#&/or idk maybe also just pondering like oh also the way people here or anywhere are negatively affected even if you werent paying attention

[obxlife]

Dealing (Kiara x Reader)

A/N: My first Kiara fic! Oh God, I hoped I portrayed this correctly. As I’ve said before, I’ve never been in a relationship and I don’t know if the dynamics of a fem x fem relationship is the exact same as a male x fem relationship. I did my best here, so I hope it’s okay and accurate. Also, Lotte requested this and I just love her requests! Another thing that I need you guys to know, I have no idea how much weed costs so I’m just guessing prices here.

Pairing: Kiara x Reader

Word count: 2,060

Request: Hey! So I would love to request a Kiara imagine — where you're like maybe JJ's dealer or something and he brings her along and you kind flirt with her or something idk. x

Summary: You had been friends with Sam Maybank for a couple of years. He would usually put you in contact with clients for your business. That was how you met his cousin, JJ Maybank. He would often flirt with you (“Hot and a dealer? Perfect.”) but you were never really interested in him until he brought a friend along.

Warnings: Weed, swearing

DEALING

Sam Maybank was your friend. Probably one of your closest friends. He had always helped you out, whether it be by lending you a room in his beat-up house or getting clients for your business. That was how you had met his younger cousin, JJ. 

JJ was, seemingly, just another kid from the Cut, but he had more connections than most people. It was well known that he had a Kook friend (the daughter of the owner of the Wreck) and that he was friends with Heyward’s son.

However, he did not have any connections to weed. 

So when he asked Sam, his eighteen-year-old cousin, where he could get weed, he directed JJ towards you. He was two years younger than you, and he seemed to bring laughs anywhere he went. He was also a flirt, which you didn’t mind much because he was always respectful and a very loyal client. Oh, also, you were into girls. 

And so for a few months, JJ would show up at your house and buy weed from you. You would sometimes ask him about his day or his friends or why he was buying so much weed.

“My friends and I like to smoke,” he explained. “But I’m the only one with balls big enough to actually get it.”

You had laughed at his statement, but when you thought about his friends, you knew it was probably true. 

See, Pope Heyward was on the way for a scholarship. Everybody in the Cut knew that. He was going to be one of the few kids from this side of the island that was going to get out and actually do something. Nobody would be surprised if he came back to Kildare as a Kook.

JJ’s Kook friend was a girl that had pressure on her. It was well known around the island that Kooks put pressure on their children to be perfect, and even though she seemed to mostly escape these pressures, you could bet she would never be caught buying weed. She had to make her parents at least somewhat happy.

And John B Routledge, JJ’s best friend, just never cared enough to actually buy weed. Sure, he liked smoking it, but he just would never buy any. He would rather waste what little money he had on other things. The one time JJ had brought John B to you he had been more interested in trying to buy one of the many necklaces around your neck than buying weed. 

And so JJ would keep coming around, once a week, for weed. It had surprised you a lot, because, from his group of friends, you would have guessed he was only a social smoker. You didn’t imagine him having a reason to buy any weed.

“He has a hard home life,” Sam had told you when you asked him. “Don’t ask about it.”

You didn’t ask about it anymore. It wasn’t your business to do so. You were only his dealer and nothing more.

One day, he showed up with a girl. That had surprised you because Sam had mentioned how much of a ladies man his younger cousin was. The girl had dark skin and long, brown, curly hair. She had large eyes, also brown, but they seemed to shine in the dim light of the room you were in. 

She was way too pretty for JJ, in your opinion.

The girl seemed to be looking around the room as if trying to find something that may hurt her or be a negative influence over her. She was fiddling with the hem of her shirt. 

You couldn’t remove your eyes off her. She was wearing a crop top, exposing a beautiful midriff, and some cut-off jean shorts. Her figure was amazing, and you could almost feel drool pooling inside of your mouth.

“Hey, Y/N,” JJ said stretching his hand out to you. You did your usual handshake with him before sitting down in your chair and looking at him. 

“This is Kiara,” the blond pointed at the girl. You smiled at her as she stretched her hand out. 

“Call me Kie,” she replied. 

You began to think of what to say, wanting to flirt with her. You wanted to be able to catch her attention without her thinking you were just being friendly and complimenting her.

“I love your style, by the way,” was all that slipped out of your mouth. Why did I say that?

Kie, however, blushed and smiled at you, a small “thanks” slipping past her plump lips. JJ just looked between you two before realization flooded his face. He maintained eye contact with you, almost as if asking, Wait, you’re gay?

You nodded your head slowly while Kie wasn’t looking at you two. JJ shrugged his shoulders and sat down before you on the table. 

“Makes sense,” he whispered under his breath, avoiding the noise of his voice to reach his friend’s ears. “No girl is able to resist me.”

You laughed loudly and punched his shoulder, making him shut up and remove the shit-eating grin he had planted on his face. 

“How much do you want this week?” you asked him. 

“However much thirteen dollars can get me,” he replied. Kie took a seat beside him as you opened the drawer on the table between you three. From the table, you removed two little bags, each one containing one gram of weed. 

JJ frowned but paid you. You gave him back twenty cents and waited for him to leave. However, both he and Kie remained seated. The girl smiled at you before pulling thirty dollars from her pocket. 

“How much will this get me?” she asked. 

You looked at the money and made some quick mental calculations. “About five grams.”

Kie gave you the money, pressing it into your hands and letting her fingers linger on your skin. “I’ll take five grams then.”

You nodded and put the money away before opening a different drawer than before. Here you kept the five-gram bags. Taking one, you handed over to Kie, and she once again let her fingers rest for more time than necessary on your skin. 

After that, they left, and you went to bed that night hoping to see Kiara once more. 

The next time you saw her was a week later and she was alone. You had gone to the bathroom and come back into your dealing room to find her there. She smiled sheepishly at you before saying, “Sam let me in.”

You nodded before swallowing the lump in your throat. “How much would you like this time?”

Kie seemed to ponder on how much she wanted. 

“A gram.”

You frowned. That wouldn’t last her much at all. Why was she buying so little? “That won’t last much. You sure you don’t want some more?”

Kie nodded. “If I buy a little then I can come to see you when it runs out.”

You blushed and began to fumble with one of the drawers that contained weed. You let out a soft smile and stared up at the younger girl. She was also smiling. 

“Well, then a gram it is. That’ll be six dollars and twenty cents.”

She handed you a ten-dollar bill, and as you turned to retrieve her change from your money box, she pressed a hand to your hand. “Keep the change.”

She grabbed onto the bag and stood up to leave. Kie was almost at the door when you called out, “Wait!”

Kie turned to you, curiosity swirling in the deep brown pools of her eyes. You cleared your throat.

“You probably get this all the time,” you began to say, “but I just -- I thought you were very pretty the first time I saw you and I was wondering if you would, maybe, give me your number?”

Kie could only smile and blush, just like you had done before. “I was hoping you’d ask me that.”

She fished out her phone from her pocket and you faltered. It was a shiny new iPhone. 

If you had to guess, you would say that Kie was JJ’s Kook friend. 

Not wanting to show her your beat-up phone (although she had already seen your crappy living conditions) you punched your number into hers. 

“Text me so I can have your number,” you simply stated. Kie noticed that you probably didn’t want to take your phone out (it had been the same when she had first met John B, JJ, and Pope) and simply nodded. 

It hadn’t even been an hour since she had left when she texted you. 

Unknown number: Hey! This is Kie, JJ’s friend.

You smiled at the text and saved her contact. 

You: Hey!

Soon enough you began to have an easy-going conversation through text messages, filled with flirty remarks and questions about each other.

Her visits to you became more frequent, and they seemed to become longer and longer each time. She would sometimes show up with JJ, which was a bummer because you didn’t want to make him uncomfortable with all of your flirting, but mostly she would come alone. 

One time she came over when there was a storm outside. You had been speaking for at least two hours when she had received a phone call from her parents asking where she was. 

“I’m at John B’s,” she replied. It didn’t offend you that she had lied. You understood her parents didn’t want her to be at a drug dealer’s house. 

“Good,” you overheard from the phone. “Stay there, the storm is pretty rough and we don’t want you driving home.”

She spoke with her parents for a little while longer before hanging up. Turning towards you she asked, “Can I stay here tonight?”

You nodded.

As you got ready for bed, you lent her some clothes while you took your pillow out to your couch. 

“What are you doing?” Kie asked when she had returned from the bathroom. 

You gave her a questioning look before looking down at the sofa. “I’m going to bed.”

“Here?” she asked you. Her index finger was pointing into the ground of the living room. 

