#& admin note

[atzupdates]

[rest].

Hello everyone! As I am sure you all have noticed, lately it has been difficult for me to keep up with posting updates in a timely and consistent manner. Since the beginning, this blog has always and forever been a passion project of mine, and it is a blog that I, the admin, have run solely on my own. I never asked anyone to help me because I knew how much time it drains day by day, so it was wholly a personal choice to not ask for help.

Now I am at a point in my life where it is not feasible for me to continue on with the same effort as before, between work life and personal life, and as such I cannot maintain the same quickness and consistency as I had in the past. This in addition to how widespread ATEEZ content has become, as well as the addition of many more accounts and platforms to keep up with, make updating this blog more of a chore than a passion project.

I ask for your kind and gracious understanding, and please know that I really tried to make it would with how busy my life has become and tried to squeeze it in where I could as best I could for a long while now. This was not an easy decision for me to come to as I was clinging onto the hope that I could make this work and make it happen despite.

There are many other places and blogs who post updates about ATEEZ and all the content that is shared everywhere, so please support them and look to them for updates in the future.

Please continue to support Palestine and the people in Gaza who need our help and need their voices to be uplifted so that they can be heard and receive the care and resources they need to live safely and thrive.

Thank you for many years of support and for turning to this blog and supporting this blog for so long.

- admin.

[teamlynda]

quick note that I sort through Lynda’s inbox and she answers your questions which means she doesn’t see your crimes bye

[to-revive-a-tulip]

Hello! If you like this blog, consider donating to me! I’m very passionate about this comic, and I love drawing and making scripts for it. I have a lot of plans in the long term, but it’s difficult to draw so much.

My hands are chronically injured, and money I get from this blog helps me get a doctor! It also helps me legitimize spending so much time on this to my abusive family that rather I didn’t have a computer.

Anything helps! 💖

[theoneandonlysun]

my fav arts i made from the magmas

join the big tadc magma on my pinned post!! :3

ft.

spider kaufmo

uzi being a cool silly

mage, your mother does not brutally beat up, shoot, and stab vampires for fun. and become vampires for fun. she does not do that

rambley the raccoon :3

lizzy!!! with vizzy undertones!!!

[flowersandbigteeth]

Not me and my accountabilibuddy lying to one another about writing when we can both see we're playing baldurs gate on our steam profiles.

[teenwolfpackincorrectcaptions]

I've blocked that person who keeps writing nice little essays about how I'm racist because I "prefer Isaac over Scott." I will say it again. I don't like or dislike Scott. He is just Scott. I am hispanic and never meant for anyone to take any of my posts as an attack at anyone. If you come here and attack me, you will be blocked. They can continue to write as many essays about how I'm racist as they like, but I will not be giving them the time of day. It's a waste of time.

[teenwolf-confessions]

Any Harrasssment will be blocked. We do not mind anti-sterek posts but we will not accept any homophobia, hate speak or calling Sterek fans pedophiles. I think we have been very clear on this. Sterek is not for everyone and we understand that, but there is no need to be nasty or rude.

[12loona]

[TRANS] 230115 | YeoJin’s Fab message on the lawsuit

YeoJin:

Orbit, are you asleep? I was watching videos of our performances.. After going back and forth between crying and laughing while watching these, my head hurts so much you know? What if I can never get back on the stage.. This anxious thought keeps circling in my head and I don’t know what to do. Tour videos, group and solo fancams from the music shows we’ve done, the concert we did after coming back to Korea, videos of us that Orbits made for us, there are so many videos. I’m so thankful to Orbits who made me memories again just today, you know...? Watching the fancams makes me tear up because I want to get back on the stage.. I want to do concerts again and music shows and fansigns and fan meetings and so many things I want to do from one to ten.. I’m so frustrated and upset and angry.. I’m so sorry to bring up something like this late at night.. I know Orbits are having a hard time too and I’m so sorry to make you read something like this. I’ve never been this desperate before, from where to where did things go wrong.. I don’t know.. I’m so afraid that I’ll never get to see Orbits again.. Orbits I miss you so so much I get so hung up over how I didn’t tell you more often that I love you, and I’m just so full of guilt that I didn’t make you happier, so I think right now is the moment that I would like to erase the most.. It’s dark right now. I want to go back to the days when it was bright. Let’s go back together..

English translation © LitellJohnn

Admin note: Please send Yeojin (and the other girls too of course, but Yeojin as the priority at the moment) supportive messages via Fab, only if you have points to spare. Let her know she has hundreds of thousands of Orbits who are willing to stand by her and the other girls’ side forevermore and that we love them all dearly. That we will be proud of them and happy for them whatever they do. That they have never been a disappointment. That they don’t need to apologise. This is such a tough time for the twelve of them right now, and my heart hurts so much for all them, and they need all the support they can get from Orbits.

[faraway-sunshine]

Admin Note

Just a PSA: I can't reply to comments because this account is set up as a side blog. So if you want your comment to be replied to, it's easier to send an ask instead of commenting cause then I have to screenshot it and tag you.

[deathnotewiki]

Hey, it was kinda funny the first time with Penber, but can we please stop sexualizing everything that’s posted in the rb tags now? We put hours and hours into making and scheduling this content, and it feels both uncomfortable and disrespectful. I get it, this is tumblr, but I’m just hoping we can go back to making regular Death Note posts without all this.

