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All of the Fails have swallowed a clock at some point in their lives. This causes them to wake up at the same time every day. Unfortunately, none of them were set to the same time, so Marietta had to make a schedule to keep track of when the kids wake up.
#jenny june actually swallowed too much river water and the clock broke#so she set up a rube goldberg machine to splash a bucket of water on her every morning#unfortunately she also goes to bed soaking wet so she just sleeps through it half of the time#then the bucket smacks her in the face and she finally wakes up#yeah i know i haven't posted in a while#i need to learn my 188 lines and also have a job#so yeah I've been busy#new fic is slowly making progress#but in the meantime does anyone want the fail floorplan#i made it a while ago but i never posted it#but i have been using it as a reference for my fic#so if anyone wants it. say something and I'll post it#wow I'm really a yapper aren't i#fail family#failure: a love story#Marietta fail#gerty fail#jenny june fail#nelly fail#john n fail#autism#adhd
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woah truly nothing fucks you up like family
#so it's sunday and i have been calling and inviting people to my wedding...... and hooo boy did i get some answers#my grandmother told me she doesn't know who i am and hung up on me :)#(we haven't been in touch a lot due to some family conflict that i had no part of because i was a child when something happened - i still#dont know what but something clearly did - so i was expecting maybe a cold No Thank You or whatever but jesus fucking christ....#and it affected me more than i expected.... just wow.) also my godmother was very polite but cold i don't even expect her to come and#it was a truly awkward conversation but i survived.....#also my mom is having some kind of depressive episode or something so there is that#and i have pms and want to cry and sleep and throw up all the time actually now double because additional stress#uhhhhhhhh. FAMILY. anyway - this is and has been my diary since 2011 so where else am i to vent about stuff like this#personal
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might fuck around and go to sleep at 7pm
#long day lol#but the swelling on the side of my face has gone down significantly#so I am in less pain and also less embarrassed to be seen#and baby is ok!!! can’t believe it just sleeps and wakes independently of me. it has its own schedule. its own agenda#little being inside of me#my bff had her first prenatal and loved her doctor so I’m switching#to that doctor if I can get her or to that practice at least#she described the appt to me and it made me feel sooo much better like#oh my experience actually was unusually bad#and not just illustrative of what prenatal care looks like#wow well I’m all worn out from wringing myself out emotionally over the last 24-48 hours#high time to zzzzz
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#aaaand thats a 3rd doctor. a psychiatrist. who listened to me ans thought: mm sounds like bip0lar lol#me: wow its so easy to get diagnosed as bip0lar. thats bc u r exhibiting lots of depression and a limit amount of mood elevation. that's#like. thats what bip0lar is. she was like yea ppl with bip0lar 2 spend like 75% of time being depressed and a lil elevated mood... which#sounds like what u r describing. me:#...yeah. but again its complicated by the 0cd and spectrum issues. but she independently brought up 4dhd. just when i was like no its all#0cd. here we r again. stuck back in the messy overlap. but whatever i got proscribed bip0lar medicine. lam1ctal. we'll see#bc everyone i talk to is like. we need to control the mood 1st. like so u dont die. and im like hm yeah good call lol#she seems super cool tho. like i would love to just talk to her. ugh. she wants to get a handle on the mood and then maybe add a stimulant#bc shes had it happen in thr past where someone comes in with debiltating 0cd and got treated with lam1ctol and a stimulant and the#obsessive rumination stopped. so well see. idk if ill actually qualify as 4dhd enough. well see. fingers crossed#my mood is a lil elevated rn so its all fun. well see if we tip off a cliff bc im getting less sleep and go go going#unrelated#ugh im scared to start the medine tho bc the ssri i got proscribed fucked me up so much. which is also an indicator of bip0lar#god dammit. if this works im gonna have to actually accept the idea of being bip0lar. i mean. it makes sense being on that spectrum#is just sounds insane and i was not expecting it despite my fucking obsession with understanding wtf my deal is#idk. whatever. doesnt matter
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sorry to ffxivlovepost always anyway Man the way the devs & game did so good in making an mc that is Basically a blank-slate for the players, and there's so many opportunities to make your oc However you like but. the game itself adds so much story and character to that blank-slate guy. amazing