You nodded before she scoffed and said, “We can share the bed.”

You blushed at this, stuttering while trying to answer. In the end, you just shut your mouth and followed her to your bed. The both of you were out like lights.

The following morning you had woken up to find that you were wrapped around each other, her hands around your waist and your head on her chest. You smiled, feeling your heart soar at the sight of her. 

Kie woke soon after and smiled at you. “Good morning.”

“Morning.”

She lay still before adjusting her body and pulling you closer. Her groggy voice had made you smile, and she smiled back at you. 

“I have a confession,” she whispered out. You nodded, signaling for her to continue. “I really like you. And it’s weird because I’ve never been into a girl before.”

You gave her an understanding look while remembering the first time you had liked a girl. 

“I have a confession,” you repeated. “I really like you, too. And I know it can be weird but we’ll figure it out together.”

After that you both rose from the bed and ate breakfast. Then you headed outside.

Kie’s parents hadn’t been lying when they said the storm was rough. A tree across the street had fallen down and seaweed from the ocean covered the ground. Kie’s car was okay, surprisingly, and she hopped in. 

Rolling down her window, she smiled at you as you placed your forearms on its sill. You blushed as you two continued to look at each other. 

All of a sudden, she leaned up and pressed a kiss to your mouth. She smiled as you blushed even deeper than before. 

“Um -- I -- I’ll see you soon,” you said awkwardly. This rose a giggle from between Kie’s lips and all you could do was imagine what they felt like pressed against yours. 

“Yeah, I’ll see you soon.”

As she drove off into the morning air, you felt lucky. You had definitely macked on a girl that at least half the population of the Outer Banks wanted to mack on. 

The smile stayed on your face for a while.

A/N 2: I know this is really short but I just didn’t really know how to keep the story going (I’m sorry btw). It was a lot harder than I thought writing for Kie, but I hope I can write for her again soon. That way I can improve. Also, as I said in my first A/N, I have no idea how much weed costs so bear with me lol.

[itsakpopalypse]

Lou/Kim Hosung Astrology: How He Loves

OML he’s so precious i wanna squish his cheekies

As always 18+ under the cut

“omg i loved your astrology ask - romantic breakdown with Ayno so much! Can I get one for Lou, please?😊” - @randomkpopfiction

A/N I'm so happy to hear you’ve been enjoying my posts ! Here you go , I hope that you like it !!

Let’s talk tall boi

okay so his big 3 by our best estimation is Aries Rising, Sagittarius sun and Taurus moon, 2 fire and an earth

His chart lean is pretty evenly split between fire and earth, with one more earth and one air. no water whatsoever

that’s notable because water is the emotional element, so that suggests he isn’t prone to big emotional driven actions

we will get into that more as we go 

it’s just something that sets the tone of his chart

also his perfect split between mutable and cardinal suggests he can take the lead or be incredibly adaptable

so he actually seems very chill just looking at those facts 

for the romance-y stuff lessgo

Aries are confident go-getters, so he will seem pretty sure of himself in all situations

whatever he does he puts his WHOLE DAMN ASS INTO IT

we do not half ass anything in this house we whole ass it

can be a little brash, but his moon will help stop that from being too prominent since Taurus is basically the slowest moving most careful earth sign. 

since Aries is a cardinal sign though, he may seem a little intense and take charge in situations where others don’t seem to have their stuff together

Sun in Sagittarius, he is adventurous, lacks fear, and longs for intellectual insights, like he will ask you so many questions and fire back anything he thinks fits his own life

is really interesting to converse with

probably really laid back but still willing to talk to anyone

the kind of person who could make friends anywhere and with anyone

probably super curious and less cautious than he should be 

Taurus moon is affectionate but a bit shy and likes things to be very familiar

they are generally uncomfortable with change so his sun is a great balance to push him into more outgoing settings and to try new things

even if his moon will be a little filled with butterflies 

aw im soft

since your moons is the depth of your feelings he is steadfast and intentional

slow moving but once he has chosen for himself it is his focus

he will be a steady and reliable partner, but still be fun and spontaneous since his sun is so fiery. 

honestly looking through this chart I’m like he would be anyone's coolest best friend and just vibe in the most interesting way what a neat person?? where do i get one ???

let’s translate these and his other signs into a relationship starting with 

FLUFF

listen Sagittarius is the peter pan right? 

he doesn't WANNA grow up 

he wants to experience life and DO THINGS

but his Taurus moon will probably make him shy away even though his heart is BURSTING OKAY

Taurus is also one of the more artistic minded and sensual signs 

so he is creative and romantic and probably loves a cheesy rom com with cuddles

you may have to encourage his courageous side when emotions hit but you may have to chill him out where danger is involved

since his Mercury is Capricorn which is the cardinal of earth he will be really smart about his communication

so he will think things out well and be incredibly clever and quick witted

it suggests his humor is a bit sarcastic and savage and honestly 

like i consider Cap the most ‘millennial’ humor 

as in sarcasm and self deprecation 

but since that Aries stands proud he will probably still simultaneously know he’s pretty fantastic

like he knows he is awesome but also judges himself really hard probably

Venus in Sagittarius so this is interesting

of the fire signs it’s kind of more reserved romantically

Has REALLY high standards when it comes to what he wants in a relationship and intends for them to be met

not like how you look or sound or whatever

but will not tolerate disrespect of degradation on either side

has a lot of pride in keeping his relationships solid and communicative

an enthusiastic speaker, once he has set you as a comfortable person to communicate with he will lean into that and probably has a zillion incredibly interesting things he has pondered over about life and love that he wants to have deep conversations about

he would be the coolest to have talks about really relative things

might need some pushing if you want to discuss emotions 

that Taurus moon will win out only if you nourish and validate his feelings

so if you meet and he likes you somewhere a long the line, it will be a push and pull between Sagittarius wanting to love everyone and Taurus wanting to be sure of someone

the philosopher mind of a Sagittarius will draw him to you platonically and if you are affectionate, steady and warm his Taurus will basically flop down like a huge dog and beg for pats-metaphorically

His venus suggests that he would love to entice you with his wit, his spontaneity and his laughs,

He knows he is charming and full of life and he will use it against you 

and probably tease the ever living shit out of you for it

say he is cracking jokes or being adorable and you stare at him fondly, or giggle at a joke

he will be playful back

expect him to call you out

he is going to say something like “Oh I know I am beautiful but you’ll wear my face out staring like that.” with a wink

honestly a little shit sometimes wtf

doesn’t get jealous and doesn’t tolerate jealousy

so if you start as friends it will be this seamless fit into his friend group and he won’t even care if Ziu lays all over you or whatever

it won’t even seem abnormal to him even if he likes you

in fact he will probably just join the cuddle huddle or make sarcastic jokes about it

Sagittarius venus love fun and new experiences but they are not about to enjoy a shallow relationship

expect him to solidify boundaries and ask you out officially pretty quickly 

They are not a flighty sign even though they are a bit in the clouds sometimes 

the love an intense and passionate love and will not settle for less

Get you those healthy boundaries Lou

so i imagine as adventurous but thoughtful as his blend of signs is, especially with a Virgo Mars

he is going to think of the most interesting and sincere way to ask you out

maybe plan a day trip somewhere special

idk a hike or the beach or something 

and after he’s spent the entire day building memories with you 

he will ask you if you want to keep making these memories

maybe show you a little album on his phone of the selfies he’s taken with you for the last few months

wow soft and cute i love it 

and if you say yes he is going to start by being like oh yeah okay cool

then he will walk a few steps away and turn his back and start freaking out about how happy he is

a bouncy giggle mess over there and you’re like.... are you okay

he’s like.... *cough* yes I am FINE

sure you are

his north nodes is Libra so he is likely to need you around as he accomplishes goals

basically he wants to experience life with you and not separate from you and will work to make sure those goals align with each other

probably neither against nor particularly for public displays of affection

it will matter most to him that you are there with him, and if you want to add affection into it he won’t be opposed

but expect snark

“If you need to hold on to me you can.”

I also see him as the type to fall asleep on you during movies and really relish if he wakes up still in your arms

really low key affection is his thing

probably writes i love you on your leg with his finger when you are in the car or around people but he doesn’t wanna shout it out

likes to put his chin on your head and kiss the top of your head so gently

gently cups the side of your face and stares into your eyes all dreamy 

HAND KISSES

so cute I’m soft 

soft hours are closing

18+  below the cut

must he do this I’m scared

WOOOP 

spicy talk 

INTENSE

playful but intesnse

Sagittarius are exploratory signs  so that will probably make it into the bedroom ngl

like they like new experiences

so he is going to be learning things and sitting you down to talk about hard yes’s and no’s

we stan healthy communcation

maybe a little switchy?