[atzupdates]

[240630] Admin Reminder

Please remember to keep your comments on posts appropriate, respectful, and kind. Replies will be turned off if excessive inappropriate comments continue.

[mobscene-london]

Not really sure how to start this apart from saying I am officially back, and I missed you all and this place very much. ♥ I want to say a massive thank you to everyone for being so incredibly patient with me during my unexpected hiatus; both in character and out of character. I've been doing this a long damn time, and sometimes I just need a break, and I definitely don't take them as often as I probably should? Going to work on that. I wouldn't have if it wasn't necessary, though. That said, I think it's been good for all of us. When you're writing the same thing for so long, burnout is very real. Now we've all had a chance to rest and recharge, we move on to bigger and better things, and I am more excited about Mob than ever. You're all amazing, and I'm still so grateful that you've stuck with me and the group for all this time. I never expected it, and I will never be able to say thank you enough for all you have given me. Love you all. Now let's kill some fools and cause each other shit loads of pain like the good admin intended.

[vanitasnocarteconfessions]

"So, I read the last chapter and I was wondering… Why the shapeless one didn’t teach Noe properly ? I mean, Throughout the whole manga we could see Noe lacking knowledge, like he doesn’t know Ruthven because the shapeless one hate him ? Okay fine. But how come that he didn’t know Jeanne ?? She is literally being called The hellfire witch, A BOURREAU ?? Who fought in a literal WAR ?? Not only in politics but also in his power. Noe do not know anything about his own clan or his power, in chapter 58 we could see lady Archiviste showing us the past of Astolfo ( without sucking his blood ) and the shapeless one was talking with her. I think that the shapeless one is " scared " ( ? ) of the thing that Noe could possibly learn if he unlocks his true potential. ( Nenia, Faustina, Babel incident )"

[slightlyaggressiveaffirmations]

So, Slightly Aggressive Affirmer, what's your whole deal?

Great question, Clive.

(Sorry, I thought you were some sort of chat show host called Clive. Let me readjust my worldview)

Great question, friends. Why did I write Aggressive Affirmations in a consistently reliable, ritual manner for 5 years and then stop doing it and constantly keep coming back and promising to start again and never making good on it?

Well. There are actually 3 answers to that question.

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Answer #1

To begin with, let's reposition our worldview - just as we did with Clive. Now, let's change the way we see me, The Slightly Aggressive Affirmer. What if we put a new filter over me - we'll call it the "Autism Filter". I haven't got the money to go through the diagnosis process but it's looking pretty likely.

With that filter on, look again at my being absolutely focused on writing affirmations for 5 years and then stopping to suddenly focus obsessively on my research work for the next 2 or 3 - except for the two months I took off to sit on the porch every single day and write a medieval romance novel.

Now I want to get back into affirming again and I try to - I still feel it's important and I keep saying to myself I'll do it - but I just don't have that obsessive drive to do it anymore.

I think if we look at this with the autism filter, it starts to paint a pretty clear picture of what might be going on here...

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Answer #2

It became more and more difficult, and more high stakes to write affirmations, as the number of followers kept growing. There are now 15000 - although who knows how many of you are still on Tumblr? But that's a lot of responsibility and it became very stressful to keep making sure SAAs are for everyone and that no one feels excluded by them (excepting people who should always be excluded, like Nazis). When it was just a few random people reading affirmations, it was much easier to chuck in a few and whatever. But the more the blog grew, the greater the stress.

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Answer #3

I started writing Slightly Aggressive Affirmations for myself. I was the only one following the blog and it was set to send ME reminders of my own value - in the kind of aggressive language necessary to get through to me - because I was extremely low on confidence and needed real force to get it in to my head. But then things snowballed.

Thing is - I don't need them any more. It's harder to think of the kinds of things I should write, because I know longer need them myself. I have Slightly Aggressively Affirmed myself to a really great place, in terms of my self confidence and self love. I still have bipolar, and right now my life isn't going so great, so I get depressed but I do not believe fundamentally, at my core, that I am bullshit trash.

My primary emotion nowadays is possibly worse! I'm driven by anger a lot of the time - I've got a lot of deep rage, caused by long ago trauma. (I'm in therapy, don't worry). But I think most people would agree that I'm a fundamentally different person to who I was pre-pandemic. I'll tell you more about it some time. But I am drastically different - and definitely more than SLIGHTLY aggressive most of the time.

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In conclusion, I believe affirming used to be an autistic special interest of mine and now it is not - but I'd love to make it one again! Especially now my two-year long, 65 000 word research project is finished. But it's much harder to get back to where I was, because the number of followers I have now is different, Tumblr is different and I am hugely different as a person.

Thankyou for reading this short essay/memoir. I'll see what I can do about a little affirming tomorrow.

Always remember that YOU MATTER!!! YOU ARE IMPORTANT!!! YOU ARE THE ONLY FUCKING YOU IN THE WHOLE DAMN WORLD!!! THINK ABOUT HOW FUCKING MAGICAL THAT IS!!!

[flowersandbigteeth]

I am just a sleepy, sleepy girl