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚#i think abt this a lot. and also a lot of other ffxiv stuff LMFAO#it's amazing ..... drk is a huge example of this i think#bcs it plays into the guilt and whatnot the wol feels and all that. spectacular#endwalker !!!!! shadowbringers!!! the way the game uses the concept of hope is just always so beautiful and fascinating to me#and yeah bunch of games may have like. mc you create & design but not always can you like. ehvejfhsjf idk how to explain LOL#it is 4 pm i woke up 2 hours ago but priorly woke at 7 am after havingn a rlly. weird sleep.#to which my twin told me 'i wont tell u what time it is' as we went to sleep so it def was Really late#bcs we were going thru re2 and she was also playing games on steam i've been telling her to play#(to which i got her fav characters right and knew fr how'd she'd like the game LMFAO. twins amiright.)#actually that is also smth so fascinating to me bcs. i always have had someone w me in my life. i am literally never alone.#to which what i'm getting at here is Wow... it's like having a sleepover every single day. and i was a kid always sad never to have#sleepovers bcs my parents were strict (they r cool tho!) but i was a kid who wanted to experience all the kid things#but i didn't rlly but that's fine :P i am a grateful person LOL anyway back on track back on black#ffxiv... the game that u are.....#it's the 1st game that rlly actually made me invested in the ocs of others and also make a fully fledged oc that wasn't just originally mine#but for a fandom or something. and also it got me back into writing and Into making poetry and prose so. yeah.#it's amazing how much. oc x canon ???? yeah. ffxiv is so Wow#like eveyrhhting w themis or graha and how u can AAGGGHHH shit w your oc . so many possibilities#and that character. those possibilities. are already in game but also expanded by the player and the fanbade and#idk it's so beautiful to me WHAGHSGDJDH. and yes me saying themis or graha up there is self-indukgent bcs#both of them are so Insane it's so. insane!!!!! i will never forget what happened in abyssos in particular that Broke me#and anabaseios... :)) i cried so much it is almost embarrassing. and wow. asphodelos. wverything w themis just. yeah#anyway graha... self-explanatory if u know..... idk he's the character of all time to me. simply said. but themis is crazy bcs going thru ab#yssos made me think for a bit 'hey themis might be my fav character in ffxiv now' but No but also Wow. wow#kinda cute bcs me and my twin have a thing where she has a certain type of chara she likes and me too#so sometimes. most times. all times. we have our own characters we like anyway but sometimes they overlap but either the case we kinda#lowkey 'segregate???' idk if that is a good word but we do that w our fav characters. so like emet is her fav elidibus is mine.#and that was all the way in arrr alr and we barely knew spoilers so that's kinda crazy! anyway
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My beloveds!!
Singing to trees
I woke up thinking about this and had to draw it. And you know, i actually finished it!
Featuring Blaze/Firefly, the sun god, and Whisper, the wind god!
Transcript under the cut!
Blaze/"Firefly": Watcha doing, Whisp?
Whisper: Drizzle told me that the plants listen to us and that singing to them makes them grow better! And, you know.
Whisper: She's our goddess of life,
Whisper: So i kinda trust her.
Whisper: Want some mango, Firefly? I had milk this morning.
Blaze/"Firefly": Yeah!
#i had to use ray and myself as refs for most of the poses here#i had to hunt for so long for the hand refs tho#i hate hands#anyway! i love this piece and it lives in my heart#blaze oc#whisper oc#um also#drizzle mentioned. shes the goddess of rain and life and spring#a real sweetheart#my art#thera's art#brazilian artist#traditional art#mango and milk mentioned wow!!! brazilian culture on non-suspecting folks#anyway i love these two and i could rant about them for hours#*the ocs. not milk and mango#might reblog this to the weather gods askblog later#anyway it's 1 am im gonna sleep#(after i get my extensive skin care routine done [it's not actually that extensive ignore me])#anyway THANKS BAIIII
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I am really mad at how deep are betrayal wounds specifically. Just been angry at A again. Granted it is the only one of the three (four?) that made it their fandom mission to harm me for whom I still haven't made up a funny nickname, because it just cuts TOO far. Like stalking and harrassment are a joke compared with that shit.
Though she IS a meme template at this rate. Not only straight up saying "it's ok I'll pray for you to heal from what I did to you uwu" and "yeah I know I threw you to the wolves after having fed you lies about not blaming you but YOU are the bad one here for vagueblogging about me :/", but also "the way you blew up at me after I defended your stalker proves that you are a health hazard to depressed people with low self-esteem and never changed from your past broken state from years ago". Like I can't even get started on how straight up vile it is. She also had three chances given to fix the damage, only on third try there was at least some semblance of closure, and she blew it up by deciding to snoop on me after her mutual was an immature petulant asshole to me for no reason (obviously she was looking for vagueblogs).