I think he prefers to be in charge of your pleasure but I think he would be down to try laying back and letting you take the reins

to be honest he seems like he would really be into blindfolding ?

like blindfold him and tell him he has to make you cum but he has to do it with just his hands

jfc those hands i think you’ll be okay

lives for excitement and trust in a relationship

it has to go both ways, the Taurus moon demands it

he wants you to trust him with your whole being and he will give that in return

he wants you to be greedy with your own pleasure

“Touch yourself for me baby, I wanna see you”

looks at you like a work of art he wants to paint with his hands and tongue and cum

probably nasty but in the absolute most intimate way

hey you know what he sounds like saying give me more already I expect that’s what you hear after your third orgasm sorry I don’t make the rules

with a Virgo mars (his actions) mixed with so much Sagittarius expect him to treat you like his own personal experiment

really wants you to be as vocal about it as he is 

communicate what you like and don’t

wants you to ride him so he can watch you and comment on how beautiful you are

“you want me to fuck you hard you have to earn it.”

teasing little shit i stg

the Taurus makes me think he is kind of really intimate about it all

the kind of guy who might spank you , but will massage it gently after, 

holds onto the back of your neck and pulls you into his thrusts 

probably furrows his brow in concentration

and he has this like.. excitable side with all this fire energy that makes me feel like he gets really energetic about the whole ordeal

like he is SO AMAZED you are letting him touch you that he just kinda 

implodes

probably makes the softest little groans when you run your nails down his chest

wants to be marked in places no one else can see

doesn’t think of it as ownership or “marking” in  a traditional way

thinks of it as little reminders on his skin for only you two to know about 

that’s kinda beautiful tbh 

aftercare is probably haphazard but it will involve a lot of touching,

like none of his signs are particularly care-taker-ey 

but he will be sure you get lots of affection after more intense sessions so  you feel loved and protected

probably kisses your face all over and pulls you into an embrace

mumbles about your future together as you fall asleep 

it’s really cute aw

TWO MORE MEMBERS and both have been requested, expect them soon!

thank you for requesting and while I have a few more astrology posts and one request for a short story coming down the pipeline, I also have a oneshot I wrote on my own and am currently editing coming. Expect some stuff!!

Requests are open !

[scriptlgbt]

hi! I'm cis, working on a story where the MC is a trans girl. I have a couple questions and looked through your trans tags to see if I could find answers but wasn't sure still so I decided to send it in. the premise of the story is that the MC befriends a convicted felon, but in the end the felon ends up either wrongfully accused/did the crime for right reasons (idk which yet) and is overall a good person. my question is whether this is bad for portraying my trans MC as connected w/crime (1/2)

 (anon w/the felon question lol) i do have other trans characters in the story, but they are minor characters. also, my MC is hesitant to interact with/help the felon character at first when she finds out she (the felon) is a criminal. is this problematic? i don’t want to imply that trans people are linked to crime or violence, and i’m happy to clarify/add/subtract from the story if anything seems iffy! thanks so much for all your hard work! (2/2)

EDIT: Oh my god I answered this based on my misreading your trans character as the felon. You’re totally fine regardless.

First thing, if your character is an adult trans woman, I would highly rec avoiding using the term ‘girl’ because a lot of trans women do find it diminutive. (This is advice from my transmisogyny-affected partner.) Your mileage may vary but if you wouldn’t call a cis person of the same identity and age a girl then maybe avoid it for a trans person. (Unless with real people and they specify.)

Trans folks, especially transmisogyny affected and racialized trans folks (triply so for BIPOC trans women who are sex workers), are often criminalized and experience the repercussions of governments assuming criminality in extreme ways. Even when trans women do commit crimes* the punishments are rarely balanced and there’s a higher risk of police brutality and jury hostility, and other awful stuff.

I think it’s okay to depict how the criminal justice system is often flawed. I think the most important thing here is that the takeaway impression your reader gets needs to be that of understanding these things, even just on a preliminary basis.

If you’re down to read through some sociology textbook level stuff, I highly recommend looking into Thomas Theorem. It’s basically the idea that assumptions have consequences associated with those assumptions. If a beggar is going to be labelled as an addict no matter what they do, barred from places and resources, that will affect them no matter if they do use any drugs or not. (Which is awful on so many levels because addicts deserve respect too.) Same goes for trans women affected by being labelled criminals.

Another big example would be the myth of the trans life expectancy. There has never before been a study on the life expectancy of trans individuals. And yet, there are numerous resources around that have claimed it is anywhere from 23-30 over the past ten years. All they are doing is citing each other. Trans people hear this and have planned our lives around this, with so much of our trauma being surrounding it. So much anguish is caused by telling someone they won’t live past a certain age when there is absolutely nothing indicating this to be factual. Being trans is not a terminal illness.

Anyway I’ve gotten kind of lost in the weeds, but I just want to give you some ideas which would probably help to ponder or incorporate as themes in your story. 

What you’ve got as a concept is totally okay, in making the criminal character being a good person regardless of this brush with the law. Being a criminal doesn’t make a person a bad person in general. (Or even most of the time, especially with nonviolent crimes, but I degress.)

(Also I’ve maybe mentioned this before, but I have been arrested once before. I do not regret what I did because I helped to divert police away from innocent people being persecuted for what should be their rights. In my opinion, what is legal is independent from what is moral, and the legal systems that be aren’t exactly the most equal and up-to-date thing we should always use to guide what we do. There’s a sense of compassion in our hearts that law cannot account for.)

- mod nat

* Regardless of reason. Like Chelsea Manning being currently re-imprisoned as a whistleblower, Cece McDonald in self-defence, an old friend of mine shoplifting allergy meds because she couldn’t afford them.

[wearetakingthehobbitstogallifrey]

BTS Members as the Sons of Feanor

OH MY GOSH WHAT THE HECK

so @thelonelybrilliance just showed up late to the Silmarillion and new to BTS and she decided to break my brain by tagging me and @abadpoetwithdreams asking us if we could match up the 7 members of BTS with the 7 sons of Feanor. May she never ask such a question again because I have spent about 6 hours total writing this rant essay that is somewhere of abouts 3500 words. I don’t have the self-control to stop myself from things like this, I love Tolkien and BTS too much

anyway here is a very long and rambling post that was partially composed in my head in the shower and is now just stream of consciousness

(Disclaimer: The members of BTS are beautiful souls and this post is in no way saying that they are as murderous as my problematic faves the sons of Feanor)

ok so the only thing I know for ABSOLUTELY CERTAIN is that Namjoon is Maedhros. if you know anything at all about BTS and the Feanorians, the reasons are obvious:

1. Namjoon is the tallest, and Maedhros is literally called Maedhros the Tall.

2. Maedhros has a lot of names but he was called Maitimo by his mom which means “beautiful” or “well-shaped one” and such an appellation is perfect for Namjoon (ok let’s be real the name could fit every single member of BTS but whatever)

3. (and most important!) never was there a more harried elf trying to keep his brothers in line and alive and not cut to pieces by some justifiably insulted cousin or Sindarin. Maedhros is the mom, the dad, the king, the leader, the eldest bro. “Guys, can we NOT be rude to the sons of Finarfin, can we NOT start a war among the Noldor when we still have Morgoth just across the way” I’m pretty sure he would also lose his passport multiple times if Middle-earth had such things, because his brothers are hard enough to keep track of. while Namjoon may not be the eldest in years, everything else matches up too perfectly. He is the leader of BTS, the spokesman, the one who encourages the other members to step up and speak, helps them with their English (even when he judges them for their dumb mistakes lol), is literally SO DONE with his bros all the time but loves them so freaking much. He is the planner, the peace-maker, yet also has fire in his veins and has seen a lot of darkness and suffering and survived to become even stronger. So too with Namjoon

(caveat: if BTS were Feanorians, and Namjoon captured by Morgoth himself, there is no freaking way they wouldn’t have done SOMETHING to rescue their fearless leader. Jin and Jungkook would storm Thangorodrim fists swinging, followed by Jimin and J-Hope, fierce like you’ve never seen them, and Taehyung would Luthien Tinuviel Morgoth centuries early, or Yoongi would simply glare at Morgoth till he shrank down into a puddle of trembling goo. Don’t laugh at me you know I’m right)

moving on

I have maybe two choices for Maglor? One is Jin, but that might partially be because everyone always talks about how Namjoon and Jin are the mom and dad or dad and mom of BTS. and Maglor is always paired in my head with Maedhros as the other parental figure of the Feanorian bros, though that might be because of how he and Maedhros look after Elrond and Elros. Of course, I love Jin’s singing and I will never ever ever be over “Epiphany”, so I am way cool with making Jin Maglor as far as the music thing goes

