in haste, bringing his other hand to palm your cheek as he looks down at you. Those piercing blue eyes saying so many things at once. “Was. I was. Listen, I haven’t slept with anyone else other than you since last month. It was a moment of weakness and you can’t be mad at me for it. We’ve never made anything official, baby.” 
“Do you even care about me? At all.” 
It feels vulnerable and desirous, but you’re unsure how you can continue without asking. 
“What? Did tonight not show you that?” 
You go to argue, but he cuts you off before you can start. 
Both his hands cup your face while his thumb draws circles on the apple of your cheekbones. 
“I love you.”
Your breath picks up at his admission. 
“It’s been months coming, but you gotta know since our first night together I haven’t slept with anyone other than Joy and that was only once. And I didn’t think I could tell you because.. I’m just not the guy you typically go for, Y/n. But I guess that was my own insecurities playing a part of that. I’m rambling and i probably sound like Steve after he takes one hit. But I promise I’ve admired you for so long and it has never been just sex to me. I don’t want my stupid mistake to get in the way of us trying correctly this time.” 
You swing your arm over the back of his neck and pull him in a kiss, your other hand fists his shirt. 
He lags at first before his brain catches up and he’s kissing you back harder. He tilts his head just a smidge like he always does and one of his hands comes up to cup the back of your head. You feel his other hand cup the side your body. His hand roams up and down before he’s slipping it behind you to squeeze your ass. You moan into him, pressing your body closer to him. 
Both your breaths pick up and you know you need a breather. So you pull away in a blur. 
“I love you too.”
He smiles at your admission. One of those adorable, rare smiles not many get to see from the broody man. 
You smack his arm and he grabs it with a questioning look. 
“But I’m still really pissed at you and I’m not letting you off easy.”
“Even if I ask you to be my girlfriend?” He snakes his brawny arms around your waist, pulling you closer as he ducks to kiss your cheek. 
“Even then,” you giggle, turning his head for a kiss. “And that’s a yes.” 
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a/n: it's been so long, hi!!! sorry i disappeared
if you enjoyed pls don’t forget to reblog or give feedback 💗
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sweetsbfreex · 4 months ago
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hiiii!! i know it's been so long 🥲🥰
i've been having an itch to write for a while and everything I currentl y have is gonna take awhile. so if anyone has anyone requests for Harry, Bucky, or Steve feel free to send them in <3
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sweetsbfreex · 4 months ago
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hiiii!! i know it's been so long 🥲🥰
i've been having an itch to write for a while and everything I currentl y have is gonna take awhile. so if anyone has anyone requests for Harry, Bucky, or Steve feel free to send them in <3
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sweetsbfreex · 1 year ago
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things i wanna write, but can't bc of school :,(
-bridgerton au
-tangled au
-ari levinson part 2
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sweetsbfreex · 1 year ago
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Ahh who loves you is so cute!!
sorry I’m not familiar with North American sports/colleges - why would someone get a strike for not going to a game, is that really a thing? What does a strike entail?
hiii!!! tysm for the super sweet comment (im sorry this is so late)
so, idk if its just my college, but if you buy tickets and miss a football game they give u a strike (and you can get 3) so you dont waste the ticket since someone else could've gotten it.
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