I also still never understand why the fuck she is always so fake? Apparently at my first post past her mad stunt she was mad at me, but in her DMs she tried to twist it like feeling bad about that? And it took a confrontation months later to get the truth out of her, why? Also she could not take the L of being proven wrong about my stalker's innocence to the point she tried to lie to my friend that she "always knew actually" and that defending that person was "just a test" (I wish I made this shit up!!!). Like will she actually explode if she has to face having flaws, mistakes and negative feelings? This is what happens when you do not understand your own religion and think that you'll go to Hell for simply being a human, I guess. As someone coming from near-theocratic country: do not get into a religion JUST because it is a "patriotic" thing to do in your case! You need to GET it first! (Though what I am talking about regarding a person that wholeheartedly approved of 'casting the stones' mentality despite making being a devout Christian her trademark 🤦♂️)
The good part is that it's been months since the last time I felt angry and upset about that situation. If the time periods between these increase, it means this wound can heal, it just takes a very long time
#personal#/vent#I really tried to sleep but I just could not#though it was funny when she reblogged an ask meme from my friend and didn't get any asks for it#wow! it's almost like you've gathered a following that don't care about your opinions enough to-#-touch a post from a 'heretic'#I don't know whether I should count choir boy or not#like he was absolutely insane obsessively reblogging every single piece of dirt on me#something I mistook for him being genuinely hurt and scared unlike other three#but then he admitted on it being fully conscious#but then he ALSO felt bad when he blocked my friend to take the anger at ME out on her#(lol wtf)#and like yeah as dumb as 'well I didn't realize you guys were humans with feelings too'#it is better late than never#I just don't know whether he was honest or just wanted to prevent vagueblogs#again after A im skeptical about anything people from that group say#no shade if he actually decided to be better but again I can't verify or trust stuff anymore
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i made an oc thats at least nicknamed "Stupid" and im constantly thinking about what a power move that is tbh
#toy txt post#i miss it i should play w her more often but it was going to be for a dnd thing that ive all but abandonded bc i feel like#i cant. do that but it sucks bc i had some cool fun concepts and characters but it was hard enough back then when i was just insecure and#knew nothing about dnd and was intimidated by the mechanics but wanted to try dming for some reason but now i just straight up dont know#what to do but i really enjoy those characters. i should just unlock the secret channelsand scrap the dnd game idea for now and keep the#concepts and im sure i could come up w something if i ever actually learned anything about that shit#anyway. my point being. im obsessed w my character i made up and you should be too cos its good shit#toxic anarchist half dragon demigod with authority issues whos an alloaro clown named Stupid Cupid.#i think her pronouns were whatever but also it/she? when i say toxic i mean it did have a bit of a Clown Cult.#Cupid i think is possibly its given name and Stupid was her clown ass addition and yes i do know of the song and yes it is on its playlist#obsessed w all the stupid overpowered characters i made in that universe. they were such good concepts. gulliver obviously. charybdis#silas (cupids father + previous (now deceased) god of chaos)#cupids mother who i dont think i had a name for yet but she was supposed to be kind of a neutral lawful (in a rules lawyering way)#moon paladin who hatefucked the god of chaos after failing to kill him which she was trying to do out of devotion to the moon#and she supposed to have what i can only describe as chainsaw powers? and she destroyed every gun in existence and killed anyone who knew#how to make them until there were no guns left bc silas kept being annoying w guns and was trying to use them on the moon. for reasons#so she really pissed him off and impressed him before she finally got to him and tried to kill him. and if she was even a minor god instead#of a 'mortal' it wouldve worked and thats the only reason he didnt die from her. and then her child. stupid cupid the clown#grew up and had issues and started a clown cult and wandered around usurping warlords and dictators before putting her aim on silas#and trying to kill him. but failing not bc she was mortal but bc he outsmarted it. but he couldbt bring himself to kill it so he had her#put to sleep for a thousand yrs until someone else killed him(he pissed off a stupid seagull druid who lured him into the path of Charybdis#who he'd ALSO pissed off and Charybdis mega killed him and then the gull druid was made the new god of chaos just to have someone fill the#roll but then they kind of suck at it? they did not want that much responsibility altho the immortality is nice. when they took over they#released cupid whos a bit of a legend but then the vibes are super weird bc cupid Definitely wants to usurp and take on the mantle of#chaos deity and gulliver idolizes her but doesnt feel great about just handing that over to it? and cupid has to grapple with not being the#one to kill silas. almost everyone she knew is dead. her mom isnt. the world has changed a lot. she finds out her cult is still going and#gets excited? but they have Changed. it disgusts her now. they are not the radical clowns she intended. the vibes are weird. she denounces#that and tries out piracy. she manages to get the moon paladin living chainsaw power?#despite not being aligned w their ideology at all. wow nepotism. then it was going to spiral into some fucking meta galactic shit and have#well. ran out of tags. anyway i miss this character i should figure out what im doing w this universe cos theres no way im dming rn 🙃