All this said, I am not sure if this is the best fit overall. Jin is the King of Chaos in BTS, and I wouldn’t name Maglor as such...also I think I might have another Feanorian for Jin, but I’ll get to that later (spoilers, it’s...Curufin??!) (oh no, I just realized I might have one other argument for Jin being Maglor: “I use other people to make myself happy. I make myself smile by making others smile.” Like, that could be a good quote for Maglor potentially, if you want to relate it to his music, or his care for Elrond and Elros……..but I’m still thinking Curufin for Jin. Stay tuned)

So anyway my other option for Maglor would be...oh heck no I have two other options. No wait THREE. What the HECK. ok let me figure this out. The options are J-Hope, Yoongi, and Jimin. I’m not even sure why yet so let’s find out. (sidenote: if Maedhros did not exist Namjoon the song-writer would be Maglor, as the greatest poet and bard)

1.  J-Hope as Maglor: I don’t know, I had reasons but they are escaping me. Maglor is said to have had a gentler temperament than his brothers and I would say J-Hope has a very soft sunshine heart. I guess one thing is that Maglor was left to hold everybody together when Maedhros was captured by Morgoth, and if Namjoon was ever hung on a cliff for an indeterminate amount of time or whatever equals that in our world, J-Hope would step up. I keep seeing things about how he supports the other members when they are having tough times, giving them encouragement and food and love. He leads them in practicing dance choreography all the time, and if I remember I am pretty sure Namjoon actually stated that Hoseok would make a good group leader. 

Also one time Namjoon was talking about Hobi (oh shoot, should J-Hope of the many names be Maedhros of the many names? Lol maybe in that one universe where Namjoon is Maglor, then Hobi could could be Maedhros) Namjoon says that J-Hope is like water (where did Maglor toss his Silmaril again hmm?) and puts people at ease. Well idk about other people but Maglor seems to have put Elrond and Elros at ease because even after that whole Kinslaying thing “love grew between them as little might be thought.” I too would probably come to love J-Hope no matter the past between us. He is just that sweet and soft-hearted

2.  Yoongi as Maglor: ok honestly I really really actually want Yoongi for Caranthir, more on that later. However I also like Yoongi as Maglor because it is unexpected, yet certain things just feel right. I keep thinking about Yoongi’s “First Love” where he raps about how his PIANO was his first love (GOSH ISN’T THAT THE SWEETEST THING EVER) also in Lee Sora’s “Song Request” he raps this: “I’m happiness to someone and the soul to another / A lullaby to someone and at times a noise / I’ll be with you at your birth and your end / Remember we’re always together anywhere / I’ll always console your life / So just lean on me and rest sometimes” and LOOK I JUST DIED TYPING THIS but what I am getting at is music is burnt into Yoongi’s soul as I think it is Maglor’s, and Yoongi really is very soft and loving and also one time Namjoon said that Yoongi “makes me ponder about what kind of person I am” and Maglor several times is a voice of reason and very much tries to dissuade Maedhros from going after the Silmarils one last time. Idk it could work (but also...CARANTHIR) (BUT ALSO OMG YOONGI’S VOICE MURDERS ME WHEN HE RAPS AND HIS PASSION WOW AND NOW I AM PICTURING MODERN DAY MAGLOR RAPPING  OBLIQUELY ABOUT HIS FAMILY AND PAST AND PAIN UGGGGGGGHHHH

3.  Who was my other choice? Right, Jimin. Why did I say Jimin?? ? i don’t remember, dang it

Ok I think it is definitely time to do Caranthir.

As previously stated, I love Yoongi as Caranthir. I have my reasons personally I think they are very good reasons :D Ok Caranthir is WOW ok I am OFFENDED because I just went to double-check something on wikipedia and I typed Caranthir into the Google search engine and the first three results were all about this Caranthir dude from the Witcher, and while that game seems very interesting I am UPSET for Yoongi’s I mean Caranthir the Dark’s sake.

AHEM

Caranthir the Dark. What a name. I mean it might just be a reference to his father-name of Morifinwe and to his hair, but he is also described as being the harshest and quickest to anger. Yoongi, bless his soul and his actually very soft and squishy heart, is well known for: being unbothered by BTS general antics, for being the one to sit back and watch everyone else do dumb stuff (like when they were all dancing to MIC drop and he just walks away from them, or when they are all acting like kids jumping in the pool and he just watches with a smile on his face while drinking a glass of wine and look to me Caranthir is the one Feanorian who doesn’t pair up with anyone in particular, like we have Maedhros and Maglor, Celegorm and Curufin, Amrod and Amras, but Caranthir is the one who goes off and lives separate from them and

GOSH now I sound so dumb because I am NOT trying to say that Caranthir doesn’t love his bros or that Yoongi is a loner that is NOT what I am saying, agh I mean Caranthir is great (minus, you know, the kin-slayings the Feanorians sadly fall into) and even befriends Haleth’s people and protects them, t’s just this weird categorizing thing in my head, that Caranthir is the crusty brother, and while he loves his bros to DEATH and they him, the majority of his bros are sliiiiightly afraid of him, in a brotherly way, like how the members are with Yoongi! Like just recently oh what was it, they were on a BTS Run episode and someone had to splash or otherwise give Yoongi a penalty and right away everyone was like NAMJOON YOU DO IT. turning to the leader hyung because they don’t want Yoongi to be mad at them

Of course now I am remembering that one post of gifs demonstrating how Jungkook is the only one who can bother Yoongi without dying lol except NOW I am picturing Amrod the youngest Feanorian* being the only one who can bother Caranthir and then the ensuing PAIN because Amrod Umbarto (thanks for THAT name, Mom) perishes (in certain canon) in flames at the Burning of the Ships and wowwww no I do not need any of this pain

*SIDENOTE: AMROD IS THE YOUNGEST IN CERTAIN CANON WHICH CONFUSES THINGS A HECK OF A LOT SEE THE AMROD AND AMRAS SECTION BELOW

I’m pretty sure I have never rambled so much in my life and also pretty sure I have way too many parentheses and not all of them are closed oops

Anyway, imagine Caranthir as the brother you are afraid of but would die for and who would die for you if anyone looks at you wrong, the brother with the wry acerbic wit, but who LITERALLY LIGHTS UP THE UNIVERSE WITH HIS SMILE AND ALSO DOESN’T EXPRESS HIS LOVE ALOUD AS OFTEN AS SOME OF YOUR BROTHERS DO BUT

HE SECRETLY LOVES PHYSICAL CONTACT AT TIMES AND ALSO SECRETLY LOVES PIGGY-BACK RIDES EVEN THO HE PROFESSES TO HATE THEM AND GIVES OUT WISE LIFE ADVICE TO HIS BROS AND HIS PEOPLE AND IS SUCH A SOFTIE FOR HIS BROS AND OCCASIONALLY SENDS ONE OF HIS BABY BROS LONG LETTERS WITH A SIMPLE “I LOVE YOU” AT THE END THAT HAS CELEGORM OR AMROD CRYING FOR TEN MINUTES (HAHAHA GUESS WHO I THINK TAEHYUNG WOULD BE)

Also someone has to be the best cook of the Feanorians and it might as well be Caranthir

….apparently I’m not done with Caranthir, because “the Dark” also makes me think of a dark horse, or at least something happening that is unexpected, and that reminds me of that interview where dad/mom/interpreter Namjoon was like yeah none of the other members can speak English, and then Yoongi just out of NOWHERE speaks a line of great English and Namjoon was like ….guess I was wrong

OKAAAAY WHERE ARE WE

I do not have very clear thoughts about who the rest of the members are so let’s just go with my brain and hope it makes some good connections

Let’s do Celegorm since I just mentioned him

Celegorm could be either Taehyung or….Jin? :? Merrr idk. Let’s examine

I think the main reason why I jump at the option of Tae for Celegorm is because of Tae’s love for his dog Yeontan, or Tan, and of course Celegorm is the master of Huan, and they had a very special relationship for ages until Celegorm f---ed up. Seriously, you want to see something cute? Look up Tae’s Vlive that is entirely focused on his lil pupper (what am I saying look up ANYTHING about Tae and you will find something cute)

On the other hand Jin could be Celegorm because Celegorm is known as the Fair and if you don’t know by now that Jin is World Wide Handsome I don’t know how I can help you

OMG WAIT I JUST THOUGHT OF OTHER REASONS WHY JIN COULD BE CELEGORM! So Celegorm’s father-name is Turcafinwë, which basically means “strong in body” and Jin has got those broad shoulders (gosh they are so broad). Also, Celegorm’s mother-name is Tyelkormo, or “hasty riser,” referring to his quick temper and habit of leaping when angered. And this doesn’t perfectly relate but the amount of times I have seen Jin yelling or just being wild in general or even just pretending to be mad makes me think of this. Also there was one time idk what was even going on but Jin was struggling to pronounce Bangtansonyeon-dan (SAME) and saying it was too long and difficult and J-Hope was teasing him and Namjoon told him not to get mad since he had been calling himself a fairy and shouldn’t be mad as such, and Jin was like hey I can be a mad fairy if I want lol

See now I am just confused because now I am looking back at Jin as Maglor and I might like that better? WHY IS THIS SO HARD

Speaking of Jin, and Celegorm, why on EARTH was I thinking of Jin for Curufin? Ugggh see my problem is I ran out of time last night and so I am finishing the essay some 20 hours later and I kNOW that when I was saying Jin should be Curufin I had a better reason then their names rhyme. Heck, I could make that same argument for Jimin as Curufin.

