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COURT UPDATE AMENDMENT

Here is the fundraiser I mentioned in my original court update post...it's a lot in a short amount of time so if you can't donate, I understand, just send me hugs and spread this. 💖

Any amount helps. I need to get this paid by July 17th. I'm doing DoorDash as much as I have gas money for but that doesn't pay much. Thank you all for your love and support. 💖

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wait I'm curious

I feel like this is a common enough experience but I don't know how much

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100 Drabble Challenge: Lab Whump Edition

The challenge: write exactly 100 words about any of the following 60 prompts. Have fun!

Vivisection

Scalpel

Strapped down

Drugged

Injection

Scars

Naked

Disoriented

Under observation

Incision

Bandages

Blood

Experiment

Conditioning

Gloved hands

Cleaned up

Oxygen mask

Sleep deprivation

Nightmares

Privacy

Captured

Anesthesia

Prostrate

Starving

Dehydrated

Recovery

Bedrest

Desensitized

Gauze

Isolation

Uniform

Unconscious

Needle

Cut

Weak

Screaming

Infection

Manhandled

Shivering

Reflection

Dehumanized

Surgery

Torture

Pain medication

Phobia

Abused

Bedsores

Dragged

Sterile

Sedated

Research

Mistake

Begging

Pity

Touch starved

Pain

Damaged

Stitches

Volunteer

On camera

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COURT UPDATE AMENDMENT

Here is the fundraiser I mentioned in my original court update post...it's a lot in a short amount of time so if you can't donate, I understand, just send me hugs and spread this. 💖

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Does Ciaran regularly spoon and sleep with Danny after the first time?

i wouldnt say regularly but yeah he brings him up every once in a while. its def pretty infrequent and despite the fact that it's ciaran, its usually reserved for a reward since his bed is so much nicer than the one they gave danny

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I boop!

*gasp* beep!!

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me vs a fairly current juno (@itsmeblackcat)

if u see this ur tagged

Writer v. OC!

Tagged by @theluckywizard. Here's me v. Eilan. If you'd like to give this a shot, you can find the piccrew here.

Tagging @bluewren @flaggermuser @oliversrarebooks @mrslyncx @narravero @moonlightheretic @hekaerges @varric-tethras-editor @megasaurusssss

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i have an idea for a c&m chapter/drabble/something. we're so fucking back.

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"I'm sor-"

"That's not fucking good enough!" Whumpee shouts, cutting off Teammate. "You left me behind, you knew what would happen if Whumper found me and you let it happen."

"Whumpee..." They put their hands up appeasingly. "It wasn't--"

"SHUT UP!! It was exactly like that! You let it happen, and now I'm ruined and fucking useless." Whumpee gestures to themself, everything Whumper did to them. Mental and physical. "Did you fucking want this? Are you happy now?"

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Michał Elwiro Andriolli 1836-1893 (Polish), Mother, 1888

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immortal whumpee who quite literally gets forgotten if not actively observed. of course, if you're looking right at them, you can remember everything you already know, but the second you turn away it's like they never even existed. the epitome of out of sight out of mind.

maybe they used to be treated like a deity. using their curse to garner a following. if no one really remembers them, they can control the narrative, right? tell eveyrone they have special powers instead of just being forgotten. hell, they can do just about whatever they want. how do you catch a bank robber if you don't remember getting stuck up in the first place?

but it's fuckin lonely. no one invites them anywhere. remembers their birthday. no one reaches out to even ask how their day was. nothing. if they want interaction, they have to go get it. it's fucking exhausting having to reinsert themself into the lives of the people who supposedly care about them. having to constantly remind people that they exist. but it's not your fault you can't remember. it's not their fault either.

then maybe whumper finds them. gives them an opportunity to never be forgotten. a trap, of course. maybe some sort of streaming set up? something where there's always eyes on whumpee, someone always there to remember and record as whumper tortures them for countless to see. or whumper finds a way around the curse, but in turn makes whumpee entirely dependent on their interactions. 'i'm the only one that actually remembers you, after all. i'm the only person capable of caring for you.' or maybe whumper leaves them alone in a room to rot until someone happens to stumble upon a starving, weak whumpee. they promise to come back with help, but no one ever comes. who would? as far as anyone remembers, no one needs help.

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immortal whumpee who quite literally gets forgotten if not actively observed. of course, if you're looking right at them, you can remember everything you already know, but the second you turn away it's like they never even existed. the epitome of out of sight out of mind.

maybe they used to be treated like a deity. using their curse to garner a following. if no one really remembers them, they can control the narrative, right? tell eveyrone they have special powers instead of just being forgotten. hell, they can do just about whatever they want. how do you catch a bank robber if you don't remember getting stuck up in the first place?

but it's fuckin lonely. no one invites them anywhere. remembers their birthday. no one reaches out to even ask how their day was. nothing. if they want interaction, they have to go get it. it's fucking exhausting having to reinsert themself into the lives of the people who supposedly care about them. having to constantly remind people that they exist. but it's not your fault you can't remember. it's not their fault either.

then maybe whumper finds them. gives them an opportunity to never be forgotten. a trap, of course. maybe some sort of streaming set up? something where there's always eyes on whumpee, someone always there to remember and record as whumper tortures them for countless to see. or whumper finds a way around the curse, but in turn makes whumpee entirely dependent on their interactions. 'i'm the only one that actually remembers you, after all. i'm the only person capable of caring for you.' or maybe whumper leaves them alone in a room to rot until someone happens to stumble upon a starving, weak whumpee. they promise to come back with help, but no one ever comes. who would? as far as anyone remembers, no one needs help.

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Blerp

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Haha babe ur so sexy~

Read more Crow Time @ crow-time.com 💙

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hi (life updates/kinda vent?)

i dont even know when i wrote anything last. i hope i can come back to it soon but its been a really hard year and i havent had any creative energy (or any energy). ive also been having some new memory issues that have been kinda scary. i wrote and posted a c&m in april apparently, dont remember that very much. hazy like a dream, if anything.

h o w e v e r

i'm moving in with my friend soon. im hoping a change of scenery will help. we looked at a really nice apartment yesterday and we both liked it a lot, hopefully our application will get accepted. she's disabled like me and has lived alone before, unlike me, so she's going to be a huge support. she's also an artist, and she creates so much, i'm hoping itll get rubbed off on me. i miss being creative. i wanna be good at writing again.

anyway, this is all to say that i miss you guys and i hope i can get back into writing soon.

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i wanna say kinda? the hungarian ones look pretty official, all the ones in usa that i've ever seen are community made. there's one that popped up a year or two ago that i just found out is for someone i knew in high school

i think theyre beautiful and so sad. how one person touched so many people that when they passed, with nowhere else to pour the love, they put it all in the last place they saw.

smth ive been thinking of.. do other countries also do the person shaped signs on the side of the road where accidents have happened that say "they also had someone waiting for them at home" (hungarian has one third person pronoun its gender neutral)

is this just us. im sure it isnt. it must be like a european thing? or is it also in america

edit: actually lemme do a poll why not. i love polls

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can people with harry potter urls just not fucking follow me