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hello one more bitch for the road 😔✌🏾terf is not a synonym for transphobe. terf is an acronym. tme trans people can be terfs. next scheduled bitchfest is between me our heavenly father amen or to annoy you specifically ❤️
#girl what happened to just saying a person is transphobic… i promise your transphobic uncle tim is not a trans exclusionary radical feminist#evidence of life#i had coffe for the first time in god the almighty christ knows uwu teehee#coffee*#so i might be worse than usual 😔😔#like wow it is definitely affecting my body slay i guess the gap changed my tolerance?#anyways point is i have never been tipsy in my entire life i thought i’d be a light weight given my body type but like nope#that’s pretty weird to me because i’m fake straight edge [special occasions if they have what i like] and that’s been rare in the last bit#i haven’t had alcohol at all this year and i think the last time was once last summer at a backyard family friend party thingy#i’m not trying find out what tispy and drunk feels like though#so like huge gaps and it doesn’t do anything but this coffee which is more regular than alcohol (but that’s not saying much)#and baby i am feeling it like that is caffeine huh wow#ophelia over sharing on the internet cw oph won’t stfu cw hi :3 ->#i’m having it because i couldn’t take my anti psychotics that also help me sleep because i had a late night and an early morning#and i couldn’t risk sleeping in#not that i actually wake up at like 6 or 7 or even 5#fastest wake up time was in bed after 10pm woke up at exactly 12:36 am#the good thing is i feel significantly more rested and have more spoons than i before it and before it made the cycle consistent#well the whole cocktail works well together but shout out to her she’s my babygirl for real <3#also this just reminded me i didn’t take my morning meds its still morning it’s fine :3 i just should really get a regular take time for#morning like i do with the night ones it is all a critical science but night ones must be as consistent as possible or i face certain death#<- lie hyperbole#did i reread this [the tags] absolutely not <3#bitchfest presented by oleta ophelia
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Huffman was definitely the first person Kae'd ever slept with, and had to spend a great deal of time talking Huffman out of proposing bc the man wanted to 'take responsibility', send tweet-
#//Not on the other blog bc it a general hc#//ANYWAY#hc; kaeya#//It's bc of Kae's voiceline#//HIs Mika one; where he mentions both Mika AND Huffman take things WAY too seriously#//But also the fact that Huffman is basically canon Kae simp lol#//Bc if there's anybody Kae could rope into shit; it's Huffman#//And at the time; he'd used his pretty face to do ONE reckless thing of his own; with ONE person he'd have no qualms doing so#//Prolly bc Huffman was the only friend Kae had at the time that he COULD fuck without a mortifying slew of problems#//Still prolly panicked just as bad as Huffman over the whole ordeal; bc he had yet to enter his flouncing peacock era at the time#//Cried abt it to Addie & everything; she helped make sure he wouldn't deal with any lasting consequences. & gave him a Scolding; but STILL#//He later on looked back on his first time like 'Wow I was so fucken stupid; you'd think I'd gotten knocked up or smth-'#//Deffo likes sleeping with Huffman every chance he gets in present day#//For the stress relief; even if it's a stress in and of itself to keep convincing him that he does NOT need to 'take responsibility'#//Huffman was prolly also the only person whose marriage offer Kae has ever actually seriously considered; to this date#//Bc they were already friends; but also bc Kae Knew that Huffman would only ever have good intentions to him#//For a FACT#//Known the guy since his trainee days; ofc he'd trust him over any nobles or most other people that'd try to vie for Kae's hand#//But it's also precisely BC Huffman is such a good friend that Kae also would rather Not marry him#//He knows the man too well; he'd make for a good fuck; yeah; but partner??? With how he's raised Mika??? His habits????#//Nahhh#//And that's without mentioning Kae's OWN issues with marriage as it stands-#//Adding shit bc yes: Huffman is deffo the person Kae goes to when he starts getting antsy abt his looks#//Bc he knows Huffman would NEVER stop praising and complimenting him throughout#//Would deffo let the man fuck him through a dysphoric episode too; for the same reason#//Dude's too stupidly sincere; Kae finds it endearing and so very reassuring
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When Kaguya first wakes up, all the world bends to her will for one, glorious moment. The stars stand breathless, and humanity's collective breath hitches, and the waters of the planet curl towards her. For a fraction of a second, everything is as it should be.