Except I also have a second and better argument for Jimin as Curufin, at least under the circumstance where Taehyung is Celegorm. Look, all the BTS members are really close with each other, and you can literally argue all day about who is closer to who (a really pointless waste of time in my opinion I mean why argue when you can just melt over them all being sweet and funny and kind and teasing with each other) but anyway all that aside one thing I love in particular is how sweet Jimin and Taehyung often are with each other, holding hands and comforting each other and being on teams in competitions *starts laughing at the memory of them being complete disasters that one cooking show* and anyway Celegorm and Curufin seem pretty inseparable, running around causing all kinds of trouble (guys sTOP). Jimin and Taehyung have called themselves soulmates, so it makes sense to have them be part of a duo

Not that Taehyung would engage in a kidnapping stunt like Celegorm did, but the point is, Jimin, the precious bby, has Tae’s back

Jimin: “Taehyung is the happiest when he is with me” aww

This has nothing to do with the point of this post but I just need to stop here and say that Jimin is so freaking talented I was just looking up some gifsets of him and obviously his singing is angelic but also OMGGG his dancing!!!

Ok, jumping back slightly, I guess one way Jin could be Curufin is if Jungkook is Celegorm, because I could see those beautiful dorks running around causing all kinds of trouble, except I really have no reason to have Jungkook be Celegorm, especially since he is very much Amras in my head for reasons

OOOH NO I also thought of a way in which Jungkook could be--wait for it--cURUFIN. WHY AM I LIKE THIS

You see, Curufin was his dad’s favorite son and thus Feanor gave his favorite son the exact same father-name Feanor had, Curufinwë, and Curufin is the only son who chose to use his father-name over his mother-name if I recall, and anyway all meaning he probably loved his dad a lot and was proud of his name, and this makes me think of how Namjoon gave Jungkook the title of the Golden Maknae and of how freaking much Jungkook looks up to and respects Namjoon (look while Namjoon is a hyung, he is also a dad figure, so he may as well be Feanor and Maedhros both)

I guess if Jungkook were Curufin, Jin could go back to being Celegorm

Aaaaggggh you do not know how much hair I have pulled out this is taking a lot of brainwork

FINALLY AT THE LAST TWO

We now present my exceedingly confused ramblings regarding the twins Amrod and Amras. Before we begin, let me SHAKE MY FIST AT TOLKIEN FOR MAKING THIS ESSAY EVEN MORE CONFUSING TO WRITE

See, I had Jungkook all set up in my head as Amras, the youngest son according to the Silmarillion. Jungkook is the maknae, the baby, and all the members DOTE on him and he loves them and respects them and pesters them and it’s great, so yeah Jungkook has to be Amras the baby of the Feanorians. I would then put Taehyung as Amrod, the just barely older bby who the other members also adore and protect. Jungkook and Taehyung are SO FREAKING CUTE whenever they are doing stuff together, whether it is singing or hugging or holding each other on their backs while they singing. When they goof off together or pester each other, they are the most precious, must dorkiest dorks to ever be my faves. Hence why I pair them together in my head as Amrod and Amras, at least the times when I am not pairing Tae with Jimin or Jungkook with Jin. Amrad and Amras seem as inseparable as Celegorm and Curufin, and they go off and live in some beautiful wild part of the land and basically stick to hunting and staying out of everyone’s business until they get reminded they took a stupid oath

EXCEPT then Tolkien has one alternate writing where the youngest is actually AMROD and Amrod dies at the burning of the ships because Feanor doesn’t know how to count his kids I guess (Namjoon you lost something again) (sorry that is a terrible joke) (but is it made slightly better by the fact that while Namjoon is apparently Feanor he is much more Maedhros, who was against the burning of the ships and did not participate?) so like this is where I started to get my third headache (exacerbated by the fact that I haven’t eaten dinner yet and it is 9 pm what is wrong with me) because then I have to make Jungkook Amrod and Taehyung Amras. It’s such a trial having to write both their names next to both Feanorians

On the other hand, an interesting thing to think about is that in this alternate writing, Amras was so aggrieved by his brother’s death that he called out Feanor--Feanor!--for being so dumb as to A. call or let his wife call their youngest by the name of Umbarto (the Fated) and then to B. accidentally let him perish in a fire that FEANOR started because he had a grudge (and I think Tolkien wrote that that Amrod was possibly sleeping on the ships because he was upset with Feanor for the terrible deeds he was committing, so like, double way to go Feanor)

I am really tired and hungry my head hurts

What am I missing?

I like Taehyung and Jungkook best for Amrod and Amras a lot BUT if I were doing one of the other options above, I could see having the follow lineup:

Jin=Celegorm, Jungkook= Curufin, Jimin=Amrod, Taehyung=Amras

In this instance, I could see Jimin and Tae as either Amrod or Amras no matter which one is older. Taehyung could definitely be the bby and do his own thing but could also be the brother who mourns his brother and calls out Feanor. Actually though Jimin while being young and precious gives me more of an older brother vibe than Taehyung does, so I guess I would have Jimin be the elder of the twins. Yes, that makes more sense

UGH but wait if I put Jimin and Tae as Curufin and Celegorm, I could put Jungkook back as youngest bby Amrod or Amras, but would Jin fit into the older twin role? Maaaaybe, if you just think about Jungkook and Jin heading off by themselves and goofing off...I don’t like it as much though

Possibilities So Far

Maedhros: Namjoon, maybe J-Hope?

Maglor: Jin, J-Hope, Yoongi, maybe Namjoon

Caranthir: Yoongi

Celegorm: Taehyung, Jin

Curufin: Jimin, Jungkook

Amrod: Taehyung, Jungkook, Jimin

Amras: Jungkook, Taehyung, Jimin

……………………….

I have spent five minutes now trying to figure out possible final line-ups but it’s all a mess

I  LITERALLY CAN’T THINK ANYMORE

I DECLARE THIS ESSAY/RANT HAS COME TO AN END

PLEASE CHELSEA SEND HELP!

WHAT AM I MISSING/HAVE WRONG? IS THERE A BETTER SPOT FOR J-HOPE? SHOULD SOMEONE ELSE BE CARANTHIR? COULD JIN BE A CARANTHIR IN SOME WAY?? (I THINK I COULD HAVE THOUGHTS ABOUT THAT BUT I AM TOO TIRED TO THINK THEM)

[guns-n-zeppelin]

Never say die - Chapter 20

Pairing: Axl Rose x reader Words: 1813 Summary: Reader accidentally time travels back to 1985 where Axl, Duff, Slash, Steven and Izzy find her. Warnings: Smut again lol

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A/N: Idk what i think about this but hereee, i’m sorry i haven’t updated this earlier. Welll i hope you enjoy again.