It all falls apart rather quickly, of course. Humans are exactly as she remembers them- stubborn, haughty creatures. There are five of them still awake when Kaguya arrives. They fight and they fight and they fight, and it is pointless, of course, but it is still... irritating.
Well. Four of them fight. As Kaguya deflects a punch from a pink one and dodges a bolt of lighting from an Uchiha, the fifth human stands back, still enraptured by Kaguya.
Her face hangs- not slack, not unwilling- it is no forceful awe that overtakes the human. She gazes at Kaguya with adoration on purpose- she takes a slow step in the direction of the fight, eyes fixed on Kaguya, and-
She can use this.
"If you wish to join me," Kaguya says, her voice echoing over packed dirt and scorched sky. "You must be willing to fight my battles."
A small smirk graces the corner of the human's lips. "As you wish."
"What?" the other Uchiha says, whipping his head around to stare at the fifth human in disbelief. "Rin, no, she's trying to take over the world- she's going to kill everyone Rin, you won't achieve your dream like this!"
"Didn't you ever stop to wonder for one moment what my dream was?" Rin snarls, her red eye spinning into its Mangekyō form. "Obito, I may as well be in the genjutsu with everyone else right now. This is what I've always wanted."
Obito's singular sharingan narrows in either grief or anger- Kaguya doesn't have the chance to discern which it is before Rin leaps at him, water dancing at her fingertips. It aids her movements, flows with her hits, and as she dances in and out of reality she pulls the water within Obito's veins. He chokes, over and over and over, trying to fight two enemies at once, neither tangible, and Rin finishes the fight.
Kaguya kills two of the human children- the yellow one makes his escape before she can catch him.
"He'll be heading to Konoha," Rin tells her, stepping away from Obito's body. "If he can wake up the people there... it'd be annoying for you."
"Noted," Kaguya says. "We will peruse him immediately."
Rin looks up at her like she's the sun and the stars and the rest of the sky all wrapped up together. She looks at Kaguya like she's more than just an invader from the moon. She does not respect Kaguya because she fears her. She loves Kaguya because, for some ineffable reason, she chooses to.
Kaguya will use that.
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Rin looks beautiful when her hands are stained in blood.
The thought surprises Kaguya, for a split second, but she pushes the feeling down, because of course it is beautiful. The blood represents another step taken towards her goals. When she sees the glistening red coat Rin's fists, highlighting every vein and scar, her heart beats faster. Rin turns to Kaguya, thick muscle evident in the motion, and meets her eyes. The mismatched scarlet and brown-
Kaguya turns away, and to her horror, feels a slight blush creeping across her face. The blood is beautiful, and her conquest is beautiful, but... From the corner of her eye, she sees Rin's face crinkle happily, and she has a sudden urge to grab it.
"Are you done?" Kaguya says, doing her best to swallow the... sudden realizations she has made.
"He doesn't have any blood left to bleed," Rin says, grinning like a shark.
"Good," Kaguya says. "Good."
Rin rolls her shoulders, and then lets her sharingan fade back to its base state. Kaguya cannot help but record every detail of the half-shrug to her perfect memory. All of a sudden, she is as enraptured with Rin as Rin is with her. Well- not suddenly. The more Kaguya reflects over the past weeks she has spent with her, the more she realizes that this affection has been building for a very, very long time.
"...you love me," Kaguya says, just as Rin is turning to leave, to hunt down the next of the scant individuals who managed to escape the infinite tsukuyomi. Her voice does not echo over the land like it usually does. She cannot bare to let it. The moment is too intimate to be used for intimidation.