We were sitting at a bar again, there was only Erin, Axl, Duff, Izzy and Scarlet with me there, we had lost Slash and Steven somewhere. We were going to still travel to Georgia tonight in couple of hours. We chatted and drank and smoked together at the table, but soon after a while some random man approached us. Scarlet's face brightened immediately when she saw him. ”Oh, Dave! What are you doing here?” Scarlet exclaimed and got up to hug the man. The man gave Scarlet a warm smile before the both of them turned back to us. ”This is my brother. His name is Dave,” she said and all of us greeted him with a short 'hi'. She introduced us as well to Dave and when she had mentioned my name, Dave stayed looking at me for a while and made an intensive eye contact with me, which made me blush, but then turned back to the others. ”Nice to meet you all,” Dave greeted as well, smiling. ”What brings you here?” Scarlet asked eagerly. ”I came here to interview a few people for the newspaper. And saw a couple of friends here as well,” he answered to her. ”You remember Nick, right? From high school, he moved back to North Carolina about two weeks ago after being a few years in Europe.” ”Ohh Nick, right. Damn, i haven't heard anything about him in ages,” Scarlet said, thinking. ”Oh yeah and also, Dave works as a journalist for a quite popular newspaper,” Scarlet told us eagerly. ”Hey, maybe you could give an interview for Dave as well?” she offered. Duff, Axl and Izzy looked quickly at each other and then shrugged. ”Yeah why not,” Izzy answered. ”But later,” Duff continued. ”I want to finish my vodka without any extra questions.” ”Damn, thanks a lot, guys. My boss is going to be satisfied if i really get one from you. Big fan,” he said laughing. Then he turned back to me again and looked straight into my eyes. ”But damn, Scarlet, you haven't told me how gorgeous your friend here is,” he said smiling and winked. ”Hey! Hands off her, go to flirt with other chicks, she's not interested!” Axl said to the man, raising his voice. I looked at Axl, raising my eyebrows and giving him a murderous look to shut the fuck up. The others looked at Axl too quite surprised and confused. ”What do you mean Amy's not interested?” Izzy asked raising his eyebrows, laughing a bit. Axl just opened his mouth, closing it again, not knowing what to answer to this. I furrowed my eyebrows as well, pretending to not know what got into him. ”Yeah, Axl, why? I think i can handle things myself without you taking part of this,” i scoffed and shook my head. I looked at Axl and saw him clenching his fists. These were again the times when i was scared that our cover would fail because of Axl's temperament. ”I just,” he started. ”I just saw you earlier flirting there with couple of other chicks as well so, uhm, i-i just don't want any player trying to hit on her,” Axl tried to stutter some excuse and then cleared his throat and scratched his neck. Erin looked at him a bit confused and worried. Dave just chuckled. ”Man, i just arrived here, maybe there's some guy who just looks like me,” he said to Axl and patted his shoulder. ”An honest mistake, it's alright,” Dave said smiling and winked. ”I already started thinking that you two were dating.” ”What? That's ridiculous,” Axl said laughing nervously and grabbed Erin by her waist, pulling her closer to him. ”I'm dating this beautiful woman, i'm just friends with Amy,” he said and turned to look at Erin, kissing him on her lips and they both shared a smile with each other. And just by watching them smiling and looking happier than ever, it hurt like hell although i know he was just pretending. But he made it look so real. ”Oh damn, you really look like the perfect couple,” Dave said and then turned back to me. ”So, could i by any chance buy you a drink now when this matter is solved?” he asked. I shared a short look with Axl, but soon moved my gaze back to Dave. ”Sure, why not,” i answered smiling and he went to chat with the bartender until came back and handed me a glass of beer. He came to sit next to me, casually put his arm around my shoulder. Axl was sitting in front of me with Erin, only the table separating us from each other. I saw how his blood was basically boiling inside him. The next hour i let Dave flirt with me and tell all stories about him and his work and everything, and some of them were quite interesting as well. Axl watched us the whole time, still hand on Erin's waist, her head resting on Axl's shoulder. And a few times they shared a kiss with each other, Erin starting it though but Axl had to play along. ”Hey, i was just wondering,” Dave started. ”Would you go out with me sometimes?” he asked me carefully. I thought about it for a moment and saw Axl's head turned to us, but then Erin turned his attention back to her again. ”I mean, it's okay if you don't want to,” Dave corrected when i didn't answer immediately. ”Hmm, i don't know, i have to think about it. But we're leaving to Georgia soon anyway, tonight already, so,” i told him and shrugged. ”No way, really? I'm going there too. Could i come there the same way with you guys?” he asked others and they nodded. Before i could say anything more to Dave, Axl got my full attention. ”Amy, can i talk with you for a moment?” Axl asked me, but wasn't patient enough to wait for an answer and grabbed me by my arm, starting to walk away from others. ”We'll come right back, okay,” he told others. They just nodded and we started heading to the hotel, it was right in front of the bar actually, across the road. And soon we were already upstairs in Axl's hotel room, Axl closing the door after us. ”What did you wa–” i started but couldn't finish my sentence since Axl already lifted me and threw me over his shoulder, carrying me towards the bed. ”Hey, what the fuck are you doing, let me down!” i tried to yell, but i still had to admire how much strength he had. He threw me on the bed and started ripping my clothes off. ”You shut the fuck up now,” he commanded me between his teeth. ”Do you think you can flirt with that Dave bitch like that, huh?” he asked angrily and took now my pants off and threw them to floor and soon i was laying there only my underwear on. I just smiled amused. ”Is someone jealous?” i asked smirking and Axl raised his eyebrows. ”Jealous?” he scoffed. ”I'm not fuckin jealous.” ”Yes you are,” i stated, still grinning, and i could see even more fire in his eyes. ”Just admit it, you're fuckin jealous when you saw Dave keeping his arm around me and even talking with me, saying cheeky flirting stuff to me, asking me for a date aaand –” ”Yeah, fine! I was fuckin jealous when i saw how he looked at you, i've never been more jealous, are you happy now, huh?” he said with a loud voice. I pondered it for a moment and didn't even notice when he took his underwear off. ”Hmm, i don't really know, could you say it again?” i asked. He looked at me in the eyes, brought his face closer to mine so our noses almost touched each other. ”I'll fuckin show you how much i hate that guy now, i'll make sure that you know who you actually belong to,” he murmured with a low voice and before i could even think about an answer, he slammed into me hard, with no warning and gave me no time to adjust. I screamed a bit because of the pain and sinked my nails on Axl's back. When it wasn't so painful anymore, i dared to say something again. ”Do you know why i did it?” i asked, panting, and he turned to look at me, raising his eyebrows. ”Because it hurt so fuckin much seeing you w-with Erin,” i tried to say desperately between my moans. ”Oh, so now you're the jealous one,” he said smirking and started moving even faster, hitting exactly the right spot. ”O-of course i am fuckin jealous, i don't want to see you with her,” i said angrily, cupped his face and took him in a deep, passionate kiss. ”One time you're kissing Erin and looking happier than ever, and then soon you're fucking me in a hotel room like it was our last day alive,” i said whimpering and had to keep a break from speaking. ”I'm sorry, okay, it's just that we can't reveal this yet to them. I hate to pretend but –” he started. ”I don't care, we're not doing this anymore until you've told Erin, you understand?” i stated, raising my eyebrows. ”I'm not gonna lie them anymore. You have to choose, me or Erin.” Axl just sighed and slowered his movements a bit. ”Fine, i guess that's fair enough,” Axl groaned. ”I'll tell her in some point, okay.” And suddenly, just a bit before i reached my climax, the door opened and we heard a familiar voice. ”Hey, Axl, have you –” Steven started and Axl immediately stopped moving and the horror spread on my and Axl's faces, my heart starting to beat faster. ”Oh shit, i'm so sorry, i thought –” Steven was standing about ten metres away from us and Axl tried to hide me with his body the best he could. ”What the fuck are you doing here?! Don't you see we're in the middle of action here,” Axl interrupted him and looked at Steven over his shoulder. ”With, uhm, Erin,” Axl added which didn't help the situation much though. ”I'm really sorry, i was just going to come to ask if you had seen Amy anywhere? The others told me that she left with you,” Steven asked awkwardly, but before Axl could answer anything, he continued. ”Wait. I just saw Erin a moment ago downstairs with Scarlet,” Steven said confused, furrowing his eyebrows. Axl looked at me quickly, not knowing what to do. I turned to look at Steven over Axl's shoulder and saw his eyes widening, accidentally dropping his glass he was holding which broke into pieces on the floor. ”Look, we can explain.”

[the-cryptographer]

Screw it, I'm asking Malik Ishtar for the meme thing! (Only if you want to, of course...)

THANK YOU :D

How I feel about this character:

My secret favourite!!! I think I tend to likecharacters that are all about BIG UGLY EMOTIONS, and Malik is a lot of those,lol. For me, he’s an effective villain – both really terrible and really understandably so. I think the way he gets so energetic about pursuing the God Cards and the Pharaoh, and then gets in over his head and has to abandon ship on his own revenge, and then continues to see through his role as tombkeeper because he’s just so worn out from trying to fight it – aaaaagh! It’s so upsettingly believable.

In terms of characterisation, he’s floating around brilliant but lazy territory for me. He’s intelligent, but also an idiot, andalso all he really wants to do is ride around on his bike and sleep alone inhis room and live comfortably. He’s capable, but not very ambitious. Not much of a visionary, lol.

All the people I ship romantically with this character:

Ryou. Yuugi. Shizuka.

…well that was a very short list for me. I can also enjoy theifshipping to a certain degree, although I’m not really very interestedin it as a postcanon or endgame ship. And the potential for Malik’s torture ofMai to be sexualised is something I think is both interesting and not that farfrom its canon presentation – so I guess that may count as shipping them insome kind of messed up way. And I guess I also I find myself conceptuallyinterested in Ishtar sibling incest, but I haven’t run into any that treats thesubject matter with the kind of tone I’d like.

More on the ships though: Malik doesn’t directly interact with Yuugi or Ryou much in canon, but both ships seem to have the ability to be about softness and healing to me. Since Ryou and Malik have both experiences a violent and upsetting possession of sorts, them coming to move past that together has the potential to be pretty sweet. And since Malik has a kind of troubled relationship with ‘the Pharaoh’, and how he feels his life has been shaped by these ancient politics, I think Yuugi’s kind of in a unique place to be able to understand both the past and Atem’s journey and his ownplace in the present to be able to help Malik contextualise that in a waythat’s meaningful to him.

And Malik & Shizuka is a nice ship if what you’re going for is exploring Shizuka’s massivedisillusionment. Leaving aside the way that a nice trip to visit yourestranged brother suddenly turned upsettingly full of ugly complicated feelings and murder, I think Malik tends towards a frankness that doesn’t sit well with Shizuka's ideals. This is a fun ship~

My non-romantic OTP for this character:

Ishtar Siblings!!! Malik’s relationship with Rishid is at once so lovely and so heartbreakingly upsetting. I think they struggle to find the balance between how they see each other as siblings and how they see each other in this hierarchy of master and subordinate – the way they come through for each other at the end of the story is just so touching. And Malik and Isis aren’t as close, but I like that their conflicting values, and understanding of their responsibilities, don’t compromise their love and the desire to protect one another. Ishtar Siblings!!!

I also like Malik & Yuugi & Ryou as a BrOTP. And I have a strange interest in Malik & Jou broing out or coming to realise they can’t bro out because he murdered you and tortured your best lady friend postcanon.

My unpopular opinion about this character:

I’m not really sure what constitutes an unpopular opinion regarding Malik, but I have several that might count.

(1) The Millennium Rod only exacerbated problems hewas already having due to the effects of trauma and a shaky headspace. YamiMalik is the product of Dissociative Identity Disorder in relationship to Borderline Personality Disorder, and exists in a reactionary way to Malik rather than being a distinct person.

(2)  He’s about as culturally Egyptian as your standard Amish person can be considered culturally American. (Or, idk, I think the Hutterites are a more apt comparison in a number of ways, if I’m sticking to offshoots of Christianity. More research on different religions is needed but, in terms of daily living, you can take all sorts of cues about the tombkeepers from different isolationist religious “cults”.)

(3) He’s a deadly serious character really –cerebral and ponderous. His sense of humour is along the lines of dry andsarcastic, rather than laugh-out-loud.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:

I ALSO WISH THE ISHTARS HAD BEEN IN DSOD THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!

I think it would have made sense to mention them in relationship to what Seto was doing in Egypt at the very least. Seto was rooting around in Ancient Egyptian ruins that the tombkeepers had the right too, yeah? I feel like it might’ve been an interesting political/business deal he struck with the Ishtars. Maybe Isis needed money to help in the process of reintegrating the tombkeepers into above-ground society? I don’t know, but I feel like there’s a story there~

Also, it might be obvious from some of these other headcanons, but I wish the conclusion to Malik’s story had been more on the side of ‘the hate you’re feeling is valid if completely toxic’, which is why I like the idea of Yami Malik running amok in his head postcanon, even though I think the manga leaned heavily towards a canon interpretation where he was freed of Him.

my OTP:

Malik/Ryou edges out Malik/Yuugi by a little, but not by much.

my happy ending for them:

Not part of this meme, but you made me realise I wanted to write it all down~

Given my incredibly depressing diagnosis for Malik, I think managing his life will always be somewhat of a struggle. Yami Malik is probably here to stay. Malik will likely always have outbursts, and always have a cruel and violent streak. At his worst, the most I can say is that he and the people around him will be aware of the warning signs and be able to restrain him ahead of time instead of having to do so in the middle of an episode. At his best, I think Yami Malik might appear once every month or two, and just kind of storm around the house/apartment being sullen. I don’t think Yami Malik has the same kind of emotional range or needs as one would expect a completehuman to have – so he doesn’t need much more than to be acknowledged by the others and then left to his own devices. I don’t think he likes being touched, but he may someday accept a hug from Ryou or Yuugi or Isis and take a small comfort in the fact that he isn’t hated. Rishid is a lost cause, and will have to stay away during those times, because Yami Malik will without question react violently to him. I think, in a way, a direct reflection of Malik’s own desires– for his hatred and pain to be acknowledge and accepted by those around him, by all except Rishid, who Malik would most keenly like to be less hateful person for. Malik does not want Rishid to see Yami Malik, and so Yami Malik pushes Rishid away with a lot of force… potentially lethal force.

In terms of the more mundane things, I imagine Malik goes through a period where he wants to travel everywhere and see everything to kind of make up for the fact that he was confined to a dark hall his entire childhood. I think he’ll travel Africa and Europe and see more of Japan at thevery least, but who knows where his travels might take him~ But eventually Iimagine him settling down somewhere, since I don’t think his affinity fortravel is about travelling as much as its about taking in the world’s breadth.As long as he can enjoy bike rides and the wind and open sky and the company of those he likes, I think he’s fine being anywhere. He and Rishid are veryride-or-die so they’ll definitely stick together, I think. Him and Isis is moreiffy, but I’d like to see Isis and him also remain close and live close together.

In terms of a job, he’s really not into forty hour work weeks, lol. He wasn’t raised under the expectation he’d be part of a contemporary work force. And he’d additionally have trouble balancing that amount of stress with his mental healths. He’d take odd jobs here and there, or work part time in something pretty low pressure. Depending on how lucrative the limited amount of work he does is, he may or may not need to rely on his siblings or lover for support. In terms of what he does…? Tinker around a souvenir shop maybe? Or he runs errands for or does translations for the museum, through his connection with Isis?

And I don’t think he’d want kids, or make a verygood parent for that matter. He’s satisfied with being the weird uncle to his nieces and nephews.

my cross over ship:

I don’t have one, sorry~

a headcanon fact:

Hasn’t everything I’ve said thus far been me taking my own headcanons way too seriously?

Coptic, Arabic, French, Japanese. Rishid is the same, except he’s not as fluent in the last two, and also not as well studied in Ancient Egyptian scriptures. Isis is the only one of the Ishtar siblings that speaks English.

Oh, jeez, he is pretty much universally hated by his tombkeeper peers. Even when he was little he was a divisive character with how harsh and cruel he can be at times. And then he was shadily involved in the bloody murder of his father. When he left to form the Rare Hunters with Rishid, he bitterly alienated most of his extended tombkeeper family, but some of them followed him to join his crime syndicate. And then those who had followed him took poorly to the way Malik abandoned the Rare Hunters, and followed Isis back home with his tail between his legs. Literally everybody he grew up with except his siblings hates him and Malik spends the time from Battle City to the Ceremonial Duel hiding out in his room having Rishid bring him his meals because the tomb keepers are done with him and he’s done with them. And he’s technically their ‘leader’, but Isis made a bid for being de facto leader when he skipped out years earlier and, disappointed but resigned, she continues to carry the position when Malik’s returned. “She’s a great leader (even though she’s a woman),” everyone says. They all love her, lol.Rishid is more polarising, since he’s generally so mild and polite. Some of the tombkeepers see what he did as betrayal, but a lot of them view him with a sort of condescending pity and kindness - poor boy, led astray by his association with Master Malik. This makes Malik even more angry. ‘We are brothers and equals!!’ he yells. Even though he isn’t completely free of blame when it comes to treating Rishid as lesser.

Also, it’s totally canon that somewhere along the line he makes some big fuss and his criminal record from being involved with the Rare Hunters gets dragged out of the closet, and the Egyptian Government tells him to gtfo of our country… right?

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Family

Based off my post/theory that the reason why Yuzu isn’t in standard is because Ray is alive in the new world. 

 Akaba family centric from Ray and then Reiji’s pov 

 "You know the Miami Championship is coming up soon….“ 

 The man lets out a tired laugh, “And why are you concerned about it?”