"I do," Rin says. Her eyes search Kaguya's face.
"And I believe that I have come to love you," Kaguya whispers.
"Well, of course," Rin says, like she knew this would happen from the very moment she laid eyes on Kaguya. "I am the moth to your moon."
"My moth..." Kaguya says.
Rin tenderly moves to her, embraces her, and their lips meet, and-
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Kaguya glances at her moth. Rin is holding her head high, eyes alight with the reflection of distant fire.
Rin stares and stares and stares, her eyes empty behind the carnage. Sometimes, Kaguya wonders if there is anything behind Rin's easy air of romance and violence.
All they have left is quiet moments together. The world has burned and bled, and she and her moth sit atop the ashes of it all, together.
In these quiet moments, Kaguya has come to appreciate how empty Rin is. She wears a mask of a moth, and Kaguya doesn't think she even knows who she is underneath the mask.
Oddly, Kaguya finds herself drawn to the Rin she has not seen. She wants to gently peel the masks off until she finds the wraith of Rin who doesn't pretend to be anyone. It's an odd feeling, but not more unfamiliar than any of the attraction Kaguya has been experiencing lately.
Rin turns to Kaguya, and something slides over her eyes, and her face sharpens into something hard and beautiful- like carved, painted wood, she smiles. That's beautiful, too, but there's something intrinsically wrong with it. Kaguya almost likes the blank stares better.
"Does something trouble you, my moon?" Rin asks softly.
The pet name sends shivers up Kaguya's spine. "...nothing that needs to be addressed now."
Rin raises an eyebrow, but Kaguya shakes her head gently. "We have all the time in the world, now. Let's just watch the fields burn, for now."
Rin relaxes, and the mask comes off, and Kaguya stares at every curve of her impassive face, her hooded eyes, and slightly parted lips, and burns it into her perfect memory.
#au of an au where rin and kaguya win and its just the two of them. forevvvver#in a world full of sleeping and then dead people. lol.#also i dont know what happens in boruto dont tell me. unless rin shows up. i need to be notified of my girls appearances.#as always kaguya pov of the kagurin pipeline goes#1- “haha wow this guys in love with me thats so weird. well whatever i'll just use her.”#2- “ohhh haha she's kind cute. messed up but in a hot way. ummmm maybe we should kiss a little about it.”#3- “wow i think i actually love her thats so weird. also i think there is something deeply wrong with her on a fundamental level.”#which is just. SO FUNNY. meanwhile rin is on a constant “well i love space adn she's from space so i must love her”#and then bases her undying loyalty on that. girl your unresolved childhood identity issues are showing#nohara rin#naruto shippuden#kagurin#tw violence#sorry its just the dynamic of kaguya murdering the entire world and then turning to rin and going “are you empty inside :C”#“how can i teach you to be a person. i want you to be happy like im happy.”#healing arc time boys!!!! dont worry about the corpses those are just. they're not the thing thats wrong#horrific! unrelated to 90% of rins issues#EVERYONE GIVE IT UP FOR INCREDIBLY EVIL YURI!!!!
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my PA for ajovy got denied (booo) but the reason it did was bc a neurologist needed to prescribe it which i already had an apt set up for and gad yesterday (yay!) and the appointment went really well and i like the provider a LOT of migraine management (YAY!!!) so now i am once again waiting for an ajovy PA to be approved lmao
#nervous abt needles but jax offered to help plus ajovy has auto injectors so we are going for it#but i really liked the provider she was good and very easy to talk to and stuff!! and am excited to work w her and try things#also got a referral to their sleep clinic bc my sleep is still Bad and also sleep is a big trigger for me#so im hopeful to see what i can figure out/learn from that#this is the year of blue getting health shit figured out lmak gonna get my tonsils removed etc etc lets Go#she also said i could be a candidate for botox if that seemed interesting but i like how like. open ended she was w things#like she gave me a lot of good info but also everything was my call#she also was good when looking at my mri and explained why she isnt concerned abt ms based on mri and symptoms#and in a way where i actually agree lol like. esp bc i get so anxious i can just latch on to something#but she took the time to answer my questions and explain and show what theyd see if it was ms vs my brain lesions from migraines#and Yeah! i was super stressed and like gad cleared my whole afternoon in case it was a bad time#but it wasnt! im v happy w my new neurologist!#wild to have TWO whole doctors on my care team who i like and trust???? as a fat person??? wow#(trust is w a grain of salt lol i dint entirely trust any doctor But)
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Her teams are here. Or.... Everyone that's left from them. It took a bit of explaining, that "no, just because someone doesn't look human in the slightest doesn't mean that they're a pokemon", but other than that, people have been settling in... Well... Of course they're homesick too. But alright, at least. And the gods and fans can't reach them here. No weather to send them up in flame. She actually knows that they're safe.