 Ray frowns in response, “C'mon dad, don’t you want to see Reiji in action? This is the first time that he gets to duel with his pro title!" 

 "Which we can watch in HD in our hotel room,” Leo replies to his daughter. “Do you really want to put a hold on our trip to go back to Miami so we can watch duels that we know Reiji is going to win?" 

 "Yes!” Ray exclaims. With Ray’s pro-dueling career going world-wide and Leo wanting to expand his company even further, the two decided to take a father-daughter trip around the world, leaving Reiji and Himika back in Japan. “My next match isn’t for weeks, and doesn’t Himika have a huge meeting coming up? You can help her prepare. Pleassssse daddy.”

Leo is silent for a moment before he lets out a sigh, “You think after all these years that trick would stop working on me….” He turns to meet his daughter’s eyes and smiles, “Fine, we can go back to Miami City.”

Ray’s face breaks into a smile and she runs over to hug her father. “Thank you, daddy! This means so much too me.” She grabs her duel disk from her pocket and begins to dial, “I’ll call Himika and Reiji right now so they know we’re coming home.”

The elder Akaba stands up and proceeds to walk to the door, “Then I’m going to take a shower, if Himika sees that I’ve been letting work get the better of me I’ll never hear the end of it.” Before the door shuts behind him Leo says, “Make sure Reiji isn’t over working himself! He has a problem of knowing when to stop!”

“Gee, I wonder where he gets it from?” Ray calls back. Ray waits while the phone rings and after a few moments she’s sent to one of Himika’s assistants. The assistant states the her step-mother is in a meeting at the moment but will be out in a few minutes. Ray agrees to wait.

The pro-duelist starts to kick her legs back and forth and hums a song she heard on the radio. After few moments Ray lets out a yawn making her realize how tired she actually is. For the past few weeks Ray has been having strange dreams and it’s gotten to the point to where Ray opts not to sleep at night. She rubs her eyes and she ponders the strange dreams.

She dreams of a school on an island and no matter how hard she tries, she can never escape it.

She dreams of living on very little money and with said little money she works on building a motorcycle, or something akin to one.

She dreams of a boy who acts like an older brother and he protects her - even when the city they live in gets attacked.

She dreams of another family. One that consists three young children, a father, a mother sometimes, for some reason a samurai, and a beautiful smile.

But none of that makes sense.

Since she was little, Ray has been a free spirit and does as she pleases. She’s never been trapped anywhere let alone on an island.

Despite being an Akaba, Ray did not inherit her father’s genius, at least his mechanical brains. There was even a time where she nearly burnt down her father’s laboratory, there’s no way she can build a motorcycle.

Having a big brother? Impossible, she’s the big sister who would go the ends of the earth if it meant keeping Reiji safe. Her city being destroyed? Also not true, Miami City is in an economic climb due to the Leo Corporation.

Then….having a different family? Sure after her own mother died Leo hit a rough patch, but then he met Himika and they fell in love and had Reiji. The four of them are a family, and Ray loves them to death and would do anything for them. 

Hopefully going home will get rid of these odd dreams.

Sometimes Ray also has nightmares about a terrible dragon that destroyed everything in its path. She does her best to forget those. 

“Hello, Ray?” Himika’s voice comes through Ray’s duel disk.

Ray shakes her head and grabs her disk and put in front of her so she can see Himika and she smiles, “Hey Himika. How are things back at home?”

“Well with the tournament coming up soon both Reiji and I have been swamped with work,” Himika replies. “But don’t worry I always have time for you sweetheart. I even managed to watch your last duel live, you did spectacular Ray.”

The eldest Akaba sibling laughs, “Thanks, Himika. And actually there was something I wanted to talk to you about.”

“Oh? What is it?”

“Dad and I have decided to come back to Maimi City for the tournament!” 

Himika immediately brightens up at that, “That’s wonderful! I can’t for you two to come back,, Reiji and I have a surprise for the both of you.”

Ray raises her brow, “Really, what is it?”

“You’ll have to wait until you get back. It’ll be better if you saw the surprise in person.”

“Fine,” Ray sighs. “Is Reiji around I want to tell him his beloved older sister is coming back.”

The pass few weeks haven’t been the best for Reiji. At first he thought it was because of his father and sister leaving and leaving him to help his mother keep the Leo Corporation together. However that’s not the case, in fact Reiji excels in running Leo Corporation. It’s as if he has ran it before, but that’s not possible because his father and mother have been running the company for as long as he can remember.

Then Reiji’s old friend, Yuya Sakaki, recently pioneered a new summoning method: Pendulum Summoning. Reiji’s happy for Yuya, especially since it’ll help the You-Show school bring in students. But….Reiji can’t help but feel like he’s seen Pendulum before. Which doesn’t make sense because Yuya just discovered it.  

Finally the oddest thing…..

“Reiji sir, your sister is on the phone for you.”

….Ray.

“I’ll be there in a minute, please tell her not to get antsy.” Reiji says to his attendant.  

“Yes, sir.” And then the man is off.

Reiji loves his sister. He knows that much, but lately something’s been off about their relationship and Ray herself.

He has memories of Ray picking him up from his private lessons. He has memories of Ray helping him build his deck and being at countless of his duels. He has memories of Ray giving him piggyback rides. He has memories of Ray coming to get him at his desk after he crashed and then putting him to bed.

Yet as of late, he doesn’t feel any emotions toward those memories. He remembers feeling happy when he used to reminisce those memories and swelling with pride at the fact that Ray is his sister, but now those feelings have nearly faded. He loves Ray because he knows that he’s suppose to and because Ray is an amazing person overall.

But he doesn’t love her as much he should. Like family should.

 When Reiji arrives to his office Ray is already on the big screen, smiling. “Hey little bro, how you’ve been?”

Reiji sits down and pushes his glasses up, “Everything has been running smoothly since you and father left.”

Ray frowns, “You don’t have to be so uptight you know. Is there something bugging you Reiji?”

“No sister,” Reiji replies, but then after a moment he remembers how the two promised to never keep secrets from each other. The memory feels obsolete but Reiji still holds onto it, “Actually…..these passed few weeks have been…odd.”

“You too, uh?” Reiji looks up at that and sees the crestfallen face of his sister. “I’ve been having these weird dreams for awhile now, but I hope coming home will help fix that.” 

“Coming home?”

Ray nods, “Yup, that’s why I’m calling in the first place! Dad and I are coming back to Miami City for the Championship. I can’t wait to see you in action! Maybe the two of us can squeeze in a duel. I’m sure having Akaba versus Akaba will bring in a lot of people.”

Reiji feels a smirk appear on his face, “That means I finally get to knock you down a peg or two.”

“Don’t get cocky Reiji,” Ray replies with a smirk of her own, “just because you’re a pro now too doesn’t mean you can beat me yet.”

The word ‘yet’ took Reiji by surprise. Does Ray expect for him to become a better duelist than her? Even now when she’s regarded as one of the top duelist in the world?

“It’s getting late here,” Ray’s voice brings Reiji out his train of thought. “I better get going.”

Reiji nods, “Understood. It was nice talking to you sister.”

“Alright, I’ll get going now….Reiji, I love you.”

A pause.

And then, “I love you too, Ray.”

Reiji retires from his work much later than he should have, but he needed something to distract him from his thoughts. Everything in his life feels wrong lately and he doesn’t understand why. He has a loving mother and father, has an amazing friend in Yuya Sakaki, he’s regard as one of the greatest duelists of his generation, and has the greatest sibling-

Then Reiji hears cries coming from down the hall.

He sprints to the room where the sound is coming from and sees a figure squirming around in the crib.

Reira.

Reiji’s new little brother.

It was only few day’s ago when the baby boy suddenly appeared at the doorstep of the Leo Corporation. At first Himika intended to send the baby to a foster home or an orphanage, but the moment Reiji saw the baby’s blue eyes and puff of purple hair the name slipped out his mouth:

“Reira.”

And since that moment Reira has become apart of the Akaba family.

Reiji grabs one of the little boy’s hands and just like that baby Reira has stopped crying. Reiji thinks nothing of it, Reira probably just wants attention, but he squeezes Reira’s hand a bit harder.

“I’ll keep you safe Reira. As your older brother I promise you that.”

Sorry if Reiji is ooc idk how to write him just pretend his different upbringing changed him a bit.

I’m curious to see for 141 if Standard will have other summoning methods and Yuya will still have Pendulum since the bracelets pressed the reset button on the dimensions. Also hoping to see Ray at last time….

Reiji and Yuya are friends because if Leo never left and went cra-cra then I assume him and Yusho would have stayed friends. Thus Reiji and Yuya are bros.