#//persephone misses her friends...#//(also wow she's actually sleeping)#//(I am so sorry that it took me this long to get to this it happens because she just Doesn't Sleep. simply chooses not to)
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so uh. i tried to redraw the i love you preview mappi and my cat ended up liking it?? so much?? like once i left it on my bed he was like "?? is this for me"
#HE LITERALLY STARTED PURRING ONCE HE SAW IT 😭😭#like. wow. okay i didn't know that there's actually two mahiru simps in this family#(also yeah i kinda went overboard with how shabby and disheveled mahiru looks.. like girl you didn't have to add so much blood)#(YOU'VE ACTUALLY ADDED EVEN MORE SCRATCHES LIKE SHE HAD NONE ON HER NECK LINA WHAT HAVE YOU DONE)#(sorry mappi ily i swear)#anyway back to my cat. he's still sleeping on it. i think i should just leave him alone.#lina talks about stuff
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so ive accidentally stayed up WAY TOO FUCKIN LATE w my ethiopian KING - i went to take pics for this class & baked & we ran into each other on the stairwell & then we went to his place to drop his bags & for ciggys (where we grabbed LI & GOT HIM TO SMOKE TOO before he went upstairs again) & the 2 of us sent on a walk so i could take pics for this one clase & boy howdy did i learn SO much, also btw ethiopia is currently, still, in a civil war
#stream#hes absolutely fascinating like girl we both chat SO much & hes also on topic bc i derail SO fucking much & then we’ll go on tangent then#subtangetn then he’ll get us back to what we were talking abt but i literally Cannot Do That im juts like oh um… what we were taling abt#anyway#yea its 3am & i need to be up at 10am#ALSO i had tea w the chinese flatmates bc i saw arthur & i got to learn so much & also yen je explained different parts of chinese grammar#etc & it turns out that he is INTERESTED IN LEARNIGN SPANISH SO WERK IM GOING TO HELP & ALSO I MET THE OTHER FLATMATE TODAY TOO#girl ive been playing the sims w myself i’ll be talking to someone then do the little like person+ (green bar) like frendshop increased#persuasion increase d#so albert(o) is from mexico city bc i also was like is ur name albert ? sick um yea is it like actually alberto just curious xx so hes#alberto now#& arthur told me his real mame but i forgot bc literally im still running on the 4hrs sleep i got last night like yall i was like wow i#pigged out last night haha - literally bc i ate an entire bag of baby carrots - so i thought im not hungry ? no girl ur colon just full so i#just havent eaten bc then i was going to after my irst class today but i saw the chinese & harassed them until it was like 15mins until i#had to haul ass to get to the japanese class & girl … i know i was such a bitch i was losing my mind it was 2hrs & she was like ‘we will#only use an hour !’ BUT NO WE USED THE WHOLE HOUR I NEED THESE WEEABOO AS MFS TO SLOW DOWN#i FULLY dont know what im doing & these bitches r soeaking sentences & also 1 guy was arguing w the professor like girl .. shes literally#japanese ur going to have to take this L like ur british thru & thru baby#so anyway#im going to go make french fries in the baking sheet that might give me cancer#ive also never used a baking sheet to make french fries im sry i just dont get to eat these in the states bc i love hating myself ?#ive been eating so much mayo i love peri peri omg … kewpie mayo …… im squatting
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#not often i post smth and not five minutes later go wow !!! i shouldn’t have posted that that’s so awful LMAO#clearly i need to sleep but i’m also like. man. do ppl actually post things and not hate them within seventeen seconds or#personal#goodnight this time with feeling i mean it#<- oops i lied one more thing i hope this isn’t like. idk begging for pity i’m just like. i post shit and i’m like wow thank god that’s over#pride in effort who is she#but in other news my dog rubbed his nose on my arm which was the cutest shit in all the world so i shall focus on him now
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